by Violet Duke
âI delight in the taste of my lover,â she said, and then licked the length of him.
Donât throw my words back at me, he silently begged. âDonât,â he groaned, tugging on her hair. He wanted her to continue. He wanted to feel her mouth on him again, but not like this, not like she owed him.
She sucked him deep, and his eyes rolled. His hips moved, his hands pushing and pulling her head as he found a rhythm. Wet, hot pleasure washed over him.
He couldnât think. He could barely speakâmuch less breathe.
The head of his cock hit the back of her throat and he went over the edge, groaning her name and hating himself as clarity returned. Shame washed over him as she stood, wiping her mouth with the back of her hand, not at what she had done, but for the reason behind it. A reason he didnât know, but he did know it couldnât be because she loved him and wanted to give him pleasure.
âI donât expect you to perform for me,â he said, adjusting his pants.
Her brown eye turned hard and cold, after days of warmth residing there, and he wanted to shout and curse at his own weak flesh. âWhat do you expect?â
He rubbed the bridge of his nose. âFor you to talk to me.â
âI have nothing to say.â
âThen at least share why you decided toââ
âGive you a blow job?â
His jaw turned hard. âWhy do you have to do this? Why do you take something that was amazing and special and make it sordid andââ
âNot sordid.â She rolled her eyes. âYet another s-word I need to learn, like sinning.â She cupped her breasts. âWas it a sin when you sucked on these?â
âSummer.â
Her hands left her breasts, to tiptoe down her flat stomach, and slide between her legs. âWas it sinful to touch me here, to lick me, and shove your dick inside of me?â
He grabbed her wrist. âStop it, before you say something that youâll regret.â
âI already regret what I said to you,â she shouted. âI regret marrying you, and the faster you regret marrying me the better.â
âWhy?â
âBecause.â Her lower lip trembled, and the hardness in her eyes glistened, like slick ice. âIt just is.â
He wanted to argue with her some more. He wanted to explain all the reasons why it was the best decision either of them had ever made when it came to their relationship.
âI wonât regret it. No matter how hard and far you push me away, Iâll keep coming back. No matter how silent you become, Iâll keep talking.â He shook his head. âIâve let you lead this relationship for too long, and Iâm done.â
Her eyes widened. âYou are?â
âHell, yes.â The he picked her up in his arms and carried her back inside, striding the bedroom and placing her in the middle of the bed. He didnât stop touching her, didnât stop kissing her, until he was hard again, and she was begging for him to make love to her, begging him to let her come.
Finally, he thrust deep inside of her, groaning her name.
âPlease, please,â she cried out, writhing beneath him, but he kept the roll of his hips steady. âFaster.â
âNo.â He dipped his head, licking her nipple, and then giving the other some attention until they were hard, greedy little points. âSay it after meâdivorce isnât an option.â
She stopped moving long enough to give him an evil glare. âDivorce isnât an option⦠itâs a necessity.â
Cursing under his breath, he pulled out of her and flipped her on her stomach, getting into position behind her. When she didnât line up properly for him, he improvised and shoved a pillow under her hips, before giving her enticing little bottom a smack. She squealed and tried to get up, but he held her in place with one hand and smacked her there again.
Her legs widened, giving him an extremely nice view of her wet folds, all pink and waiting for him to fill her up again. Grabbing his cock, he eased it inside of her, pausing to give her time to adjust. âHowâs that?â
âI wonât say it.â There was a little hitch in her voice.
Exhaling, he closed his eyes. âYou donât have to.â
âAngel,â she said tentatively.
He didnât want to answer her. All he wanted was for her to agree, and for them to make love like nothing was wrong between them. But he did anyway.
âIâm still here.â The snug feel of her made his eyes water. He couldnât help it.
âOrder me to tell you to move.â
His eyes flew open. âWhat?â
âPlease,â she said. âI canâtâ¦â
Their damnable pride. Thatâs what had brought them to this point, and yet, here she was, asking for his help. âTell me what you want.â
âI wantâ¦â He slid the smallest of distances and she moaned. âThat. I want that.â
He gripped her hips, pulling out and thrusting inside of again. âThis?â
âYes.â
In and out, he thrust inside of her, every slide, every roll of his hips, encourage by her reverent yeses and pleas for more. His heart pounded, and their skin grew slick. Bead of sweat rolled down his back, but there was no way heâd come before her.
Slipping a hand under her body, he cupped her and made her sit back on him, sliding his fingers to where they were joined. She tightened around him, her breasts bouncing as she moved.
Her head fell back. She turned slightly to kiss him. He fastened his mouth to hers and drove deep. She cried out and he joined her, growling like some animal.
But none of that mattered, because she was weeping in his arms and he was pulling out of her, turning her to face him, and kissing her tears away.
There were no need for words, no need for questions. Only comfort, only love, and he had it all to give her, even if she still believed she didnât deserve it.
CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
GABRIEL PULLED A SHIRT over his head. âI have to go into town tonight. Thereâs an emergency with one of my clients.â
Summer sat up in bed, arms wrapped around her legs. âDoes that happen a lot?â
âNo, but this kid in particular is extremely stubborn.â He sat down in a chair and began to lace up a pair of sneakers. âShe keeps running away from her uncleâs home, and the law keeps finding and bringing her back.â
âMaybe she doesnât belong there.â
âShe doesnât have a choice,â he said with a grunt.
âWhat if her uncle is hurting him?â
Gabriel pinned her with a look. âNot all men are like Patrick Johnson.â
âHeâs not my uncle.â
âBut he is dead.â
Summer blinked at him. âHow⦠are you kidding? Please tell me youâre not kidding.â She felt light in the head. This was something that had come between them for years. His belief that she had started sleeping with Patrick to get back at him, and when he learned the truth, sheâd made him pay for years by allowing the men and women around here to talk about her, to spread rumors and lies. It was only fitting since Gabriel had believed them, without getting her side first.
By the time he had come to her for her side of the story, sheâd been so hurt and furious that she refused to have anything to do with him. Sheâd refused his calls, his visits⦠everything until he had asked her to prom and sheâd told him to drop dead.
Heâd taken Zoe Ambrose instead, but Summer wasnât mad at her. She still wasnât mad at her. She wouldnât have been even if Zoe and Gabriel had gotten married and had beautiful children. It wasnât Zoeâs fault, and none of the Ambroses had ever treated her or her sist
ers like second-class citizens.
Come to think of it, there had been many times, Leah Ambrose, the matriarch of the family, had come to Strawberry Grove with some extra food that was about to spoil, or so she claimed.
But that extra food always ended up being fresh, home-cooked meals. Azalea had taken it all, like Leah Ambrose owed her, but the baby, Skye, had always hugged the other woman in thanks. Summer and Rose would stand silently, watching from the porch and wishing a hole would swallow them up.
Funny how little memories like that sneaked up on a person when they were feeling most vulnerable. But right now, she didnât want memories of Patrick Johnson. She wanted all the gory details of his death.
Gabriel crossed the room and sat down beside her. âHe was caught raping a twelve year old. Her dad blew his head off.â
âGood,â she said, refusing to look at him. âDonât you dare say vengeance only belongs to theââ
âI would have castrated him,â Gabriel said softly. âI blame myself for not doing it years ago.â
Tears clogged her throat. âBut you would have gone to jail.â
âSweetheart, I did go to jail for assaulting Patrick.â Her gaze to flew to his as he continued. âI stayed locked up for six weeks, and then had a yearsâ worth of probation.â He picked up one of her hands, lacing his fingers through it. His wedding ring caught her eye, a sign of his commitment to her, though heâd been committed to her since they were children. âWhy else do you think those kids listen to me?â
âI never knew,â she said. âIf I had, I would haveââ
âGone to jail for stealing his car and taking his money?â Gabriel gave her a sad smile. âJustice doesnât always work the way we want it.â
âI didnât steal it,â she gulped. âHis dad gave it to me, so Iâd be quiet. He said if I didnât take it and be quiet, then heâdâ¦heâd bring Skye to his son. I didnât know what else to do.â
âGet out of here, girl,â Patrick, Senior had shouted at her, shoving her from behind.
She limped to the mustang, the pain between her thighs excruciating. One eye was swollen and her lip was busted, but she was alive.
âIâm trying,â she managed to snap.
âDonât you tell no one either. You tell, then so do I.â He took her by the arm, and began dragging her to the car. âAinât no one going to believe the daughter of a whore, who raised nothing but baby whores.â
Now that, Summer believed. âWhy are you helping me, then?â
âThat boy couldnât help himself. You tempted him, but when he tied you up and you started screaming for help⦠Well, thatâs different. You at least get to have say.â
She didnât know whether to laugh or cry at his logic.
He opened the car door and shoved her inside. Pain shot through her, making black dots dance in front of her eyes. âIâll be keeping my ear out. If I hear so much as a peep, Iâll get that sister of yours, the redheaded one, and let Patrick play with her.â
Helpless fury rose. Summer might not be able to save any other girls from what she went through, but she could at least keep her sisters safe. âYou touch her or Rose, and Iâll burn your house to the ground with Patrick in it.â
He paled a little, and then shut the door. âJust remember what I said.â
âAs long as you remember what I promised.â
He nodded and she drove away.
She didnât come back for almost a year, but she had to check on her sisters to make sure they were safe. However, when she came back, Azalea was gone and everyone looked to her to be the new town whoreâafter all, every small town had one. Only the newest one of Holland Springs had never had consensual sex with any of the men there. She never touched a single one of them. Ever.
Gabriel wrapped his arms around her, taking her out of her headâthank God. âIf I could have saved you, I would have.â
âIâm not some fragile doll,â she lied, leaning into him and letting his warmth fill her. âI wonât break.â
âNever thought you to be a doll, but you are fragile, just not in ways you think you should be.â He kissed the top of her head. âAnd we all have our breaking points.â
âCan I ask you a question?â
âYes.â
âDo you promise to be honest?â He gave her a come-on-this-is-me look. âHow many men do you think Iâve been with?â
He didnât hesitate when he answered, âIt doesnât matter to me.â
âBut I let you think Iâveââ
âRemember our conversation about mathematical impossibilities?â he asked, one dark brow raised.
She blushed, actually blushed, over the memory. âI seem to recall the one about chemistry and biology getting us all hot and bothered.â
He grinned, and then his expression turned serious. âOne day, if you still feel the need to tell me how many or how few men youâve been with, Iâm all ears. But for now, I want you to keep it to yourself, because you need to know in my eyes you have always been worthy of everything good in this life.â
GABRIEL WATCHED HER face as his words sank in. Maybe, just maybe, she would let his words process this time.
âYou should probably go,â was all she said, and he tried not to let his disappointment show.
âI should be home before ten, but Iâll call you before I get back.â He let go of her, grabbing his cell phone from the nightstand and pocketing it. âIâll text you.â
She nodded, and he felt his heart pinch a little. Time, he told himself. They couldnât erase years of history in only a month. But a selfish part of him wanted her to at least go ahead and try.
âSummer.â
âHmm.â
âI love you.â
Her brown-eyed, desolate stare nearly ripped him in two. âI know you do, angel.â
As he left the house, he prayed for guidance and strength. He prayed that Summer would see herself the way he saw her, and he prayed for her to receive the forgiveness she didnât think she deserved. They needed help in the coming days, months, and years.
This he knew, because there was no way either of them could do it on their own.
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
BY THE END OF JULY, Rose, Ivy, and Alexander still hadnât returned from their travels, and Summer was getting restless. Each day she was growing closer to Gabriel, to his family, and to abandoning her plan of getting custody of Ivy back from her sister.
She couldnât allow that to happen. It was bad enough that she went to church and ate dinner at Gabrielâs parentsâ house every Sunday. It was bad enough that sheâd gone on couples dates with Jemma Leigh and her husband, Jeremy. It was bad enough that the bells on Carolina Dreamsâ door never seemed to quit ringing, and people never stopped smiling. At her.
What was worse though, what was almost unpardonable, was the way she allowed herself to become vulnerable and surrender to Gabriel, like last night.
âCome sit with me and watch the sunset. Itâs almost as pretty as you to look at,â he said when she joined him on the patio.
Next thing she knew, he had her in his arms, kissing her hard, and sliding his fingers deep inside of her. âSo wet, sweetheart. So wet for me,â he whispered while sheâd trembled in his embrace. âLet me take care of you.â
âYes. Please,â she moaned.
She trusted him to keep his word, because he always did, right down to the littlest of things, like picking up toothpaste for her. Something she could have done it herself, but it was like she was testing him.
Pick me up at five, she would tell him, and he would show up at 4:59.
He brought her flowers every Tuesday. On Thursdays, he would take her to lunch and share the latest software his company had in development, which had led to her point blank asking him how much money he had, if only to make him think she was interested in that and nothing else.
âNot that itâs my business, or that I need it,â she said. âBut you never ask me to contribute to paying the bills, and Iâm living with you.â
He pulled out his phone, ran his fingers over it, and then handed it to her. She almost dropped the phone. âMy money is your money. No secrets. The house is paid for, so our bills are minimal.â
Sheâd merely nodded and handed it back. âYou want to see mine? I donât have that many numbers in front of the decimal point.â
âWhenever you want,â he said. âIf you need help investing it, let me know. I have a buddy down in Charlotte thatâs brilliant with numbers. But pretty soon, we need to sit down and go over finances for our future plans.â
The thought of the future scared Summer to death, mostly because her future had been more about them, and less about her and Ivy. He never brought up her plan to get her daughter back, and she wasnât sure if he hoped she would forget about it, or would abandon her plan.
Tonight, however, she would put him to the test, instead of making love after dinner, like they usually did. She still couldnât believe heâd talked her into becoming his dessert after one meal. Since then, sheâd made it a point to be his dessert and to make him hers. She was very inventive when she wanted to be, which was all the time with Gabriel.
She couldnât blame him though. He was making up for twenty-nine years of abstinence.
âThatâs the last dish,â Gabriel said, placing it on the drying rack. âReady for dessert?â He wriggled his brows suggestively.
âI thought we could talk finances tonight.â His face fell, and she almost said forget it, but she had to do this. She had to remind him of why theyâd gotten married in the first place. It was only fair. It was the right thing to do, even if it hurt like hell to do it.