by Violet Duke
The diamond at the center wasnât as big as some of the others, but it was surrounded by clusters of smaller diamonds that made the entire ring look like a flower, but in an elegant way, nothing cheap-looking about it at all. It reminded him of Maddie and the flowers she liked to wear in her hair. Maddie was always whipping up a crown of daises or wild roses to pin into her curls. She said, that on the island where she used to live, she and her friends would wear flowers in their hair to bring good luck.
Jamison figured luck was never a bad thing, especially when it came to a marriage. He felt like he and Maddie were meant to be, but his mom had died when he was too young to remember her and his dad together, and his aunt and uncle treated their marriage more like something to be survived than enjoyed. Growing up, Jamison hadnât had the chance to observe a lot of healthy marriages up close. He wasnât sure heâd always know what to do to make Maddie happy starting out, but he knew he loved her like nothing else in the world.
Hopefully that, and some luck, would be all theyâd need.
âYou look like a man whoâs made up his mind.â The mustached man behind the counterâRobert, according to his tiny gold nametagâeased over to the engagement ring section. âWhich one can I get out for you?â
Jamison smiled and pointed to the ring. âThat one.â
âLovely.â Robert unlocked the case and slid the ring off the red velvet finger it had been displayed on, placing it in the palm of Jamisonâs hand. âIâve always thought that looks like a ring for a girl with a ready smile.â
Jamison nodded. âSheâs got a beautiful one.â He held the ring up to the light, turning it from side to side, liking it even more now that heâd seen it from all anglesâand seen the tiny white tag that assured him it would scoot in within his budget.
He set it back down on the glass with a sigh, excitement and nerves making his heart beat faster as he said, âIâll take it.â
Robert gave a sharp nod, as if he enthusiastically approved. âPerfect. Shall we have it sized?â
Jamison shook his head. âNo, thatâs okay. Iâm not sure about her ring size, and Iâd rather take it with me today.â
The man smiled, sending his moustache curving at the ends. âSometimes coming back in to get the ring sized later is best. That way you can both start browsing for wedding rings. Weâve got a lovely diamond studded ring thatâs made to fit beneath the curves of this ring. Really beautiful on the hand.â
Jamison nodded, silently thinking that a hunk of tin would look beautiful on Maddieâs hand as long as it meant that she had agreed to be his wife.
âIâll get this cleaned and boxed,â Robert continued. âAnd weâll have you ready to go in a few minutes. Do you have a credit card youâd like to use?â
Jamison plunked down his credit card, and while Robert busied himself getting the ring ready to go he wandered further down the engagement ring section, wondering which ring Mick had picked out for Faith. Knowing Faith as well as Jamison did, he hoped it was something simple that wouldnât stick up too high or get in her way. Faith wasnât a fan of things getting in her way.
But then, Jamison hadnât thought Faith would be a fan of having her boyfriend move in with her mere weeks after theyâd started dating, either. Love changed people in amazing ways, something Jamison could testify to first hand. A month ago he couldnât have imagined spending thousands of dollars on anything except having the interior of his Mustang redone, now he was considering trading in the Mustang for something bigger and more family friendly. He didnât want to drive his new baby around in a convertible, after all.
A baby. A baby heâd have with Maddie. Maddie, who was going to be his wife. His thoughts were a song he kept playing again and again, a melody that got sweeter every time he heard it.
A few minutes later, he had signed away a sizeable chunk of his savings and stepped out into the sun, feeling certain this would be a day he would never forget.
Later, when he was waiting in the Emergency Room all alone, wondering how in the hell his life could have gone to shit so completely in such a short amount of time, he would look back on the ignorant, hopeful Jamison of the afternoon and wish he could punch the fool in the face.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
HE HAD ALREADY passed the shiny vintage blue Oldsmobile parked down the street from the firehouse when his neck began to prickle, the tiny hairs rising, sending out an alarm Jamison couldnât understand but knew had something to do with that Oldsmobile. The car was familiar for some reason, and the reason wasnât a good one.
His firing synapses had just started to connect the dots when Art Scully stepped out the front door of the firehouse and started across the grass toward him.
Charged across the grass is more like it. Jamison barely had time to drop the jewelry bag and lift his fists before Art was on him. Jamison blocked the first punch and the second, but the third connected with his cheek hard enough to send him spinning and agony blooming through his jaw.
He recovered quickly and turned back to his old boss, fists raised to block his face and spine curled to protect his stomach, but he didnât try to fight back. He knew why Art was here, why he was throwing punches, and Jamison knew he deserved the beating his one-time friend had come to deliver.
âYou should answer the phone, you piece of shit,â Art said, panting hard as he swung at Jamison again, the punch connecting inches above where the first had landed.
Jamison felt the skin above his cheekbone burst and fought the urge to cry out.
Art wasnât a regular at the gymâhis old boss did the bare minimum when it came to fitness, insisting heâd been at the job too long to need to look like something from a hose bunny calendarâbut he was a big man. At six foot three, Art had a good four inches and fifty pounds on Jamison. If Jamison were to fight back, the difference in size would be made up by Jamisonâs muscle, but he wasnât about to throw a punch at Art, not after everything heâd already done to the man.
Another punch connected then another, sending Jamison stumbling across the grass with a groan.
âYou lousy, lying, piece of shit.â Art was gasping for breath now, gasping and snuffling, little choking sounds emerging from his throat as he barreled after Jamison, shoving him to the ground.
Jamison hit the grass and looked up, his self-loathing hitting a new high when he saw the tears on Artâs face. Heâd never seen his old chief lose his cool. Art was the type who always had his head firmly on his shoulders, the kind the younger men at the department in Atlanta had looked to as a pillar of strength in times of trouble.
But now, Art was anything but cool and looked older than Jamison had ever seen him.
Art was sixteen years older than Wendyâtheyâd married when Wendy was twenty and Art thirty-six. Wendy said she hadnât felt the age difference then, but sixteen years laterâwhen she was thirty and Art forty-sixâthings began to change. Wendy was a fresh-faced blonde with a turned up nose and freckles, the kind who never seemed to age. As the years passed, sheâd begun to look more than sixteen years younger than Art, and was often mistaken for his daughter when they were out together.
It got to her. Sheâd started wondering what it would be like to be with someone her own age and flirting with Jamison not long after.
Jamison hadnât been as close with Art as he was with some of the other guys at his old department, but heâd respected his boss. Heâd done his best to ignore Wendyâs flirtation at first, but as time passed, he couldnât deny that he was drawn to her in a way heâd never experienced before. Wendy wasnât simply beautiful, she was funny and sweet and impulsive and, of course, forbidden.
That had played a part. Jamison could admit that to himself now, that the rush of sneaking around behind Artâs back and plotting how
and when he and Wendy were going to run away together had heightened his emotions, making it easier to justify what he was doing, to call it love and believe he and Wendy had no choice but to betray Art in order to be together.
Theyâd planned to move back to Summerville and eventually get married, but the day after Jamisonâs going away party at his old station, heâd returned to his apartment to pack up a few last minute things to find a note from Wendy.
Sheâd decided to stay with Art and make things work. She said she couldnât see throwing away almost eleven years of marriage on something she knew wouldnât last the year. Jamison had been devastated, certain heâd never care about anyone the way heâd cared about Wendy and crushed that she hadnât felt the same way.
But that had been before Maddie taught him what love really felt like and made him realize what a monumental asshole heâd been.
Before, he wouldnât have understood why Art was crying while delivering his beating. Now, he knew. He knew that Art loved Wendy the way Jamison loved Maddie. But Artâs love had been growing for over a decade, until it took up so much of his heart there wasnât much left after it had been ripped away.
Jamison wasnât sure how Art had found out about the affair, but he was shamed to his core for his part in breaking the manâs heart and prepared to let Art beat him unconscious before heâd lift a finger to stop him.
Fortunatelyâor unfortunately, Jamison couldnât decide whether he was glad to be rescued or notâJake and Brandon rushed up behind Art a moment later, grabbing him by the elbows and pulling him away seconds before the bigger manâs boot got a second shot in at Jamisonâs stomach.
âSettle down!â Jake wrapped one thick arm around Artâs chest, holding tight when Art tried to lunge for Jamison again. âI understand where youâre coming from, but getting arrested isnât going to make anything better,â he said, making Jamisonâs gut clench as he realized Art must have already told Jake about the affair.
Jamison struggled off the ground, swiping at the blood dripping in his eye from a cut on his eyebrow. âIâm sorry,â he said, voice sounding as bruised as his guts felt from the kick that had connected with his midsection before Art was pulled away.
âFuck you,â Art said with a mighty sniff, obviously trying to pull himself together, though his voice was still shaky. âI canât believe I ever called you a brother. I canât believe I was sad to see your sorry ass leave.â
âIâm sorry,â Jamison repeated, chest tightening as he looked up, seeing Jake staring at him with a disgusted look of disbelief not much different than Artâs.
Even BrandonâBrandon the newbie who had a bad case of hero worship when it came to both the Hansen brothersâwas looking at Jamison like he was something unwelcome that had crawled out from beneath the fridge in the break room.
âI screwed up,â Jamison said, searching for the right words, though he doubted any could make this better. âI screwed up bad, and if I could go back and undo it I would, Art. I swear I would. I never meant to hurt you. I thought I loved her, I thoughtââ
âShut up,â Art said, wincing as if the words were painful. âJustâ¦shut up.â He took a breath, his shoulders sagging as the fight went out of him.
After a moment, Jake loosened his grip, pulling his arms away to rest a gentle hand on Artâs back. âCan I do anything for you?â he asked the older man.
Art shook his head sadly from side to side, his gaze still on the grass at his feet. âNo. Iâm just going to go home andâ¦get on with it.â
âWell, if you change your mind,â Jake said, âgive me a call. I canât discipline him for something like this, but you can be sure life wonât be pleasant around here for him for a while.â
Jamisonâs throat pulled so tight that for a moment he felt like he was going to choke on the blood running down from his busted nose. He and Maddie had been trying so hard not to make waves so close to the wedding, and now Jamison had ruined everything, driving a wedge between him and his brother only days before Jake was scheduled to say his âI doâs.â
Jamison watched with a sinking feeling in his gut as Jake helped Art to his car, certain this day couldnât get any worse until he glanced across the street to see Maddie staring at him from the sidewalk outside the bakery.
Faith stood next to her, her expression a miserable mix of sadness, anger, and disbelief. Jamison could tell Faith was conflicted about what to feel, but Maddie was easier to read. The moment their eyes met, he knew sheâd heard what heâd done, and that the knowledge was killing her, cutting right into the heart Jamison had promised himself to protect.
She shook her head, just once, before turning and hurrying back into the bakery, but that simple gesture was enough for Jamison to know it was over. There would be no proposal, no baby, no future for him and the woman he loved. Heâd lost her. Heâd fucked it up, and there was no going back. He might as well return the ring right now.
No, a voice deep within him cried out as he scooped the jewelry bag off the ground, wincing as something bruised inside him sent a flash of pain through his side.
He couldnât let Maddie cut him out of her life until sheâd heard the truth. He had to go to her, to try to explain everything in a way that she might understand.
He was starting across the street when Jake appeared in his path.
âYou slept with his wife,â Jake said in a voice so low and angry Jamison could feel it vibrating in his chest. âHe wasnât just your boss, he was your brother. He trusted you with his life, and you betrayed him to get your rocks off.â
Jamison shook his head, needing Jake to understand it wasnât like that. âI loved her, Jake. Or I thought I loved her. She was going to divorce him, andââ
âBut they werenât divorced, so you should have kept your hands to yourself until they were,â Jake said, in true Jake fashion.
His brother saw the world in clear blacks and whites. There were no shades of gray, and no tolerance for those who crossed lines that shouldnât be crossed. Jamison had been lucky enough to earn Jakeâs forgiveness for keeping that stupid kiss with Naomi a secret for fifteen years, but he had a feeling there might not be any coming back to the easy relationship theyâd had after this. His hunch was confirmed when Jake addedâ
âI canât believe I trusted you to be my babyâs godfather.â He crossed his arms, jaw hardening as he clenched his teeth. âI should have known better. I mean, I knew your moral compass was set a little differently than mine, but I believed you had one. I believed you were a good man who would be a good influence on Noelle as she grew up, helping her learn right from wrong. But obviously I was mistaken.â
Jamison pulled in a breath that emerged with a miserable-sounding wheeze. âListen, Jake. I know I screwed up, butââ
âI canât change the baptism papers,â Jake pushed on, ignoring his attempts to apologize. âThatâs set in stone, whether I like it or not, but I donât have to have a liar and an adulterer standing next to me at my wedding. Donât bother coming to the rehearsal tomorrow. Iâll do without a best man.â
Jamison fought to swallow past the lump in his throat. A part of him had been expecting this since the moment Jake glared down at him over Artâs shoulder, but it still hurt like hell. He didnât want to be cut out of Jakeâs life; he didnât want to miss seeing his brother and the woman he loved get married.
âPlease. Things with me and Wendy ended almost a year ago,â Jamison pleaded. âBefore I ever came back to Summerville. Iâm not the same person I was then. I swear, Jake, I know what I did was wrong and I would neverââ
âIt doesnât matter, Jamison,â Jake said, the disappointment in hi
s voice harder to take than his anger. âThe fact that you could do that to someone who cared about you as much as Art obviously didâ¦I canât wrap my head around it. And I canât say Iâve ever been more ashamed to call you my brother.â
Jamison flinched, feeling the words like a knife through his already bruised insides. âI donât want to lose you, Jake,â he said softly, not knowing what else to say. âCanât we try to talk this out?â
âIâll always be your brother,â Jake said, âbut Iâm not sure about anything else. I donât have friends I canât trust.â
Jamison sighed miserably, dropping his eyes the ground.
âIâm off until after the honeymoon starting tomorrow at noon, but Iâll rework the schedules for the rest of the month so we wonât be here at the same time,â Jake continued. âAnd Iâll be asking Faith to be my contact when Iâm not on duty. She can make sure the important emails are forwarded andâ¦all the rest of it.â
âSo thatâs it?â Jamison said, anger rising inside of him as he lifted his gaze to Jakeâs. âI make one mistake and you cut me off?â
Jake met his eyes with a cold look. âItâs not your first mistake, and we both know it.â
Jamisonâs jaw clenched. He should have known. He should have fucking known.
âIâm going back to work,â Jake continued. âI suggest you get to the ER and have those cuts on your face checked out. Youâre probably going to need stitches.â
Jamison nodded, but didnât say a word as Jake turned and stalked back across the lawn and into the firehouse, followed closely by Brandon, who shot Jamison one last pitying look over his shoulder before hurrying inside.