"But. " She searched his face, trying to find something that was not there. She could sense no trace of evil about him. Elaine wasn't sure she had ever been around a wizard that didn't bear some taint.
"You can feel I mean you no harm."
"Yes."
"It is magic that allows you to detect whether I am telling the truth or not."
She shook her head. "I can't always tell who's lying and who isn't."
"With practice you could."
"Can you?"
He grinned. "Most of the time. There are those with greater powers than my own. They can fool me from time to time."
"Magic is unreliable."
"Everything is unreliable, from time to time."
A small smile flashed across Elaine's face before she could stop it.
"See, not so bad," he said.
Elaine swallowed the smile, but couldn't quite chase away the warmth that had accompanied it.
Mala refilled Elaine's mug without asking. She motioned to the mage. "Would you like some more, sir?"
"Yes, please." He held out his mug. He offered her the empty cookie plate, as well.
"Would you like some more sweets?"
"Some more of those excellent cookies would be quite nice."
Mala blushed and dropped a rough curtsey. It wasn't as though Mala weren't complimented on her cooking often by the entire household.
Elaine watched the plump cook hurry away. Did Harry the stableman have a rival? No, that was silly. Mala would know that Jonathan would never let a wizard court her.
Elaine's stomach clenched in a cold, icy knot. Would Jonathan be able to abide a wizard under his own roof? Even if it were her?
Mala returned with a plate of cookies for both of them. She set it on a little stool before the fire.
"Thank you, Mala," Gersalius said.
Mala giggled.
A mere thank you, and she giggled. Elaine had never seen the cook like this, not even around Harry.
Mala left to stir something at the stove. The back of her neck was red with a blush of pleasure.
Was the mage that charming, or was it a spell? Elaine wanted to ask but didn't want to embarrass Mala.
Gersalius sipped his tea and looked at Elaine. There was a twinkle in his eye that seemed to say he knew what she was thinking.
"Do you know what I'm thinking right now?"
"Yes, but it is not magic."
"How, then?"
He leaned forward, lowering his voice. "Your body posture was very disapproving when your cook catered to me just now. Your face is like a mirror, child. Every thought chases across it."
She frowned at him. "I don't believe that."
"You don't want to believe it," he said. "The thought that your thoughts, your feelings, are so easily read by a stranger frightens you."
She opened her mouth to deny it, but didn't. It wasn't so much the mind-reading mage that bothered Elaine, but the others. Did Konrad know how she felt? Did everyone? Was she that transparent?
"I am a very noticing kind of person, Elaine. Most people aren't, even people that see you everyday. In fact, I have found, people that have watched you grow up are often oblivious to you. You know what they say, 'familiarity breeds invisibility.»
"I thought it was, 'familiarity breeds contempt.»
"Well, yes, maybe it was, but I don't think he has contempt for you, do you?"
"You are reading my mind," she said. She sat very straight, hands gripping her mug tight.
"Perhaps I am, a little. The fact that you are an untrained mage makes it easier for me. Strong emotions are also easier to decipher."
Elaine's hands trembled. Hot tea sloshed onto her skin. Mala darted forward, scooping the mug from her hands and dabbing at the spill with a clean towel. "Have you burned your hands?"
Konrad knelt beside Elaine's chair. He pressed a cloth to her hands. She started at the coldness. He had scooped snow into the cloth. "Cold is the best for a minor burn."
His hands enfolded hers, pressing the snow to her skin. Her chest was tight. The weight of his hands round her own chased the last of the cold from her body. Even with snow touching her skin, Elaine felt warm. She felt the warmth creep up her neck, and she knew she was blushing.
Konrad stared only at her hands, at his task as a healer. He never looked at her face.
Elaine's eyes met the mage's gaze. Gersalius was right, Konrad didn't know. He didn't see what a stranger had noticed easily.
"How do your hands feel?" Konrad asked.
She stared down at him. The blush had faded with knowledge that Konrad felt nothing when he touched her. When he'd carried her downstairs, the feel of his body against hers had thrilled her. To him it was just another task. Another sick person to be tended.
"They don't hurt," she said.
He nodded and stood, taking the cloth to clean it and set it to dry. He never glanced back.
"Do you want the tea, Elaine?" Mala asked.
Elaine shook her head.
Mala took the offending mug away. She didn't even flirt with the mage.
"Tell me of your visions," Gersalius said. His voice was gentle, as if he knew what she had just realized. Since he was reading her thoughts, he probably did know.
Her first reaction was anger. How dare he spy on her feelings? She opened her mouth to tell him to get out, to leave her alone, but the look in his blue eyes was too kind, his face too understanding.
"I would not hear your thoughts quite so clearly if I could help it. You give off your thoughts like the sparks from a fire. You shine, Elaine. You shine with so much talent. When I learned how old you were and that you had never been trained, I thought your abilities would be small. How else could the magic have stayed so controlled for so long?"
His face was suddenly serious. He leaned toward her, and Elaine found herself moving closer to the mage. "The strength of your will is fierce, Elaine. You did not want to be a mage, so you squashed the magic down inside of you. You locked it away with pure, shining determination. If you could turn that strength toward learning magic, you would be formidable. And you would learn quickly."
From inches away, she stared into his eyes. He was whispering to her before the fire, a conspirator. His power glided over her skin like wind. The hairs on the back of her neck and along her arms rose. Her skin crept with it. She felt something inside herself flare upward, something neither fire nor cold nor anything she had a name for. Whatever it was, Elaine felt it pouring up through her body, responding to the mage's magic. Like calling to like.
Elaine took a soft, shallow breath. She'd been holding her breath without realizing it. Her fingertips tingled as if magic would pour from her hands. She had the urge to touch the mage, to see if the pull of magic was stronger with a touch. She suspected it would be. She wanted to touch his hand. Her skin ached with the need to see what would happen. With the need came the fear.
She crossed her arms over her stomach, hiding her hands against her body. They balled into fists, digging into her sides, as if they would burrow out of sight. It took all the determination Gersalius had spoken of not to reach out to the mage.
She sat back in her chair as far from him as she could get without standing up.
Gersalius leaned back from her, giving her room. "It can be stronger when mage touches mage. It depends on what sort of magic a person possesses. Yours, even more than mine, is a laying on of the hands, I think."
"How can you tell that?"
He shrugged, smiled. "It is one of my gifts to judge talent in others. Most mages can spot power and judge potential strength, but few can decipher the actual method the magic will choose to come out."
"The magic chooses the way it will come out?" She made it a question, so he answered it.
"Often. If you had been trained earlier, perhaps you could have chosen the path of your own power, perhaps not. But now the magic has made some of the choices on its own. Your visions, for one."
Elaine shook her head. "You make magic sound
like a second being inside of me, with a will of its own."
"I do not mean to. It is not separate from you. It has no thoughts or feelings of its own." The wizard frowned, thinking. He smiled as if something pleasant or clever had just occurred to him. "Say you had a talent for sewing-not a learned talent, but something you were born with. You were born to be a seamstress, or a tailor. But you were never allowed to study sewing. Then one day you made a beautiful ball gown. A week later you made another even more lovely than the first.
"Now, if you'd been allowed to study sewing from a young age, you might have decided to sew ceremonial robes, or winter woolies, but because you left your talent unused, the talent chose to make ball gowns. You might be happier knitting shawls or designing simpler dresses for more modest occasions, but it is too late. Your sewing has decided to make party dresses for the rich."
He studied her face for a moment, as if trying to gauge whether his analogy was working.
"Why don't you know what I'm thinking now?" she asked.
His voice broke into a lovely grin. "Very good, Elaine, very good. When you drew away from me that last time, you closed off more than just your body. You closed your thoughts as well. It was neatly done. But I think the fact you so quickly figured out I could no longer read your thoughts is even more promising."
"But I don't know how I did it."
"Think to how your body felt when you drew back. Think of the sensations. What did it feel like?"
Elaine thought about that for a moment. Had it felt like anything? She couldn't remember. She had moved away from him physically, but had she done anything else? Elaine closed her eyes, trying to recall what it had felt like. The sensation along her skin had retreated when she moved backward. The magic itself had moved back with her, inside her. She had broken contact with Gersalius. She had closed off her mind and her magic to him. That was a comforting thought.
She opened her eyes.
"Tell me," the mage said.
Elaine told him what she had felt.
"You have a wondrous grasp for the basics. What a pupil you would be." His face was eager, as if he had just this minute invented her.
"What would it mean to be your pupil?" She was amazed at her own question. Was she really contemplating studying magic? Yes, she was.
"The more time you could spend with me, the faster you would learn. The faster you would be able to control your powers."
"Would I need to move to your home?"
"You would be most welcome, or I could move here. I would be willing to do that. Under normal circumstances with someone as quick to learn, I would teach from her home. I would not willingly separate a young mage from her family and friends."
The thought sat unspoken between them: these were not normal circumstances.
"Jonathan will never allow a mage to live under his roof."
"Even if it is you?"
Elaine shook her head violently, and her hair whipped across her face. She didn't want to think about it. "I don't know."
"If we could not convince him to let a strange mage live under his roof, perhaps it would be easier to accept after you are trained."
It was logical, but Jonathan's hatred of wizards was not logical.
Blaine called from the table, "It might work."
"And I thought we were having a private conversation," Gersalius said, but there was no anger to his voice.
Blaine came to stand beside them, grinning. "If you move in here, there are no private conversations."
"There is that small hut on the grounds," Konrad said. "We would help you make any repairs and move your things in."
"Do you really think Jonathan would allow a mage to live inside the fort walls?" Elaine stared up at the tall warrior. She tried to find some hint that he wouldn't have made this effort for just anyone, that it was special just for her. His face was unreadable. Could she read his thoughts, as Gersalius had read hers?
The mage lightly touched her hand. No magic, just enough contact to gain her attention. "I would not try it, were I you. We often find out things we do want to know. Besides, how do you think Jonathan would feel knowing you were already trying to use magic on members of the household?"
"You can read my thoughts again."
"I told you, strong emotions make it easier."
Konrad and Blaine were frowning from one to the other. "What are you two talking about?" Blaine asked.
Gersalius smiled. "If Master Ambrose will allow me to stay here, even in the little hut, I will do so. For such a student, I would leave my own snug home even in this snow."
"I'll speak with Tereza," Konrad said. "If anyone can convince Jonathan to say yes, it will be her."
"Do you think he will say yes?" Elaine asked. She leaned toward him, wanting to touch his folded hands, to touch his bare skin, and have it thrill him as it thrilled her.
Gersalius tapped her hand again. He shook his head ever so slightly. Elaine frowned at him. "I wasn't…"
"Untrained magic has a tendency to reach out for things desired," he said, so soft that perhaps no one else heard. Heat crept up her neck to her face. She found herself blushing furiously, angry that her emotions were so obvious. She glanced up at Konrad, but he seemed merely puzzled.
"Why is the magic coming now? Why not before?"
"It has been leaking round the edges for some time. I am here now and can tell you when it's happening, and what the power is trying to do. But it has been manifesting for some time."
Elaine thought about that-Wild magic floating around her body, reaching for what she desired. "Am I dangerous?"
"Mostly to yourself, right now. But that will change, Elaine. With or without training, that will change."
Fear chased over her skin like an icy wave. "I can't risk the people I care about, if Jonathan will not let you remain here, I will have to leave."
"And I'll go with you," Blaine said.
"No, Blaine, we can't both leave."
He had that stubborn set to his chin. "I won't let you go alone. You know that."
"No one is going anywhere," Konrad said. "I'll find Tereza. If you can wait until we get this settled, Master Gersalius?"
The mage bowed his head. "Gladly, if I can have some more of those excellent cookies."
Mala came forward with a newly filled plate. "We'll not lose our Elaine for Jonathan's stubbornness."
"No," Konrad said, "we won't." He turned and left the room in search of Tereza.
"I'd best go with him. You know Tereza has a hard time saying no to me." Blaine left with a grin and a wave, all confidence, at least on the outside.
Mala was stirring the big pot on the stove.
"Konrad would do it for any of us, wouldn't he?" Elaine asked softly."
"I fear so," Gersalius said.
"I'll be able to read his true feelings someday?"
The wizard's eyes held sadness, as if of some old, remembered pain. "In very short order, I'm afraid."
"Did you read his thoughts?"
"No, child, that is unethical unless it is another mage. If the person cannot read your own thoughts, then it is unfair, like reading a person's private letters."
"You don't think I'll like what I find, do you?"
"Truth between us from the very first, Elaine Claim. Mo, I don't think you'll like it."
Elaine looked away from his kind eyes. The fire glistened in unshed tears until the room danced in orange shadow. She closed her eyes, and a single tear trailed down each cheek. There were more pitfalls to learning magic than she had thought. She would learn how to read thoughts and feelings, and no matter how Gersalius cautioned her, Elaine knew someday she would read Konrad. She would not be able to resist. There would be no more guessing, no more hope, or fear, just the truth. And her heart would break, just like that.
FIVE
Jonathan Ambrose sat alone in his study. His window looked down into the inner courtyard of the fort. He could see the shed that the mage had been given. Strange lights danced ov
er the snow, spilling from the shed's windows and open door. Dust flew in gray plumes out the door to dirty the snow. A neat pile of debris magically marched itself outside to be stacked by invisible hands on one side of the door.
There was a golden radiance that shone from the small, dirty windows. Not lamplight, but magelight. How had he let them talk him into this? How? He knew better than to let a magic-user inside his walls. They were weak creatures, easily turned to evil. All of them craved power, and darkness offered easier paths to power than did light. Not more power, but less effort. Jonathan had never met a mage yet that could resist the temptation.
Which brought him to Elaine. Little Elaine. All this time, he had been harboring a mage under his roof. Jonathan sighed and leaned back in his chair. A broken table levitated through the shed door, turning itself effortlessly to fit through the narrow opening. Would Elaine be able to do that, someday?
He had known deep inside that she possessed power, but he had pretended. He had not wanted to know the truth. She had nearly died today. When he touched her, she had been icy, like the long dead. It had not been Tereza's words that had decided it for Jonathan. It had been Elaine's ghost-pale face. Her immobile hand like death in his warm one. The memory of her lying in the snow had decided it for him. If her magic could kill her, she had to be trained. He would not risk her dying because of his prejudices.
A circle of sparks like multicolored fireflies danced against the shed's windows. The question was, could Jonathan stand a mage under his roof? A trained, powerful mage in his household? He had never had children, and never regretted it. What he had not admitted, even to himself, was that Elaine, Blame, even Konrad-they were his children. Or, at least, his family.
Tereza had lost two babies in childbirth. The doctors said another might kill her, and the baby would most likely die. Thordin told of healers in his own land, those who could heal with a touch-could bring life, true life, back to the dead. Jonathan would have given much to have such a healer bring life to his dead children. To heal the pain he saw in Tereza's eyes, and in his own.
A whirlwind danced out through the shed door. In and among the swirling dirt and debris, magic lights whirled, so fast that the individual lights became stripes of glowing color. Snow blew upward in white plumes, reflecting the colors. Dirt mixed with the blowing snow, obscuring the bright lights. All that whiteness and the rainbow lights turned dark. The whirlwind rose above the snow, leaving its load of trash behind, then floated back in the open door.
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