by L. Ann Marie
"Fuck Brother. Was a fuckin psycho anyways." Steve says making Ben laugh.
"No she was just a bitch. My fuckin supposed friend was the doctor that gave her the excuses and pills." I tell him.
"I would have beat the fuck out of him too." Ben says.
"Got arrested, Paul bailed me out. He said it was justified. Kept him from pressing charges by threatening his license being involved with a patient and all."
"Fuck. I had no fuckin clue." Steve says.
He pulls into a driveway behind a blue truck. He knew right where to go. We all get out. I follow them to the door. Ben knocks and the door is opened right away. "I need to talk to Tracy."
He looks at us and backs away. Steve makes me smile. "Pussy."
Tracy comes to the door rolling her eyes. "You needed back up?" She's pissed.
"No, they didn't want me to get arrested for beating the fuck out of him. Now that I'm on his doorstep it's hard to deny that your here. We need to talk. When we're done I'll get back in the truck and drive away." He tells her more calm that I would be. She gets her coat and walks out. Me and Steve move to let her pass. They walk across the street, Ben leans on an empty building.
Steve looks at me, "How’d he make your family bigger?"
"Twins mother doesn't want them back. The kids told us she didn't want them because they're retarded. They never had a Christmas, didn't have toys all because they're retarded. Fuckin bitch of a mother drilled it into their heads." My new little twins. So sweet being treated so badly.
"Fuckin hell. Cute kids. You goin to be ok with them?" He asks.
"Yeah, Patches doesn't want us to hire someone to help take care of them so he took the job. Said he doesn't want a flaky nanny treating his little brothers bad." I smile.
"Little Ben says Patches treats them good. Kate good with this?"
"Yeah, she doesn't want them going into care and their father killed the only family they had. She didn't want to give them back after she heard about retarded."
"Me either." He surprises me. The door opens the guy looks out then closes it. "Pussy." We wait in comfortable silence. "Should’ve got coffee." He says. I nod.
Tracy comes back to the house. We walk back to Ben at the truck. We get in and Steve looks at him. "I need a fuckin coffee." He drives to Dunkin ordering our coffees.
"She'll call next week to visit Jessie." Ben says. "It's like your ex Danny, she just doesn't want me. That simple."
"Wish that simple was painless Brother." I tell him. Fuck. She'll call next week? I thought I knew her. How the fuck can a mom leave her kid at Christmas and say she'll call next fuckin week?
Steve looks over at him, "Fucked up. What’d you tell Jessie?"
"Wasn't like I could hide it. It's fuckin Christmas. I told him I didn't know, she didn't come home and wouldn't answer her phone. He knows though. I don't know how but he didn't question anything and he's too fuckin smart not to ask questions." Ben runs his hands through his hair.
"Yeah. You need us to take him or need Little Ben to stay, just say. Danny will say the same. Fuck, could leave an extra kid at his house for weeks he wouldn't even know." Steve says cracking us up.
"Seriously Ben anytime you need some time he's welcome, him and Little Ben are never a problem. I already love them like they're my own, even got their fuckin beds." He laughs again.
"Thanks Brothers. I can't think right now but I know it will happen."
We pull in and see Tiny's truck. "I guess Christmas dinner is here today." I say. "It's good, we have to take two fuckin vehicles to fit everyone." They laugh at me. "Time for car shopping." I smile.
"Get a fuckin bus, Ben keeps giving fuckin kids you need it." Steve says.
"Brother I really didn't expect their mother to refuse to take them back. Doc can't stand the woman. Wants to offer assisted suicide." Ben says.
I crack up. "Might not be a bad idea. Can we get the same adoption time with this one?" I ask. "Fuck it's getting to be like ordering fuckin lunch." They laugh.
Steve hits Ben's arm. "See, won't notice extras."
"I'll get the lawyer and judge to get this through. With the holidays it may take a little longer. Doc just called me this morning." He looks at me.
"Good enough. Might as well see what the crew is up to." I walk into a circus. Everyone is smiling so I smile.
I was right, dinner is at my house. Aside from Tracy and the sadness in Ben's eyes, we have a good day. Tiny loves the twins. Nancy seems happy doting on Elizabeth and Devan. I ask Tiny when he's having his own kids. He shrugs. Holy fuck, he always says never. I smile at Nancy. She saw it too.
Rich calls on my new iPad. Everyone passes him around. Jessie and Little Ben introduce him to Alex and Ally. Rich starts whooping and jumping around on camera. He's yelling for Kate. When she gets the iPad he laughs, "I got my sister Kate. You're the best mother ever! Thank you. I'm going to try and get home soon. I need to explain protectin to my new sister. This is the best fuckin present! Thank you!" Kate cries. I hold her and chat with my oldest very happy son. I pass him to Steve. He walks to the patio and talks to my boy.
Everyone is gone; kids are in bed Devan is asleep for at least the next couple of hours and my beautiful Kate’s sitting against me watching the lights on the tree. "It's been another fuckin day of running the emotional gambit. How are you holding up baby?"
She sits up and looks at me. "The best and worst happened today. It's like being on a roller coaster. I'm so happy about the twins like my heart is going to burst with it. Rich's reaction threw me. I didn't think he'd be so excited. He called me the best mom just like the little guys and Patches. It was a huge high." She smiles that big fuckin smile for me.
"It's all that love you have babe. Everyone feels it. I feel the same way they do; you needed a family to share that with. I'm not even a little nervous about the kids. I'm not sure if something's broke in me or I'm just too happy to think about what all this is going to mean in work, time and sacrificing."
"I think we may need to do the group counseling thing again just for us all to be on the same page." She looks like I might need convincing.
"I had planned on talking to the counselor when I take the boys but going together is a good idea too. I don't want the boys to feel like they come in second because we have kids that will need a little more attention." I hope that eases her mind.
It does if the big smile is anything to go by. "You are the best husband. Thank you for another awesome day."
"What are the worst?" I want to fix this so next time it doesn't touch her.
"The kid’s mom not wanting them and Tracy. I thought I knew her. I'm not sure how to feel with her leaving on Christmas. That's the fuckin worst thing any parent can do. Jessie will never see Christmas the same, it will always be the day his mother left. She never called him." She has tears falling.
"I wanted to know so I can fix it. I can't fix either one of those baby. I wish I could. Jessie seems to be handling it but I saw his sadness today, same as Ben. I think we should keep showing them our love. Let them know how important they are. Tracy is going to call next week for a visit with Jessie. Maybe it will help him." I say this but I'm still fuckin pissed it's a phone call in a week when she walked the fuck out on Christmas.
"See this is what’s the worst. She walked out in Christmas and will call him next fuckin week? How is she the Tracy that's my friend?" She's pissed now.
"I don't know beautiful K, I just don't know. I asked Jessie how he was holding up. Tracy told him he wasn’t hers. He said she’s broke on the inside and sometimes you have to wait for people to fix themselves before your strong can help them. He’s wise beyond his years. Handling it the best way he knows how." Not knowing what else to do I hug her. We sit quiet for a while watching the lights.
"Patches helped get some of the kids presents upstairs and the tree is still full." She says. I can hear the smile.
"I was thinking about that today. We have a bonus room over the garage. I thought I co
uld refinish it into a playroom. I'll give everyone a section along the walls and put benches at the dormers. Like little reading alcoves. That will help free up some space for them. I need to get Alex a platform built and do something for Ally. They are so nonspecific with not getting anything; I might need some help with that."
"We planned on watching movies tomorrow with Little Ben and Jessie. I'm sure she'll find something that excites her." She tells me.
"I have church tomorrow with Patches. Do you want me to find you some help?" Fuck I should have thought about it sooner.
She snorts, "No we'll be fine I have Jessie and Little Ben. They know how to keep everyone calm. Darren is following them have you noticed. He jumps right in when something is wrong." She yawns.
I smile my girls is tired. "I'm so proud of him. I've noticed too. Let’s go to bed baby.
I shut the tree off and carry my Beautiful K while she carries the three monitors."
Chapter Thirty Three
One week...
"Don't you dare stop." She moans out. I fuckin smile. She's ready; I move my tongue faster and get her there. With my name on her lips she screams. Fuck my dick jerks as if it wasn't already fuckin hard enough. I stop moving my tongue when she moans again. Climbing up I suck her nipple, with the straight studs in its different but she feels it the same. "Beautiful K, still getting milk, it’s fuckin wild with the studs in." I lean to the drawer and pull a rubber, lube and a vibrator out with the cuffs she got me for Christmas. She moans with that dazed look. Fuck my dick likes that. I flip her over, cuff her to the headboard and slide the vibrator around her big nipples; her mewling tells me she likes that. "Let me hear you baby, I love hearing you enjoy it.” I slide in and she cries out 'please don't stop.' "Fuck, wasn't even thinking it. Fuck, your tight ass feels so fuckin good." I bury myself in her and slide the vibrator around. I can feel your pussy clenching baby. You want this in you?"
"Please Danny." She begs. Fuck my dick jerks in her ass.
I stop teasing her and slide it in. "The fuckin vibration makes my dick harder K. I need hard and fast baby I'm not going fuckin make it." I pull out almost all the way and slide my hand around to her lower stomach. She moans when I hit the spot. Holding just under her tit with my other hand I slam into her like a piston. My fuckin brain doesn't want to stop. She cries out a fuck and I feel her come again. Fuck my balls draw up and I know it won't be long. Sliding my hand down I catch her clit and circle it while slamming into her ass. Fuckin hell, I cuffed her hands. She can't help me. Slowing down I move my fingers over her tit and gently pinch the nipple. She's mewling again I roll my hips and she moans. I keep the pace and roll my hips until she's pushing back. I start slamming her all over again feeling it down my back and into my balls fuck. She screams and I moan out a fuck. Thank fuckin Christ she went with me. I hold her up and get the cuffs off her. Fuck. I'm sucking in air trying to remember what to do for my Beautiful K. Sliding my hand down her body I pull the vibrator and lean her back on me. "Fuck baby that felt so good, thank you." She moans. I look down. "You're fuckin wiped K." I say smiling. I lift her and shuffle on my knees until I can lay her down right. Dealing with the rubber I clean her up dropping a kiss on her lips. I get the cuffs off the bed and clean everything up, she hasn't moved. Pulling the patch off, I'm smiling as I climb into bed and she burrows over to me putting her face on my chest. Fuckin K. "Love you baby, happy New Year." She moans.
Chapter Thirty Four
One week...
Kids are back in school Ben got the adoption papers so we get the twins enrolled. Today is their first day. Little Ben and Jessie meet us at the office with Ben. He had to change contact information for Jessie. He put me and Kate on the list. The twins are nervous, Darren and Little Ben hold Ally's hand while Jessie and Victor hold Alex's. The receptionist tells them they can go to class, Little Ben looks at Jessie. "We need to see where their classroom is and they need to know where ours is." Jessie tells her. She looks at me and Ben.
"It's a Brotherhood thing. They need to watch out for each other." I tell her.
She looks at Ben. "This is important." He turns so she can see his President patch. "They need to know this in order to feel calm. The boys can be excused for however long it takes for that to happen." He tells her in that voice that dares her to challenge him. I smile watching her face change with what she’s thinking.
The principal, Dave, comes in nodding to us. He stops at the twins. "I don't know you two. Who do you have here Darren?" He signs and says. Darren tells him his new brother and sister. Ally and Alex sign their names for him. He shakes their hands and looks at me. "More?" He smiles.
"Hopefully this will be it. If Pres here stops dropping them at my door." I say low with a smile. He laughs.
"Is there a problem?" He looks at the receptionist.
"No, the boys are going to show them where their classes are and then they’ll see the twin’s classroom." Ben says.
Dave asks her for two maps. "We can make them both a map on our way." The kids nod at him and walk to the door. "Let their teachers know they'll be late." He says walking out behind them.
"Do you need anything else from me?" I ask her. She shakes her head no. I follow the kids. Ben says he's at the Clubhouse with a slap to my back.
We make it around the whole fuckin school and into the twin’s new class. I talk to the teacher while the kids meet their new classmates. The boys haven't let them go yet. I ask Ally to show her teacher her book so he will know who is ok to pick them up. She shows him signing each person for him. He asks if he can write the names down she signs ‘no’ pulling another book out for him. I laugh. They know the drill better than I do. He gets them settled; me and Dave take the boys to their rooms waving to each teacher. I thank him and get to work.
Doc said there's water leaking at Kate's old house. I'm so fuckin glad the kid’s mom is out of there. Doc shipped her back to Boston as quick as he could. She signed the papers and left without ever seeing the twins. Bitch. I put a new washer on the faucet and check the house. Someone is expected today. I hate having to fix anything while it’s occupied. Satisfied I head over to the Bakery. Jess wants me to look at the oven and see if I can add a work table for Mary to decorate on. Walking in I see Peg with Karen from the Women's Center behind the counter. What the hell?
"Danny, Karen is our new worker. She came highly recommended." She smiles at me. I must have the wrong look on my face so I adjust it to a smile. Fuckin Peg says so much with so little.
"Hi Karen, good to see you again." I say hoping for the look Peg wants. She nods with a smile. I look at Peg. "Jess needs to see me." She tells me to go on back.
I open the door and laugh. Jess is blowing through a cloud of flour. Holding my face I grab my phone and take a picture before it all settles. She smiles at me with flour covering her, I get another picture. Patches comes in pulling empty racks. He sees Jess and laughs. "I bought you a box cutter and scissors for Christmas, did you already lose them?"
She cracks up and points to the side of the table where they're hanging from hooks not two feet away from her. "No, I thought I could just open it. The freakin thing just exploded." I can't help but laugh.
Peg comes in and walks right back out. "Guess she saw enough." A Prospect comes in looking around. Patches tells him where the broom is and gets him cleaning up while he scrapes flour into a clean bucket. "I can come back Jess why don't you get cleaned up. I'll see you this afternoon." She nods with a smile. I watch her step back and shake like a dog. I hold on and laugh walking out the door.
I have some time so I go to Nancy's shop. "Danny, good to see you.”
"I just got Kate new jewels."
She nods, "You should get her a chain. She's been pierced for a while now she'll love it." She tells me pointing to all the chains. This is just what I was thinking.
I see one with the pale pink jewel hanging from the center. My dick twitches. Fuck. I pull it and walk to the counter hiding my dicks reaction like I'm six
teen. She puts the box in a bag and hands it to me. I thank her and walk out with a smile. Kate will love this.
I'm walking back to my truck when my phone goes off. "Get to the fire house on the west side, Second St." Steve hangs up. Fuck! I fly across town and pull in while Ben is beating the fuck out of Tracy's guy. The firemen are surrounding them. I push my way through. They nod to me and make room. I hear bikes on their way. Ben really is beating the fuck out of this guy. I don't know how the fucker is standing. I look around Casper and Tiny push through. The firemen make more room. What the fuck. Ben lands an upper cut lifting the guy in the air and he drops to the ground. The firemen trade money laughing. I go to Ben putting my hand on his shoulder, he swings and I duck. "Fuck Brother it's me."
He focuses his eyes on me. "Sorry Brother thought it was his friends."
I look around at the firemen watching us. "I'd say none of them are here."
A guy I know but can't place his name comes up with a towel; the only mark on Ben is a split lip. The guy on the grounds face looks like hamburger. "Fuckin prick has been spouting off for too fuckin long. He's out of here now. You did us a favor. Thanks man. Sorry about your old lady. You need to know he planned it trying to decide whose woman he'd pick." The fuckin Brothers surround the guy on the ground growling.
"She's willing to leave her kid on Christmas he can have her. Why's he got it out for the club?" Ben asks not even breathing heavy. Fuckin Pres.
"He's in with the one percenters out of Rhode Island. Pisses him off you make money and are workin clean. Not sure what your old lady knows but the fucker was looking for information." He tells Ben he'd be happy to tell him all he knows but they got shit to do. They agree to meet later at R&R.
I look around; Tracy is standing to the side with tears running down her face. I walk over to her. She steps back. "I know you heard. You willing to put your kid and friends in danger because you won't own up to a fuckin mistake? They're worth more than your pride at this point." I tell her.
