I turned away when no matter the cost cascaded through my mind.
It could cost a great deal. For me. For him.
“Lady Betarrini?” he asked. “Gabriella,” he said, dropping his tone, in such an enticing manner, I nearly turned.
“You need to go, Marcello,” I said. “Depart.” Vamoose, I added, in my thoughts. Hasta la vista, baby. “I only represent danger for you. Loss. All you need is below us, in this house.”
“How can you be so certain? Might there be a new path for me? One my parents might never have foreseen?”
He was speaking of me. I drew in a shaky breath. What could I promise him? A wife who disappeared into the future? No, it wasn’t fair….
I looked back to give him a pretty speech, some small comfort, but he was already gone through the gaping door, taking my hesitation as answer enough.
I stared for a long time at that empty doorway, recognizing that I had killed any chance to be with the hottest guy I had ever run across. But it was for a good reason, a solid reason. I was being responsible.
I tried to swallow the regret that filled my throat, tried to feel assured, courageous. But I couldn’t even manage that.
My mouth was dry.
And my heart was empty.
In my dreams that night, I did all the steps the men had taught me. And no, they weren’t cool, romantic dreams, all about Marcello and his warm hands and strong arms, holding me. No, they were all the nerdy counting thing, freaking out when I missed a step.
Call me a perfectionist.
Whatever.
I just knew I was about to mess this up. The coming dance drew us all in, the house abuzz.
I had a sense of destiny about it all.
I also had a distinct sense of disaster about it too.
The combination wasn’t pretty.
I paced the room for hours before it began, already in the deep, wine-colored gown. My carefully coiffed hairdo began to pull and curl-What Id do for a little product, I lamented again-and yet not able to summon up the strength to stop walking.
Tonight, tonight, Lord Rossi would share with all his friends and acquaintances my plight-sending out word to every corner of the kingdom that a girl was here, longing for her mother, her sister.
In days I would know if one or both of them were here …or if I was all alone.
I managed to make it down the steps without catching a toe in my skirts and tumbling all the way to the bottom. I thought that was a major plus. Luca was waiting for me. He put a hand over his heart as if it was about to burst out of his chest. “Truly a vision, m’lady.”
I smiled and looked ahead, catching a glimpse of Marcello’s curly hair and Lady Rossi’s golden gown. Gold? That was a little much, I thought. She might as well be wearing an “I Belong to Marcello” T-shirt. I sighed. I was just jealous, jealous over a guy I couldn’t have anyway.
“I thought I might be of service as an escort,” Luca whispered. “If you’ll have me. Otherwise, I’ll never get a chance to dance with you, once the men of the city catch a glimpse of you.”
“I’d be most grateful,” I said, looking up at him. The last thing I wanted was to go solo to this party. He offered his arm, and I rested mine on top of his. Although I knew the palazzo had a private door onto the piazza, it was likely down in the kitchen. So we left through the front entrance. As we, the household of Rossi, paraded down the street, I realized that half this deal was like any high school dance at home. The point was to see and be seen.
We moved down Via di Banchi and then through the tunnel that led to II Campo. The piazza was more as I remembered it from my time, with no vendors and stalls, but rather groups of regulars, standing about to gawk at the rich and powerful in their brightly colored gowns and elaborate jackets. I tried to ignore the pain in my thigh-now a massive, purple-green bruise-and focused on not tripping. As a part of the Rossi party, I somehow represented them. I didn’t want anything to get in the way of their aiding me in my search. Like falling flat on my face in the middle of the plaza. That would not be good.
It was like we were on a virtual red carpet or something. I briefly imagined Entertainment Tonight’s pretty-boy host stopping us, microphone in hand, asking us who designed our clothes, where we got the diamonds-not that I was wearing any-and who our hopefuls were for the Oscars tonight.
At the bottom of the piazza, we entered the small courtyard of the Palazzo Pubblico, then through the doors to the grand salon on the main floor. In my time, the place had been made into a museum, with carefully restored, famous medieval frescoes on the wall. Now I was staring at those same works, but it was like the paint had just barely dried, the colors as rich and vibrant as the silk the women wore about the room. Mom would totally pee her pants.
It was in this building that the Nine and their buddies met to discuss political matters, making military plans to protect the city from her enemies, negotiating issues that arose among the guildsbasically the workers’ unions of the day. It was with some surprise that I remembered all that from the charmless museum guide who droned on and on, and who Lia had become quite adept at impersonating, making us both dissolve into giggles. Now I was seeing his boring stories explode into a 3D movie. Men were shaking hands and laughing, others with chin in hand, listening earnestly.
I couldn’t see Marcello at the moment-there were hundreds of people in the big room-but I caught sight of Lord Rossi, and when he pointed in my direction and the man with him regarded me, I turned to Luca. “Might you be able to find a cup of water for me? I’m feeling just a bit faint.”
“Of course, m’lady,” he said, looking concerned. Of course he was nervous; he’d seen me pass out cold before. He took my elbow and led me to a chair at one of the long tables and then set off on my quest. The tables were covered in a rich, light sage-green cloth, the color of Siena’s hills in late summer, and in the center of each were massive platters of fruit-apples, oranges, pears, pomegranates, grapes-so enticing and gorgeous that if Lia had been there, she would’ve whipped out her sketch book to capture the image. It was almost too bad they would be eaten.
I finally saw the place cards among the hand-blown, red crystal goblets, in a delicate, artistic script, and I realized that was how Luca knew where to park me. Mine said N. Rossi at the top, Lady Gabriella Betarrini at the bottom. N for Nine? I wondered idly, searching the crowd for my escort, suddenly desperately thirsty. Parched.
I still didn’t see Marcello, and I berated myself for looking for him. Perhaps he and Romana were in the other wing, around the corner. Scanning the cards, it appeared that the Rossi household was split up a bit; every other couple had a different “N” name at the top. Perhaps a plan to force some mixing.
With this many people, there was a slight chance I wouldn’t see him all night. Perhaps that was Lady Rossi’s grand scheme. To keep him all to herself.
As it should be, Gabi.
I knew that upstairs was another grand salon-I remembered it from the tour. Might that be where we would dance after we ate? I cast aside my concerns over remembering the dances when I saw Luca, with my water, as well as Lord Rossi and a nobleman approaching me. I hurriedly took a sip before the men arrived, then set the glass down on the table before rising to greet them. Introductions were made. A description of Lia was shared. The man had reach, across hundreds of miles, to the east of Siena, he said, and he promised to tell everyone he knew to be looking for la familia Betarrini.
“Tell me of your mother,” he said. “She is a merchant? In what, specifically?”
My mind spun. What was logical to say? I decided to stick with my story. “Artifacts. Especially Etruscan artifacts.” It would hardly do, telling him she was an archeologist. Not that it mattered. It was highly unlikely that she was here. My goal was to find my sister.
The stranger seemed intrigued. “There are many who believe we should be students of the past, that we have forgotten much of what our ancestors knew, learned. But why Etrusca? Why not Romana? Were the
Romans not far more powerful?”
“Only because the Etruscans came before them,” I said. “The Etruscan cities, their ports, gave the Romans an unprecedented base of operations from which to expand, but eventually they wiped out the remnants of Etrusca itself. They were a fine and mighty society. My mother has found a good trade in their wares.”
The man raised an eyebrow and then gave me a thin-lipped smile. I’d said too much. “You feel passionately about it.”
“Forgive me, m’lord. I have heard my mother defend her chosen profession all my life. Mayhap it is because I miss her so that I feel… defensive.”
“Pay my words no heed, m’lady,” the man said. “Your overbearing nature is already forgotten.”
I stomped down my irritation at his high-and-mighty manner, knowing that I needed this man on my side if I was going to find Lia.
“Tell me, m’lady, does your mother resemble you?”
“Nay, my sister favors our Danish mother, with long, blonde hair and blue eyes. I take after my father. His grandfather came from Italia.”
“I believe,” he said, leaning in toward me, “that you inherited the best traits of both. The room is abuzz about your beauty, m’lady. With hair the color of the river at night, and such expressive eyes….” He leaned back, chin in hand. “If you should decide to stay with the Sienese instead of returning to Normandy, I have no doubt you could find a suitable husband. You may miss your family sorely, but are you not of an age to begin your own?”
I leaned back. How to answer that? Why no, you creepy old man, looking at me like I’m a sweet little sow ready to be bred. I’m only seventeen! I have my whole life ahead of me!
Luca coughed and leaned in. “We are doing our best to convince her, of course, m’lord.”
I faked a flirty smile as the men laughed and patted Luca on the back. More men joined us. Soon I had met seven of the Nine. Two were young men, in their late twenties. The rest were in their fifties or sixties, kinda old in this era. Unless you were rich, most died of disease or of things as silly as an infected cut or an impacted tooth. Mom always said that infection was the number one killer of people through the ages, more than war, even. Maybe that’s why I was so obsessed with scrapes and cuts-I was always certain they’d become infected and become gangrenous or something….
Sometimes death came hunting and there was no way to cut it off at the pass. I shivered. I really had to take care of myself here. If I landed in their version of a hospital, I was as good as dead.
A stately servant called out that dinner was to be served, and conversation moved to the long lines of tables as we all took our seats. I saw Marcello and Romana then. They were hard to miss, seated directly across the twelve-foot-long table from me. I looked everywhere but at Marcello, and he carefully did the same.
Red wine was poured into the goblets, and I was thankful I had sent Luca in search of some water. I needed to keep my wits about me, especially with the dance still ahead of us. People reached for fruit as servants brought in small plates of hard salami and tiny wedges of pecorino cheese, as well as thick slices of crusty bread. Bowls of coarse sea salt were passed, and I sprinkled some across my fruit, as the man to my right did, and Luca did after me. No one baked bread like the Italians, I thought, relishing my first bite.
After that, small Cornish-like hens were distributed, a whole one on each plate, covered in a thick, brown sauce full of dried fruits. I sighed with relief that I saw forks here at each place setting. Ahh, a tiny bit of civilization. Maybe the city dwellers were early adopters. I tried not to gloat as I picked mine up and used it with ease in tandem with my knife, ignoring the admiration of those about me. Finally, something that was not foreign.
Plates of gnocchi were passed, but I only took one. I’d never been fond of the little dumplings. They always got stuck on the roof my mouth. After that, people took more fruit and sat back, enjoying their wine and conversation. That was the first time I glanced Marcello’s way and found him looking at me. Our eyes met, held, and then we both broke away. His intended was to his right. Her sister was to his left. I couldn’t risk looking his way again; but then, wasn’t that obvious in itself?
I looked to Romana. “M’lady,” I said. “I am so grateful to your father for his aid in searching for my sister.”
She wiped her mouth with the edge of the tablecloth and smiled at me. “It is his good pleasure.”
I understood her more in that moment. She wanted to help me; she truly was grateful. But I saw then that if she could reunite me with my beloved family, I would disappear from her life. Her worst nightmare was that I would decide to remain at Castello Forelli. Don’t worry, girl. I’ll be out of your territory soon.
But the thought of it sent a pang of grief through me. Everything in me wanted to look at Marcello in that moment, but I knew I could not. I might look at him and never look away.
I took in a deep breath and let it out slowly in relief when the music began upstairs and people began dispersing from the tables. As much as I wasn’t really excited about hitting the dance floor, it was bound to be less excruciating than sitting here, across the table from him. Lord Rossi still had more nobles to introduce me to, which might mean I could just do a few dances but spend most of my time talking. That was far safer.
Luca rose and pulled out my chair. Together, we took to the wide staircase that led up to the next level. Windows had been cast wide, letting the evening breeze flow through, perhaps so the music could flow out as well, to the locals below, eager to catch an echo of their nobles’ fine party. I drifted over to one and looked up to the top of the piazza, but saw no blonde women.
I turned as Lord Rossi approached, introducing me to a stern, tall gentleman, who checked me out like he didn’t trust me. Perhaps we were moving from friendliest to meanest in the crowd.
“Take care with this one,” Luca whispered in my ear, then reached for a goblet of wine from a passing servant and grinned at the new arrival, another tall, distinguished man with quick eyes. I had the immediate impression that he missed nothing. That he could take in a room and name everyone in it from memory. He looked me over like he was going to paint my portrait later, slowly moving over every inch of my face. My skin pricked, and goose bumps ran down my back. Why, exactly, had Luca warned me about this one?
Lord Rossi made the introductions, as he had with all the rest, but his tone was much more cool and aloof. Civil, but barely. What had this man, Lord Vannucci, done? I only became more alarmed when Marcello appeared, wine goblet in hand, to stand on my other side. He’d avoided me all evening. So was I in some physical danger with this Vannucci guy?
But the man merely listened to our story, told by Lord Rossi, and studied me the whole time. As if my face might portray some nuance that would give him insight. I fought the desire to squirm under his intense gaze.
“Normandi,” he said in French. How could a look be so… probing? It was as if he was slicing open my head and had access to all that was inside, like a computer programmer popping open a unit and sliding out the data panels. “Ou habitez-vous exactement en Normandie?’ Where is your home in Normandy?
I hesitated. It had been a month or so since my last French class, and it was the first time that someone called me out on my whole I’m-from-France story.
“Near Dordogne,” I said in a rush, hoping my accent was somewhat believable.
His lips thinned in a wise smile. “Je connais bien la Dordogne, ” he said.
My heart skipped a beat. Just my luck. The dude knew it well.
“Oiu est votre maison situee?”
He wanted to know where my home was, specifically. I cast back through my memories of a brief trip through the region. ” Un manoir pres de la riviere. “Near the river.
“Ahh,” he said approvingly. ” Un endroit charmant.”
I don’t think I took a full breath until he finally nodded and disappeared into the crowd. Had he bought it? I didn’t think so. Not really. Lord Rossi took a dee
p breath, made his excuses and departed, and Marcello turned to the window. I did as well. “So, I assume you should have warned me of that one.”
“Indeed,” Marcello said.
“Why?”
“Many suspect him of spying for the Florentines,” he said lowly. “He oft argues on their behalf, urging peace, citing ways our city might gain if we worked with them, instead of against them.”
I raised an eyebrow. “Forgive me, but isn’t that a possibility? Might the Sienese not gain from peace shared?”
Marcello frowned at me, as if I had just uttered heresy. “Our ongoing war is their doing, not ours. If peace is to come to Toscana, they shall have to repair many years of damages done to us.”
Fine, fine, whatever, I thought, backing off. I wasn’t going to win that argument, with him all hot and bothered. But how did a known sympathizer of the Florentines remain in the upper crust of Sienese society when emotions ran so hot? The guy had to be buying his way in, somehow. Wasn’t that how it was done, regardless of the era?
“Come, Lady Gabriella,” Luca said. “Marcello needs to escort his bride-to-be to the dance floor, and I am eager to see if my fine lessons have remained in that pretty head of yours.”
The floor erupted in polite applause as the previous song ended. Some moved from the lines, others moved into them, as Luca and I did. I refrained from looking for Marcello and Romana, and focused only on Luca, determined to get the steps right.
“Smile, Gabriella,” he coaxed. “This is not a punishment. It is joy in movement.”
I gave him a fake smile, though when he lifted his eyebrow in doubt I had to grin in earnest. The music-performed by a small orchestra of lutes, flutes, and violins-began again. We moved in time to it, and I gasped at the glory of everyone doing the same move at the same time. It was as if I was a part of society in a whole new way, connected to them all, in this shared experience. How I wished we would dance like this in my own time! It was refined, flirtatious, fun. None of the bumping and grinding that the kids did at my high school. This was a celebration of men and women, of life, of the draw between us all. I clapped in perfect time and turned, smiling back at Luca.
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