“We will give them no reason to do so. I will assure them that we are capable of finding John’s killer for ourselves. We certainly have a history of being independent and capable – and remember a lot of that is down to your skill in keeping us safe. That will stand us in good stead. The pack will be good and keep the geas, although expect a certain level of starstruck idiocy when the Brethren first arrive.” She paused for a moment and changed her tone. “Are you going to be all right, Mackenzie?”
I fixed her with a confident look. “Yes, no problem.” I was all business-like now. Go me. “They’re not going to dazzle me and I can do all those other things. Head down, be unobtrusive, don’t discuss anything with anyone.”
“Are going to be all right with dealing with John?”
She meant dealing with his death. I swallowed and paused for a heartbeat before taking a deep breath and answering. “Yes. Because I have to be.” My voice rang clear and I knew it was true. I’d do him no favours by curling up somewhere in a corner and weeping.
Julia stared at me for a moment, her eyes unblinking. Then she nodded as if to herself. “Okay then.” She stood up and stretched, catlike despite her age. “I am going to take a long bath. There’s lotion in the cupboard.” She jerked her head to the closet next to the study door. “They’ll be here at noon tomorrow – be ready.”
I nodded. Julia left quietly but I remained standing there for a second or too, mulling over what she had said. I didn’t want the Brethren to come. But then I hadn’t wanted John to die either. I just had to swallow it down and last the distance. It couldn’t be that hard. With that resolve in my mind, I opened the closet and found the unmarked lotion bottles. I took them all. If I was going to do this, then I was going to do it properly. It was time to get ready.
Chapter Four
After midday the next day my unshakeable resolve was weakening. I was hot and irritated. My scalp felt itchy from the dye and every time I turned my head I could smell the shifter lotion reeking from my skin. Of course I didn’t dislike shifter smells – after living with them for so long I rarely even noticed any difference between their scent and mine, not that it was an unpleasant difference – but I wasn’t used to smelling them on myself.
We were all stood in the hall. It was a large room immediately off the great oak front door. Shabby portraits of alphas from decades past adorned the walls, along with a couple of twee chocolate box landscapes. Underneath the paintings were panels of varnished yet undecorated wood and on the floor were slabs of smoothed grey stone. I tried to push aside the reminder of why we had all been there in the same place just last night, feeling myself still perilously close to great hiccupping tears that I was pretty confident would never stop if I let them start. Standing towards the back, I shifted my weight from one foot to the other. I had chosen my spot very carefully so I could keep myself relatively hidden from the gaze of the incoming Brethren. I was too sensible to aim for the very back – that’s where the trouble-makers usually headed and I was sure that those stood there would be noted immediately for no other reason than that they were hanging back. But I still wasn’t happy.
The tension in the room was palpable. I tried to breathe through my mouth to avoid being assailed by the stench of weak fear that was emanating from those around me. It was so obvious that even I could smell it. By my side I could feel Tom shifting from foot to foot. I hissed at him in irritation and he stilled for a heartbeat before returning to his nervous shuffle.
“It’s been almost an hour,” he moaned. “Why aren’t they here yet?”
“Perhaps they’ve been held up because they haven’t finished eating all their young yet,” I snapped.
“Oh dear,” came a soft voice sheathed in steel from behind me. “I hardly think that attitude is going to impress the Brethren, Mackenzie.”
“And why the fuck would I want to impress them, Anton?”
The voice laughed, gratingly. “I give you two hours before they see you for the rabid animal you are and put you out of your misery. Oh, but wait, you’re not an animal, are you? You’re…” The voice deliberately stopped just there, daring me to fill in the blank myself.
I spun around, left hand clenched whilst my right reached into my sleeve for my dagger.
Cease.
I brushed away the voice inside my head and began to slide it out of its sheath. In front of me, Anton’s blue eyes sparked, daring me to continue.
Mackenzie Smith. You are drawing attention to yourself.
I stilled, realizing that other heads were starting to turn my way.
“Red, are you crazy?” Tom’s hand snatched at my wrist although his body remained facing the front. “Do you want them to notice you?”
“They’re not here yet.”
“And what happens when they arrive and you’ve got your hands wrapped around his throat?” Tom nodded his head in Anton’s direction. “You don’t want to give them any reason to single you out.”
Anton’s eyebrows raised tauntingly.
Mackenzie. The boy is right. Remember what we spoke about. You know what would happen if…
I pushed the voice out, slamming shut the mental gates, and turned back to face the dais. Unable to help myself, I glanced in Julia’s direction. The older woman gazed back impassively, no sign on her face that she was upset that she’d been shut out from my thoughts. I grimaced and forced my hand to move back down to my side. My fingernails dug into my palms. I could hear Anton laughing from behind me.
Not a good start. And it hadn’t actually even started yet.
Anton had the same geas about revealing my true nature placed on him as the rest of my pack, and couldn’t say a direct word about it, but that didn’t mean he wouldn’t find other ways of forcing my hand and making me show who I really was. I didn’t know why my presence caused him to feel so much animosity but I’d given up trying to change his mind about me years ago. I was certainly never going to be anything but human, not unless a vamp decided to snack on me at least and even then that might not work. John had offered me the chance to be turned into a shifter when I reached my majority of eighteen. I had jumped at the chance, naturally. It had meant that I would finally, truly, belong. He’d bitten me and waited for the cells in his saliva to work their way through my body. Unfortunately something inexplicable had prevented the lycanthropic cells from taking hold – just another reason for Anton to jibe at me for being different. The result of the bite had merely been several days of unbelievable agony. And of course by the end of it I was still frustratingly human. However, if I kept my cool, and didn’t let my bloodfire get out of control then Anton wouldn’t be able to do anything about it. Piece of cake.
Tom’s eyes slid towards me. I nodded slowly and he exhaled, his hand releasing my arm.
My usual bright red hair was now a mousy brown and I was wearing a uniform of generic jeans and t-shirt. Nothing that would draw any attention to me whatsoever, unlike several of the pack members who had taken the opportunity to dress dramatically. As far as I was concerned, though, as soon as this rigmarole of a ceremony was over, I could forget the Brethren ever existed. Until then all my attempts to hide in plain sight would be for nothing if I couldn’t get a grip on my temper.
I slowly uncurled my fingers and forced myself to relax. Perhaps they weren’t coming after all I pondered, half hoping - and half chafing at the thought that they had so little regard for my pack that they couldn’t even show up on time. Didn’t they understand what we’d all just been through? I almost growled. Even without the group’s fear of what would happen to them all if my true identity was discovered, and the deep-seated grief that marked John’s passing, they were all on tenterhooks about the imminent arrival. Would the Brethren like them? Would the Brethren find out who killed John? Would the Brethren save the world? Would we be honoured enough to be allowed to wait hands and feet on them? I snorted, making Tom look worriedly over at me again. I ignored him. Screw the Brethren. Part of me wished that I could have been lon
g gone and then wouldn’t have to be witnessing the pathetic displays of my pack, my surrogate family, straining at the bit to do anything to please the sodding Brethren. Idiots.
I’d confirmed that none of them other than Julia had ever had cause to come in contact with the Brethren before now – well, let’s face it, we lived in a backwater town in Cornwall for chrissakes, nothing had ever happened before that would have warranted the Brethren’s attention – but the crème de la crème of the shapeshifters’ reputation still preceded them. They were known to be bloody, ruthless and entirely without mercy for anyone who didn’t meet their exacting standards. And still, the pack sighed over them as if they were gallant heroes galloping in to save the day.
And, as it was, I’d have to stay throughout the ceremony, so that the shifters who had taken me in when I was all alone wouldn’t be faced with any hard questions, or harder punishments because they were one ‘shifter’ short. We couldn’t afford to have the heroes looking for me as a suspect for John’s murder when the real culprit was still out there. In three days’ time I’d be free to find the bastard myself. I wondered if the Brethren were so arrogant to think that they would solve it that quickly and with that much ease, or if they just didn’t care and didn’t want to spend any more time away from the bright lights of London than was absolutely necessary. It didn’t matter. Whoever was responsible for John’s murder was going to die a slow and agonising death at my hand. Added to which, my late night conversation with Julia preyed on my mind. I wanted desperately to believe that she was telling the truth and that they all actually did indeed need me.
A sound came from outside and the waiting pack straightened their shoulders and puffed out their chests as if they were one. I did the complete opposite and tried to hunch down. The wooden doors at the right of the hall swung open and twenty or so people, all dressed from head to toe in designer black, came casually striding in.
As if they owned the place, I thought, gritting my teeth and hunching down lower.
The Brethren stopped and lined up in front of us. All of their hands were resting lightly on weapons that hung from their belts. Even from my lowered position I could see the glint of steel. Flexing their authority, no doubt. I looked fixedly down at the floor instead.
A tall gray haired man stepped forward, eyes sweeping over all of us. The room was so quiet that I fancied I’d be able to hear Anton’s balls finally dropping behind me. I risked a glance up at their new leader. He wasn’t what I’d expected. No obvious outpourings of power or charisma. He didn’t look weak physically but neither would I have thought that I couldn’t beat him in a fair fight. This was just a guy – and an old guy at that. I studied him carefully. There was certainly an air of grace and elegance surrounding him and he held himself with confidence and the suggestion of strength but still…I didn’t see it. Maybe it was a shapeshifter thing.
He started to speak. “The Brethren brings condolences for the loss of the Cornish pack’s alpha. We know that he was a good leader who kept the Way and held you together. Do not fear that we will not uncover the truth of what happened.” His slate gray eyes slid over the room. “His death was untimely and – unexpected.”
I blinked at the sudden unexpected rise of tears and my throat constricted and felt tight. John had kept us safe, all of us safe. He had never treated me differently, despite my non-shifter status, and had even spent a ridiculous amount of time training me to fight so that I could hold my own against the rest of the pack should they suddenly decide that having a puny human amongst them was them was too much insult to bear. And there were some who thought that way – Anton behind me for one.
A memory rose unbidden of my ten year self and John outside the keep.
I had been crouched down, throwing dagger in hand, shaking in fear.
“Mackenzie Smith, if you give into fear then it will rule you. Take the fear and turn into focus. Use that focus wisely. Feel for the creature and prepare your mind.”
We had been hunting a small wyvern that had been terrorising local farms. The Cornish pack was generally peaceable and didn’t engage in much fighting (well, few people or even otherworldly things came to sleepy Cornwall to fight) but John had insisted that this was the time I put my training into the real world. I had straightened up slowly and targeted my thoughts towards the clump of trees at the far end of the field. No fear.
A huffing sound had vibrated towards us. I had blocked out everything else and focused on the noise, willing the wyvern to leave the safety of the brush and come out.
“That’s it,” came John’s voice. “You WILL do this.”
I remember gripping the dagger tighter and taking a step forward, probing the trees with my eyes until I spotted a sudden movement on my far left. I took a step forward, and then another. Without warning the wyvern had burst out of the copse and flown like a dagger towards me, staying low to the mossy ground. I kept hold of the fear and, as the creature swooped close, I swung up, gripped onto its leathery neck and hung on with one arm. The wyvern had screeched in rage and dragged me up. It had veered one way then another, trying to shake me off before a taloned paw came swiping round to scrape me off. I had raised my leg and snap kicked the claws out of the way. I felt hot inside and knew that the fire, if I let it, would burn out of control. With my free hand I felt for the soft space in between the beast’s shoulder blades and sank the dagger in. Of course once the wyvern tail-spinned down I had belatedly realised that I was far too high and that hitting the ground was going to be very hard and very painful.
“Focus the fear and fan the flames,” I had whispered to myself, before letting go of the wyvern’s neck at the last minute and rolling to the side to avoid being squished just in time.
My technique had been sloppy and careless but John had run towards me with a huge grin splitting his face. He’d gathered me up towards him a bear hug.
“See? See? I knew you could do it. You might not be a shifter, girl, but you have got skills, and power. You’re amazing.” His eyes had shone down at me with pride and I had realised in that moment that nothing else mattered. I had killed the wyvern and he was proud. It didn’t matter that I was human, I could focus my mind with more skill than most shifters and I had taken down the little dragon when half of the pack would have been too scared to try. I belonged.
Later we had stripped down the carcass together and burnt it. I still had a tooth from the creature’s mouth in the small chest where I kept my meager valuables. John had not let me fail at anything – but now he was dead and I had failed him.
Not without some effort, I zoned back into the present and realised that the gray eyed man was still talking. “These are dangerous times and you are without an alpha. For thirty years we have left you in peace. We respect the Cornish pack and the work that you do keeping this corner of the country safe, however we also offer you an opportunity to brighten these sad days. We will aid you by conducting the ceremony and appointing a new alpha, as is our responsibility. We will hold evaluations and interviews with every single pack member to ensure the appropriate alpha is chosen.
And we also extend you an invitation. The best and the brightest amongst you may join us, come to London and become part of the Brethren, the shape-shifter elite. We have spaces for new recruits. This is your opportunity to join in the battle to keep all of this world, not just Cornwall, safe from all harm.”
A tremor of excitement and fear ran through the assembly. Well that was interesting. Not only would the individual pack members be able to leave and join other packs around the country but they now could also become part of the so-called elite. I knew that just as there would be many shrinking from this challenge, just as many would rise to it and demand it. My brow furrowed. No doubt the Brethren were really just looking for cannon fodder. I felt my hackles rise whilst forcing myself to acknowledge that this could be a good thing. As much as I might despise them for their reported brutality and aggression, the Brethren could be doing me a massive personal favour.
A new alpha would keep my geas in place, and the Brethren’s recruitment drive would surely allow me to see off the backs of all those troublesome shifters who still couldn’t accept me. And who were probably champing at the bit to show off anyway. I was still contentedly sure that Julia would be named alpha – otherwise why else would her Voice now be working?
Without false modesty I knew that, despite my human shortcomings, Julia was right and the pack benefited from at least some of my skills. I might not able to shift but I was pretty much the best they had in any fight. To the extent that since I’d turned into a teenager and gone into defense full time they hadn’t lost any shifter to anyone or anything. Apart from John. I grimaced and shoved that thought away before it overwhelmed me.
Beside me, I could hear Tom panting like a puppy, patently desperate for approval. I wouldn’t have been surprised if he jumped up then and there screaming, “Pick me! Pick me!” Never mind, I’d manage to convince him otherwise later.
Forgetting that I was supposed to be keeping my head down, I scanned the ranks of the other Brethren shifters. I was curious now about what their feelings were about taking in some of their distant country bumpkin cousins. My eyes travelled down the line. There was a bored looking blonde haired woman with a stance that suggested predator –wolf perhaps – then a slight dark man who was obviously a fox judging by the calculating cunning in his eyes, then there was…uh-oh.
The next shifter was looking right at me. Green gold predatory eyes gazed into mine expressionlessly. I snapped my eyes back to the floor and stopped breathing.
I’m no-one, no-one worthy of attention, I whispered silently, trying to quash the rising panic. I couldn’t endanger the rest of the pack by being discovered. Every sinew in my body screamed but I forced myself to keep my eyes and head trained on the ground.
Don’t look up. Don’t look up. Don’t look up. Seconds passed. Minutes.
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