He wriggled free and buried his face half in the pillow so she couldn't get at him again. Laughing, he said, "You're sure."
"Sure as shit, big boy."
They play-fought briefly, unable to represent their feelings any other way, before falling back side by side, giggling. Once they'd quietened again, Laura said thoughtfully, "You know what, I don't take anything for granted any more."
"What do you mean?"
"I used to drift through life accepting everything that came my way. Didn't get too excited because that was the way it was. It was just… nice. You know that tingly feeling you get in the pit of the stomach? I get that all the time these days. Sometimes just looking at shit, like the way the sun hits the fields. Like the smell of really good food. Or woodsmoke? Have you noticed how good that smells? I get excited when we all have a good conversation, you know how it is when the ideas are bouncing around and I'm bitching like hell and people are batting it back at me. The world's falling apart and people are dying out there, and I'm sitting thinking these are the best days of my life. What does that say about me?"
"It's not just you."
"What?"
"I feel it too. I think we all do. What does it say? Something about the way life should be lived, I guess."
"Urrp. Heaviness alarm. Why can't you just say it means I'm fucked in the head and leave it at that?"
"Because you're not." He felt a sudden wave of affection for her. "You don't do yourself any favours, you know. Why do you keep acting out this, shall we say, difficult persona?"
"It's a natural selection process. I know anybody who fights their way through that crap has got to be all right. Anybody who gets turned away by it isn't worth the time or effort."
"There are easier ways-"
"No, there aren't. You can't trust anybody at face value. They might be smiling and pleasant and say nice things, but what's going on inside? It's a life lesson, idiot-brain. I'd have thought you would have learned that by now. This is the only way I can work out who's all right."
The thought stayed with him as he floated in the warm peace of the room. The complexities of her character intrigued him, but there was something deep in her words that kept nagging at him, hinting at something important. He wrestled with it for a while, but it was stubbornly resistant and before he knew it he was drifting off into sleep.
Veitch relaxed once the sound of Church and Laura's love-making faded, but it had obviously left him with a surfeit of irritation. He prowled the room like an animal, stripped to the waist, the brilliant colours of his tattoos rippling with the movement of his muscles.
"Will you sit down! You're making me feel uncomfortable," Tom snapped.
Veitch glared at him, said nothing at first. He slumped in the chair and removed the crossbow from the harness hanging on the end of the bed. From a little leather bag he took an oily rag and proceeded to carry out his nightly ritual of cleaning the weapon and ensuring it was in full working order. The routine seemed to give him some comfort.
"Your skills as a fighter seem to be coming on apace," Tom noted. "Do you think you're up to it?"
Veitch grunted, but didn't rise to the obvious bait. "You're supposed to be the hero of a country-or so the stories say. Why don't you do something fucking heroic?"
Now it was Tom's turn to grow cold. "You don't believe stories. They're there to make heroes so weak people have something to look up to. Try the real world some time. You'll see people making difficult choices, compromises, trying to do the best they can, despite everything."
"So you're not a hero? You've got a rep based on a pack of lies."
"Don't stick your ignorance on a flag. You'll regret it. Believe me."
"You're dead weight, if you ask me."
Tom took out the tin in which he kept his drugs and began to roll himself a joint. "You have too much anger."
"Life makes me angry."
"You make yourself angry."
Veitch focused on the crossbow.
"You wish you were something else," Tom continued. "You're angry with yourself that you're not."
"You sound like a fucking social worker."
Tom lit the joint and inhaled. "You know that old story about the scorpion being given a ride across a rushing river by some other animal… I can't remember which one now."
"Yeah, I know it. The scorpion promises not to sting, but halfway across he does because he can't help himself so they both die."
"People always reel out these trite little stories as if they're supposed to be some great, unshakeable wisdom. There is no great, unshakeable wisdom, not that anyone on this planet can see, anyway. Everything is open to debate. That story was supposed to show people are prisoners of their nature. It's a sad story really. It says there is no hope for redemption. You will keep repeating your mistakes until you die. Don't you think that's sad?"
Veitch said nothing.
"I happen to believe people can change. That they can grow wise with the years, slough off the skin they were presented with as children. If they really want to."
Veitch continued working on the crossbow as if he hadn't heard Tom at all. The room slowly filled with the fragrant hash smoke. When he did finally speak, Veitch's voice was miraculously drained of all the rage that had fractured it before. "I think that Laura tart is the one who's trying to sell us down the river."
"Why do you say that?"
"It's obvious, innit?" A pause. "Don't you reckon?"
"I don't know. I think it might be you."
Veitch looked up in shock. "What are you talking about?"
Tom shrugged. "Just an instinct."
Veitch searched his face for a moment to see if it was another wind-up, but as usual couldn't tell a thing from Tom's impassive features. "Listen, I'm doing the right thing here." His voice trembled again from the repressed emotion. "I know everybody thinks it must be me because I never played it straight before. These people mean more to me than anything. What we're doing… for the country, you know… for everybody… I'd give up my life for that." His stare challenged Tom to argue.
"I stand corrected," Tom replied in such a way that Veitch couldn't tell whether he meant it or not. "But it's not wise to go pointing the finger without evidence."
"Aren't you worried about the fact that one of us might be fucking everybody up?"
"I'm aware of it, certainly. But you can't take everything the dead say at face value. You've seen evidence of that. Be patient. As long as we remain on our guard then we will be better placed to protect ourselves. But a constant and high level of suspicion for those we are relying on is not helpful."
"Is this some kind of pep talk?"
"See it how you want."
Veitch finished the crossbow and returned it to the harness. "I'll take your advice. Fair enough?"
Pain, terrible pain. Torture instruments that flared in the dark with the glow of heat. The animal stink, and those voices that were not voices, like the jungle at twilight. And Ruth thinking, I can't take any more hurt. It would be easier to be dead.
But they wouldn't relent. Another cruel blade, another corkscrew attachment, and hammers. Tears burning her eyes, throat constricting so tightly there was no air for her lungs. And then the scream, raw and bloody.
The scream.
"It is okay. You are having a bad dream."
Thrashing wildly, still screaming, still torn between the hell of the torture chamber and the darkness of the room. And then, gradually, reality intruding, Shavi's face forming out of the pale shape that appeared before her eyes.
"It is okay," he repeated. Gently, he pulled her towards him. Her tense muscles slowly relented and she laid her head against his chest, her mind spinning, her heart thundering, the tears still rolling down her cheek.
"I'll never forget," she whispered. "Never."
It might have been Ruth's scream that woke them all, but within minutes in their separate rooms they all became aware of something going on in the street beneath their windows.
At first it was hard to see anything in the deep dark, but they could pick out movement swirling up and down the street in shallow gusts. It took a second or two to realise what they were seeing until Max's description came back to them: like sheets blowing in the wind.
The motion itself was eerie in its unworldliness, but occasionally they picked out tiny sparks of red light they all knew must be eyes. Laura felt the frisson most acutely when she remembered the scarecrow they had passed on the way in.
Whatever the creatures were, they were like a force of nature in the way they howled along the streets, sending gates crashing open and shut. But Sir Richard had been right: they did not enter any houses.
That was almost enough to calm the group's jangling nerves, until ten minutes later they all heard an unmistakable sound, high pitched and insistent like the wind in the trees, yet somehow strangely unnatural; it made them all feel queasy. A second later the creatures began to sweep back towards the fields. But as they passed the pub, another noise rose up, briefly, along with a flash of something pale caught among the flurry of movement. It sounded very much like a child crying.
Chapter Twelve
A heap Of Broken Images
Despite the danger, Veitch and Church were out of the pub and racing up the High Street within seconds, but there was no sign of where the creatures could have gone. The night was too dark, the countryside too empty. It didn't take them long to locate the victim's home; the shrieks could be heard across the village.
A woman in her late twenties clutched at the door jamb of one of the council houses, her face ruptured by grief. She was trying to propel herself out into the street while a man and another woman fought to restrain her, their expressions of deep dread revealing their motivation. Her dyed black hair flailed all around as she howled like an animal: sometimes Veitch and Church picked out the name Ellie among the incomprehensible wailings of a ruined life.
Lights were coming on all around and soon other neighbours were at the scene. One of them forced some tablets into her mouth and shortly after they managed to calm her enough to get her inside. Veitch and Church waited patiently until the man who had been holding the mother back ventured out, hollow eyes staring out of a chalk face. He was barefoot, still wearing grey pyjama bottoms and a Metallica T-shirt.
"What happened?" Church asked quietly.
It took a second or two for him to register their presence and even then he seemed unable to focus on them. Tears leaked out of the corner of his eyes. He furiously scrubbed them away, saying, "Sorry, mate, sorry. Fuck." He leaned on the gatepost, shaking. "She said it was locked! Fuck." He turned round to look at the open front door. It had once been painted white, but now it was a dirty cream, scuffed with old bootprints near the bottom, some of them very small. Inside the hall the light was stark and unpleasant. The man turned back, stared at them for a long moment as if he were about to say something and then he staggered towards the house next door.
Once he was inside, Veitch slipped down the path to examine the door. "Look at this," he said pointing to the jamb. The wood was splintered. "They forced it open. That Max was wrong."
Church ran his fingertip over the damaged jamb. "Maybe those things are learning new tricks."
The smell of frying bacon, eggs and sausages filled the pub. As the group sat around the tables in the bar, they felt convinced that even aromas were more vibrant in the new world. But even that simple joy couldn't dispel the dismal air that had grown after the night's events. Talk turned quickly to whether the village should be evacuated en masse if the safety of the occupants could no longer be guaranteed.
"That's up to the villagers," Tom pointed out, "but I would say they would be loath to leave their homes, even in the face of such a trial. In this time of crisis, stability is vitally important."
"That poor woman. Her only child." Ruth's face still looked a little grey; since her ordeal she rarely gained her colour until after breakfast. "We have to do something to help."
"As if we haven't got enough on our hands," Laura said sourly.
"No, I agree with Ruth," Church said, to Laura's obvious annoyance. "We can't leave these people high and dry if there's anything at all we can do."
"Max said the creatures leave the village alone for a while after they have secured a victim," Shavi reiterated. "That gives us a little time."
"Then we should start straight away." Church broke open his egg with his fork. "Talk to everyone we can. There must be something we can use, some kind of defence that will keep these things out-"
"I don't believe you lot," Laura snapped. "One minute you're talking about this big mission to save the world, the next you're taking time out to save the waifs and strays. Anything could happen here. You saw what was going on last night. There's no guarantee one of us won't get hurt or worse, and then we won't be able to do what's expected of us. I say we save ourselves."
Veitch eyed her coldly. "It's all about doing the right thing too."
"What must it be like to be you?" Laura sneered. "All those echoes from that one thought rolling around your head-"
"Least it's a good thought."
"Okay, okay!" Church held up his hands to calm the bickering. "Let's see what we can do."
As they filed out into the sunlit street, Shavi hung back until he caught Church's eye. They stood behind in the pub doorway while the others went off to explore the village. The air was already hot and filled with clouds of butterflies drawn by the heavy perfume of the roses. Bees buzzed lazily from bloom to bloom.
Church could see from Shavi's expression it wasn't going to be good news. "What's wrong?" he asked.
"I find this very hard to say," Shavi began hesitantly, "but as soon as we have finished our duties here I am afraid I will have to leave."
Church's heart sank. "You can't leave, Shavi! For God's sake…" He floundered around for the correct words. "We're relying on you. You're the backbone of the whole team. The only stable one among us!"
"I fear you are not doing yourself or any of the others justice. Please do not make this difficult for me. I understand my responsibilities to you and all, and to the mission destiny has delivered to us. It is just-"
"What?" There was an unnecessary hardness to Church's voice.
"It was I who freed Maponus. And every life that is cut down by his hand is on my conscience."
"Look, we asked you to seek him out and free him. You couldn't have-"
Shavi held up a hand to silence his friend. "Whether I knew what I was unleashing or not is immaterial. I certainly exhibited arrogance in my approach which allowed me to be manipulated. Even without apportioning blame, any deaths are my deaths. I have to do something to make amends-"
"Like what?"
"Help to imprison him again."
"Shavi, with all due respect, what can you do? It took a collection of the most powerful people in the land to bind him originally. And not all of them survived."
"I do not know what I can do. But if there is a chance that I can do anything I have to seize it. I will seek out the Bone Inspector and offer my help. Perhaps the two of us can find some way-"
"Shavi, I'm not having any of this."
Shavi smiled. "This goes far beyond our friendship and your leadership, Jack. I am burdened by this responsibility."
Church tried to dredge up some relevant argument. He felt massive failure for all of them staring him in the face. "The Pendragon Spirit called us together to complement each other with our abilities. Losing you would be like losing an arm-there's no way we'd be able to carry on."
"I am not leaving forever, Jack. Just until I have found a solution. Then I will return to help in-"
"Okay, stay a little longer. Take some time to weigh things up-"
"I have-"
"No, listen. The woman in the Watchtower who set us on this path originally. Her name's Niamh. There's some kind of bond between us. Before you make any move, let me contact her. She might have a solution. For God's sake, Maponus is one of
their own. They have to help!"
Shavi looked unsure.
"I'm not asking you to change your mind. Just defer it until I've tried this path. "
Shavi nodded politely. "All right. I will do that."
As Church watched Shavi wander down the summery street towards the others, he couldn't escape the feeling that the burdens which had been placed on him as leader were growing with each day. Sooner or later he knew he would be found lacking.
"We should question all the information we've been given. Go back to first principles." Ruth checked the list of victims Max had given her. She was enjoying the opportunity to use her naturally incisive abilities on a problem rather than dwelling on the queasiness and weakness that afflicted her too often now.
Tom sighed in a manner which suggested he could barely find the energy for the task at hand.
Ruth knew him too well to rise to the bait. "I think I've found out your special ability, Tom," she said without raising her eyes from the list.
"Oh?"
"Directional irritation. You turn it on, pick out a target, boom." He snorted in such a comically affronted way Ruth couldn't help a smile. "Look," she continued, "we know nothing about these things. If the information is flawed, any response we decide on could be flawed too. And that might be the fatal flaw."
He shrugged dismissively. "There are more important things-"
"Don't start that again. We've made the decision. Let's stick to it."
He snatched the list from her and compared the addresses to the village around him. "At least the last three are in the same area. We can turn this around quickly."
With Laura and Veitch talking to some of the villagers who had seen the creatures and Shavi already at the house of the first victim, Mrs. Ransom, they headed off to the cluster of other victims. The addresses were all in the vicinity of Recton Close, where the drunk Jimmy Oldfield had lived and died. His council house stood empty, the garden gate wide open, one window shattered from what was probably a randomly thrown stone; one of the local kids, Ruth guessed.
Not too far away they could see the house of the previous night's victim. The curtains were tightly drawn. They thought it best not to trouble the recently bereaved mother and instead concentrated on the neigbours of Oldfield and the other two people who had died.
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