by Virginia Pye
The Reverend felt a flush of feeling he did not recognize as his manservant stared at him incredulously. Heat rose from his collar as shame overcame him.
"You see only what you wish to see," Ahcho added more softly. "I fear you are not the expansive man you once were."
The Reverend felt his cheeks flame fully, and his shoulders felt uncomfortably hot under the hide. He wanted to defend himself against this accusation. In the past, he had built the people fine roads and a school and a hospital. How could he ever be perceived as anything but a champion of the poor?
He swallowed the cold, dry air, and his throat constricted. He had to admit his mind was often someplace other than where it needed to be. Ahcho's accusations rang true. He did see only what he wanted to see. And yet what he saw was not one bit pleasant.
Recently, he had been preoccupied by wrestling with God. He had come to the anguished conclusion that his Lord had been steadily slipping from his grip and intended to abandon him altogether. The Reverend felt quite alone with his failed effort to clutch on to Him. But now, as he glanced at Ahcho's disappointed expression, he understood that his sorrow at losing the Lord did not matter nearly as much as the fact that he had somehow managed to lose the Chinese as well.
"I shall try harder," he finally said.
Ahcho nodded, clearly uncomfortable with the strange occurrence of his master apologizing to him.
They continued onward without speaking and the Reverend tried to take careful note of the miserable state of things around him. The empty shop windows, the frail and defeated beggars, even the few dogs that appeared mangier than ever and who no doubt would serve as some lucky person's dinner before long.
After some time, Ahcho pulled his donkey to a stop outside a forlorn-looking shop, and the Reverend pulled to a halt as well. The dusty road led to the threshold of the sunlit door, and on the doorstep sat a stick-thin boy who raised his head and rubbed his eyes.
"If you watch our animals," the Reverend said to the lad, "I will give you a coin."
The boy hurried to take the reins, although Ahcho said in English, "He may try to sell them before we come out. No one is to be trusted these days."
"This fine young fellow?" the Reverend asked as he ran a hand over the boy's hair. Instantly, the Reverend thought he felt lice on his fingers. He wiped his hand roughly on his coat and whispered to Ahcho, "Do they no longer take baths?"
"What's the point," Ahcho shrugged, "if you're starving and soon to die?"
The Reverend followed him to the doorway of the shop. He tried to peer in, but the room inside was too shadowy and the road too bright with the winter's sun. The Reverend couldn't tell what transpired within. He paused for a long moment on the threshold and knew that with the morning light at his back and his silhouette blocking the door, he would appear an impressive figure. Once again, he hoped this effect might work in his favor.
But when he stepped inside, he saw that the audience he wished to impress sat lolling on wooden barrels in what appeared to be an oldfashioned general store. The Reverend was reminded of one just like it back home and in every American village and town. This was the center of local commerce, where shelves were meant to be stacked high with every sort of goods for farm and home: tin nails and calico fabrics, thick braids of rope and sacks of flour, workmen's gloves and dainty ribbons for the piping on girls' dresses.
The Reverend could see that the intention here was the same: high shelves covered the walls, and the room was divided by a long counter. But nothing, not one thing, sat upon these dusty surfaces. A Franklin potbellied stove stood cold, although the room was chilly. A young man who appeared to be the proprietor leaned against the blank counter, and beside him sat several grandfathers, another boy, a girl, a woman with a baby in her arms, and several young men— a typical Chinese extended family, the Reverend thought, with its many appendages and hangers-on. Who could guess how the half-dozen men seated on the barrels were related to the owner of the place? But the Reverend was certain that they were.
The people did not offer the usual gasps of recognition that the Reverend had grown accustomed to upon arriving in any setting. Usually, his reputation as the Ghost Man preceded him, but here in his own town, where he had assumed he was revered, the natives eyed him with an even stare. That was all right with the Reverend. He didn't need to appear a god to all concerned, so long as he was able to obtain what he had come for.
"Good people," he began.
Ahcho shot out a hand and patted his arm. Then his manservant spoke in a quick and unrecognizable dialect that surprised the Reverend. He had thought he knew all the possible permutations of the complex language of the region, but apparently he did not.
The proprietor, who appeared to be the most robust of the men behind the counter, leaned forward to get a better look at the Reverend. He spoke quickly to his friends or cousins, who also leaned their elbows on the counter and stared.
"What are they saying?" the Reverend asked Ahcho.
"They have heard of you."
"Good, good."
"No, not so good," Ahcho mumbled.
"Why ever not?" the Reverend asked.
At that moment the proprietor came out from behind the empty counter. He planted himself before the Reverend and raised an eyebrow. The fellow was shorter than the Reverend by at least a foot, but he was sturdy and muscular. He did not look one bit affected by the famine. His eyes in the shadowed room appeared black and angry— shiny beads that sucked in the dim light. The man put his hands on his hips and lifted his chin.
"Show us, Ghost Man," he said. "Show us your miracles."
The Reverend thought he had caught the meaning of the taunt, but the others did not wait for his reply.
A bent grandfather stepped forward from where he had sat hunched on a barrel. "You are the one who turned a small white freak into a deity that no man can harm?"
Before the Reverend could answer, a different young man came from behind the counter and said, "And I hear you taught an elephant to fly."
Even a mother with a child on her hip spoke up. "I heard that you made the snakes fall asleep forever."
The Reverend pushed the wolf's head back and off his brow so they might see he was only human, like them. He bobbed his head and smiled slightly. "No," he began, "not exactly."
"You," the proprietor said as he stepped closer and poked a finger hard at the Reverend's shoulder, "you who can do so much magic, I say you will now fix the drought for us."
Another strong young fellow stepped forward and insisted, "That's right, you'll do what he says."
"The fields are cracked," one of the grandfathers added from a shadowed corner of the room. "The last time it was this bad was before the Boxer Rebellion. Foreign devils were amongst us then, too."
The Reverend understood the phrase "foreign devils" and grasped the angry sounds of agreement now coming from the other elders.
"Oh, heavens," the Reverend said, "I am not responsible for the weather, gentlemen and dear ladies. We know better than that, now, don't we?"
One of the grandmothers spat on the dusty wooden floorboards, as if to prove that she was no lady, but also that she did not believe him.
"But you made these other miracles happen, did you not?" the proprietor asked.
"Well, I— " the Reverend started.
"Because if you did not," the proprietor said as he crossed his substantial arms over his wide chest, "then you have been fooling us all along. And we are not a stupid people who deserve to be fooled."
His friends nodded in agreement.
"Of course you're not," the Reverend said. "My God, I was just thinking this morning that my servants are far cleverer than I." He looked over at Ahcho and hoped that the dear man understood that he meant this sincerely and was not just saying it to make an impression.
Ahcho blanched and stepped forward. "Ghost Man respects all Chinese, not just his servants."
Before the Reverend knew what was happening, one of propriet
or's friends, clearly a thug, had Ahcho's long queue in his hand. "Old one," he said to Ahcho as he tightened his grip around the braid, "I see you follow the ancient ways. But we're done with all that. We're servants to no one now."
Ahcho spoke calmly to the man. "Let go of me and we'll leave."
The man pulled a knife from a sheath at his waist. "Before you go, I think I'll cut off your queue," the young thug said. "That would shock the old-timers who serve the white people. Imagine if you returned to the Christian compound with the new short hairstyle. You'd be a laughingstock. Maybe you'd even lose your easy job, old one?"
The grandfathers and grandmother who sat nearby made tsking sounds and shook their heads at this insolent behavior, but they did nothing to stop him. The Reverend waited for them to at least reprimand the young hooligan who was disrespecting an elder, but they didn't open their mouths. Such were the appalling changes of these times.
The Reverend felt he had no choice but to pull his small knife from its elaborately carved sheath. "Leave him alone," he said, stepping forward and thrusting the dagger outward.
The young man looked at the Reverend's upraised hand and began to laugh. Then the others joined him, their lips pulled back from brown teeth as they bent over in mild hysterics.
"Where did you get that souvenir, Ghost Man?" one of the young thugs asked.
The Reverend looked at the knife in his hand.
"He doesn't even know it's a letter opener," one of the others said.
The proprietor chuckled and held out his hand. "May I?" he asked.
The Reverend had no choice but to give the man his only weapon.
The proprietor inspected the knife and said, "My father sold this same model. It's a letter opener, all right, but of decent quality."
The Reverend chuckled out of nervousness, too, but Ahcho wasn't smiling. The older man's eyes burned with rage. "Unhand me," he said.
The young thug who held his queue finally let go.
"I wonder," the Reverend tried, "could I trade you this fine letter opener for some beans, perhaps?"
The proprietor let out a disgusted snort, as if he had been waiting for this question all along. "You and every other person in the province would like to make a deal with me."
"Does that mean you have beans," the Reverend pressed, "but you won't trade them?"
The man crossed his arms again and looked around at his band of thuggish friends. "I have many mouths to feed."
"I see that," the Reverend said. "But I have a pregnant wife who is terribly ill. She may not make it unless I procure some sustenance for her. She has endured far too much already. Please, take pity on her and our unborn child."
The proprietor looked at Ahcho for a translation as the Reverend, in his distraught state, seemed to have lapsed into English.
Ahcho got to the point and said, "You know what he wants. Don't make him beg."
The proprietor shrugged and stepped back. His friends turned, too, and the Reverend heard the old people beginning to chatter again amongst themselves. His chance to save his family was slipping away.
The Reverend spoke again in a clear voice. "I wish to offer you something else. Something most precious."
The proprietor did not even bother to look his way. He simply waved his hand. "I don't need anything but rain. Can you give me that, Ghost Man? Somehow I don't think so."
"I can give you something better," the Reverend said as he pulled the enormous wolf hide off his back. "This is what caused the miracles. This!"
He held the sagging fur before him in his outstretched arms. The proprietor and his friends and family turned to look at it. The proprietor sauntered back to the Reverend and ran a hand over the thick fur.
"What do I want with this mangy thing?"
"It is what caused the miracles. You who are from here and already a prince in this land, when you wear it upon your back, it will bring you rain, if that is what you wish. Since I started wearing it, I have been invincible. All that I have wished for has come true. It will work for you, too."
"This old thing caused the miracle of the two bullets?" the proprietor asked.
"This is what saved me," the Reverend answered.
"And what about the elephant that flew?"
The Reverend placed the heavy fur in the other man's arms. "Yes, it made that magnificent creature fly. This, and nothing else but this."
"You say your wife is starving, Reverend?" the proprietor asked, his head cocked to one side. "And you need beans?"
The Reverend nodded eagerly.
"I have beans. I have a great deal of them."
"I will trade you, then," the Reverend repeated. "I would be most grateful to trade this remarkable hide for your beans."
"For this hide that has saved you and your people, you will receive food. That seems a fair deal," the proprietor said. He looked around at his companions, and they nodded. "But first, one more thing."
"Anything," the Reverend offered.
"I had thought that your Lord Jesus made the miracles happen, Reverend."
A cloud passed over the Reverend's face.
The man continued, "Didn't Jesus make the water turn into wine and the fishes into loaves of bread?"
The Reverend took a step back. "How do you know the Gospel?"
"I went to your school as a boy. I hated it. All those nonsense tales and strict rules."
The Reverend tried to smile as he countered, "But you seem to have been a good pupil."
The proprietor inched closer. "So tell me, Reverend, did your Jesus heal the sick and feed the hungry?"
The Reverend didn't know what to say.
"Was it He or was it this fur hide that has saved you out here in no man's land? Because if it wasn't this old, mangy thing, then our deal is off. So tell me, was it your Lord Jesus or not, Ghost Man?"
The Reverend bowed his head. No words issued forth from his lips.
"Come on, which was it?" one of the thuggish friends echoed.
"Was the Lord Jesus responsible for the miracles or not?" another asked.
The Reverend finally answered. "No, He wasn't."
"I didn't think so," the proprietor said and spat on the floor. "Your Lord Jesus means nothing here, you foolish man."
The proprietor then gestured to his friends to help lift the fur up onto his shoulders. Once it was in place, he paraded around the room and said, "This was a fair trade, I believe."
The Reverend cleared his throat and finally spoke in a weak voice. "I will need five bags of beans, please."
The proprietor raised his arms, and the animal's claws rose up, too. The fierce yellow eyes glared down at the Reverend.
"Three bags," the proprietor replied.
"Four."
The proprietor motioned to one of the boys, who got up and disappeared into the back of the store.
"I can feel it working already," the proprietor announced. "I feel stronger." He turned to the Reverend and asked, "Invincible as a god, you say? I bet you enjoyed that feeling, Ghost Man. But now you are a frail human like the rest of us."
The Reverend stood with drooping shoulders and had no words left. The boy returned with four bags of beans and presented them to Ahcho.
"Bring them out a few bags of rice, too," the proprietor said. "We are friends now."
The Reverend mumbled his thanks and started toward the door.
The proprietor called out to him, "You watch it out there, Ghost
Man. Without this fur on your back and no god to protect you, you're like everybody else."
The Reverend nodded as he stepped outside into stark and painful sunlight. He could not argue. He understood as never before that he was like every other godless man in this godless land. His abandonment was complete. His heart sank deeper into his chest as he shut the door on the Lord forever. Ahcho joined him outside, and the Reverend turned his head away. He was too ashamed to look a good Christian in the eye.
Eighteen
S hortly before labor began, M
ai Lin offered sacrifices to the gods and the family ancestors, although her young mistress couldn't even recall her grandmother's grandmother's name. Mistress Grace moaned with miserable, slow pains for many hours. Mai Lin gave her a special mixture of teas proven to move things along faster. She made Grace alternately bear down over a metal tub and then walk back and forth along the upstairs hall to bring forth the baby inside. The mistress had several baths, although she said that doctors in her country would warn against it. Ignorant doctors like Hemingway claimed that germs could swim up the woman's canal and infect the unborn child, something that Mai Lin plainly knew was false. The baby would come down the river to be born, so what was the harm of it getting wet beforehand?
