by Unknown
From the Otherworld, Raziel and Thelesis watched, as their daughter grew tall and strong beside them.
Blink.
The images flying past slowed, and I came again to my self. It took me some time to remember myself, so lost in the pageant had I become. It was the voice of Free Will who woke me to myself again, sounding from the Otherworld.
"It ends soon," Thelesis said to her husband Raziel. Their daughter was nearby, engrossed in the epic struggles of an ant colony fighting to extend their empire nearby. Anael could understand the speech of the ants, barking orders back and forth between them; she could understand the speech of all the living creatures Raziel had brought from the World to their home for her to study.
"Yes," answered Raziel at last, turning to his wife. He had been lost in watching his daughter at play, as much engrossed in his study of her as she had been in hers of the ants. The messengers had not known children in the Crystal City, each of them born fully formed and prefect at the merest thought from the Name. A child was a mystery, even to him.
"Then it will be time for you to act?" Thelesis asked, lowering her eyes slightly at her husband.
"As we have planned," Raziel answered, his tone betraying his fears. "They will be tested, first one and then the other, with the trials of Free Will. If they act as the Name expects, they will find themselves driven from their home, and driven from the sheltering arms of their god."
"And made prey for the temptations of the Adversary," Thelesis added.
"Just so," agreed Raziel.
Thelesis stood and walked to her husband's side.
"Is your own little act of creation complete?" she asked, her tone gentle. "Have you completed the gift?"
Raziel lowered his eyes. "Yes, though it threatened to drain the life from me. It is done, and ready for its purpose, should the need arise. Should the man and the woman be driven from the garden and out into the world."
"They will," answered Thelesis confidently, a slight smile on her lips. "It is a question of Free Will, after all."
I blinked, and time passed again.
Raziel and Thelesis stood together now, looking upon the World. Anael was a short distance off, in a heated discussion with a lion. A lamb stood nervously a short distance away, keeping its eyes on the lion and Anael both. The daughter of the Two looked older now, more like her mother than before, but with something of her father's severity around her eyes. She was not alone now, either, it seemed, as I could see three infants of close ages, all boys, crawling around and between their parents' feet.
"Now," said Raziel, his expression grave, "it comes."
"I told you so," replied Thelesis, threading her arm under his.
From the Otherworld, the Two could see the man and the woman, finally tested by free will, ejected from the garden. They had made their choice, and the consequences were theirs to live with from that day onwards.
The garden was closed to them as they exited, the entrance guarded by the flaming sword of a messenger from Crystal City until it could be sealed off to the outside world forever.
"They are Sammael's now," Raziel said. "They are the Adversary's."
"Or the Name's," reminded Thelesis, "should they be coerced to It."
"Either way," answered Raziel, "they will not be free. Not truly, until they can make their choices of their own volition, temptation or divine intervention aside."
"Agreed," said Thelesis. "So you will be going, then? To bring your gift to them?"
Raziel nodded, silent, and held his wife closer to him.
I watched as Raziel moved away, stopping to rest a hand on the shoulder of his daughter, who paused briefly in her discussion with the lion. He continued on to a pillar of carved stone. From a cavity cut in one side, he drew out a small wrapped object the size of his open palm, holding it delicately.
Raziel whispered a word I couldn't make out, and a glittering sphere appeared in the air in front of him. It stood taller than Raziel himself, though not by much, and looked like a shining globe filled with stars. Turning to look one last time at his wife and children, and clutching the wrapped object to his chest, he stepped into the sphere and was gone.
I wanted to know where Raziel had gone. My perspective followed.
Raziel sat on an outcropping of rock on the side of a large mountain, the sky a brilliant blue overhead, the sun warming his skin. He sat casually on the rock, back against the rising mountain, looking out over the plains below. The wrapped object rested on one outstretched hand, held before him, as though offering it to someone.
I wondered who. And then I knew.
This mountain, which later generations would name Horeb, stood on the World, the original of which the Otherworld was the duplicate. Raziel had come here from his home across the void to bring a gift to the living creatures, to deliver them from the games of Celestial Chessmen.
A man appeared on the mountainside before Raziel, scuffed and bruised from his climb. Not a man, I realized looking upon him, but The man.
"You called me," the man said, and I could understand every word. He found his footing on the sliding gravel of the mountain, and stood proudly facing messenger.
"I did," Raziel answered, smiling. "I come to offer you a choice, O Man."
The man shifted warily, casting a glance back down the mountain to the plains below, where his wife was busy looking after their two infant sons. He knew all about choices, and about their consequences. They were far, far away from the garden now.
"I have come to make a gift of knowledge," Raziel added, and Adam stiffened still.
"There is work to be done," the man replied, beginning to turn. "I have had enough of knowledge, enough to last a long life."
"Wait a moment," Raziel answered, beginning to unwrap the object. "This knowledge is a tool, not a test, and can be used or discarded at your whim."
The man narrowed his eyes.
"Who are you?" he asked. "An agent of our Lord? Or another aspect of the Tempter in the garden? Which direction do you drive me with your intrigues, to Heaven or to Hell?"
"Neither," Raziel answered, smiling, and held forth his gift.
It was a silver disk, mirror-bright, bearing on it an image of the World as seen from the void beyond, spiraling like a living thing beneath the metallic sheen. I found I could not direct my attention away from it.
"This is a key to hidden mysteries," Raziel explained, turning the disk in his hands, "opening doors to secrets undreamt. Into this emblem have I put a portion of myself, a fragment of my being and wisdom containing the sum of all that I have seen and learned. In it, you will find the answers to every question you could ever conceive of asking, the history of your world from beginning to end, from first light of dawn till the final crack of doom. If you take it from my hands and use it all the days of your life, you will be a free creature, able to ferret out deception and coercion and face the world with eyes open. Never again will you and yours be pawns in the games and tests of the Name or the Tempter, driven towards either the Crystal City or the Grave. You will have the heavier burden of choosing your own road, and living with the consequences."
The man walked slowly forward, his eyes locked on the silver disk in the messenger's hands.
"This is a trick," the man said, but he didn't believe it.
"It is not a trick," Raziel answered. "It is a choice."
The man looked from the silver disk, to the messenger Raziel, to the disk and back again.
"To live free," the man said, "would be a good thing." He smiled, a little sadly, and took the disk from the messenger's hands.
Raziel smiled, but as I watched the image of the messenger and the first man on the mountain side wavered, slightly at first and then spinning and rippling with greater and greater speed. I felt dizzy and lost as the world in front of me became a roiling spiral of motion and light.
And the world opened up, and the spiral swallowed me whole.
And the spiral swallowed me…
And th
e spiral…
And…
I was back on the featureless white plain, and when I reached up to rub my eyes cartoonishly was surprised to find I had hands again. Hands to rub with, and eyes to rub. I patted myself down and was satisfied everything seemed to be in order.
It also seemed like my emotions were back in working order again. All through the show, I'd been a pretty passive observer, like my reactions were being tamped down, but now I was starting to feel like myself again.
"Alright," I said out loud, "let me see if I have this straight. There's something out there that might be the Judeo-Christian God, or might just be some extradimensional all-powerful whatchamacallit, and either way it's got a city full of angelic messengers created to do its bidding. And a couple of these angel-types turned anarchist and took off on their own, made a magic silver disk, and gave it to man. And now it's on the front of the book."
I was skeptic enough not to accept at face value that one of the world's set of mythologies had an inside line on being true. For all I knew the villain of the piece had it right, and what had passed itself off as "God" to a bunch of Semitic nomads thousands of years ago was just an interloper from hyperspace and not the "creator" at all. It was academic at this point, though, because clearly something had been around and messed with humanity.
Whatever it was, the booming voice wasn't talking. Or maybe it was just waiting for me to ask it something.
"So who are you, mystery voice? Are you the angel? The disk? What?"
"YES," boomed the voice from everywhere and nowhere.
"Great," I answered under my breath. "So how did this little magic dingus that knows all end up on the cover of a moth-eaten old book? And who wrote in the book in the first place?"
"A QUESTION," the voice boomed, "BEHOLD, AND–"
This was starting to sound familiar.
"Wait, wait," I shouted, waving my arms. "Don't do the whole super-Imax total immersion show again! I think one ride on that coaster is enough for one lifetime." I rubbed my hands together. "Is there anyway you could, I don't know, just answer my questions?"
There was silence for a moment, and I fancied the voice was off somewhere thinking things over.
"I think I can answer your questions," said a more human sounding voice from behind me. "If you prefer a more mundane approach."
I wheeled, startled, and standing there before me was the messenger from the story, the one who split heaven and tried to change the rules.
"Are you…" I started, nervously. "That is, you aren't a… you know…"
"A messenger?" said the figure before me, smiling openly. "No," he added with a shake of his head. "I am the emblem itself, the disk of which you speak. Or an aspect of it, at any rate."
I looked him from head to toe. He was a bit taller than me, as perfect an image of human beauty as the messengers had seemed in the Crystal City, dressed simply in a blinding white suit.
"Wait," I said, "you mean you're the guy with the booming voice." I waved my arm overhead. "The sound of thunder with the limited syntax?"
The figure in front of me smiled again.
"In part, yes," he answered, "and in part, no. There are many aspects to the Sefer Raziel, all parts of the whole."
"The Sefer Raziel?" I asked.
"The book of secrets," he answered. "The Book of Raziel. That was what the sons of the first man came to call Raziel's gift. The name was remembered ever after, though in time most had forgotten its true meaning."
I started to pace back and forth, the figure before me finally providing a point of reference. It was nice to be able to move again, in my own body at last.
"Okay, so answer my questions already, if you can," I said. "What happened to the disk after the 'first man' got it? How did it end up on the book?"
The image of Raziel seemed to think for a moment, and then answered.
"This book of secrets," he began, "this Sefer Raziel, made free creatures of the first man and his family. Their sons grew tall and strong, schooled by their father in the mysteries of the Sefer Raziel, free from the influences of the divine or demonic. When one of the first man's sons chose to slay the other, he did it of his own free will. He made his choice, and was driven from the presence of his family in consequence. He would live as an outcast, the Lord's mark upon him, but not as a pawn in the games of kings."
This was going to be story time, I could tell already. I decided to keep quiet and hear what the thing had to say.
"Anael, first born of the Two, had grown fond of the outcast son, watching the long years from the Otherworld. When he was driven out to live alone in the wilds, she found herself sleepless with worry over him and ached to see his loneliness and pain. In the end, Anael left her parents and family on the Otherworld and traveled to the World to take as her husband the outcast son of the first man. Anael would be the first child of the Two to travel to the world of men, but she would not be the last.
"The sons and daughters of the Two, calling themselves the Children of Dawn, grew more numerous as the generations passed. Though long-lived and strong, they were with each passing generation less divine beings than their parents were. They peopled the Otherworld of their parents, learning the ways of the World, and making of their home a paradise. But they grew bored with the tedium of perfection and longed for the challenges of the flawed.
"Meanwhile, the sons of Adam kept close hold on the Sefer Raziel, and as the generations passed hid its wisdom and secrets from their brother men. Some of the Children of Dawn counseled their father Raziel to take back his gift, or else make plain a show of his power, to remind the men of the World of their place. But Raziel would not. Having broken with the divine plan and intervened in the destiny of men, he was now content to wait, and watch, seeing the World unfold before him. He would act when the time was right. Raziel was a lenient parent, though, placing no prohibitions on his children, or on their interaction with humanity. In time, more of the Children of Dawn left their homes on the Otherworld, traveling to the World to seek excitement and adventure in imperfection. The short-sighted sons of man, encountering the wandering Children of Dawn over the generations, came at last to view them as gods themselves, gods of sky and water, fire and war. Many of the Children of Dawn accepted the praise and prayers of the sons of man, setting themselves up as absolute rulers of the earth.
"The keepers of the Sefer Raziel, though, knew the truth. The silver disk, mirror-bright, showed them the truth of the world and taught them the story of Raziel, the messenger who sacrificed himself for the sake of man, who turned his back on the Crystal City and the undying love of the Name that men might live free. The light of freedom, bought at so high a price, was guarded jealously by the sons of Adam through whose hands the Sefer passed. Enoch, Noah, Solomon.
"In time, the keepers of the Sefer revealed portions of their secret knowledge to their brother men, shadows of truth to set them on the path to liberty. They encoded the secrets in the form of parables and stories, the unvarnished fact becoming veiled fiction, the thing itself becoming symbol. The Sefer Raziel became the torch of light, stolen from the heavens, the messenger Raziel the Lightbringer fallen from the skies.
"Through cultures and centuries the keepers of the Sefer moved, passing the disk from the desertbounded sons of Israel to the water-bordered sons of Greece. Among the Greeks, the Cult of the Lightbringer was founded, the parables and symbols codified for the good of all men. To those beyond the inner circle, the Lightbringer was Prometheus, fallen Titan bound to a mountainside for his overmuch love of man; to those inducted into the secret rites of the Lightbringer, he was known as Lucetius.
"In time, along with science, mythology, and politics, the Greeks gave to the Roman conquerors the Cult of Lucetius. The Sefer Raziel itself, the cherished centerpiece of all wisdom, was kept in secret in Rome, kept close by the secret history of the work of the Cult through the centuries. The Cult of Lucetius, though, had extended its arms east into India, and further into China, and nort
h into the lands of the Norsemen. The brothers of the cult identified each other by use of a secret symbol, a four-armed spiral set in a circle, the symbolic representation of the Sefer Raziel itself.
"Strengthening and renewing the purpose of the brothers of Lucetius, at the culmination of their secret rites and meetings the followers of the Cult would reenact symbolically the story of the Lightbringer, and of his gift to humanity. Lighting torches and repeating their sacred laws, the followers of Lucetius would go out into the world to work towards the improvement of their brother men's lot. In time, legends would arise over the boundless good will and sacrifices of this secret order of men, who fought for justice and freedom with hands stained black.
"With the rise of the Cult of Lucetius, its followers working everywhere for the liberation of their fellow men from the oppression of outside forces, the Children of Dawn found their worshippers dwindling in number, their influence on the wane. No longer able to play the great god on the hill, many were forced down into the cities and towns of men, forced to pass as brother men. They gathered power to themselves by force or coercion, having developed the taste for control. So involved became the long-lived Children of Dawn in their mundane pleasures that when they first discovered the roads to the Otherworld had been closed, they hardly seemed to care. But in time the sons and daughters of the Children of Dawn would grow weary of the World and long to return to the Otherworld. It was whispered among them that the Sefer Raziel of their first father might contain the keys to regaining the Otherworld, but over generations and continents the Children of Dawn could not locate the Sefer, so well was it hidden.
"Over the centuries, the Cult of Lucetius, now called by some the Order of the Black Hand, seemed to forget its original purpose. The Sefer, bound to the ongoing history of the Order, was cloistered away from view, seen by few, touched by almost none. The symbols and parables of the shadow teachings, devised to hide knowledge of the Sefer Raziel while sharing its wisdom, in the end eclipsed the true teachings of the Order. As the years passed, the followers of the Lightbringer were less and less in the world working their fellow man's good, and more and more hoarding power and prestige to themselves. Stories of the black-handed men who had in golden ages appeared out of shadows to fight oppression receded into legend, and then were nearly forgotten all together. The Order, splintered and secretive, grew in different lands and cultures into varied forms, with different aims, but always identified by the sign of the four-armed spiral, the torch, or the stained hand. When the book was lost at sea between the old world and a newly discovered land rich with opportunity, the Order lost its secret beating heart, and the gifts of the Lightbringer, the hope for true freedom for all living creatures, were seemingly lost forever. The Order would survive, but would resemble its first birth no more than the Grave resembled the Crystal City, becoming a dark mirror image of itself."