I pull her onto my lap, kissing the tears that fall.
Tears taste different when they are shed for happiness.
*
Greta
He doesn't push. It's not Paco's way.
I silently approach from behind. The view off the balcony of his home is beautiful.
The sun rides low in the sky, and people line the malecón to watch it sink past the horizon like a ball of scarlet perfection.
Paco wears only low-slung linen drawstring pants and slip-on sandals. His arms bunch and flex with the muscle that Tallinn keeps insisting he put on.
I can't say I mind.
I have news, and even though I figure it won't change his mind, I have to tell him.
I wear a similar outfit, but manage a bikini top for modesty's sake.
Paco has great instincts and must sense me.
He turns, elbow perching on the concrete balustrade that winds the perimeter of his travertine patio, which stretches to the very edge of the cliff, right above the devil's cave.
But we're not even close to hell.
I'm in heaven. Right here. On earth.
He opens his arms, and I step into them. His bare skin feels like muscled silk against my healed face. The steady beat of his strong heart pushes against my cheek in a rhythm of comfort.
Paco turns us toward the sea, and I watch tangerine touch the waves, impregnating them with a rainbow of scarlet, peach, and finally, violet.
I trace a finger over the intricately scrolled lettering of his tattoo. La vida loca.
Crazy life.
He captures my finger, pulling me against him.
“You know…” I break the perfect moment, sounding more coy than I feel. “I'm only after you for your money.”
Paco nods slowly, a hint of a smile warming his full lips. “Yes, I am aware.”
I pull away, and he tips my chin up. I search his bright-green eyes, made emerald by the encroaching twilight. “Do you already know?” I ask somberly.
He nods. “I knew.”
I duck my head. He's going to kick me out now. I've been in Mazatlan for nearly three months, and he's never gone past a gentle kiss, an inference of heat.
I can't be what he wants. And I don't want to be anything other than I am.
We were in Club Alpha together. Technically, I'm supposed to be of equal wealth, so that factor in a forever relationship is not part of the equation.
But I have nearly six years until my inheritance.
I suppress a shiver. Lisbeth and Tor muddied the waters. The investigation into their deaths has conclusively proven my non-involvement except in self-defense. But Club Alpha is now being upended for its part in everything. Everyone is under intense scrutiny.
I was—I am—Zaire Sebastian's first choice for Paco. Our temperaments were supposedly perfectly compatible; a deep psych evaluation said so. But I'm not rich. Not even close.
Charlie gave me a hiatus from Roffe Enterprises. But for how long?
Can a computer spit out what makes two people work? Will my lack of wealth kill perfection before it can be realized?
Paco's thumb smooths my furrowed brow. “I, too, have a confession.”
I sigh at his tender touch, waiting.
“I have met you once before.”
He surprises me. Those words were the last thing I thought to hear. “No,” I automatically reply. Paco is unforgettable.
He removes his hands from his pockets, taking mine. His grip tightens subtly.
I'm scared. What does this mean?
“Almost three years ago, while romancing a Seattle buyer for my beans, I stayed in a five-star accommodation in downtown Seattle. Something I do frequently.”
His eyes shift for a moment, observing the darkening sky.
My heart begins to pound with his impending revelation.
“Tallinn was guarding, of course”—his lips tweak—“and I was heading toward the exit, leaning toward safety, and heading back to my room for the evening.” His eyes suddenly grip mine, not letting go. “Then I saw an angel sitting across the room.” He pauses, giving weight to that last sentence.
Paco means me.
Green eyes. The vaguest memory—maybe the shadow of a memory—rises.
Do I know Paco already?
The memory slides out of the shadows like ink, taking form before my mind's eye: a crowded bar, where rich and suavely outfitted people are mingling.
I am waiting for my celebration with friends.
A handsome, exotic man catches my eye across the room teeming with the beautiful people. Boiling chemistry ignites, and I remember the urge to make a connection, or at least say hello.
Then—nothing. A simmering void of black static exists where no memories live. My next memories are stored on a mental shelf, gathering dust, because I've reflected on them long enough.
The night of my rape, Paco was there—before.
“I can't remember—” I manage to gasp out, though I do recall. I remember everything and nothing.
He holds up a hand. “The effects of the drugs that were given to you without your knowledge can sometimes overlap the consumption. Some women remember what immediately preceded the crime; some do not.” He lifts a shoulder as though to say it is not an issue.
His eyes meet mine again, blazing. “But I knew it was you when I encountered you in the elevator.” He taps his temple. “Not in the front of my brain”—he gives a small shake of his head—“but somewhere further back. It was only a passing glance so long ago, and then Aros—”
I flinch at the mention of his name, and he soothes me with a finger stroking my knuckles.
“He was leading you away.”
“You…” I struggle forward, “you tried to save me?” Could he have stopped the assault? I search his face.
“No,” he says curtly, and I can tell he holds blame he shouldn't. He casts his eyes at our twined fingers, dark lashes fanning out against his dusky skin. He releases my hands, stuffing his own into his pockets. Paco doesn't meet my eyes for a moment. His exhale is painful and harsh. “I merely inquired after you, and he replied that you were… drunk.” His voice holds the same disgust I feel.
“Of course,” I say with devastated bitterness as I continue to gaze up at him. “What does this mean, Paco? Besides—” I give a shaky laugh. “The sheer coincidence of us meeting before Club Alpha, before—all of it, and we never even said hello,” I finish in a whisper.
His eyes rise to mine, and he takes my face within his large hands. “It means, Greta, that we were meant for each other. Club Alpha was merely a device of destiny. We were fated to be together. What happened to you…” He pauses and lowers his forehead to touch mine, his fingers working in my hair as my tears soak his hands. “Was not sufficient to stop our meeting.”
I swipe my eyes, leaning away as I scan his features for untruths.
Seeing none, I say, “Do you doubt me—us?”
I can't let go and trust anyone, even Paco, unless he says the words—the right ones, especially since he knows the strange twists and turns of the last three years.
He shakes his head, pulling slightly away from me. He reaches inside his loose pants and extracts a black velvet box, which he places on the wide marble handrail. The dark cube sits against the backdrop of the softest black of early night, dangerously close to plunging to the highway and the sea beyond.
“Crazy life,” I say, my eyes moving to his chest.
He lightly touches the tattoo. “Not anymore,” he replies. “You bring sanity where there was none, Greta.” Paco cups my face again, his thumb caressing back and forth against my cheekbone. His hands are warm as he stares deeply into my eyes. “How can I doubt anything when you feel as though you are already a part of me?”
Those are the right words. Perfect words.
My eyes shift to the box, and his lips tilt. An amused expression overtakes his face, chasing away the somber mood like a fleeting breeze.
“Take it.”<
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My fingers shake as I lightly snatch the box of crushed velvet against my chest. My heart goes back to dancing. “It could have fallen,” I say with a nervous laugh.
His finger taps the end of my nose. “That treasure can fall, but you—you are the precious treasure.”
Tears find their way down my face, sinking into my smile.
Paco inclines his head, putting his hands into his pockets and dragging his pants lower.
I look at what's barely covered, and he chuckles.
My face snaps up. The important box in my hand is forgotten as I catch a stolen glimpse of a real-life white knight.
Mine.
I open the box slowly. It's breathtaking. Simple.
Blue.
I look quickly at him, his face is impassive as he studies every subtlety of the expressions I'm sure are crossing my face. My eyes find the huge sparkling stone again. It's shaped in a heart.
“This”—I put my hand to my chest, clutching the box—“is too much.”
He folds his hand over mine, our eyes locked. “You have it. This is only a tangible reminder.”
I frown slightly. “Have what?”
“My heart,” he says so quietly, I barely hear him.
Oh. Oh my God. “Is this?” my voice squeezes out.
I feel his nod against my head as he holds me to him. “Yes. Marry me first. The passion will come.”
He pulls back just enough to gently remove the box from my hands. After plucking out the engagement ring that's nestled inside, he slips it on my ring finger. I can't stop staring. The fading colors of the void left by the sunset caress the gem, turning it into pale water.
I breathe through my excitement. “I haven't said yes.”
Paco gives a slight smile, setting the empty box back on the handrail. “Your face does, Greta.”
And he's right.
A stiff breeze suddenly tips the box. It tumbles to the sea below, but I'm safe. Paco wraps his arms around my body, tugging me against him. We’re back to the first position—one of contentment, peace… and love.
CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
“He what?!” Gia screams into the phone.
I pull my cell away from my ear. “You know, you're not very calm. You're supposed to be the calm one.” I say the words without emotion, but inside, my guts are roadkill.
“Uh-huh. You're making me insane.”
I notice Gia doesn't say crazy.
“Right, and you weren't sure if me coming to stay with Paco for three months was a great idea.”
I tilt my cell, looking at her irritated expression.
Facetime is a beautiful thing.
“It's not that I thought it was a bad idea. Just that so much had occurred, it might be too much for you—”
“It is,” I say softly.
Gia studies my expression. “What are you saying?”
“I have trust issues.”
“Of course, anyone would.”
“Paco knows that.”
Gia nods. “He proposed so you'd feel safe.”
“Unpressured.”
She gazes down, her lip caught between her teeth, curly hair falling around her like a curtain. “Do you think he—”
“Oh yes. I do. I want to sleep with him.” I add softly, “Badly.” Heat floods my face.
She whistles. “That's good, Greta. Does he?”
“Want to have sex with me?” I laugh. “Absolutely.”
“I have a confession.”
“Oh boy.”
She nods. “I am the psychologist who was responsible for the foundation questions in Club Alpha's questionnaire.”
“Maybe I'm slow…” I ask, confused.
“What I'm saying is, I trust Zaire. He used much of what makes me an insightful psychologist to choose possible… candidates.”
I pop my hand on my hip. “So all this blustering about Paco? What you're saying, in essence, is you hand-picked him?”
“Not exactly.”
I shake my head, the phone shooting around. I steady it. “But I'm pretty close. You came up with the meat of the questions. He and I were compatible, and Zaire used the top picks for the game?”
“That's greatly simplified, but yes.”
“So Paco's a great man. I didn't need a test, or a game, to know that.”
He saved me.
He comes to my room when I scream with night terrors. Paco has never taken anything from me. He only gives.
“Greta.”
My face jerks up, and her grainy image stares back at me. She seems to decide something. “If there was ever such a thing as a soul mate, Paco is yours.”
My lips part.
Gia waits, no doubt knowing I'm thinking.
“I don't want to wait for the wedding.”
Gia can't hide her grin. “Go get him, horndog.”
“That's very un-doctorly of you.”
“Sometimes clinical doesn't work. You have to be willing to adapt, be flexible. Be human.”
I feel myself still. Finally, I reply.
“I know.”
CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
Forever is Now
I'm so nervous.
Any woman would be. The first time a woman gives herself to a man is something that can't ever be undone.
I'm clear on one thing. I was a virgin almost three years ago. I'd let my university studies take precedence over romance. I was waiting until I was in a better place.
And that never came.
Now it has.
Paco is here. I swirl the huge vivid-blue heart-shaped diamond around on my finger, enjoying its heft, sparkle, and color. To match my eyes, Paco said.
I haven't bothered to make myself too sexy. After living with Paco, I know that he likes me as I am. My hair is loose. I haven't worn braids since I came to stay with him. Wearing a fitted nightgown is my only concession for tonight.
He's unaware of my new mindset. Paco knows only that he's marrying me in two weeks. It's all beautifully arranged—and paparazzi free. The hounds of the press will be kept at bay for our nuptials.
I take a huge breath. I hold it… then let it out painfully. I stand, leave my bedroom behind, and walk quietly to his. I stand outside his door, my hand on the solid cedar, high-gloss surface.
I open it quietly and step inside.
At first, he doesn't know I've entered, and I pause at the sight. Paco lays on his bed, one arm tucked behind his head, staring out at the star-encrusted night, moonlight bathing every sculpted inch of him.
He is nude.
I swallow my trepidation.
His head turns, and he regards me standing there. Paco doesn't cover himself or move in any way.
“Greta,” he calls out in soft surprise, his rich baritone colored by an accent that I’ve noticed crops up when emotions flavor his speech.
I don't cry. I don't run. I walk to the edge of his bed instead. My gaze wanders over every inch of him. When I reach his penis, it begins to grow under my stare.
“I cannot help my reaction,” he says quietly.
“I don't want you to.” I meet his gaze head on, and he sits up, swinging his legs to the edge of the bed.
Paco breathes deeply then stands. The moonlight caresses him, washing over his lithe body, gracefully walking toward me. His erection bobs slightly as he comes to me, and my breath catches.
I never knew that a penis could be beautiful. That part of a man's body was always tied to pain.
“Yes,” I say.
“You do not have to do this. We will marry in two weeks.” His eyes search mine as my touch lands on the most sensitive part of him.
Paco hisses, heat replacing his gentleness. “I am a patient man, Greta, but your hand is on me.”
I nod. “I want this.” I squeeze him.
The walls of his demeanor crumbles. All that buried passion and patience leaves him.
He yanks me against him, crashing his lips against mine, and I groan as his tongue sinks deep, caressing the
inside of my mouth. Paco's hands move everywhere there is skin to be touched. A man starving for food could not be more ravenous than he is.
I love it.
I fear it.
My nightgown sails over my head in a whisper of cloth. My eyes are tightly clenched as I wait for fingers to probe, pierce—and penetrate. Instead, the light touch of a finger skates over my collarbone, and the breath I didn’t realize I’d held eases out.
My eyes open.
Paco stares at me, his fingertips flowing back and forth over the narrow bone at my neck.
He leans close. One hand moves to my nape, continuing the gentle caress. He kisses my forehead, then his lips trail to my temple, cheekbone, and the tip of my nose.
When he reaches my lips, he feasts on the flesh, sucking, nipping, and gently biting every plump rise. “I want you,” he says, and my head tips back as he catches it with his palm. “But at your pace.”
I nod. I can't speak. Fear recedes, and the natural passion between us begins to burn like a stoked fire. He lifts me tightly against him, effortlessly gliding us to the bed.
Paco lays me down.
I fight not to cover myself as his gaze takes me in. He's seen me naked before—on that horrible night. But somehow, right now, with his bright eyes and loving hands, I feel nude instead of naked.
Loved.
He arranges my hair in a fan beneath my head then lays my arms away from my body.
He crawls over the top of me. My eyes move to his stiffness, and he hesitates.
“Don't stop,” I say, and he takes me at my word.
Paco leans over me and kisses my hands, palm facing the ceiling. His lips grace each fingertip before moving to the bend of my elbow then my chest.
When he is seated between my legs, he bows his body over mine, takes my hardened nipple between his lips, his large hand cupping my breast, and squeezes the flesh into his mouth.
I arch my back. The sensation of being pleasured is too much. I groan, and he sucks harder. Little threads of arousal pull from deep inside me, tugging at my core with each draw of his mouth on my nipple.
He moves to the other side and lavishes the same attention on my left breast. When his hand touches my mound, I suck in a breath. Paco's eyes roll to mine, but he doesn't stop, sinking a finger inside me. It is the very thing I fantasized about when I was envisioning him fingering me. “Yes?” his question is spoken softly. Is this okay?
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