“Yea, I’ve been through it too.” She retorted. Her eyes limped with sadness. They told a story of pain and I wanted to know it.
“I’m listening.”
She shook her head no. Her eyes began to glisten. I immediately stood up and made my way to her. I bent down on one knee so that I could look her in the face. “You know you can talk to me about anything, right? I’m not gone lie, I know it may be too soon to be coming at you like this, but I got a feeling about you. And my gut feeling has never been wrong.”
Here we were staring into each other eyes again. It was like one of those scenes straight out of a romance movie. All that needed to happen was for us to begin kissing passionately.
“It’s really hard for me to talk about it. I’d rather not.” She told me looking away.
“I understand. My situation hard to talk about too.” I told her, thinking back to the day that Tonya died. “But, I don’t mind sharing it. If I keep holding it in, it’s gone keep dictating my life,”
“I was on some young and dumb stuff back in the day, thinking I was the man. I had that one waiting for me at home, but I still used to be wildin’ fucking all type of hoes.” Baby girl’s face scrunched up, but I continued. “But, because of that foolishness, I lost my family, my unborn all of that. So when I say I’m done playing games, I truly mean that shit. It’s not worth it. You may think I’m coming at you a little strong too soon, but, I know what I want.”
She looked a little taken aback. “Wow. Well why didn’t you just go get your family back?” She asked, and I wished it was that simple.
“Because there’s no getting it back. The night she caught me cheating she ran into a light pole and she died on impact. Her and my unborn seed. I’ve been fucked up every since and it’s been nine years.”
“Wow, I’m so sorry to hear that.” She began to patter with her fingers for a second.
“It’s cool. It used to fuck me up. But, I’m learning to deal with it.”
Renee
Wow. Here I am thinking I had it bad, but he had it ten times worse. My heart went out to him. Tonight was almost too deep for me.
My body began to tremble, as the day of the rape began to resurface. I could still feel the pain of him tearing into my virgin walls as if it had only happened yesterday. I still smelled the scent of his cologne that I now hated. Damn. Tears began to well up in my eyes.
I had never been open enough to speak on my situation with any man. Yet, I was about to pour my heart out to a complete stranger that I felt like I’ve known my entire life.
I told him everything. Every little detail from the rape and I told him about me losing both of my parents. Once I got to talking, everything just came out and before I knew it my face was drenched with tears. My whole body was flaming with anger and sorrow.
Then it happened. He gripped my body up and wrapped his arms around me so tight and it made me feel so secure. My body melted into his, and I felt as if no one could ever hurt me again in life as long as I was in his arms.
He whispered into my ear. “It’s gone be okay ma’. That wack ass nigga won’t hurt you again as long as I’m in the picture. Sorry you had to go through that.”
I looked at him and smiled a painful smile. I didn’t know what else to say. Well, I actually didn’t get a chance to say anything because before I knew it, our lips had met and he began to kiss me so passionately and delicately. My panties became soaking wet, and my body was dying for him to make love to it.
He scooped my body up and carried me to the bed. I wrapped my legs around him as we fell onto it, him on top of me.
“I haven’t felt this feeling in a long time, baby.” He broke our kiss and said. “I want you so bad right now, but, I’m going to chill. I know you been through a lot so I want to take my time with you.” He began to pull away, but I clenched my legs around him tighter.
Forget what he was talking about. My body was on fire and I needed him to make love to me. I needed to feel wanted, and cared for. If only for tonight.
“Don’t stop. I need this.” I told him, lifting a bit so that our lips could connect. I wrapped my arms around his neck, as we kissed passionately, and he began to caress my body.
Seconds later, we were completely naked, with him on top of me. He lifted just a bit to roll a condom over his shaft, then he guided his way inside of me so gently. A moan of pure delight escaped my lips.
I hadn’t had a man touch my insides in well over 2 years. I was more than over due for it. He started off giving me slow soft strokes that had me dizzy with pleasure. Then, he began to hit it hard, and back soft again.
I was in heaven! He was so passionate with it. All my problems were erased with his touch. He fucked me like he would never get another piece of pussy again, and I loved every second of it.
“Shit! Damn, I’m about to cum, baby!” He cried out speeding up his pace.
I felt him stiffen harder inside of me as if that was even possible. A tingling sensation began to erupt from deep inside my core and it spread throughout my whole body. An intense moan escaped me as we both climaxed in unison. Then, he collapsed on top of me.
Neither of us said anything, nor did we move. We both laid astonished at the magic that we created. At least I know I was. Personally, I wanted to stay in his arms forever. I was fully sober and fully aware of my emotions, and they were screaming at me. I just hoped that I didn’t send him the wrong message by meeting him at the club and hooking up with him in the same night.
Diesel
Two whole months had gone by. At this point, me and Renee are basically inseparable. I’m smiling right now as I think about baby girl. I didn’t come here looking for love, or even expecting to find it. But, at the same time I wasn’t running from it either.
Both of us had been through the ringer and I think that was what bonded us, our pain. I know she had to be something special, I couldn’t keep my hands off of her.
I try not to overwhelm her because I know that she has issues. But, sometimes I just can’t help it. I put it on everything I love, if I ever come across the man that raped her, I’m sending him six feet below. The way that she broke down, tugged at the strings to my heart. I wanted to erase all of her pain and make sure that she had a smile on her face every day.
“So do you like this property Mr. Jones?” My realtor, who was also like my personal assistant, asked staring at me with a smile.
She was showing me a nice little three bedroom brick Bungalow out in Farmington Hills. I had zoned out for a second. “Yea, it’s cool. What’s the asking price?” I asked, taking a second to walk through the house again.
The master bedroom had a spacious walk in closet, with a bathroom attached. Not to mention it was huge as hell. I made my way to the kitchen, and into the living room.
“They want two hundred thousand for it, but I’m sure that we can talk them down to one seventy five.” She answered, following behind me. “It’s been on the market for more than three months.”
“Alright, well put the bid in for me, Melissa. I’m ready to have my own shit again.” I told her, pulling out my cell phone as it began to ring. It was Tiana. I know that I had promised her that she could come up here and spend a little time with me, but, I didn’t have any interest in spending time with her anymore.
I sent her to voicemail and decided to call her back after I finished up my meeting for the house. She’d been a little persistent with calling and texting and I needed to tell her to chill a bit.
“Ok, I’ll get on it as soon as we leave.” Melisa perked, putting some papers into her briefcase.
I watched her for a second. She was dressed casual but stylish in a pair of stone washed skinny jeans that hugged her curves perfectly, a white tank, with a blazer over it, and a pair of six inch heels. Her hair was bone straight with a part down the middle, with her black and Italian features giving her an exotic appeal.
I’ve been knowing Melissa for years. We messed around a time or two, but it was now str
ictly business between us. That didn’t stop me from talking a little shit though. “I’m still mad you didn’t offer for me to stay with you. I thought we was better than that.” I joked with a smile, and she smiled too.
“Whatever Davon.” She called me by my government name.
“What, I can’t come stay with you?”
“Hell no!” She chuckled, shaking her head.
“I was just messing with you anyway. I got about 5 or 6 hot ones, I been juggling anyways!” I lied, as my phone began to ring again. It was Renee this time. “See watch this.” I joked answering the phone.
“What’s up baby? You miss me already.” I teased, sticking my tongue out at Melissa.
“Something like that. I was getting dinner together so I just wanted to know if you was joining me tonight.” Renee responded.
“And you cooking? I’ll be there as soon as I get finished taking care of my business.” I told her ending our conversation, and focusing back on Melissa. “See I don’t even need to come stay with you, my boo got me.” I teased, as we headed for the door.
“Yea, that’s why I stopped messing with you years ago… because you got too many boos!”
“Ayyee you didn’t quit me. I don’t get quit. And if I wanted you right now I bet I could have you.” I continued to tease her, fiddling with her hair.
“Gone Davon. You’re so full of shit.” She chuckled, playfully pushing me away.
I let out a small laugh too. “You know I’m just fucking with you Mel. I got to mess with yo’ mean ass. But, hit me up when you hear something back. I’m ready to move asap. And let them know that I don’t need a loan and I’m ready to close asap!” I told her getting back to business as we reached her black on black 2014 Cadillac CTS.
“Ok, I will be in contact. And for the record, if you wasn’t such a whore, I wouldn’t mind making you fall in love with me.” She winked, closing her door and pulling off.
I watched as her car disappeared. I wondered if me and Mel could have ever had something… nah. She was beautiful, but, she didn’t give me that feeling. Only two people ever gave me that feeling, Tanya and now my baby, Renee.
Tiana
I went out on a limb by booking a flight and flying to Detroit to meet up with Diesel. I had been calling him, but, he wasn’t answering my calls like he usually would, and when he did, he was so short with it. Too much time had gone by and I was feeling some kind of way about the way he had pushed away from me.
I spent two whole years seducing him and there was no way in hell that I was going to let my plans go to waste right when I almost had him. I took a week of vacation time at the label and got on the first plane to Detroit. I was still unsure on how he was going to react but if he didn’t accept me like I planned, I had a friend here in Detroit that I could spend some time with, even though I was hoping that would be unnecessary.
After grabbing my bags from baggage claim, I headed over to an empty seat to call Diesel again. This time he answered, thank goodness!
“What’s up T.”
“Hey babe. Guess what?” I smiled, a bit nervous.
I heard him breath into the phone. “I don’t know, what?” He asked unenthused.
I didn’t let him throw me off. I couldn’t. “I’m here in Detroit, baby! Come pick me up from the airport!” I beamed, and the phone went silent. I had to look at it to make sure that he hadn’t hung up.
“Hello? Diesel?”
“Yea, I’m here.” He sighed, then added. “Why would you just pop up here without telling me? I got a lot of shit I’m trying to do right now.”
“You said that I could come. And I’ve missed you. I thought that maybe I could help you get settled in.” I whined, a bit disappointed at how he was reacting. It wasn’t the response that I was going for.
The phone went silent again.
“Hellooo?”
“What airport are you at T? I got plans so I’m going to pick you up. But, I’m going to get you a room to stay in for the night, because I’m not settled in yet.”
“I’m at the Detroit Metro. And you don’t have to get me a room. My friend stays here so you can just take me there.” I told him, trying not to get mad. Me and my friend was on rocky terms right now, but I’m sure she wouldn’t mind spending time with me. I rolled my eyes at the thought of our last conversation. I think that she was jealous of me.
“You got people in the city?” I heard the surprise in Diesel’s voice. I never told him that because he never asked. Plus, she wasn’t a friend that I wanted everyone to know about.
“Yes, I have a little family here.”
“Oh... Well, I’ll be there in like 20 minutes.” He huffed, ending our call without saying goodbye. I knew that he was a little caught off guard, but, I had every intension on putting him back on track.
Diesel
I couldn’t believe Tiana would just pop up in the city like this. It was a bit psychotic and stalkerish to me. I was definitely going to check her about that. Here I had told Renee that I would be to her house in an hour for dinner, but, now I had to figure out a way to get rid of Tiana.
Me and Renee had been going strong since the night that we met. If she wasn’t chilling with me at my room, I was at her house. I even got to meet her daughter and her little boyfriend. So I didn’t know how I was going to have time to spend with Tiana, and to tell you the truth, I didn’t want to find the time.
I was putting my 100% into seeing where me and Renee would go. Things were going smooth as hell, I concluded, making a slight right onto the Merriman Rd. exit, leading me straight to the airport.
When I pulled into the terminal that Tiana was at, she was standing outside waiting for me. I sat back and watched her as she fiddled on her phone, looking up every two seconds, I assume to see if she saw me. She didn’t know what ride I was pushing because I had sold my car before I left L.A.
I had almost forgotten how gorgeous Tiana was. She was definitely looking right today in her little mini dress and heels. I knew that she was trying to look sexy for me. I let out a small laugh, pulling out my cell phone to call her.
“Hey babe. Are you here?” She answered, searching the lot for me.
“Yea, I see you trying to look all sexy for me too.” I teased, honking the horn so that she knew which car I was in. I pulled over to the side and hopped out to help her with her bags.
“Heyyy!” She squealed, jumping up into my arms and hugging me tight around my neck. “I missed you!” She cooed.
I knew that Tiana was feeling me. But, we were never in a relationship, and outside of conversation and that one time we tried to take it there, it was strictly friendship. I didn’t want her to think that anything had changed, because she was not about to start popping up on me like this. I know that she was young and all, but, Tiana was a smart chick and I’m sure she knew that this wasn’t cool.
“You missed me, huh?” I shot loading her bags into the trunk.
“Yea, I did actually.” Tiana responded, standing next me. “Didn’t you miss me?” She added, hopeful.
We got into the car before I responded, “Look T, I’m not even gone front. I’m not feeling the way that you just popped up. That’s not cool. I don’t even want you to think that it is.”
“But you promised me that I could come so I didn’t think that it was a big deal.”
“I know what I promised, but I didn’t say when. All I’m saying is next time we should both discuss this before you decide to hop on a plane and fly all the way across the country on a limb.”
“Ok” She agreed disappointedly.
I didn’t mean to be so harsh to T. But, how could I not? She had really just pulled some young girl stuff on me. Renee had called me twice and here I was an hour late for our dinner date and I know she was going to be pissed.
Renee
I had went all out for this little dinner that I planned for Diesel. I wanted to show him how much I really appreciated him. I had been waiting all my life to feel the way that h
e made me feel. Hell, I hadn’t taken a drink in nearly two months, and I had no desire to. I even started working up at Diamond’s boutique. I used it to keep my mind occupied when Diesel wasn’t around.
I know that we were moving extremely fast. But, I didn’t want to slow it down. Or maybe I should. I thought, looking at my watch to check the time. It was now past eight o’clock. He said that he would be here at six and now the food was getting cold.
I really hope that Diesel wasn’t on any bullshit. My heart couldn’t take it. I was doing just fine before he came along. Shit, my nerves are bad. I need a drink! I told myself eyeing the cabinet above the refrigerator where I knew that I had an emergency bottle of liquor stashed that I hadn’t thrown away.
My mouth got to watering, craving for it. But, I told myself that I needed to be strong. I looked away, blowing out the candles that I had lit. Then I covered the food and placed it in the oven. I had to get out of the kitchen before I relapsed.
I grabbed my phone off the table and tried Diesel again, only to receive the voicemail. Forget him, I tried convincing myself, hating that I allowed him to come into my life and dictate it so easily.
I ended up dialing my baby girl. I needed to hear her voice to give me the strength.
“Heyyy ma!” She answered giggling. “What’s up old lady.”
“Nothing, I was supposed to have a dinner date with my new friend but he played me.” I answered, a bit disappointed.
“Aww, no he didn’t. Do you want me and G to come over there and be your date?”
“Hell no! I’m not about to be looking into y’all goofy faces. Ain’t nobody trying to be the third wheel.” I scrunched my face up, with a giggle.
“Well forget you too, then. We could have came over and played spades or something. But, it’s okay. Me and my boo are going to enjoy our own goofy faces. Ain’t that right baby?”
“Whatever Diamond bye!” I rushed her off the phone shaking my head.
I liked her new dude, but, I was attached to her ex, Trae. That was my boy! I hated how he just up and went M.I.A on my baby, but, now that he had returned I wondered what she was going to do.
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