Sarah looked at her cell phone, which had sat cradled in its charger for the past two days.
“—you weren’t going to get it for a while. I’m not leaving us. I’ll be back down again in four or five weeks at the most, and we’ll talk on the phone every day while I’m up there. Call me as soon as you get this.”
She should have been relieved. Micah wasn’t ending it—just taking some time up north to work through all the life changes he’d been through during the past four-plus months. He’d been through so much; of course he needed time. But her stomach still churned. This was not the right thing for Micah. For her. For them.
She pushed aside the orange juice, dropped her head to the table, and cried till no more tears would come. After the silence got too loud, she picked up the phone.
He answered on the first ring.
“Micah . . .” She hesitated. “With everything in me, I know this isn’t right.”
“It is.”
“Don’t go.”
“I need to do this. For me. For us. Please don’t try to stop this and make it harder.”
She closed her eyes. “It’s burned onto my heart like a branding iron that you should not go.”
“You’re acting like I’m moving to Siberia.” Micah gave a weak laugh. “We’ll see each other all the time. I’ll be back down in six weeks tops. Next time you get two days off in a row, you can come up. And by going back to Seattle, I’ll recover what I’ve lost. I believe I can get it all back. Believe with me it can happen.”
For fifteen seconds the only noise was the hum of the connection.
“Sarah?”
Silence.
“Are you there?”
“Yes.”
“Listen, they’ve got this great new invention that keeps people connected when they’re apart. In fact we’re using it right now. It’s called the telephone.”
She didn’t laugh. “It’s not about us being two hundred miles apart. It’s not about how often we’ll be talking. And it’s not about me coming up to see you. It’s about you going.”
“Then give me a reason.”
“It’s wrong.” Sarah sat slumped back, kneading the knots in her right shoulder.
“That’s not a reason.”
“Everything inside me tells me it’s wrong, that the enemy is in this, trying to make you take a path the complete opposite of the way you should go.”
He sighed. “You know I listen when God tells you something. What you feel matters deeply.” He paused, then whispered, “But this time, it’s not enough to keep me from going.”
Tears spilled onto her cheeks and collected on her chin.
“Sarah?”
“Don’t go, Micah. I don’t want to lose you. I don’t want to lose us.”
“You won’t lose me. Ever. I promise. I’ll call you every day.”
Sarah didn’t respond for a long time. “I gotta go.”
“I love you, Sarah.”
“Me, too, Micah. All of me.”
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The next morning just before sunrise, Sarah stood alone on the beach and watched little bubbles burst on top of the sand, indicating clams digging away from her probing shoes.
She wanted to believe Micah’s going back to Seattle was good. Why couldn’t it be? He could recover some of the life he’d lost and figure out the connection between that world and this one. But her heart was breaking because she knew the choice was wrong. She tried to convince herself she wasn’t living by faith, that she needed to trust God was in control. But the thoughts were hollow and slipped through the fingers of her mind like wind through the trees.
She staggered toward the waves and stepped into them till the water lapped around her shoes.
The first time Sarah had met Micah, her heart surged. She knew he was the answer to what God had spoken years ago. But the battle of how much of her heart to give him started the moment she handed him his Pralines & Cream ice cream cone four months earlier. Because she’d also known last night’s conversation would come.
She pulled out her cell phone and dialed Micah’s house. She had to try one more time. No answer. He was already gone. Must have left last night.
Sarah watched her hand drop to her side as if it were someone else’s. Her cell phone spun loose and dropped to the sand. Waves raced up and smothered the phone, and the icy September water found its way through her shoes and bit into her feet.
From the beginning she had feared he would choose the life without her. Despite their love, he would listen to voices other than the Holy Spirit’s, and it would take him away forever. She’d tried to steel her heart for the moment when he left and even believed she could change his mind, but none of her practiced anticipation prepared her for this kind of pain.
She slipped to her knees and dug her hands into the saturated sand, trying to hold on to the grains. But the water swirled around her and washed away her hold. And she continued to add her tears to the ocean.
Then she heard a voice. Soft. Strong. “Sarah?”
Hope against hope she turned and looked up. But it wasn’t Micah.
Rick stood ten yards down the beach at the edge of the waves. She stared at him, deciding whether to answer or get up and walk away. “Micah’s gone. Back to Seattle,” she sputtered.
“Yes, I know.”
“You’re not going to quote some verse about this being for the best for me, are you?”
“No, nothing like that.”
“Then what?”
Rick walked to her and pulled her up and into his chest like a dad. She shuddered as she fell into him and held on with everything inside. Again the tears came.
“Let’s get you into some dry clothes and grab some coffee. There’s some things we need to talk about.”
“Like?”
“Where you go from here.”
Sarah nodded and trudged alongside Rick, leaning into him, needing him to be a rock because she couldn’t be. Rick would try to speak words of comfort, would try to tell her it would be okay. But it wouldn’t. It just wouldn’t.
Because Micah was heading into a world where she didn’t exist.
CHAPTER 38
Micah stutter-stepped toward Shannon’s office on Monday morning and strained to keep a scream from bursting out. Calm. Composure. He was positive ripping the Andy Warhol pictures off the walls wouldn’t set the right tone for his return. But RimSoft was his opus. Was. Now he’d be proposing a plan to a woman who two and a half weeks ago had been his secretary.
That was a cheap shot. She’d always been far more than a secretary. If anyone was worthy of running the company in this parallel universe, it was Shannon. But that didn’t abate the strangeness of this role reversal, or his fear she would wrap an anchor around him and his proposal and drop-kick them into the Pacific.
He approached the woman who sat in the exact desk Shannon used to sit in. “I’m here for a 9:00 with Shannon.”
“Hi, Micah.” She flipped her red hair off her shoulders. “She’s running a few minutes behind. I hope your trip was a good one.”
Trip? He stared at her. Did he know her? Early twenties, slightly heavy, dark blue eyes. He would have remembered those eyes.
Before leaving Cannon Beach, he and the voice had formed their proposal. Although the players had changed, they reasoned that the basic direction of the company probably hadn’t. Micah would use this inside knowledge to impress Shannon and present the reasons he should get a shot at a vice presidency.
“Micah!” Shannon walked up and grasped both his hands. “Great to have you back. Let’s catch up.”
He walked into what used to be his office and tried not to cringe. It definitely had been given a woman’s touch. He sat in a taupe-colored leather chair in front of a coffee table that displayed t
wo ornate miniature fountains. They circulated water over tiny river rocks in a never-ending cycle.
“All right!” Shannon clapped her hands three times. “We’ll talk business in a minute, but first you’ve got to tell me. Europe was wonderful, wasn’t it? You loved Spain, I know you did. I hope you went to Gaudi’s Cathedral. You promised you would. By the way, I applaud you for not calling in for the entire three weeks. I bet my husband you’d call. You cost me five hundred dollars.” She laughed.
As she talked, anxiety grabbed Micah’s stomach. Europe? Three weeks? He started to protest when shards of memories streaked through his mind. He saw himself standing in front of Gaudi’s Cathedral, then on the shores of Saint-Tropez, and after that Ibiza. The Eiffel Tower blazed into his mind and then a small village, where he sipped wine with a man and woman he didn’t recognize.
“I’ve been on vacation in Europe for the past three weeks.” Micah stared at her, his lips slightly parted.
“Well, I sure hope so.”
“No, I remember. I mean, yes. It was a great time. Really.”
“Dealing with a little jet lag?” Shannon frowned.
“Probably.”
“Well, I didn’t even expect you today. Flying in last night and setting up a time to see me? No one can say you don’t feel the need to succeed.”
“I think there’s more I can offer this company.”
“Really? More than you’ve already done?” Shannon leaned forward and folded her hands across her knees. “I’m all ears.”
Micah clipped through his proposal. Not so fast she would miss any of the nuances, but not so slowly her mind could wander.
When he finished, Shannon unfolded her hands and leaned even further forward. “Excellent.”
“If you give me the freedom to implement these ideas and they work—”
“Knowing you, I have little doubt they will.”
“Thanks. I’d just like to put a little carrot out there for myself.”
“Carrot?”
“An incentive plan. When these projects succeed, I want a promotion to vice president and be vested in fifty thousand shares of stock immediately.”
She stared at him, giving no clue whether he’d pushed too hard. A wisp of what Micah interpreted as concern passed over her face as she brought steepled hands to her lips.
“This is European humor, right?”
He’d gone too far. “No, I just think—”
“Micah.” She glanced at the walls, as if she was worried they might hear. “You’ve been a vice president at RimSoft for a year and a half. You’re vested in more shares than anyone but me. On the last report I saw, you have acquired at least three hundred and eighty thousand shares. But if another fifty thousand will make you happier, I’ll get them for you. Certainly.”
Three hundred and eighty thousand shares? And RimSoft? Not RimWare. Yes! He swallowed and tried to keep the rush of victory from taking over his face.
“But I have to say at this stage of the game, I didn’t think it was about the money for you. More the thrill of the kill, you know?” Shannon got up and walked over to her desk, her back to him. “You’ve got a little over $36 million in your portfolio. You want to explain why you think another $4 million will dot the i’s and cross the t’s in your life?”
She turned, arms folded tightly across her chest. “You and I have always played it straight. Look me in the eye and tell me you didn’t go to Europe and somehow decide drugs is your new thrill-park playground.”
Drops of perspiration beaded on his forehead. He couldn’t lose it now. Stay calm. Hold it together.
“No. I’m fine. Really. I don’t know what I was thinking.” He ran cold fingers through his hair. “But now I’m realizing I should have taken one more day. To get back on Seattle time.”
Shannon nodded. He hadn’t convinced her. “The real Micah will be back tomorrow?”
“Guaranteed.”
He’d done it. He was back. He felt the voice inside him cry, “Yes!”
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The next morning confirmed his Seattle life was snapping back into place. After ten minutes on his feet making breakfast, his ankle still felt fine. More than fine. It was the first time in two weeks standing in one place for over a minute didn’t cause a dull ache. He bounced up and down on his left foot twice. No pain. He knew a new X-ray would show there had never been a break.
Unbelievable.
Thank You, God.
When he got to the office just after 8:00, Shannon stood on the lobby stairs, hands clasped behind her back, watching the employees file in as he used to do. She saw him, raised her eyes in acknowledgment, and motioned him over.
He took the stairs two at a time.
“Feeling better this morning?” she asked.
“Fantastic.”
“Good to hear it, partner. This week will be intense.”
“What did you say?” Micah spun toward her.
“Intense week coming. That’s a surprise? You thought you’d continue your vacation? Sorry.”
“No, the part before that.”
“Good to hear you’re feeling better?”
If she had said partner in more than a conversational way, then his life in Seattle had snapped back into place so completely it was unreal.
“You called me partner.”
Shannon stared at him for a full five seconds.
“What is it with you? Does your brain have permanent jet lag? Would you rather I say, ‘Good to hear it, fellow majority shareholder, cofounder, and owner in the corporation known as RimSoft?’”
Micah repressed a smile struggling to burst onto his face. “No, that certainly is a rousing bit of phrasing, but ‘partner’ will be fine.” He couldn’t suppress the massive smile any longer.
She glared at him. “Tell me you’re okay. We need to sit down and catch up. But I need you sane.”
“Two o’clock, your office?”
“Fine.”
Amazing. Micah strutted toward the elevator, flipped open his cell phone, and dialed.
“Phil, Micah Taylor. What floor do I live on?”
“What, Mr. Micah?”
“My condo. What floor is it on?” The silver elevator doors slid open; Micah stepped in and pressed the round button for the eighteenth floor.
“The same floor it has always been. You are on the twenty-first floor.”
“The penthouse.”
“Yes, Mr. Micah. Why do you ask this question?”
“I want to make sure all aspects of my life have shifted back into alignment.”
“I am not understand.”
“That makes two of us. But it’s all good, Phil. All good. Thanks.”
How could he start to thank God for this? Why hadn’t he listened to his own voice earlier?
The elevator doors opened, and he stepped onto the eighteenth floor. He walked toward where his old office used to be, which is exactly where it was now. A young man he didn’t recognize sat at the desk outside his door. “How are you?”
“Good, Mr. Taylor. Thank you.”
The young man stood and offered his hand. Damp. Micah shook it and tried not to grimace.
“I’m from Smart Temps,” said the young man. “I’m filling in while your regular executive assistant is on vacation.”
Micah turned and wiped his hand on his right hip.
“She’ll be back tomorrow,” the temp said.
Once inside his office he pulled a picture of Sarah out of his briefcase. So beautiful. Sarah sat on a small grassy dune in her black biking shorts and a dark blue Windbreaker, Haystack Rock looming in the background. Her windblown hair partially obscured the right side of her face. He stared at the picture, then kissed it.
He wanted to spen
d the rest of his life with her.
Picking up the phone, his hand danced over the buttons. After four rings her exquisite voice came on the line. “Hi, this is Sarah. You leave the message; I’d love to call you back. Bye.”
“Hey, beautiful. Me. Just checking in. I know you’re at work, but hearing your voice is better than nothing. Some fascinating developments up here. So cool. Way beyond what I could have imagined. Sorry to say it, but you were wrong. It was right to come back. Call me.”
Micah hung up and walked toward the awards that covered his walls. He touched the frame of the Innovative Software of the Year award. Part of him loved the software business, the financial freedom, the challenges, and impact his products had on the world. But more than all of it, he loved Sarah. And more than Sarah, he loved the Lord. All of the glory of his Seattle world was nothing compared to the healing and freedom he’d found in Cannon Beach.
It made sense. To gain Seattle back, he had to lose it first. His voice was right.
Now he had it all.
Micah booted up his computer and found four hundred-plus e-mail messages sitting like little penguins all in a row, insisting on a moment of his time. He smiled. It was nice being in demand again.
Before he dove in, he called his CFO to confirm the return of one final piece of his life. His CFO said he owned 725,345 shares in RimSoft. He punched up the share price and did the math. He felt the voice deep inside smile. Just over $60 million dollars. All was right with the world again. He wanted to tell Sarah immediately. Well, if he couldn’t share it with her, he could try Rick.
“Rick’s Gas and Garage.”
“Hey, Devin, it’s Micah.”
“Micah?”
“Micah Taylor.”
“Um.”
“From Seattle?”
“Oh, yeah, that’s right. How are ya?”
“How many other Micahs do you know?”
Devin didn’t answer so Micah asked for Rick.
“Out till Friday. Had some family business back east I think, not exactly sure where. Want me to give him a message?”
“Yeah, tell him to buy a cell phone.”
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