Undiscovered Country
A Novel Inspired by the Lives of Eleanor Roosevelt and Lorena Hickok
KELLY O’CONNOR McNEES
To Bob, for believing when I couldn’t.
As often as not, we are homesick most
for the places we have never known.
—Carson McCullers
When Lorena “Hick” Hickok died in 1968, she donated a sealed trove of her correspondence with Eleanor Roosevelt, who had died six years before, to the Franklin D. Roosevelt Library, on the condition that it not be opened until 1978. So it was not until then that archivists—and soon the rest of the world—learned what was in the more than three thousand letters the women exchanged over a span of thirty years. They shared the details of work and daily life, of worries over money, health, relationships. And they wrote about their love for each other.
In fact, Eleanor and Hick had exchanged well more than the letters preserved in the archive. Hick had made careful edits to this collection, destroying an untold number of letters. She was candid about why in a conversation with Eleanor’s daughter, Anna: “Your mother wasn’t always so very discreet when she wrote to me.” The full picture of Eleanor and Hick’s relationship resides in those pages, lost to history.
But fiction can resurrect the story of Eleanor and Hick with its cardinal paradox: by making things up, we can finally get at the truth.
Part One
The fact is that our culture has sought to deny the truths and complexities about women’s passion because it is one of the great keys to women’s power.
—Blanche Wiesen Cook, Eleanor Roosevelt: Volume I
Chapter One
October 1932
The luncheonette across the street from Potsdam’s St. Mary’s parish seemed as good a place as any to wait out the funeral, and we esteemed members of the press seized it like ants on a dropped lollipop. Inside, with the brass bell over the door still ringing, I had my cigarette lit before I even took off my coat. I passed it from the clenched fingers of my right hand to the clenched fingers of my left as I slipped out of the sleeves one by one. At the counter I took a stool next to John Bosco, a fellow reporter for the AP, who was still sore about the previous night’s poker game. The boys were rowdy, and when the waitress came over, I had to shout my order to be heard above the din. Pie and coffee, and leave a little room in the cup for the holy ghost.
From the other end of the counter, Don Franks, from our rival wire service, United, couldn’t resist the siren song of his own voice. “Don’t go looking for Bosco to buy your lunch, Hick,” he barked at us. “He’s so broke he can’t even pay attention.”
“Ah, shut up, Franks,” John said.
I could have reminded our cohort that Don was a confirmed boob who held his liquor so poorly he’d twice in the last week been wheeled back to his train compartment in a laundry cart. Instead, I looked at John.
“Do you hear something?” I asked. I pulled my flask from my pocket and topped off both our coffees.
John squinted at me and grinned. He wasn’t quite ready to forgive me for cleaning him out with a pair of twos, but he was getting there.
Don kept on, though no one seemed to be listening. “His wallet’s got a better echo than the Grand Canyon. It’s emptier than Christ’s tomb.”
I took a sip of my coffee and felt its sting on my lips. “All in favor of Don Franks shoving his tired jokes up his ass?” I asked loudly.
Every last man at the counter raised his hand.
When the waitress brought my pie, she stuck a ticket under each of our saucers. I took John’s ticket and put it on top of mine.
He nudged me with his elbow. “Thanks, Hick.”
We weren’t in Potsdam for our health, I can tell you that. In the church across the street—that redbrick monument to Irish grit—were Democratic presidential candidate Franklin Delano Roosevelt and his wife, among the other mourners. The gilded casket (paid for by Governor Roosevelt) contained the mother of Missy LeHand, Roosevelt’s longtime personal secretary and, some said, his mistress. This funeral was off itinerary, an unexpected stop on a presidential campaign trail that was otherwise planned down to the minute. In the last few weeks, the press corps, including yours truly, had accompanied the whistle-stop tour through seventeen states. Speeches, handshaking, and enough renditions of “Happy Days Are Here Again” to make your ears bleed.
As we finished our food, we watched through the luncheonette’s clouded windows as the church doors opened and people began to stream out into an inhospitable drizzle. Gus Gennerich, the stocky bodyguard who helped FDR get around, eased the governor’s wheelchair awkwardly down the church steps, and a crowd formed around the candidate. FDR shoved himself to his feet so that he could shake hands. At the counter I scooped the last bite of too-sweet apple pie into my mouth and paid the bills.
I was slipping back into my coat when the bell on the door jangled once more and Mrs. Roosevelt walked in. The doorframe was decorated with orange paper jack-o’-lanterns that brushed her coat as she passed through. Though my fellow newsmen quieted right down, they didn’t lunge toward her for a quote the way they would have if her husband had come in. There wasn’t much of a scoop to be had with the missus, they knew. Any story about her was just going to be women’s-page pabulum—her sensible shoes, the dreadful hairnets that sometimes sagged onto her forehead, her charitable causes.
This was, sadly, my domain, as the only woman from the AP assigned to the campaign. I had been trying to get Mrs. Roosevelt to talk candidly with me about the prospect of becoming first lady so that I could write the long feature my editor had assigned, but I couldn’t get her to agree to an interview.
When she’d joined the second leg of the now-eastbound train tour more than a week ago, I’d made a nuisance of myself by appearing at her elbow after each of the governor’s speeches from the back of the train—at a spare depot in Ash Fork, Arizona, where almost no one clapped; in Pueblo, Colorado, to forlorn steel workers; in Council Bluffs, Iowa, near the bank of the startlingly wide Missouri River. And yet she managed to duck me every time. She was never rude, but somehow, just as I would glance down for a second to flip open my steno pad, she would slip away in the crowd. One morning a few days before the funeral, while most of my cohort was sleeping off the previous night’s escapades, I came into the dining car and found it empty save for Mrs. Roosevelt and her secretary Mrs. Thompson, whom everyone called Tommy. As they sat sipping their coffee and watching the sun rise over Tennessee, Tommy invited me to join them. I thought my ship might finally have come in.
Tommy—a career gal like me—was friendly, and we moaned and groaned for a few minutes about the train’s tiny beds and our aching backs and how as old hens we weren’t fit to do anything anymore. As the train flew toward Knoxville in order to get the candidate to his scheduled 9:00 a.m. speech, Mrs. Roosevelt kept her eyes on the trees. She seemed so lost in her own thoughts that I wondered if she even heard us. Before I had the chance to bend the conversation toward some questions, Mrs. Roosevelt stood abruptly and excused herself to deal with a “mountain of correspondence.”
When she’d disappeared from the car, I sighed and put my head down on my forearm for a moment; then I rose and slumped against the seat. “I’ve been covering FDR for years, and I swear she still doesn’t even know who I am.”
Tommy threaded her fingers around the coffee cup’s delicate handle, and, for a moment, I thought she was looking for a gentle way to agree. But instead she said, finally, “Mrs. Roosevelt was raised to believe that a woman’s name should appear in print just twice in her lifetime: for her wedding and her obituary. Reporters make her nervous. Be patient.”
A lesser scribe might have given up
then and just used generic quotes from Mrs. Roosevelt’s speeches to cobble something together, file the story, and move on. After all, I was on the most important beat in the country at the moment; I had bigger fish to fry. But I hadn’t become a top reporter by taking the easy road, thank you very much. I stubbornly refused to write a bland feature on a politician’s wife. No one with half a brain gave a damn about her fond memories of finishing school or where she bought her gloves and hats. I had to find a way to sidestep that stodgy old yarn and show a different side of her. My hunch was that her still waters might run deep, if only I could keep her in the same room long enough to find out.
And now here she was walking my way. As I watched her move toward the luncheonette counter, I marveled at her height. Some people called her awkward, but I didn’t see that. She seemed like a dancer, a prima ballerina from an entirely different, somewhat larger race of people, and she held her head still as she walked, as if the stack of books she no doubt had been compelled to balance there as a girl remained.
“Miss Hickok,” Mrs. Roosevelt said, grasping my hand. She had pale blue eyes and spoke in a soft voice that seemed to apologize for interrupting. “I hear you want to interview me.”
So Tommy had greased the wheels for me, God bless her. “I promise I don’t bite,” I said. I hoped my nonchalance covered my nerves. As I felt at my breast pocket for a pen, I cut my eyes at my cohort and willed them to stifle their goddamns. They all pretended not to be listening in, but the only sound in the room was the hiss of the griddle back behind the kitchen window.
“My husband has to stay here tonight,” Mrs. Roosevelt began, glancing at the new cigarette in my hand. “But I have to teach in the morning in Manhattan.”
I nodded, unsure whether there was a question in there. “All right.”
She tipped her head slightly and seemed to study me, started to speak again but hesitated.
In a clumsy attempt to reassure her, I said, “You probably don’t remember me, but I actually came to Hyde Park at Governor Roosevelt’s invitation back in April. He and I sat by the fire to talk over the primaries. You were in the room too, but you were occupied with your … knitting …” I felt myself starting to babble, and the skin on my neck flushed.
“Of course I remember you,” she said, and the steadiness of her voice compared to my own gave me a shiver. “As I recall, the two of you mainly talked repeal. Over cocktails.”
I pressed my lips together to stifle a smile.
“Now, if you’d be willing to accompany me on the train tonight, you can have your interview. There will be plenty of time to talk—it’s a long ride.”
And just like that my fortune changed. I was finally going to get some decent copy out of her, and then I could get back to work covering the real story: the man who would soon be our president.
Mrs. Roosevelt smiled a tense, toothy smile. “The train leaves at nine. Don’t be late.”
I spent the rest of the afternoon at the office of Potsdam’s Courier and Freeman typing up notes from the past few days and wiring the funeral story to my editor, Bill Chapin, in the city. When I finally left for the train station, the rain was coming down in sheets. I wedged my typewriter case between my elbow and ribs and tried to cover it with my coat; in the process, I soaked my skirt clear through to my girdle. Farewell, dignity; I hardly knew ye. I don’t have to tell you I was dying for a drink about then, but my flask was empty and I had no time to refill. On the bench inside the station I disentangled myself from my wet coat and sat catching my breath. With my index finger, I plucked my necklace out from under my collar and rubbed the little wooden charm, its surface smooth as glass. And just as I did every time I touched it, I remembered where I’d come from and where I was now. Hey, old nobody: you’re about to interview the future first lady of these united states.
When I heard the clacking of her heels on the tile, I stubbed my cigarette out on the bottom of my shoe in a hurry. Slipping my necklace back under my collar, I stood.
“Well, Miss Hickok. Did you get any supper?” Mrs. Roosevelt carried a dripping umbrella and patted her blue leather satchel. The sleeves of her dowdy tweed suit were dark with rain, but the rest of her was dry, and her blue eyes were bright in the dim station. “I brought us sandwiches.”
“That’s great—I’m starving,” I said, too quickly. I tended to turn fidgety around rich people because I was afraid there was no hiding the evidence of my humble beginnings, a yellowed slip hanging beneath the hem of a fine dress. But she seemed pleased by my candor.
“Me too,” she said.
The train—the overnight to Grand Central—pulled up to the platform. Though the station was nearly empty, the dim cars were full of people coming from points farther north. With things so bad, the rail companies couldn’t afford to run half-empty routes and had cut back on the number of cars for each line. There wasn’t a seat to be found as we made our way through. Surely the governor’s wife could have reserved one, but I was getting the sense that she tended not to take advantage of the special access her position afforded.
I watched the passengers’ faces to see if any of them recognized her. She might have been the most photographed woman in America besides Jean Harlow, but in nearly every photo I’d seen, she was looking away from the camera—sometimes down at her lap, often over at her magnetic husband. One never quite got a view of her face head-on, I thought, as I watched her coiled gray-blond hair bob in front of me. A few women whispered, and a man jabbed his wife with his elbow and pointed our way, but no one spoke to her.
Finally we spotted an empty drawing room. Mrs. Roosevelt went in first and switched on the little brass light fixture. She sat on the narrow couch across from the single berth. I pulled the door closed to muffle a crying baby just outside.
“Oh, that’s better,” she said.
“Are you sure this will be all right?” At some point I knew she would want to go to sleep, and I would have to find somewhere else to go until we arrived in the city.
“Of course. Don’t be shy.” She gestured to the place beside her and then pulled the wax-paper-wrapped sandwiches from her satchel, along with two checkered napkins, and laid them between us. “They call you Hick, don’t they?”
I nodded. “Yes, they do. I’m a proud Hick from the sticks, no matter how many years I’ve been in New York. And I never did like the name Lorena.”
Mrs. Roosevelt took a crystal saltshaker out of the bag and dusted her sandwich with it before taking a bite. The bag sat beside her on the seat, its frame splayed open. I wondered what else she had in there— ice cream sundaes, cigars and brandy?
“The name suits you. No nonsense.”
I watched her manicured hand slip the shaker back in the satchel. That small piece was probably worth more than all my housewares put together. I saw a flash of Mrs. Roosevelt’s early years—finishing school and riding lessons, visiting her uncle Ted in the White House, cotillions written up in Town Topics. Only a former debutante would travel with crystal in her purse.
I tried to find a natural way to begin the interview. “So … Are you looking forward to living in Washington?”
Mrs. Roosevelt chewed her roast beef, dabbed her mouth with her napkin, and said, “Now, Hick, aren’t we getting ahead of ourselves? Franklin hasn’t won the election yet.”
The polls had him leagues ahead at that point, and she and I both knew he was a lock. The train lurched forward, and I shot my arm out to brace myself on the berth.
“Well, suppose he wins,” I said. “How do you think you will like your new address?” I thought I might at least get some intel on the changes she planned to make to the White House drapery. That was just the sort of terminally boring copy Bill said our female readership went nuts for. This country had a grand tradition of forcing brilliant women to fritter their lives away in domesticity, and, though I knew from my reporting on the family just how much more there was to Mrs. Roosevelt than people knew, I didn’t think even she would be able to escap
e that fate.
Given her general gentle demeanor, her sharp tone in reply surprised me. “I think it will be a great interruption to my work. I’m writing more than ever. And I love teaching. But all that will end so that I can host teas and decorate.”
I knew well the kind of woman Mrs. Roosevelt was—and the kind of work she was doing. She didn’t just talk in parlors; she organized women. She didn’t just give money away; she developed policy and put it under her husband’s nose. And yet, I was astonished that she’d admitted as much.
My face must have revealed my thoughts about her response, as she quickly added a line more suitable for public consumption: “Though of course I am honored to have the chance to do it, for Franklin.” She crinkled up the waxed paper and shifted her position on the couch, restless.
I felt my mouth turn up, amused. Her irritability made her much more interesting to me because I saw at once how the luxury and ceremony of the thing meant nothing to her. I got the feeling she had a whole lot to say but was trying to restrain herself, and that made her radiate a kind of energy that was hard to look away from. It was quiet in our drawing room, but the air felt charged, and I paused for a minute, thinking about what to say next. Outside the window, the lights of small upstate towns shone through the streaming rain, ghostly orbs appearing and disappearing, and they played on her skin.
She took advantage of my surprise and lobbed a question of her own. “You said you’re from the ‘sticks.’ Where?” Out of the satchel of endless surprise, she took a skein of yarn and a half-finished baby sweater and began a complicated lace pattern from memory. I recalled my visit to the Roosevelt estate back in April, when she had sat in the corner knitting, and I’d assumed she was not listening to my conversation with her husband.
It seemed best to get my background out of the way, since there was no covering it up. “South Dakota, mostly, though I was born in Wisconsin and we moved around some. Dirt floors, the whole nine yards,” I said, in case she hadn’t gotten the message that we had been poor. Just thinking of those years gave me a shiver. “Of course, that was a long time ago.”
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