by Violet Duke
Of course she could have died. Her heart had stopped. But sheâd been on a plane. He didnât care that the flight attendants were trained in CPR and that the planes all had defibrillators. Being on a plane complicated an already dangerous situation, period.
She could have died. He would have never met her.
He thought about her smile, how it felt to hold her, how she kept everything going, how she came to his rescue. She was so soft and warmâin every way.
And she could have died.
A shudder went through him.
But she hadnât died. She was alive. And well. And wonderful.
âIs she okay?â he asked Lauren. âShe told me she is, butâ¦maybe she was making me feel better.â
Lauren frowned. âSheâs fine. Evidently. Phoebe said her doctor has told her repeatedly that sheâs fine, that she doesnât have to live the way she does.â
âThe way she does?â
âScared. Worried all the time. Not getting on airplanes with the guy sheâs crazy about.â
Immediately, he shook his head. He was in a daze for sure. But something didnât feel right about that. âMaybe itâs better. Sheâs safe this way. She has what she wants.â His heart hurt a little with that realization. She had the life she wanted in Sapphire Falls. The life where she was safe and free from worry. Then he came along and within three days was changing everything. âWhy didnât she tell me about the plane?â
Lauren looked at him with her youâre-kidding-right? look. âYou know the answer to that.â
âI would haveâ¦â Been tempted to wrap her in bubble wrap and never let her go anywhere. Damn. He certainly wouldnât have expected her to fly to Haiti. Or live in Haiti. He shook his head. âI would have wanted her to stay in Sapphire Falls.â
âAnd you would have been determined to stay with her,â Lauren said. âWhich she knew. Which was why she didnât tell you.â
âThere was something in her eyes,â he said. âWhen she was saying she didnât want me to stay. I knew there was something else there, something more.â
Lauren nodded. âI know. I thought so too. But now Iâm wondering.â
âAbout?â
âHer. Her feelings. You.â Lauren shrugged. âI know sheâs scared, but the truth is sheâs healthy, thereâs no reason for her not to fly. I really thoughtâhopedâthat for you sheâd get over it. I expected her to be here by now.â
âThatâs asking a lot.â But a weight seemed to have settled on his chest.
âBeing in love requires a lot,â she returned. âYou have to fight for it sometimes. Even if youâre fighting yourself.â
The weight on his chest turned cold. Adrianne didnât want to fight. She wanted peace and quiet and calm.
âYou donât think sheâs coming?â he asked Lauren whoâd had a much more detailed conversation about all of this than he had.
Lauren looked like she regretted having to say it. âI donât.â
âBecause she loves me and wants me to go to Haiti?â
âThatâs what I want to think.â
âBut youâre not sure now?â He wasnât sure why he was torturing himself like this. Wasnât it bad enough that she wasnât here and wasnât coming? Did he really have to delve into why?
Apparently, the answer was yes.
Laurenâs expression hardened. âIâm becoming more and more sure that sheâs not coming. And that she doesnât deserve you.â
âA heart attack is a big deal,â he said.
âYouâre a big deal,â Lauren shot back. âAnd I really thought she got that. But I guess not. Which means youâre better off without her.â
Right.
That made sense.
She wasnât willing to step up and be brave for him, so maybe she wasnât the one.
Alex hadnât been willing to give anything up for Lauren. Sheâd wanted her life to stay the sameânormalâand if Lauren wanted to be a part of it, she had to give up Haiti and their work. Lauren probably was better off without Alex.
Adrianne hadnât asked him for that. She hadnât expected him to change. And maybe she had a better reason for wanting her life to stay the way it was. But the bottom line was still that she didnât want her life to change. Not even for him.
So he was probably better off without her.
Yep, that was likely the reaction a normal person would have.
Which would explain why he didnât feel that way at all.
ADRIANNE PACED across her kitchen and glared at the new box of butter sheâd pulled from the fridge. She should work on her candy. That was simple, made sense and would definitely be sweet in the end.
Instead, she held her phone to her ear and chewed on her left thumbnail as she waited for Lauren to answer. Calling Lauren to check on Mason was complicated, confusing and could pretty much go either way as far as being sweet or bitter in the end.
It was Thursday. Mason had left Sapphire Falls on Monday. It felt like an eternity.
âDr. Davis,â Lauren finally answered.
âHow did it go?â
Lauren apparently knew who it was. âLet me put it this wayâthe vice president has banned Mason from his office indefinitely, and Mason hasnât done one bit of productive work since leaving Sapphire Falls.â
âYou left not even quite seventy-two hours ago,â Adrianne pointed out, slipping right into protect-Mason mode.
âYou have no idea what Mason Riley can do in seventy-two hours when heâs on,â Lauren informed her.
Hearing his name made Adrianne feel antsy. She wanted to be with him, dammit, and she was going to do this.
If she died on that planeâand she did acknowledge the fact that the chances of that were smallâat least sheâd died taking a risk for something big.
That was better than sitting safely in Sapphire Falls with only her regrets.
âSo heâs not willing to work?â Adrianne asked, wondering if it was okay to feel flattered by that. She knew she should feel guiltyâand she didâor worriedâwhich she also did. But it was nice to know that Mason seemed as messed up without her as she was without him. She knew he needed to leave. But she didnât want him to like it.
âHeâs trying, I think,â Lauren said. âHe was in the lab all day Tuesday. But itâs not working. Somethingâs not clicking. He knows this is important to you and he knows we need this fertilizer figured out before we get to Haiti butâ¦â Lauren trailed off. âYou know what I think?â
Adrianne didnât respond to the question right away. âHe knows this is important to me?â she asked, standing in the center of her kitchen and staring at the jar of caramel sauce sheâd had to replace.
Lauren paused. âYeah, heâ¦he knew something was up, Adrianne. He knew that you were making him leave because it really mattered to you rather than because you didnât want him.â
She wasnât sure what to say to that. That wasâ¦incredible. Mason knew her, after three days, enough to trust that she loved him in spite of all she said and did to the contrary?
Wow.
âOkay, so you think heâs just distracted or what?â
âMaybe,â Lauren said. âBut Iâm wondering if itâs more than that. Itâs likeâ¦he put so much heart into his work before that now that his heart is with you, thereâs not enough left for the lab.â
Um, wow again. âThatâ¦doesnât sound like you at all,â Adrianne said. She didnât know Lauren well, but the other woman gave the definite impression of being tough and practical and not all that sentimental.
 
; Lauren laughed. âI know. But itâs the only explanation. Heâs worked through illness, distraction, fatigue and almost everything else.â
âI might have a solution,â Adrianne said, her heart rate picking up.
âGood. âCause I donât know what the hell to do.â
âIâm coming to Chicago. But I need to know whereâwell, where should I go? Should I go to his place? Yours? The lab? And I need addresses for all of those and times to be there. Things like that.â
âYouâre coming?â Lauren said.
Adrianne took a deep breath and felt the rightness of her answer clear to her toes. âYes.â
âOh, thank God. Donât move.â
The next thing Adrianne heard was nothing. Lauren had hung up. She didnât answer when Adrianne called back.
Ten minutes later, there was a pounding on Adrianneâs front door.
âOh, for Godâs sake,â Adrianne said when she opened the door to find Lauren on her front porch. âYou were already in town?â
âYeah. I was with Phoebe trying to figure out how to convince you to come to Chicago.â
Adrianne looked over Laurenâs shoulder to find Phoebe and Hailey coming up her front steps.
âHow did that plan look?â Adrianne asked dryly.
âIâll admit that it involved a lot of alcohol.â
âFor me or you?â
âBoth,â Lauren confessed.
âIâve been reading up on the fear of flying,â Adrianne said.
âI have too,â Lauren said with a laugh. âAnd minor heart attacks in young women.â
âYou have?â Adrianne was stunned by that. And a little touched.
âHeâs my best friend, Adrianne, and he needs you,â Lauren said with a lift of a shoulder.
âAre you going to let him come back to Sapphire Falls?â Adrianne asked.
âAre you?â Lauren challenged.
Adrianne didnât hesitate. âIn between trips to Haiti. And wherever else he needs to go.â
âGood answer,â Lauren said with a nod. âLetâs get you on a plane.â
âI only need to pack my bag.â
âThen weâre right on time,â Lauren said to Hailey. âThis is Chicago and DC, not Sapphire Falls weâre talking about here.â She glanced at Adrianneâs blue jeans. âYou want to handle makeup? And hair?â she asked, taking in Adrianneâs pony tail.
âWhat are you doing here anyway?â Adrianne asked her boss.
âIt occurred to me that I like you better happy. You do more for me when youâre in a good mood,â Hailey said.
âOf course this is about you,â Adrianne muttered.
âIâm kidding,â Hailey said, holding up a hand. âMostly anyway.â
Adrianne started to reply but Hailey jumped in. âIâm really here because Lauren came to the office wanting Phoebeâs address. She told me she was here to talk you into going to Chicago. It occurred to me that youâve spent a lot of time making me look good and maybe it was time I returned the favor.â
âHow are you going to make me look good?â Adrianne asked with some sarcasm.
âIâm not completely talentless,â Hailey protested.
Adrianne drew herself up tall. âAre you seriously thinking that I need a makeover?â
âHoney, like I said, youâre not going to be hanging out in Sapphire Falls,â Lauren said. âYou need to look more like Hailey than Phoebe. No offense,â she added to Phoebe.
âOh, none taken,â Phoebe said sarcastically. âWhy would I take offense at your criticizing my clothes, shoes, makeup and hair?â
âNo, I meanâ¦â Lauren trailed off. âSorry.â
âFor your information,â Adrianne said, stepping forward. âI can out-Hailey even Hailey Conner when it comes to clothes, shoes, hair and makeup. If I want to.â
âWell,â Hailey said, stepping forward to meet her with a smile. âIt might have been a tie. In the old days.â
âOh, really,â Adrianne said, her eyes narrowed. âYou ever dressed for a business meeting and dinner in London or New York?â
Hailey didnât answer, but Adrianne added, âI donât need help looking good. If I want to.â
Lauren was looking back and forth between them. When they both looked at her she said, âSeriously?â
âYep, and I can prove it.â Adrianne turned and headed for the stairs.
Phoebe grabbed her suitcase from the hall closet while Lauren and Hailey followed her to her bedroom closet.
Five minutes later, her suitcase lay open on her bed and was quickly filling with outfits, underwear and bras and shoes.
Too many shoes.
âItâs only a few days,â Lauren said taking two of the six pairs out.
âShe needs to stay longer than that,â Hailey said, adding a pair of boots.
Lauren rolled her eyes. âFine, but itâs DC She still wonât need the boots.â She took them out.
Hailey took them away from her. âYou never know,â she insisted, putting them back in.
Phoebe added lingerie.
âThatâs not even mine,â Adrianne protested, grabbing for the black teddy Phoebe had apparently brought along.
âIt is now.â Phoebe grabbed it back and stuffed it under the boots.
âI thought I was going to Chicago, not DC,â Adrianne said. When no one respondedâHailey and Lauren were disagreeing over a pair of red three-inch heels Adrianne hadnât even seen in two years and Phoebe had moved to her jewelry boxâAdrianne said louder, âWhy am I going to DC?â
âWeâll go to Chicago first and get Mason, but he has to go back to DC and apologize. Again. If youâre there with him, heâs more likely to do it.â
Adrianne frowned. âWhat is he apologizing for this time?â
âHe got pissed when the vice president said Mason needed to allow press with him on the initial trip to Haiti,â Lauren said.
âWhat did he say?â she asked hesitantly.
âMason said heâs not babysitting reporters, the VP said you will if I tell you to, Mason said, âthere you go being a prick againâ and walked out.â
Adrianne groaned and closed her eyes. This was not good.
âI need you to come and calm him down, talk him into an apology.â
Adrianne frowned at her. âHe shouldnât have to apologize.â She grabbed the tank top Phoebe held out. âHis job is to get those seeds in the ground and growing, not stand around posing for photo ops and giving quotes so Newsweek can sell more copies. In fact,â she said as she tossed her T-shirt aside and pulled the tank top on. âThe best thing would be for them to interview people about Mason. Theyâd get the right flavor but it wouldnât bother him and getting the job done and he wouldnât say somethingâunfortunate. Then they canâ¦â She trailed off when she noticed the other women staring at her and one another with amused wonder.
âWhat?â
âI know exactly who you need to talk to,â Lauren said. âAnd itâs not Mason after all.â
LAUREN USED HER outrageous stock of frequent flier miles to get Adrianne a first-class seat on the same flight she was taking that evening. Adrianne was grateful not to have more time to think and worry about the flight. Trying to sleep that night would have been impossible. Better to take a deep breath and get it over with.
At the gate, they talked about Haitiâanything to keep Adrianneâs mind off of eventually boarding a plane. For the first time in two years. For the first time since sheâd almost died.
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sp; It wasnât the magic solution, but it was interesting information.
Lauren told her about how most people on the island were still in tents and shacks. Relief workers sometimes had rudimentary buildingsâgenerally put up by whatever organization they worked forâbut running water was hit and miss and electricity was sporadic, depending on how hard the wind blew.
Even with four walls and a roof, workers still slept in tents to protect from bugs, primarily mosquitoes. Only the more affluent side of Port-au-Prince had air conditioning and the teamâs time there was short. Lauren and Mason and their team were needed in the rural areas. The poor rural areas.
Still, Adrianne only had to think of Masonâs smile and she figured she could deal with the heat and sleeping on the hard ground. Like Phoebe kept telling her, she was fine.
Fine was the last thing she felt forty minutes later when she took her seat in 3A however. Lauren was supposed to sit across the aisle, but she leaned on the back of the seat in front of the man next to Adrianne in 3B.
âYou wouldnât mind if my friend and I sat together would you?â she asked, giving him a sexy smile.
The man smiled. âI could probably be talked into it.â
âIâd appreciate it. Sheâs a little freaked out about flying and I want to hold her hand.â
The man glanced at Adrianne, who barely managed a tight smile.
âI wouldnât mind holding her hand,â he said with a grin.
âYeah, well, sheâs all mine.â Lauren gave him a little wink.
With one eyebrow raised, the man looked from Adrianne, back to Lauren. âAh. In that case, Iâm happy to move. And sit right across the aisle from you two lovely ladies.â
He stood and stepped into the aisle, letting Lauren slide into the seat next to Adrianne.
Adrianne tried to take a deep breath. She forced her chest to expand, to pull air in, then relax and let it out. In and out. They just had to get off the ground. In and out. Once they were on their way, she really thought sheâd be okay. In and out. She needed to get past the point sheâd been last time.
Lauren forced her fingers to uncurl from the armrest and held her hand. âYouâll leave a dent,â she said lightly.