“Yay!” Blair replied encouragingly, mustering her enthusiasm. She followed Pete through the wide arching hallway that led to the kitchen. The whole house was a contradiction: The walls were rough wood, but the polished wood floors were covered in antique Turkish carpets. In the kitchen, a large wood stove hunkered in the corner opposite two massive Sub-Zero refrigerators. Several overstuffed yellow chairs sat in front of a large dormer window, each one containing a different member of the family. Chappy, in a cream-colored cable-knit Aran Islands sweater, stood in front of the whole group, calling them to order.
“Scout!” he called gleefully as he spotted Blair and Pete.
“Hi, Mr. Carlson.” Blair smiled warmly as Chappy clapped her on the shoulder.
“I already claimed you, so back off, boys,” he announced jovially to Pete’s brothers, who all smiled politely back at her, even though Everett didn’t bother to look up from his iPhone. “I’m telling you, Scout, I don’t know how I’m going to manage without you next week,” Chappy continued.
“Oh, well, I’m sure we can play on the beach or something,” Blair said. She blushed. The phrase sounded totally inappropriate when she said it out loud. “Play charades on the beach,” she clarified quickly.
“Yeah, but what’ll I do without my favorite teammate?” Chappy shook his head sorrowfully. “No offense, Jane, but you cheat.”
“I do cheat, I’ll be the first to admit it.” Jane Carlson had wheat blond hair cut in a sensible bob and was tall, with an athletic frame. She was wearing the same style sweater as her husband. “I’m glad you’re on the straight and narrow.” She winked at Blair.
But Blair was still stuck on the part of Chappy’s sentence that implied she wouldn’t be in Costa Rica with them. She’d bought five new Eres bikinis for the occasion. They made the most of the five pounds she’d gained from the gross food she’d been forced to eat on Yale’s meal plan. “Without me?” Blair blurted stupidly.
“I mean, I’d bring you along, but we’ve got a saying in the Carlson family…” Chappy began, his blue eyes shining, as if he were about to deliver a stump speech. “I believe, when it comes to vacations, in the ‘no ring, no bring’ rule.”
“It’s the Carlson curse.” Jason sighed, elbowing Blair in the ribs sympathetically. She stepped away. While it was true Blair had never officially been invited to Costa Rica, she’d been invited for Christmas, for God’s sake. Wasn’t that even more exclusive than a beach holiday? And why not invite her? After all, she’d brought Nate on her family vacations for years and it wasn’t like she’d been married to him.
Except in her dreams.
“Blair, we love you and we want you in our family for years to come, but I need to be a stickler on this,” Chappy explained sympathetically, as if she were one of his constituents, arguing over some impossibly arcane rule. “I’ve raised four boys, and while they’ve behaved around you, honestly, these gentlemen cause more theatrics when it comes to ladies than the Yale School of Drama,” he finished, shaking his head.
“Maybe you could get together with your girlfriends and have a girls’ adventure!” Pete’s sister-in-law Sarah piped up from the corner of the room, stroking her Lilly Pulitzer–patterned eight-months-pregnant belly. “I remember when I heard the Carlson rule, I had a great time with the Theta girls. We went to Cancún!”A look of happy reminiscence crossed Sarah’s lightly tanned, heart-shaped face.
“You did?” Randy asked, shooting a look at Sarah. “I didn’t know that.”
“Sorry, son!” Chappy clapped Pete on the back. “Sorry, Scout!”
Blair narrowed her eyes at a painting that hung over the fireplace, of a ship in what looked like an exceptionally violent storm. What a boring, random piece of art to hang in a house. Suddenly she hated her stupid nickname. Scout?
Out would have been more appropriate.
“Blair, I’m sorry,” Pete said simply. “I thought you understood….”
“What? I knew I wasn’t coming,” Blair lied, smiling fakely. Her stomach was churning wildly. For a brief second, she wanted to excuse herself, run to the second-floor bathroom, and puke everything she’d eaten for the past five days.
“Blair, darling, here’s your hot chocolate. I made sure to put some extra marshmallows in there.” Jane pushed the steaming ceramic mug into Blair’s hands. “Won’t you sit down?” She gestured to one of the comfortable overstuffed forest green chairs.
“Thanks.” Blair nodded. She squared her shoulders and turned to the waiting Carlson clan. No way was she going to let the Brady Bunch see her sweat. “You all ready to play?” She forced herself to smile, a plan already forming.
“Maybe I will have a wild girls’ weekend,” she whispered in Pete’s ear. “I haven’t been to New York all year, except those two weekends with you, and those don’t count, since we never even left the hotel.” His face fell as he no doubt pictured all the raucous fun she’d be having without him. Blair raised an eyebrow challengingly. After all, she was a woman. A Yale woman. She had places to go.
And more important games to play.
make new friends, but keep the old…
“This came from the man at the other end of the bar,” the skinny bartender-slash-model wearing a cheesy Ed Hardy T-shirt said as he proffered a glass of Veuve Clicquot.
“Thanks.” Serena van der Woodsen glanced down the long, dark oak bar of Saucebox, the new lounge in the just-opened T Hotel on Thompson Street. Breckin O’Dell, a handsome but boring actor she vaguely remembered meeting a few times, held up his own glass of champagne and saluted her. Serena nodded, brought the flute to her lips, and took a healthy sip, even though she preferred vodka.
“Oh my God, you should totally date him. His agent has ridiculous connections.” Amanda Atkins yanked on the sleeve of Serena’s black Row scoop-neck jersey dress in excitement. “Can we get some shots down here?” she called to the bartender. Serena smiled sheepishly. Amanda was an eighteen-year-old recent LA transplant best known for her role in a dorky sitcom about a fashionista girl from Paris who moves to a farm in Tennessee to live with her redneck uncle Hank. Recently, though, she’d been cast in an indie film about snowboarders who dropped acid, and was trying to break free from her good-girl reputation.
Another shot and she’s almost there.
“Maybe,” Serena responded unconvincingly to Amanda’s comment about Breckin. She stared at the clear bubbles fizzing to the top of her glass as if they held the secrets to the universe. If she looked around her, she’d see tons of Breckin O’Dell look-alikes with gel in their hair and fitted pressed shirts from Thomas Pink. They buzzed around Serena, Amanda, and her other two actress friends, Alysia and Alison. They called themselves the three A’s, even though Alysia’s real name was actually Jennifer.
The three A’s were admittedly a little too into material things, but they were also goofy and fun and never turned down a party. Usually Serena had a blast hanging out with them, but tonight, she felt a little… off. It was two days after Christmas and her parents had just left for their villa in St. Barts, while her brother, Erik, was already back in Melbourne, Australia, where he was spending his sophomore year abroad. It wasn’t like Serena wanted to spend New Year’s Eve with her family, but she also didn’t like waking up in their huge Fifth Avenue apartment alone. She downed her champagne in one gulp, telling herself that she just needed to have fun.
After all, she is the expert.
“Hey, you’re that farm chick!” one spiky-haired brunet guy stuttered, not looking Amanda in the eye. He wore a pink and white striped button-down and his teeth were Chiclet white.
“Yes.” Amanda sighed. “I am. But I have to stand over here now.” She took two steps away as Alysia and Alison snorted in laughter. Serena offered the guy a sympathetic smile. Even though she was beautiful, she was never mean.
An infuriating combination.
“God, you’d think Knowledge would know to not to let guys like that in. Did you see his hair? It was, like, spraye
d on.” Amanda flipped her long blond extensions over her shoulder as she named the beefy bouncer whose job was to keep Saucebox as exclusive as possible, even though, to Serena, it felt exactly the same as every other bar she’d been to recently.
“Serena?”
Serena whirled around, ready to have another one of those so what are you working on now? conversations with someone in the industry she’d probably met once. Instead, she saw a familiar, smiling face that immediately took her back in time, and eighty blocks north.
“Oh my God, Iz!” Serena squealed excitedly. She slid off the smooth oak bar stool and threw her arms around Isabel Coates, a fellow Constance Billard alum who’d gone to Rollins College down in Florida. Her skin was deeply tanned and her thick dark shoulder-length hair had been straightened. Her chest looked suspiciously larger than it did the last time Serena saw her. She automatically looked over Isabel’s shoulder, sure she’d see Kati Farkas, Isabel’s BFF and constant wingwoman. Isabel and Kati had done everything together since the fourth grade. Kati had even turned down admission to Princeton so she and Isabel wouldn’t have to be separated. But instead of Kati, a girl with a ski-jump nose and chin-length straight brown hair stood next to Isabel. She wore a tight black sleeveless satin dress and looked like she could be Kati’s slightly older sister. But Kati didn’t have sisters.
“This is my girlfriend, Casey,” Isabel announced proudly. She readjusted her white Marc Jacobs tote strap on her shoulder.
Girlfriend girlfriend? Serena noticed Isabel’s hand intertwined with the girl’s.
“We met in a women’s studies class.” Isabel smiled adoringly at Casey.
There’s her answer.
“This is Serena van der Woodsen. We went to school together,” Isabel explained, her hand now resting lightly on Casey’s back.
“Nice to meet you, Casey.” Serena smiled, holding out her hand to the tall girl, who took it gingerly.
“Nice to meet you too. I haven’t seen any of your movies,” Casey announced bluntly.
As if anyone asked.
“Oh, that’s okay. How’s Kati?” Serena asked Isabel, easing back onto her stool. She couldn’t help but wonder if Isabel was really gay, or just going through the fashionable bisexual phase of college she’d heard about.
Isabel sighed and shook her head. “She has this, like, football player boyfriend and is pledging a sorority that wears pink sweat suits to class. It’s awful. Casey and I pretty much do our own thing. But what about you? I saw the movie. You were pretty good,” Isabel allowed.
“Thanks.” Serena blushed. She hoped Isabel really meant it and wasn’t just being polite. “Things are okay. Just working a lot. We’re filming a sequel to Breakfast at Fred’s that’s coming out in the summer, so that’s fun….” Serena trailed off. Even though she’d been on the cover of the October issue of Vanity Fair, part of her felt stuck. She’d come home from her big premiere, thinking it would be the greatest night of her life, to her same pink childhood bedroom in her parents’ sprawling Upper East Side penthouse. If possible, she almost felt less grown-up than she had before graduating, especially since she now had an agent and a publicist who told her exactly what to wear, what to say, and who to be seen with. The real world felt a lot different than she’d imagined.
“A sequel sounds great!” Isabel cooed. “Anyway, I was just showing Casey all of our old haunts. Remember hours trying things on at Barneys, and then so much time just eating spaghetti and meatballs upstairs at Fred’s? That all feels like so long ago now,” she mused, nuzzling her head against Casey’s. The guys standing around them were all drooling over the lesbian-chic couple.
“It does,” Serena agreed wholeheartedly. Just a matter of months ago, she and Blair and Kati and Isabel would meet before school to smoke Merits on the Met steps and imagine their lives in college. Now, Blair was pre-law at Yale, Isabel was a lesbian, Kati was running around with pink Greek letters on her ass, and Serena was trying to make a go of it in the movies.
“So, have you seen anyone yet?” Isabel asked.
“No.” Serena shook her head. For her, only two people really mattered: Blair and Nate. She and Blair had kept in touch since Blair headed up to New Haven, and once Serena had sent Blair a package full of Wolford stockings and black-and-white cookies, in a bow-tied Barneys bag—some of Blair’s favorite New York things. Blair had reciprocated with a stuffed bulldog wearing a Yale T-shirt. It was sitting on Serena’s dresser, next to a silver-framed picture of the two of them wearing enormous hats at a Kentucky Derby party sophomore year. They’d send e-mails and texts, but never anything long or involved. It was fine, though. Blair and Serena were the type of friends who could go for weeks and even, one time, months without speaking, then pick up right where they left off.
As for Nate… Serena hadn’t talked to him since he left, to sail the world for a year. He had left her crushed, and she wondered if she’d ever see him again. But she didn’t want to think about that right now.
Or ever.
“Are you going to Chuck’s New Year’s party?” Isabel asked, draining the rest of her Grey Goose and cranberry. “I mean, I know he’s, like, such a misogynist, but I figured, you can only protest so much, you know? I prepared Casey.”
“Wait, Chuck is back from military school?” Serena asked, suddenly eager to hear everything. She hadn’t thought about Chuck—with his sketchy history, his trademark monogrammed scarf, or his questionable sexuality—since graduation. But the last she’d heard, after getting rejected from all twelve schools he’d applied to, he’d gone to some tiny underground, remote-country-boot-camp men’s college. Of course her parents saw Chuck’s parents socially, but they never mentioned what he was doing. It was an unspoken rule on the Upper East Side that parents didn’t discuss their unsuccessful children.
“He must be.” Isabel shrugged. “The party’s on. I saw Laura Salmon at City Bakery this morning and she told me she was hanging out with Rain Hoffstetter at some lame Constance alum tea party that Mrs. M organized. Thank God we missed that. But, anyway, I guess she talked to Chuck. I don’t know. It’s at his place at the Tribeca Star. But I guess since you’re a movie star and all now, you probably have to host some MTV countdown special or something, right?”
“Well…” Serena trailed off. In truth, she already had an invite to a New Year’s party at Thaddeus Smith’s West Village loft. Thaddeus had been her Breakfast at Fred’s costar and was a true friend. But he wouldn’t mind if she stopped by to say hi and then went off to Chuck’s party. Maybe seeing old friends was all she needed to pull herself out of her mood.
Alysia tapped Serena urgently on the shoulder. “Let’s go someplace else. There’s no one fun here,” she pronounced as Amanda and Alison nodded their bobbleheads in agreement.
“Please?” Alison whined. She stuck out her Stila-glossed lower lip and whined like a shih tzu.
Serena nodded before turning to Isabel. “I’ll see you at Chuck’s,” she promised. She smiled faintly as she trailed the three A’s toward the door. How could she not see her old high school crowd? While she might not have been thinking of them all that much recently, it wasn’t like she’d forgotten them.
And they certainly haven’t forgotten her.
a trip can’t last forever, even for n
Nate Archibald’s elbow hit a beam, and he woke up with a start. His tanned, athletic frame was wedged in the crow’s nest of the Belinda, the ship he called home.
Nate was traveling the world with his mentor and friend Chips. Chips had been Nate’s father’s mentor way back when he was in the navy, and for the past four months they’d followed the wind and the stars and the moon, aided only by Chips’s antique silver compass. It was amazing. Nate had always been a sailor, and had even taken his father’s boat, the Charlotte, up and down the eastern seaboard with his girlfriend, Blair, last June.
Doesn’t he mean ex-girlfriend?
Nate rubbed the sleep out of his glittering green eyes and yawned. They were so
mewhere in the Bahamas, but it felt light-years away from the Upper East Side. Maybe it was the tropical air and the nautical living, but everything about his old life seemed far away. Sometimes, he’d try to remember a specific event—the first time he’d bought pot from the pizza dude on Lex by asking for two slices with extra oregano, the time he’d stolen the Charlotte and spent a weekend with Anthony and Charlie, doing bong hits and eating Oreos, cruising toward Bermuda at half a mile an hour—but the scenes were always fuzzy. It was like remembering an old movie, where you could recall random moments, but not the beginning or ending.
Nate leaned back against the rough-hewn beams. There were some memories, though, that he replayed almost every night. In the moments before the subtle rocking of the ocean lulled him to sleep, he pictured Blair, and Serena van der Woodsen, his other best friend and the girl he’d lost his virginity to. Blair cheesily posing in front of the polar-bear exhibit at the zoo; Serena with her blond head tipped back, laughing hysterically at a joke only she found funny; Blair in front of Tiffany, her favorite place on earth, doing her best Audrey Hepburn impression. Serena splashing around in the Venus fountain in his backyard, looking like the goddess she was. He wondered if they ever thought about him.
If not, there are plenty of girls who do.
He knew they probably weren’t pining for him. In fact, they probably hated him. He loved them both, and of course he’d never been able to choose between them. This past summer, he’d even cheated on Blair with Serena. Finally, when he couldn’t decide whether to go to Yale with Blair or stay in the city with Serena, he’d chosen to travel the world with Chips. He’d been so confused. So conflicted. So afraid to make a choice, in case he chose wrong. But now, he felt different.
He even looked different. Months of sailing had tanned his skin a dark bronze color, and his golden brown hair was now almost platinum-blond in places. His face was angular and hardened and a blondish-brown beard covered his chin. The scruff made his green eyes stand out that much more. He hadn’t smoked any pot since they’d left, not by choice, but still, it felt good. His head felt lighter, clearer somehow.
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