Because what could he say? Don’t do it, Marie, I’ll be your baby daddy. I’ll leave my career as a pro athlete to be your boyfriend, settle down like a happy little family? We both knew that was impossible, we’d never reach the Emerald City. So instead, our voices were silent, our bodies doing the talking, coupling again and again, struggling, seeking solace in one another, Trent showing me see colors I’d never seen before, a dazzle of rainbows that lifted me off the bed every single time I crested. Because this was a twenty year-old male embarking on a high stakes career, and I couldn’t hold him back. I didn’t want to. He was magnetic, ambitious, and compelling, and I couldn’t be a drag, a shackle around his ankle as life exploded, the pursuit of his dream.
So instead, we took what we could from one another, our bodies hot, tangled, simmering with hard loving, the pounding so satisfying, yet unsatisfying as well. Because we had a meeting of the physical but the emotional was a complete mess. We cared about each other, I loved the man, and yet there was no future. And so desperately, I went at him harder, begging him to take me every which way, offering myself, every position, every inch of my body, every sweet hole available to his hands, his mouth, and yes, that huge cock.
But like everything else in the world, all good things come to an end. I woke Monday morning and a deep depression sank onto my shoulders, pressing me into a blue-grey fog, making it difficult to breathe. Because Trent was gone for good this time, his big body departed. It wasn’t unusual for him to sneak off in the mornings, leaving my bed silently to lay on the couch again before Robbie got up. But this time it was different. The vibrations in the house were off, there was no big man sleeping on the sofa, the house was somehow emptier, almost ringing with echoes, like I was a doll in a lonely mansion.
So I got up, heart heavy, knowing without having to look that Trent was gone for good this time. He was back with the team, back off to his itinerant lifestyle that meant traveling all over the county, a game in a different city every night, long bus rides, endless practices and hordes of women. That made me crumple a bit, the groupies at every stop, young, beautiful, offering themselves at every opportunity, nubile and only too happy to sleep with a handsome pro athlete on the cusp of success.
Shit. I almost gave up then, it fucking hurt. But what did I expect? That Trent would be here forever, keeping me warm day after day, night after night? We’d made a deal for a week, and the week had ended, just like the sun rises each morning and sets again each evening. There was no way to halt the passage of time, and our honeymoon was over, done for good. So I trudged to the bathroom, forcing my feet to move despite the fact that they felt like lead blocks. Any other morning I would have been radiant and glowing, with a pep to my step, but my heart was empty this time, missing the big man, and it was all I could do to put one foot in front of another.
Shoulders sagging, I flicked on the bathroom light, looking at myself in the mirror. Fuck, in ten minutes I’d aged ten years. My hair seemed faded, skin sallow, my brown eyes more mud-colored than chocolate. But then I saw it. Oh shit. Because there, on the bathroom counter, was a little paper cup filled with white, frothy liquid. With a tentative hand, I reached out, lifting it, squeezing the paper slightly, even sniffing the contents. Holy fucking shit, it had to be. The liquid was warm, bubbly, with a certain tang and viscosity that I’d come to know so well. It was Trent’s come. He’d left me with a memento, a sample of his DNA, spurted into this little cup. But why? Why would he do this?
Holy shit. My mind flew in all different directions, grasping at possibilities. It’d been a mistake, he wanted me to have something of his, nothing cheesy like a ring or a sports jersey. So he’d left me his cum. But what was I going to do with it? Smear it over my body? I thought seriously about that one, it sounded good to me, I’d love nothing but to bathe in his semen, to rub the hot jism all over my breasts, tease it into my pussy, dab a bit onto my asshole as a reminder of him. But there had to be another reason.
And suddenly, I knew with a certainty what it was. If I wanted, I could inseminate myself with his sperm. He’d been careful not to come in my pussy, coming in my ass a million times, but never spurted the good stuff into my cunt. And now, he was leaving me with a deposit, a way to feel his hot jizz deep in my insides, to do the dirty if I was brave enough.
And oh god, I wanted it so bad that I went for it without a second thought. With trembling hands, I got out the syringe and pushed the head into the small cup of jism, withdrawing the plunger to suck the precious fluid inside. And then I sheathed the syringe in the rubber dildo, the inseminator finally complete with all working parts in place.
I considered doing it in bed, spreading my legs and pushing the dildo in deep there, where we’d spent so many hours coupling, the big man taking me to Heaven and back, again and again, riding my body hard, both of us tangling, twisting, spasming with ecstasy and joy, pure unadulterated pleasure at the togetherness, the amazing electricity of meeting the one.
But I couldn’t for some reason, I didn’t want to get back in the sheets that smelled of Trent still, the musk heavy with our sex scent. So I stepped into the shower instead, cranking the water extra hot and let the spray pound my body. Oh yes, this was the way to go. Moaning, I pretended the big man was here with me, running his hands over my curves, teasing my nips, pulling at each one, twisting the hard nubs before popping off the tips. I pretended that his hand was between my legs, his dicktip pressed against my asshole, ready to take me again. And inevitably, my body began to pulse, my pussy moistening, growing hotly wet as my fingers slid over my private parts, imagining it was Trent.
Seizing the dildo from the shower ledge, I did it then. I pressed it into my pussy, spreading my lips, edging my hot cunt down on the thick rubber, squeezing, taking it deep within myself, moaning lustily as I thought of my lover. Oh god, yes, yes, yes, this was it.
Picturing the big man, his hot, throbbing dick, the way it owned me every which way, pressed against my lips, in my mouth, up my back end, rubbing between my thighs, pushed me over the edge immediately. I came so hard, pussy squeezing furiously, clenching and spasming that I almost forced the dildo out, it literally slipped a few inches from my cunt, slippery and slick. But with the last remnants of self-control, I grabbed it and pushed it back in before taking a deep breath and depressing the plunger. Immediately, liquid spurted. Oh yes, oh yes. A huge, hot gust of Trent’s semen splashed into my cunt, my hot, slutty pussy convulsing even harder, knowing what it was, eating it, drawing it deep into my fertile insides. Because I wanted it. I wanted his semen in me, I wanted to have his baby, and by leaving a sample his sperm for me, still warm, still bubbly, Trent was telling me that he wanted it too.
I breathed hard, letting my body ride the waves, eyes opening slowly even as my pussy twitched reflexively, the dildo still in deep. Oh god, it was so good and I braced a hand against the wall unsteadily, trembling, feeling the sweet ooze within myself, what I’d craved for the last week. Because I wanted a baby, and more specifically, I wanted a baby with Trent. It was the culmination to this taboo week, to the hours of loving, of hot coupling, the entanglement with the big man. Because despite everything, I’d lost myself … heart, mind and soul to my son’s best friend.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Trent
I looked out the bus window. Normally the lights of the city would have had me excited, I’m a wanderer by heart, I fucking love traveling, the intensity, never having much but the clothes on my back. But this time it was different. We’d finished a game in Baltimore, and fuck, it’d been a blow-out, my performance stand-out.
“You got a check with your name on it comin’,” drawled Sandy, our first base coach, clapping me on the shoulder.
“Nice work man,” grunted Marquise, our pitcher, and I nodded in return. Must have meant something, that mofo never compliments anyone, he’s a surly motherfucker.
But coming off a career-defining game, I don’t know, I just felt moody and pissed. I should have been hyped, ex
cited as all get-out, ready to go to the strip club with my buddies, but instead I was headed up to my room to sulk.
“You sure dude?” asked Leon, our left outfielder. I don’t have many friends, it’s too tough given that we’re all in competition with one another, that any of us could be cut at any hour of any day. But Leon was okay, he was an easygoing guy despite the grind, and I chatted with him sometimes.
“Yeah, I’m sure,” I grunted. “You guys go, I’m gonna have some drinks in my room.” More like I was going to masturbate like crazy thinking about Marie, sniffing the lace panties I’d stolen from her laundry hamper, wrapping them around my dick as I blasted off. Oh fuck, even the thought of the silk nothing, its crotch aromatic with her cream made my cock hard, weeping, lusting for the beautiful woman.
But Leon cocked an eyebrow at me, nodding knowingly.
“Shit buddy, don’t drink on your own, there ain’t that much in the mini-bar anyways,” he drawled. “Use the hotel bar, that’s what it’s there for.”
And I grunted, silent and dour, taking the elevator up to my room. But yeah, Leon was right. Upon opening the mini-bar, there were only tiny bottles of liquor, like what you got on the plane, probably three shots total in this fucking fridge. It’d take shit ton to knock me out, to take my mind off the woman, so I stomped my way down to the hotel bar, seating myself like a fucking angry bull, huge, looming on the bar stool.
And a couple drinks made things better, high-end bourbon will do that to you, that shit’s potent. The lights started dimming, the atmosphere hazy as I looked around. Hmm, very nice. Huge portraits of ancient guys in suits hung on the wall with eyes that watched you, plus a giant sculpture of a cow in one corner. This place was modern and trendy, with a touch of old school elegance, the chairs purple velvet, the bar a huge piece of lumber, varnished until it was a glossy black.
And sure enough, a woman appeared out of the woodwork, sliding onto the bar stool next to mine. Knowing I was watching, she leaned forwards and ordered a drink, her big boobies pressing against the wood, like two huge sacks of cream, sitting there begging to be touched. I felt my dick twitch slightly. The resemblance to Marie was astonishing, her hair a curly brown, the small mouth, the curvy figure.
But when she turned to me, it was all wrong. Because instead of wide, innocent brown, this woman’s eyes were filled with calculating greed, gleaming with hunger for money. Shit, even her eyes were green, the color of money.
“Hey big guy,” she purred. “I hear a team’s in town, you part of that?”
I snorted. Another groupie. Another woman who’d give her body for the opportunity to say she slept with a ballplayer. Shit, what was it with these hos? Did they really think I was a notch of their bedpost, bragging to their friends, saying, “Oh, I got Number Nineteen’s dick in me last night, it was so good because he hit a triple?”
So I shook my head, disgusted at myself more than anything else. Because yeah, I’ve indulged in the past, I love good pussy, I love feeling hot cunt wrapped around my dick, shooting my sperm into strange multiple times, but it’d lost its appeal. Because how good could it be? For the first time, it repulsed me. Meaningless sex, I didn’t care about the ho and they sure as hell didn’t care about me. All these women cared about was the uniform, it could have been any dick inside, any random male cock ready to ream.
So I smiled back coldly.
“Yeah, I’m here with the team,” I said, clipping my words. “You looking for action?”
And the woman’s eyes gleamed brighter then, narrowing like a cat. How had I ever thought she looked like Marie? I could see now that the tits were fake, the huge monsters rubbery and perfectly circular, like overblown water balloons. And shit, as the light glanced over her face, her skin looked cakey and powdery at once, loaded with layer after layer make-up, none of the glowing freshness that I associated with my best girl.
But she pressed on, her tits almost falling out of her dress.
“I am looking for action,” she purred, trailing a long red fingernail up my arm, almost to my elbow. My skin crawled although I remained perfectly still, letting her do her thing. “Where you staying?”
And I snorted then. Shit, groupies really weren’t in it for the banter, for the foreplay, for everything that made loving loving. They were in it for the sex, pure, hard, and cold, and what the hell, they’d find it, there were plenty of guys who’d eat that shit up. Just not me. Not tonight. I couldn’t stomach the thought, wasn’t even sure I’d be able to finish with a woman like this, her cunt was wet for all the wrong reasons, dripping with some rancid liquid, nasty and fishy, totally unlike the brunette I’d just left. So I shook my head curtly.
“Sorry, no go,” I drawled. “Not tonight honey.”
And the woman pouted, still caressing my arm with that red fingernail, her other hand now dropping to my thigh.
“Mister,” she breathed, the hot gust of her breath like spoiled garbage on my face. “I can do things no other woman can, just try me,” she purred again, winking. “Just try it and see.”
And now, despite the fact that we were in public, a bar with plenty of other people, her hand literally slid up my thigh until she was cupping my crotch, running a nail over the curve of my dick, lightly tickling the bottom through the canvas fabric of my pants. The old me would have been on it. The old me would have groped a breast right there, maybe even twisted a nipple, reaching into her dress to feel that rubbery hardness. But fuck, it wasn’t the old Trent anymore. I didn’t want it, the thought of another woman was fucking disgusting, like I’d be bathing myself in a cesspool, some decayed shit that I’d never get clean from.
So instead, I stood up abruptly.
“Sorry, married,” I ground out, pulling some bills from my wallet and tossing them on the bar. Never mind that I didn’t have a wedding band on my finger. “No can do.”
The hoochie wasn’t deterred at all.
“So what?” she whined plaintively, reaching to grab me with those long fingernails again, her hands like claws. “I’ve done plenty of married men before, it’s never made a difference. My cunt likes married cock,” she added slyly, “The sex feels even better when he’s married,” she winked coyly.
And I was beyond disgusted now. I’m not passing judgment on anyone, other peoples’ relationships aren’t my business. But this tramp took the cake. Shit, throwing it out there that was she was a ho, that she craved married men, that she specialized in married cock? Shit, that was fucking disgusting. Even if you like it, even if that’s your thing, don’t put it out there. It’s not like Michael Jackson’s nose, you don’t have to wear it on your face for the whole world to see.
But I’d already spent enough time with this woman, her presence was totally toxic, making me nauseous with its lust for married ballplayers. What the hell, this fucking sucked, and I’d already gotten enough alcohol in me, and what the fuck, Marie’s panties were still waiting. In fact, I had them in my pocket, the wisp of nothing my memento of her, my link to the gorgeous girl, everything that this tramp wasn’t.
So I shot the no-name hooker an disgusted look and took off, striding to the elevator, my long legs eating up the distance before the doors slid shut. And once I was alone, my hand reached for the slip of silk, lightly caressing the fabric as if it really were her cunt, that wet, engorged sweetness ready for me all the time, whenever I wanted it, her heaving form at my knees, on the bed, on her back, available throughout the night, so intense, so willing.
But as I let myself into the room, a thought caught in my mind. I’ve been approached a million times on the road, at bars, right outside the stadium, shit anywhere women were. And I’ve turned a lot of them down, hey, even I’ve got to sleep sometimes, you can’t be fucking every single minute of the night, every night, a ballplayer’s got to be rested for games. But this time, I’d done something different. I’d played the married card, like I really was a married man, like I had a honey at home, a sweet, willing woman waiting for me, arms warm, breasts
soft, cunt wet.
And it shook me, for sure. Because that sweet willing woman had Marie’s face, it was her breasts I stroked, her soft, wet pussy I touched, her tiny asshole that I kissed. I’d pretended that Marie was my wife to the other woman, and the crazy part? It didn’t feel wrong. It felt amazingly right, like I wanted the brunette to wait for me, I wanted her to keep her pussy safe, I wanted to be the only man plumbing those sweet depths, the only man allowed to shoot my sperm inside.
But that was the irony of all this. At this very moment, the woman of my dreams was probably at a sperm bank, picking out some anonymous donor and getting ready to take his semen into herself in the hopes of having a child. The thought made my body go cold, literally chills running down my spine, my chest beating with pain. Because fuck, I didn’t want some other guy’s sperm in her … I only wanted mine. Marie was mine, and even though I had no right to tell her, of speaking my hopes, dreams, my desire to her, the brunette was mine, absolutely, completely mine.
But what did I have to offer a woman? I was a journeyman athlete at the beginning of my career, making practically nothing with no stable home, no home base even, just a man with a suitcase pursuing my dream of playing pro sports. And Marie was a woman worth far more than that. She deserved more, she was catnip to billionaires, I’d witnessed Vincent hitting on her with my own eyes. I had nothing to offer in comparison except a hard body, a devoted heart, my absolute passion for her sweetness, her willingness, that curvy form. And unfortunately, it wasn’t enough. Marie deserved more, she deserved better … and I’d come up short.
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
Marie
Robbie came down into the kitchen while I stirred my tea, using a little more sugar than usual. I needed the sugar, needed the high, given how terrible I’d been feeling lately.
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