by Terri Meeker
There’s a fine line between courage and insanity…and he flings himself over it.
The Great War, Book 1
Captain Sam Dwight never thought his pre-war vow to “make a difference for good in the world” would come back to haunt him. After suffering a grievous head wound in battle, he awakens in a field hospital, barely able to utter a word.
How fast would his beautiful, determined nurse call for a straitjacket if she knew that every time a bright light flickers in his eyes, he is transported back to the trenches, reaching out to heal a wounded soldier in a flash of dazzling light?
Lily Curtis has seen many a soldier racked with guilt, but she’s never seen one will himself to induce life-threatening seizures. She fears that next time, her hands won’t be quick enough to save her handsome, apparently suicidal charge.
As rumors of an ethereal battlefield specter reach the ward, Sam becomes convinced that his front line mercy missions are real. But with each trip, he spins the roulette wheel with his own life while Lily’s love and the lives of those at the hospital hang in the balance.
Warning: In between gory and emotionally charged scenes on WWI battlefields and field hospitals, there are tall tales, a lemon tree named Henry, a blush-inducing blanket bath in which something pops up between nurse and patient, and a 500-pound pet pig.
Angel of the Somme
Terri Meeker
Dedication
Dedicated to Wes Meeker—writer, soldier, dad—who thought I zoned out during all those war stories. And to Cole Meeker—brother, earliest writing encourager—who tries harder than anyone I know to ‘make a difference for good in the world’.
With thanks to many. To Jennifer Aumanstal, Kay Lawson, Elizabeth Perry and Gillie Sturcbecher, for beta reading, expertise and insight. And to the Research Center at the National WWI Museum in Kansas City, Missouri. And finally to the sweet WWI Vet who shared a train car with me on a long ride through Belgium once upon a time.
I have a rendezvous with Death
At some disputed barricade,
When Spring comes back with rustling shade
And apple blossoms fill the air—
I have a rendezvous with Death
When Spring brings back blue days and fair.
Alan Seeger
Died July 1, 1916
First day of the Somme
Prologue
August 6, 1914
The day England enters the war
The bright pink sunset splashed across the farm yard, portraying a tranquil scene, one that stated unequivocally that God was in his Heaven and all was right with the world. This was, of course, a terrible lie—today of all days.
Sam strode toward the barn, trying to ignore the tightly wound ball of dread knotting in the core of his stomach. He opened the creaky barn door and wove past the stacked hay toward the rear, to where his younger brother and sister waited.
Since childhood, the Dwight siblings had used the pens in back of the barn as their secret meeting spot. Tonight, however, they’d not be planning how to build a dam or deciding which prank to play on the new schoolmaster. This evening’s planning would be of a graver sort.
As soon as Sam rounded the corner, he saw Baden and Evie.
“About time.” Baden hung near the far wall, his lanky frame draped against the back door.
“It was a tricky task to break away from Mum.” Sam caught himself chewing on his nail and shoved his hand into his trouser pocket.
“Well, you’re here now. That’s what counts.” Though Evelyn was hardly a baby at eighteen, he still saw her as such for good reason. She’d never lost her tomboy edge. She looked up at him from the spot she usually chose for these sibling meetings: on a stool in the pen belonging to Lady Precious—her enormous and aromatic pig.
The massive sow turned her bloodshot eyes in Sam’s direction and grunted as if in greeting. Even the most generous assessment would describe the pig’s appearance as startling. She had misshapen ears, mottled grayish-brown coloring and an oversized snout. Her thick bristles stuck up at odd angles, giving her the appearance of a hedgehog-pig crossbreed. Perhaps with a little rhinoceros thrown in for good measure.
Evie stopped rubbing Lady P’s head and gave Sam a curious look. “What’s this all about, then?”
Before he could respond, Baden inserted himself with a bark of laughter. “Doing our all for King and country. What else?”
Sam nodded. “I thought we should meet to discuss out plans now that England’s going to war. Mum’s been wringing her apron all day, too afraid to bring up the topic.”
“Father’s quite keen on the idea,” Baden said. “Spent the better part of the afternoon going on about besting the Hun on the field of battle and Hail Britannia and all of that.”
Baden fiddled with the lock on the barn’s back door, then began absentmindedly kicking at the lower planks with his foot. Kick, squeak. Kick, squeak. It was aggressively annoying, and it was what Baden did best.
Sam took a steadying breath. Best just to cut to it directly. “I wanted to tell you both before I announce to Mum and Father at dinner. Tomorrow I shall sign up with Father’s regiment, the Thirty-second.”
Evie’s lips thinned to a line and she turned her face away from Sam, kneeling down to scratch Lady Precious’s mottled ears.
“Not for me,” said Baden. “It’s bad enough to be named after his old regimental leader.”
“There are worse names,” Evie said, still concentrating on her pig, her voice full of forced cheer. “Father could have served under Haig. Or Kimberly.”
“You’re not intending to enlist, Bad?” Sam felt a wave of relief wash over him.
“Oh, I’m signing up. Just not in Father’s regiment.” Baden crossed his arms.
“But Bad, I’m certain Father could secure a commission for you. If we’re in this together, we could keep an eye out for one another.”
“That’s the problem. You’d keep your eye on me and no thank you to it.” Baden avoided looking at Sam, concentrating instead on bashing his boot against the door. Kick, squeak. “It’s a fine fit for you, old man—don’t misunderstand. To carry on with the regiment and family tradition and all that. Nothing wrong with being the family’s bedrock.”
If Sam was the rock of the family, Baden was the relentless tide, ever-churning against stone.
“You needn’t go at all, you know, Bad.” Evie kept her head tucked down, but Sam could see her chin quivering, ever so slightly. “The farm needs at least one of you, doesn’t it? If Sam is determined to go, you could stay here.”
“I’m going,” Baden said, his tone firm. “But I’m signing to the Royal Flying Corps.”
“Flying? Aeroplanes?” Sam sputtered stupidly.
“Not precisely. I intend to join the First Squadron.” Baden’s face glowed. “Word is that it’s being established for observation balloons.”
“A balloonatic?” Sam paused, trying to find the words. “You can’t be serious.”
Baden leveled an icy stare at his brother. “Quite serious, old man.”
Sam knew better than to argue. His brother had been blazing his own trail since birth. Since before leaving the womb, probably. Sam looked at his siblings. Where Evie and Sam took after their mother with black, curly hair and light blue eyes, Baden took after some distant branch of the family, with dark gray eyes and straight brown hair worn a little too long. It was as if he’d determined to set himself apart from his siblings on a cellular level.
“What about you, Evie?
” Sam asked. “Home fires burning and all that?”
“As they won’t allow me to enlist, I don’t suppose I’ve got much choice.” Evie shrugged, keeping her concentration on her pig.
“Though I don’t expect the war will last more than a few months, managing the farm will be no easy task,” Sam said. “Should this trouble drag into autumn, I can’t imagine how you’ll oversee a harvest with a war on. It’ll be impossible to find hired men. Father’s leg gets worse every year and you’ll have to take a firm hand to keep him from working too hard.” He cast a look toward his brother. “I’m sure that if Baden were to decide to remain on the—”
“I’m going.” Baden’s tone brooked no argument.
“I can manage, boys.” Evie stopped rubbing Lady P’s ears, stood and shook out her skirts. “I’ve always told you, I’m far more capable than you give me credit for.”
“I’m sure you are,” Baden said with a smirk. “But we’ll be home before there is a chill in the air. Mark my words.” He lifted his forefinger to his chest and made an invisible X over his heart. The schoolyard gesture might have looked strange coming from a grown man, but seemed quite natural in this place, where they’d spent so much of their childhood.
“Well now you’ve cursed us.” Sam chuckled. “There’s nothing that’s less certain to come true than one of your predictions.”
“He’s right.” Evie glanced down at the five hundred pound porcine mass reclining on the barn floor. “You were the one who told me that Lady Precious was going to be a prize-winner.”
“You were a child,” Baden said. “I had to be kind. And I remain firm in the conviction that Lady P would take first place, just not in anything you’d want to win.”
Evie stepped closer to Baden and punched his arm lightly.
“Hey, leave that for the Germans,” he protested.
The atmosphere in the barn turned somber in an instant.
Sam cleared his throat. In a flash of inspiration, he reached inside a high cupboard to retrieve a bottle.
“I am shocked!” Evie said, her grin returned.
“More impressed than shocked, really, old man.” At twenty-two, Baden was only three years younger than Sam, yet he persisted with the moniker.
“Now if we can only find a glass.” Sam looked around the barn. His eyes settled on his father’s old soldier’s chest, which was collecting dust beside a pile of hay. He strode to it and flipped open the lid. After digging through some moth-eaten uniforms, he found his father’s old mess kit and a dented metal cup. He fished it out and it made a strange clanking sound. He emptied the cup into his open palm. A dark stone tumbled out.
“Father’s good luck charm!” Evie said.
Sam was familiar with the object, though he hadn’t seen it in years. He turned the strange stone over. It was difficult to see in the dim barn light, but he could just make out a series of carvings in the stone. A few slashes that combined to make a very primitive, grinning monkey’s face. Back when his father had been in the Boer War, he’d picked up the trinket from an African market. The very next day, he’d been grievously injured in a cavalry charge. Father had always credited the totem with saving his life. Instead of being killed, he’d come away from the war with a limp and an army discharge.
“You should bring it with you,” Baden said.
“I couldn’t,” Sam protested.
“Don’t know why not,” Baden shrugged. “Father already gave you the lot when you headed off to college. Might as well take the lucky thing. Can’t hurt.”
“I’d feel so much better if you took it, Sam,” Evie said. After one look into her watering eyes, Sam pocketed the odd totem.
“And now back to our toast.” Sam poured a small measure of amber-colored liquid into the battered metal cup. “Besides, we’re going to need fortification before we announce our plans to Mum and Father.” Though he was careful to say our plans, the only thing that needed fortification was Bad’s insane notion to float about the battlefield in a balloon.
Baden stepped toward him. “First drink to you, old man. Respecting my elders, and all that rot.”
Sam held out the cup, “To making a difference for good.” As he downed the whiskey, a comfortable warmth spread through his chest.
“Well, that’s fine, isn’t it? After yours, my toast will seem selfish.” Baden grabbed the bottle.
“You don’t give it a rest, Bad.” Sam laughed. “I almost pity the German that takes you on. Almost.”
Baden held the whiskey high in the air. “To the foreigner who is fool enough to take me on, then. I promise not to fight fair.” He took a deep swig directly from the bottle, then handed it to Sam. To both brothers’ shock, however, Evie snatched the bottle from their grasp.
“If you two learned to focus your energy on the Germans instead of one another, we’d win this war in a week.” She held out her free hand and raised her brows at Sam. He hesitated for a moment, then dropped the cup into her open palm. Evie splashed some whiskey into the cup. “To putting Fritzi in his place.”
She took a delicate sip, then up-ended the cup and swallowed it in one mighty gulp. She gave a startled cough, then looked at her siblings. Though her eyes were watering to overflowing, she plastered on a wide grin. She added quickly, “And to my brothers’ quick return.”
Sam shook his head. Little Evie, always so determined to keep up with the boys. He plucked the bottle and cup from her, then placed them back inside the cabinet. “And that’s enough of that.”
“Spoiling our fun again,” Baden grumbled. He stepped around the pigpen and joined his siblings.
Sam led the trio toward the barn’s entrance. “When we return in a month, we’ll make another toast.”
“With clean glasses from the house,” Evie suggested.
“Hear, hear.” Baden said.
Just as they reached the door, there was a loud squeal and then the sound of crunching wood. Sam spun to see Lady P’s expansive rump disappear through the partially smashed back entrance.
“Bad! You’ve left the back door unlatched!” Evie wailed.
Sam jogged toward the rear of the barn and shot a look at his brother. “Run around the front and we’ll flank her.”
“Not to worry, Evie,” Baden shouted as he raced toward the front entrance. “We’ll have her back in her pen before Mum sets supper. I’m certain of it.”
“Now you’ve done it. Gone and made another prediction.” Evie pointed at the door. “Just stop talking and go, Bad.”
Lady P gave another squeal of freedom, this one sounding much farther away. The brothers disappeared in opposite directions, leaving their sister standing alone in the pigless barn.
Chapter One
Two years later
France, July 1, 1916
The first day of the Battle of the Somme
Sam leaned against the trench wall as another blast echoed through the air. A split second after each explosion sounded, a fine rain of dirt and mud settled on the soldiers huddled on the trench floor.
He looked back to check on his men. They were tightly packed in, shoulder-to-shoulder and no room for jostling about. Men weren’t made to live in ditches like this. The earthen walls were too much like a grave. If all went according to plan, and there was no reason to think otherwise, he wouldn’t have to live like this for much longer. None of the lads would.
Another distant boom shook the ground.
Though the sounds of explosions usually weren’t cause for celebration, these were, and all the men packed inside the trench knew it. Each boom meant the Tommies had blown up another mine. They’d been digging under the German lines for weeks, all in preparation for this morning, for this final push that would finally bring this miserable war to an end.
The world had never seen the likes of the past weeks. Nor would it again, Sam was sure. It was the greatest Alli
ed assault of the war. After two long years of stalemate, it was about damned time. For two weeks, the Tommies had rained a mind-boggling number of shells upon the Jerry trenches. Word was that the bombardment could be heard all the way across the channel, even as far as London. Each time the ground shook, Sam wondered if they might be feeling the reverberations back at the farm. He imagined the barley fields swaying with the slight vibration and the creaky kitchen floor giving a groan of acknowledgement. The thought of the war’s reach extending across the channel to the farm chilled his blood.
The men tensed, waiting for the next blast. It didn’t come. The silence seemed unnatural following so many days of the constant barrage. The air felt too still, as though the world was holding its collective breath. His men looked at him, pale-faced as they shifted their feet nervously like the West Sussex farm boys they were. Like Sam was, beneath the layer of soldier he’d been forced to wear.
A few of the newer recruits gave him the white-eyed stare that came with too much time in the trenches. They reminded him of sheep huddled together in the shearing shed back home.
Suddenly, a familiar whizzing sound filled the air and Sam pulled himself flush to the trench wall. A shell hit nearby and the ground quaked from the impact, dislodging another thick shower of mud and stone upon the soldiers.
A Big Bertha.
It couldn’t have been. It was impossible. After so many weeks of shelling, the Jerries shouldn’t have any functioning artillery at all. Their lines had to be a shambles…or so Commander Dallworth had insisted. He’d assured the officers that come the morning of the attack that the Tommies would simply stroll across No Man’s Land and take what was left of the abandoned German trenches.
The enemy howitzers, however, begged to differ about the condition of their lines. Another shell buzzed and landed impotently a few hundred feet ahead of the English trenches.
“Captain Dwight, sir?” A voice quavered. Sam turned to see a very young man standing at awkward attention, his face looking grave beneath a layer of grime.
