“Am I hurting you?” he asked, sweetly.
“Yes, but it’s good, it’s so good.”
“It is good,” he murmured, savoring the slow, deep thrusts, which began to quicken as he felt me clench around him, taking the whole of him in, finally.
“Oh yeah, you’re so fucking tight.”
I watched him sink into me, faster and fiercer. Yes. I can come like this! I thought, lifting my knees higher, feeling him reach the very end of me.
Then he slowed to a stop. No! And pulled himself out, leaving me hungry, gasping. I almost screamed, Don’t stop!—until I realized he had no intention of stopping anything. I felt his tongue swimming in my belly button, releasing another rush of wetness below. He opened me wider still, pressing my knees up and apart, holding me down, his face exploring me, kissing my thighs, the inner groves, nibbling greedily along my folds until he found my tiny, tight clitoris—fully engorged now—nosing it, lapping at it. He surrounded it fully with his mouth, sucking my lips and swirling his tongue around my tender, throbbing clit, making me utterly delirious.
“Ohh yeah,” I sighed. This is for you. Let him. My hand clutched a fistful of his hair, while he cupped my butt, his thumb pressing into me, his tongue carving mad circles, pulling everything into focus.
“You like that?” he murmured between flickering tongue strokes. “Yeah?”
I couldn’t help it. I couldn’t. I gave way to an orgasm so intense I screamed into the ceiling as his fingers thrust and his tongue continued to circle and flutter through my cries. Oh god oh god oh god, I’m coming, yes! I had one hand on his headboard, the other clenching his hair, and I was bucking and gasping as it shot straight through my middle and out all four limbs. My eyes squeezed shut to hold on to the intensity of it all before it finally, cruelly subsided.
He inched his way up my weakened body, kissing my stomach, rubbing his wet lips across my nipples, then pushing himself back into me; he was so hard, so fucking hard. I had barely caught my breath when our bodies came crashing together, my hands clutching his hips, my knees bracketing him tight, the friction making me dizzy. My pleasure mounted again. What the hell? And then like lightning I came again, throwing my head back. “Oh my god … Will! Yes! Oh, Will, oh …” I cried out, just as he came, saying my name, groaning into my hair, grinding into my body …
Fuck.
I covered my mouth and shut my eyes, both at the intensity of the pleasure and at my stupid, stupid gaffe. When he gently pulled out and rolled off me, I hoped, prayed he hadn’t quite heard what I had said. I mean, we were both so loud, and it was all so intense and so, so good … Why did I have to fuck it up?
“So … yeah. Will. That’s your ex?” he asked the ceiling, while tugging off the condom.
Damn.
He looked at me and I nodded.
“Why aren’t you with him?”
“It’s complicated.”
“It always is.”
“I’m sorry. That was … an accident. And not worth discussing.”
“If you say so.” He sounded sincere.
Whew.
“But you know what is worth discussing?” I said, rolling onto my elbow to face him. I tried to offer a coy grin, something to signal a change not just in subject, but in mood. “Your captain’s bed.”
He bit.
“Just because it’s got storage underneath doesn’t mean it’s a captain’s bed. It’s a small apartment. You have to conserve space.”
My fingers moved up and down his firm stomach, following the soft line of dark hair that led to a neat thatch surrounding his penis, now spent and resting heavy on his thigh. This man was especially sexy when he wasn’t talking.
“You are … amazing,” I said.
With my finger I circled one of his nipples, then the other one.
“And you are funny,” he said, still breathless. “And fun.”
I put my finger over his beautifully formed, very talented lips.
“That’s right,” I said. “Funny. And fun. I think those are operative words here.”
“I’m sure there are other f words we can incorporate,” he said, wrapping his lips around my finger and sucking it.
I closed my eyes. Okay. We were good. Liberation, indeed.
8
DAUPHINE
EVER SINCE MY first fantasy on the Abita River almost a month ago, I felt as though an extra line of voltage had been installed in my body. How else to explain my energy that day? Not only did I send Elizabeth home, I sorted and priced the last of the estate-sale boxes, purged old stock and made the store so pristine, so sparkly, I had the urge to close up shop for good lest any of my hard work be disturbed by actual shoppers.
I even took a picture. And instead of feeling drained by the exertion, I felt victorious, energized. Then I spotted them in the front window—the tables! I forgot the folding sale tables on the sidewalk.
“Dammit, dammit, dammit,” I said, quickly unlocking the door. It was after hours, so Magazine Street was almost empty. I stacked the scratched plastic bins, which contained everything from mismatched opera gloves, lopsided wigs, dyed-satin clutches with tiny stains, odd-sized fishnets, so-so rhinestones that I had left under a sign marked “Charity Bins: $2 each—or $20 takes it all.” I had been warned several times by the Magazine Street Retail Association that I wasn’t allowed to put my inventory on the sidewalk unless it was Spring Fling, when the whole street shut down for an outdoor sale. Last year I was slapped with an eight-hundred-dollar fine when I ignored the rule on Easter weekend. But I was so proud of myself for making a dent, even a small one, in moving some of the dead inventory, I justified my infraction.
I saw a tall, imposing shadow cross the table in front of me.
“Miss Dauphine Mason?”
I slowly turned around, clutching a pink pageboy wig in one fist, two stray gloves under an armpit. I was eye-level with a taut blue shirt and a shiny brass badge.
“Well, shut my mouth,” I said, my mother’s accent flying out of me. Police officers do bring out the Belle in me, what with their close-cropped hair and broad shoulders.
And this one was particularly … arresting, with his grey-flecked eyes and a singular dimple in his cheek that disappeared when he chewed his gum. He stood cocking a hip, a man used to his own authority, with a set of handcuffs dangling from his belt.
“I need you to step inside the store, Miss Mason,” he said, looking around, his jaw clenching.
“Who squealed on me this time?”
“Just step inside, please. Don’t worry. There’s no trouble.”
He had the thighs of a runner—maybe from chasing bad guys?
“Jesus Murphy’s cousin,” I said, both hands on my hips now. “It’s just a gosh darn table, Officer.”
“Language, Miss Mason.”
“If I am asked to pay another eight-hundred-dollar fine for putting tables on the sidewalk, I am not going to be very happy.”
Without answering, he followed me into the store, where I could no longer contain my outrage. I flicked the lights back on.
“You know this is ridiculous,” I said, tossing my store keys on the glass counter. “You should be catching criminals, not businesswomen eking out a living.”
While I ranted, he moved slowly around the store, ducking his head into the men’s side, peering over the high racks.
“Miss Mason, I have a patrol car parked out back.”
“For what?”
“To save you the embarrassment of taking you into my custody on the street. But if you don’t shut—”
“You want me to shut up? Well, I won’t. I think it’s unfair that—”
“Miss Mason, what I was going to say is if you don’t shut the front door, lock it, then accept the Step, I won’t be able to … arrest you.”
With that, he moved towards me, dangling the handcuffs he had loosened from his belt. His smile took on a playful wickedness.
“Don’t make me use these. Unless you want me to.�
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“I … I … You’re from … They sent you?”
My anger subsided, replaced with embarrassment, then curiosity, then arousal.
“What’ll it be, Miss Mason?”
“Are you a real cop?” I asked, my eyes narrowing. This was getting interesting.
“I don’t have to answer that.”
He was standing close enough to me that I could smell his peppermint gum.
I lifted my wrists in front of me. “Well, I guess it’s time, then,” I said. “I accept the Step.”
If a cop could be balletic, that is the word I’d use to describe how he deftly turned me around, secured my arms behind my back and locked my wrists together in his snug cuffs. He put his mouth next to my ear.
“Where are the store keys?” he whispered.
A hot shiver snaked down my back. So this is what it felt like to be restrained. Frankly, it was not only one of my fears, it was also one of my darkest fantasies. I was beginning to see a pattern. First, conquering the water, now this.
“Aren’t we staying here?”
“’Fraid not, ma’am. I’m taking you down to the station.”
I looked at my plain cotton housedress, perfect for errands and cleaning but not for seduction. Not looking my best prior to having sex? Also a fear. Damn them.
“Am I … dressed for the station?”
“You’ll be the best-dressed, or undressed, one there.”
“What are you going to do to me?”
“Everything you want, nothing you don’t.”
Right. Good to be reminded. I felt calmer again. Then we got as far as the change room area and I suddenly stopped moving, my feet welded to the painted concrete. “Wait!”
“Courage, Dauphine,” he said, his hand gently nudging my back.
“No. I need my purse.”
He exhaled.
“Where is it?”
“Under the counter,” I said, tilting my chin to indicate. “Thank you.”
I was struck by the oddity of the picture—this tall, masculine image of justice returning with my coral leather hobo bag.
The air in the alley was cool, the night still. He locked the front and back doors of my store and then ducked me into the back seat of his dark vehicle, hand on my head, and tucked my purse in next to me.
“Thank you kindly. You’re a gentleman.”
“No. I’m a mean police officer.”
“Right,” I said. “I understand.”
He has a role to play—let him, Dauphine. Trust and control.
When he settled into the driver’s seat and took off, a tiny panic set in. I knew this man wasn’t going to hurt me, or book me, or keep me someplace I didn’t want to be, but I did not like being a passenger, let alone being caged in like this. Yet hadn’t I also been afraid to let that beautiful man float me on my back in the Abita River? I was so scared when we turned off the Covington Highway that day, but so happy afterwards. That day still played out in my mind, like a bonus track. I tried to relax into my seat, but I found myself alternating between fear and excitement, which only increased my arousal. I started to understand the appeal of restraints.
It took only a few turns through the darkened streets of the Garden District for us to arrive at our destination: the Mansion. The gates opened and swallowed up the car. My heart quickened; so far I had only been to the Coach House. Then my heart sank as we slowly passed the side entrance, heading over a slight crest to what looked like a large garage next to the kidney-shaped pool, sparkling under the dark sky.
“No Mansion?”
“No more questions.”
A garage door slowly opened and my policeman inched the car into a spot between two other vehicles, both fancy and expensive, though I couldn’t have named them if the officer had put a gun to my head. He shut the engine off, exited the car and opened my back door.
“Step outside the vehicle, Miss Mason.”
I propelled myself to my feet, wrists still cuffed. He sidestepped me to close the car door, and then pressed me up against his side. I could feel him hard against my hip.
“You’re turning me into a bad cop, Miss Mason,” he said, leaning in for a firm, insistent kiss.
I opened my mouth to his just as he pulled away.
“Are you ready for your interrogation?”
I nodded. Okay. This will work. He guided me by the arm through a door in the garage, we entered a small, warm office. There were two steel chairs facing each other on a thick carpet, a table to the side. The windows were covered with blackout curtains. The whole room was lit with one dim overhead bulb. He pulled out a chair for me and I sat. He took the chair opposite me, so our knees almost touched.
“Are you ready?” he asked.
I looked around the bare, still room. Not exactly the scene of high romance, but somehow it felt charged with sex.
“Ready when you are,” I said, leaning back in my chair, my hands shackled behind me.
“You’re being impudent.”
“Authority brings that out in me.” It was true. I decided if he wanted me to surrender, he’d have to make me.
“Stand up, please. I want to see if you’re wearing a wire.”
“A what?” I asked, laughing.
“Stand up and let me unbutton that dress.”
He threw his cap onto the table beside us and rolled up his sleeves. I stood in front of him, chin jutting out. His big hands went to my top button. One after the other, he released them, leaving my dress gaping. Oh dear, my underwear did not match my bra. Why was that suddenly so tragic? It was hardly going to be a deal-breaker and yet I was disappointed. I would have dressed better, different. Trust and control.
He moved the dress off my shoulders so it bunched in back, over my cuffs.
“See? No wire, Officer.” Was my voice quavering? Where was my bravado now?
“I’m not done my search,” he said. He clearly liked what he saw, but I had never felt so vulnerable, being regarded like this so openly. “Come closer,” he said.
He opened his legs so I could step between them, the outsides of my thighs touching the insides of his. He leaned back, resting his head in his hands, and looked up at my face.
“For such a bad, bad woman, you look very, very good right now,” he said.
His eyes scanned my breasts, my skin, my hips. Not able to remove my bra, he reached up and lifted my breasts out and rested them pertly above the cups.
“Perfect,” he said.
My heart sped up. Being cuffed, being unable to touch him, or push him away, scared me a little. But he had such an open, warm face, and those eyes …
“I’m going to remove your underwear, Miss Mason,” he said. “I need to search all of you.”
He placed his fingers tenderly in my waistband, his face stern, and slid the panties down. I stepped out of them. I could feel his breath on my skin, my stomach. Then he pivoted my whole body and held my hips firmly from behind.
“What are you doing?” I asked, fear coming over me now that I wasn’t facing him. My eyes darted around the room.
“Checking all of you.”
He moved aside my dress, still bunched around my wrists. He glided one of his hands over my ass, like he was admiring a sculpture up close, gently kissing the places his hands touched. I shut my eyes. Slowly, agonizingly, I felt his fingers slipping between my legs where I knew I was already wet.
“Just making sure you’re not concealing anything,” he said, coiling his finger up inside of me. Ohhhh. His voice was cracking with the kind of helplessness that only desire creates.
Was this really happening?
He pulled me down onto his lap. Oh lord, I could feel his erection against my thigh, my hands now near it, and I felt a growing ache. From behind, he split my legs apart, burying his face between my arms, my shoulder blades. He pulled off my ponytail holder, releasing my hair down my back. I watched as his hand moved across the front of my body, his fingers finding me again, so wet I almost apologiz
ed.
“You’ve been a bad girl, Dauphine.”
“Yes …” I closed my eyes, leaning back into him, desire mounting as his fingers dipped and circled my wetness.
“I’m going to have to do some bad things to you. Would you like that?”
“Yes,” I said. I could feel his erection grow, my hips lightly, instinctively grinding against it.
“Time for this interrogation to come to a close,” he whispered, rising from the chair and taking me with him, moving towards the table.
He pressed me across it, my breasts against its cool surface.
“If I undo your cuffs, do you promise to be good?” he asked.
I nodded as he released me, placing one hand, then the other, on the table in front of me. I rubbed my wrists as he dropped his belt. I peeked over my shoulder to watch him tearing off his uniform, peeling up his white T-shirt so I could finally catch sight of what I had been feeling: a firm, broad chest, the overhead light illuminating every ripple, an expanse of smooth skin, a line of dark hair from his belly button, the thick crown of his erection visible over the top of the table. This is so hot.
“Look at you spread out like this for me,” he said, slicking a finger and dragging it down my spine to my ass, now high in the air. Oh my god. I closed my eyes as he navigated the fold between my buttocks, circling shamelessly around my dark nerve-intense pucker.
“Jesus,” I murmured, clutching the sides of the table as with every dip and tickle he sent a shock wave of pleasure through my whole body. I had never been touched there before, not like this, so openly.
“What are you doing to me?”
“Naughty things to a naughty girl,” he said, grabbing my cheeks firmly, widening the area he was pleasuring. He bent to take me in, all tongue now, slow and languid. The wicked sensations pounded through my whole body. I was pulsating, engorged, on the cusp of coming without him even going near my usual places. Oh god.
“Do you like that?”
Half delirious, I could only answer with a sound. Then I heard a drawer open in the table beneath me, the crackling of a condom packet.
“Turn around, Dauphine. I want to look at your beautiful face while I fuck you senseless.”
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