Everything seemed to move in slow motion to Queen. With everything that was going on around her she had one and only one concern, Paul. Queen knew that the two shots that hit him both produced fatal wounds. One pierced his heart and the other pierced his spine. Still, he managed to smile as he gazed into Queen's beautiful eyes.
"Mye Beloved Queen, you are an alluring thing of beauty." He smiled. "You know, I thought I'd never get my head in your lap again," He joked.
"I love you. You know that right? I never stopped loving you and I always will, love you." She declared as she fought back tears and kissed his face.
"I know. I love you too, Mye Queen." He answered as he started to fade. "Look, take care of Teddy for me. Keep him out of trouble. Okay? You're the only one left that can control him."
"I will. Just save your breath. The ambulance is on the way. You're going to be fine. You'll be right here to help me keep him tame."
"Logic's a good man, Queen. He's good for you. I can trust him to take care of you."
"Paul please.... Don't talk like.... Just hold on. Oh God please... Somebody help me!" Queen started to unravel as she realized that he was rapidly slipping away. "Help me somebody! Help me!" She streamed.
Paul’s hazel eyes pierced hers and he looked right through her as he drew his last breath and slipped away. Teddy and Logic ran over to help, but there was nothing that anyone could do. Queen released a blood curdling scream when she discovered that he was gone.
"Get her out of here Logic." Teddy cried as he closed Paul's eyes. Teddy held his best friend in his massive arms, moaning and groaning like a wounded animal. His heart was heavy, his spirit was broken and he knew that he'd never be the same again.
Logic and Dorian somehow managed to drag Queen and Jade away from the scene. Jade was in shock and inconsolable. Queen was so distraught that she could not walk. Logic eventually had to throw her over his shoulder and carry her kicking and screaming through the crowd. She refused to leave Paul’s side.
"Baby, I'm sorry. I'm so, sorry, but we got to get out of here." He kept saying as he fought back tears and emotions of his own.
Queen did not respond. Her spirit was severely hurt and her soul was mortally wounded. It felt like her heart had just been sucked from her chest. She was brokenhearted and quickly begin to withdraw from reality. Logic tried as hard as he could to comfort her, but comfort and peace had escaped way beyond her grasp. Paul was dead and Queen was absolutely devastated.
CHAPTER 34
It had been over two weeks since Paul was murdered. The funeral was a blur to Queen. Although her body was there she was somewhere lost in the chaos of her mind. It was almost as if she was being held captive in a bad nightmare and daylight refused to come. In a way it was similar to the movie Ground Hog Day. Every time Queen closed her eyes she relived that horrific night. And each time it replayed in her mind she tried to change something. Something that she hoped would somehow change the outcome of the chain of events which lead to the senseless murder of her lover and her friend.
But each time the outcome remained the same. Paul lay dying in her arms, asking her to look after his best friend, Teddy. The same best friend who she had enticed to betray him.
Held captive by her remorse, guilt and shame, Queen remained a prisoner of the unforgiving demons that haunted her every dream. Unable to shake the grip of these gruesome nightmares Queen knew that it was doubtful if she'd ever be able to take care of herself let alone Teddy. There was no way out and Queen felt helpless and alone.
Each day she withdrew more and more. Day by day she became less functional. Queen was a complete mess and Logic was worried and afraid that he may lose her to depression or even psychosis. Alarmed and confused he confided in the most unlikely candidate on the planet.
"Hey man. Thanks for meeting me here." Logic said as he welcomes Teddy to his booth at the TGIF bar and grill. "I didn't want to talk at the condo with Queen around."
"Why? Is something wrong with Queen?" Teddy asked concerned as he greets Logic with a firm hand shake and a pat on the back.
"No... I mean she's still not herself. I don't know... I'm really starting to worry about her."
"What's going on? Talk to me." Teddy urges as he sits down.
"Hell, I don't even know where to begin."
"Just pick a spot and talk. If somethings going on with Mye Queen then I need to know. Tell me what's happening."
"Look, do you want something to drink?" Logic asks as he signals the waitress to order his second beer.
"Yeah, I'll take a Corona."
"Hi. I see your party has arrived. Are you ready to order or do you need some more time?" The waitress asked Logic as she eyed Teddy like he was a Tasty Cake.
"Hi Danielle. Can we get two Corona's and some buffalo wings? And we'll need a little more time with the menu."
"No problem. Unless there's something else, I'll be right back with your Corona's." Danielle said as she winked at Teddy.
"Uh... Danielle where did you get that accent?" Teddy asked as he surveyed Danielle's humps and bumps.
"Mexico, why do you like it?"
"Oh I love it." Teddy grinned.
"Good, I get off at midnight."
"Then I'll be out front at eleven forty five."
"Let me get those Corona's."
"Danielle's kind of cute." Teddy observed as he watched Danielle's romp shake as she walked away. "Looks like I'm having Mexican for a midnight snack tonight."
"Apparently..." Logic nonchalantly replied as he cruised the menu. "Tell me something... Why must you pick up every stray pussy that rubs up against your leg?"
"I don't even know... It's not like I don't have enough shit on my plate as it is. So, what's the story with Queen?"
"Teddy, you saw her. At the least she's clinically depressed. She hardly talks. She barely eats. She doesn't get out of bed unless I force her. Hell I got to remind her to bathe."
"It's been hard on all of us, but understandably Queen is taking it a little harder. She feels like it's her fault. Give her a little time."
"I know. I get all of that, but the problem is if she doesn't snap out of it soon her parents are going to have her placed in an institution."
"What kind of institution... a psychiatric institution? Are you serious?" Teddy asked alarmed.
"Yeah, I'm afraid so. They wanted to take her home after the funeral, because she was so distraught and out of it. I talked them out of it, but if they come back and she's worse... I think they'll take her back to Baltimore."
"Logic, you can't let them do that. Queen, needs to be here with her friends, not in Baltimore, and certainly not in a silly farm."
"Trust me I know, but I'm just her fiancé. And I'm barely that. They're her parents, unfortunately they have the legal right to do whatever they want to do with Queen. There's not a lot that I can say or do."
"Fuck that! I'm not going to let that shit happen. So we have to do whatever needs to be done to get Queen out of this funk."
"I just don't know how to reach her. I hold her. I talk to her. I read to her. Hell, I even bathe her. Nothing moves her. Well except...." Logic hesitates as he looks around to make sure no one else is listening.
"Except what?"
"Except sex."
"Sex?" Teddy asked intrigued.
"Yeah. She can't get enough of it.?"
"You've been having sex with her in her state of mind? What the fuck is wrong with you? Take your ass in the bathroom and tug one off if you have to have it. Do you have any idea how insensitive that shit is?"
"Teddy, it's not me, I swear to God. It's Queen. She's turned into a straight up nymph. It's almost like she's addicted to my dick. She's on me four or five times a day." Logic whispered afraid someone would hear him. "It's crazy. She's about to wear my ass out."
"So, am I hearing you correctly? The only thing that Queen wants to do is fuck? Is that what you're telling me?" Teddy asked confused.
"I know, that's some crazy ass shit,
right?"
"Oh yeah it's some crazy ass shit that you're bitching and complaining about it. Nigga, do your damn job!" Teddy laughed. "S-h-i-t... I wish I had your damn problem. Hell, half the niggas on the planet wish they had your problem."
"You say that now. But it's a whole different thing when she's pawing on you twenty four seven."
"Nigga, please! I would pay money for Queen to paw on me. Shit, I would wear her ass the fuck out. She would be running and hiding from my ass." Teddy laughed. "Look, the first week after Paul died I was the same way. I didn't know how to stop thinking about him and what went down. The only time the pain went away was when I was fucking. So, sex became my outlet and I went at it. I must have fucked two or three different girls every day for about a week. And I am sure some of them are still trying to walk straight, because I laid that shit down repeatedly. The only reason that I'm remotely, semi-sane right now is sex, alcohol and more sex. Queen's just looking for an escape from the pain. She's fighting her way through it the only way she knows how."
"Look, I can go! And don't think for a second, that I can't handle Mye Queen because I can. But damn, five times a day. I just fucking need a break."
"No what you need is some damn Viagra! Take that shit and let Queen work it out. In a few days she'll be straight. I don't see the damn problem. Shit! If you need a pinch hitter then let me know, because I don't have a problem with it." Teddy joked, but he was dead serious.
"Like I would ever let you fuck my woman."
"Hey, I'm just saying. If you want her back leave her with me for a week. Not only will she be talking, I'll have her ass singing." Teddy laughed.
"Whatever nigga! You ain't fucking Queen. So, you better keep working out your frustration and issues on these damn hood rats and chicken heads around here. I can handle my own."
"Apparently you can't. So take the damn Viagra and work her ass until she's good and tired. Cause I’ll be damn if I let them put Mye Queen in a mental institution."
"This shit can't be healthy, can it? Craving sex like that, something must be wrong?"
"Of course it's healthy. Not only is it healthy it's therapeutic. Besides, people grieve in different ways. Queen just wants to feel something... Hell anything other than the hurt and pain she's feeling right now. Apparently, sex does that for her. So you need to pop a V and handle your business."
"Even if I wanted to, where the hell am I going to get some Viagra? You need a prescription for that shit."
"Don't worry about it. I'll take care of that. You just get prepared to do what needs to be done."
"Teddy, I'm not sure about this."
"Sure about what? Logic if you want her back then you got to give her what she wants. More importantly you got to give her what she needs. She needs this right now. Don't fuck around and loose her because you're not willing to do the damn work. You feel me?"
"Yeah, I feel you."
"Alright, call me if you need me and we'll tag team that ass if necessary. She'll wake up and come out of that funk or overdose on Vitamin D in the process." Teddy laughed.
"Nigga you might as well take the plane off fantasy island. Cause that shit's never going to happen. And stop talking about fucking my woman." Logic laughed.
"It's not like I haven't done it before." Teddy mumbled beneath his breath as he scanned the menu.
"I heard that... Just get the shit and I'll handle mine."
'Okay, it's all you baby." Teddy gives Logic a pound. "Do your thing playa. Just bring Mye Queen back."
CHAPTER 35
A week had passed since Teddy and Logic spoke at the TGIF and there was not a lot of change in Queen's condition. Although Logic claimed to be taking care of his business, Teddy was doubtful that he was really giving Queen what she needed. Teddy knew that she needed a straight up, down and dirty, no holds barred Ninja fuck.
Teddy had experienced firsthand the same darkness, guilt, hopelessness and anguish that was holding Queen hostage. He knew that she wanted out but couldn't navigate through the hell of sorrow alone. She needed someone who hurt like she hurt and who loss what she loss to help her relieve the pain in her heart.
Teddy and Jade visited Queen every day. Teddy knew what had to be done but naturally he was not going to get help or support from Jade, let alone Logic. Somehow he would have to get Queen alone for at least forty eight hours to break the dark ceiling of depression that was closing in on her. And he had to do it soon because Queen's parents were scheduled to visit in two weeks.
Fortunately, the angels smiled upon him and presented an unique opportunity for him to have Queen all to himself for the entire weekend. Logic had to fly to Miami for his uncle's funeral. Although he didn't want to leave Queen for three days, Jade convinced him that he should go. The plan was for Jade and Dorian to stay with Queen at the condo, with Teddy as a backup. Logic felt confident that he could trust the three of them to take care of Queen. Besides, he really needed a break. The stress of the past three weeks were starting to take their toll on him and his relationship with Queen.
Actually, everyone had endured the pressures and agony of Paul's murder and its aftermath. Jade and Dorian were not exempt from its mayhem. They were under as much strain as Logic. It didn't take a lot for Teddy to convince them that some face to face alone time was just what their relationship needed.
Jade knew that she could trust Teddy to take excellent care of Queen. She had no reservations with leaving Queen with him overnight. However, leaving her with him for three days was a totally different thing. Jade was well aware of their history. More than anyone she knew exactly how big a risk it was to leave Queen and Teddy alone. Teddy was and would always be in love with Queen. Still the fact remained that on the surface it appeared that dick was the last thing on Queen's mind. So when Teddy suggested that they bring Queen to his ranch to spend the weekend it seemed like a good idea.
"Teddy are you sure that you can handle Queen by yourself?" Jade asked as she prepared to leave Queen with him at his ranch.
"What's to handle? It's not like she's a newborn."
"I know, but I'm just saying it's not as easy as it seems."
"Look, just go and enjoy yourself. We will be find. Queen likes it here. Look, she doing better already." Teddy responds as they watch Queen relax in a rocking chair on the front porch. "I got this. So, don't worry about us. Go and have some fun."
"Okay, I'm going to trust you. But you better not fuck this up. Logic left her with me. If something happens to her.... I'm beating your ass. Do you understand me?"
"Jade, Queen will be fine. I promise." Teddy laughed. "I'm going to take real good care of her. The ranch and the horses will be good for her. You'll see."
"Alright. But we'll be back to check on her tomorrow."
"We'll be here. Just call first." Teddy mumbled.
Teddy knew he had less than forty eight hours to get the job done and he was willing to go all in, balls deep if necessary. He had already stocked up on everything that they would need. He had an ample supply of food, water, fresh towels, condoms and Viagra. Now, he had to see if Queen was going to be down with the plan.
It was a simple plan. Take Queen horseback riding. Get her hot and bothered and then make a move. But sometimes the simplest plans are the hardest to implement. The problem was that Queen seemed neither hot nor bothered by the vigorous horseback ride. It was evident that she enjoyed the ride immensely. She seemed more relaxed and somewhat at peace. But when Teddy hugged her and attempted to kiss her she quickly pulled away.
Teddy soon realized that it wasn't going to be as easy as he thought to seduce Queen. Why would it be? Queen was engaged to Logic and it was obvious that they were in love. A romantic horseback ride through the forest wasn't going to be enough to get her to betray him. As they slowly trotted home Teddy knew that he was going to have his work cut out for him.
"So did you enjoy the ride." Teddy asked Queen who was seated on the horse in front of him.
Queen who hadn't said much of
anything since Paul was killed remained silent. No one was quite sure why she stopped speaking but the silence was killing Teddy. He was determined to get her to say something, anything.
"Queen, I know you can hear me. You have to start talking. Everyone is worrying about you. Your parents are ready to have you committed. Is that what you want?" Queen did not respond. "Look I know how you feel. I lost my best friend that night. I'll be damn if I'm going to lose you too. You're all I have left. So you got to say something, anything. I need you to talk to me. I've been exactly where you are right now. You have to fight your way through this depression. Do you think Paul wanted this for you? Huh?"
Queen said not a word although she heard everything that Teddy said. She couldn't speak. She no longer knew what to say or what to do. How could she go on to live her life and be happy when Paul was dead? Paul was dead because he defended her honor. Paul was dead because of her. Well at least that is what Queen thought.
"Damn it Queen, answer me. Nod your head, shake your head, wave your hand or do something to let me know that you are still in there. Answer me!" Teddy demanded as he poked Queen in her back with the crop of the whip to get her attention. Queen still didn't respond. "You can't answer me because you know that he'd hate to see you like this. Queen, it's not your fault that he's gone. The shit just happened. So, please just snap the fuck out of it.... Cause I can't take you like this anymore. And I'll do anything to bring you back to life. Queen say something... That's alright, I got something for you." Teddy warned as he yelled, "Giddy up!" King took off like a bolt of lightning towards the ranch.
Queen gripped the saddle tight as King thundered through the woods at full gallop. Teddy was obviously upset and was determined to get a scream out of her if nothing else. He pushed the envelope and came dangerously close to killing both of them. But Queen did not make a sound, nor did she flinch or close her eyes in fear. More afraid to live than to die Queen enjoyed the dangerous ride on the wild side. The horseback ride home was exhilarating and succeeded in stimulating Queen's erotic zone.
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