by Mj Fields
“Oh God Lucas, I can’t go through this again.”
“I’ll never hurt you again, baby,” his promise through a cascade of kisses was all she needed.
Lucas pulled her shirt up and unclasped her bra. He caressed her breasts and leaned down and took one gently into his mouth. She moaned and grabbed his hair and pulled it lightly. He spread her legs with his knees and laid between them she felt him against her. She arched her back and gasped. He lay beside her and reached down her front and under the sweats and underwear. His fingers circled her, and she gasped. Lucas entered her slowly, and her hips moved towards him. He kissed her and her head was spinning while his hand continued to pleasure her. He took her breast in his mouth and pulled her nipple lightly with his teeth.
“Oh God,” she moaned and her whole body burst into flames of desire.
He moved down her body and pulled off the sweats and underwear and kissed her from hip to hip, he ran his tongue slowly down her center and took his time slowing teasing her and bringing her to climax.
“I love you Tessa,” he whispered against her ear sending shivers down her spine.
He adjusted himself before pushing deep inside her over and over again.
“We have to stop… I’m not on the pill anymore,” she moaned.
He sat up and grabbed a condom and tore it open with his teeth and kissed her. He pulled her gently on top of him and guided her up and down on him until finally they both finished together.
Lucas smiled as he rubbed his finger across her cheek as he kissed her, “I promise baby, I will never let us fail again.”
Tessa didn’t respond she lay in his arms not moving and barely breathing.
“What have I done?” she pulled away from him and started to cry as she ran into the bathroom.
He walked in and turned her towards him, “I’ll never hurt you again Tessa, and I love you. I can’t be without you do you… understand? I felt like I was going to die without you. I love you I’ll never hurt you again.”
Lucas repeated his promise and hugged her, his eyes were red and he trembled. He turned on the shower, and they both got in. He lifted her onto him and kissed her as she continued to cry.
She closed her eyes, trying to understand why she had just let this happen --again. Only one of the million answers held true. She was without a doubt in love with Lucas Links and knew, good or bad she would love him forever. She wrapped her arms around him, “Please don’t.”
He pulled her back and looked at her, tears rolled down his face, “I won’t baby.”
She cried, “I love you Lucas.”
“I won’t ever give you a reason to stop,” he promised.
~
They dressed and walked down the stairs. Jade looked at them and shook her head smiling.
“All better?” She asked.
Tessa blushed and looked away, “Yes, Jade.”
“Are you staying, Tessa?” Jade smiled.
She looked at Lucas, and he closed his eyes. “Please,” he whispered his plead.
“Yes,” she sat on the couch.
He sat next to her and was obviously uncomfortable. She crossed her arms in front of her and looked at the TV. Jade and Ryan went to bed.
“Do you want to talk Tessa?” He asked.
“No,” she said quietly.
“Okay, but I think we should,” he said as he caressed her hand.
She said nothing and sat feeling anesthetized.
“Are you having second thoughts?” he asked.
She shook her head yes. He sat back and put his hands on his head and breathed out deeply.
“We are both so young Lucas,” she whispered.
“But we love each other,” he sat up and looking intently into her eyes.
“How has that worked out for us so far?” she asked quietly.
"Tessa, I can take you home," he stood up, clearly agitated.
"I have the Jeep," she stood up as well.
“Why can’t you talk to me?” he grabbed her hands.
“Lucas, I’m scared. I feel like an idiot for letting this happen, wanting this to happen. I don’t know I just feel… numb,” she pulled her hand away and walked towards the door.
He followed her. “Stay with me tonight please.”
She looked up into his panicky eyes.
“Any questions you have I’ll do my best to explain, Tessa. We haven’t talked in weeks, I owe you answers. If you love me, you owe us a chance,” Lucas closed his eyes waiting for her answer.
She walked upstairs and sat on his bed.
“How many times did that happen before that night?” she asked dreading his answer.
“That was it” he answered softly.
“How many times did she come on to you?” she asked.
“Every day” he answered quietly.
“How many times did she kiss you?” she asked louder.
“She tried all the time, but I stopped it,” he answered.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” she asked.
“I didn’t want to hurt you,” he said. “Tessa, I told her several times to stay away, you know that.”
“Then what happened that night?” she asked.
“Columbus day weekend, you and I pretty much stayed here the whole time, I went back there exhausted, they were having a party I had a few drinks and went to bed. She woke me up, I told her no, I was half asleep, and she went down and well I didn’t react the way I should have. I didn’t love you any less because of it, and I screwed up.” he said looking down.
“I will never suck you off again.” She looked at him with fire in her eyes.
“Okay I don’t care-- I just want you back Tessa.”
“Has it happened since?”
“No, not that. She has come in my room, and I have told her to leave. The last time I threatened to tell Miles if she didn’t leave. She hasn’t come in since,” Lucas answered.
“Miles doesn’t know?” He shook his head no. “Well I’m going to tell him.”
“Tessa he just has a few months of football and he is being scouted by the Pro teams, he can’t fall apart. It’ll ruin his chance,” he spoke quietly as he looked down.
“I forgot it was up to me to make everything better for everyone else, except for me,” she said sarcastically.
"If you need to Tessa, that's fine," he said. “She doesn’t bother me in class and she has left me alone on campus. But if you need to, and that’s what it takes for us to move on, then that’s fine.”
“I’m tired” she laid down regretfully, Was this enough?
“Tessa, why aren’t you on the pill anymore?”
“I was done,” she rolled to her side and faced away from him.
“Okay,” he said and lay down and wrapped his arms around her.
Chapter 2
Tessa stayed at Jade and Ryan’s the next day, and drove Lucas back to SU that night.
“Walk in with me?” he asked.
They got off the elevator and saw Jose; he ran up and hugged her.
"I’ve missed you Tessa," he picked her up and twirled her around.
“I missed you to Jose” she giggled.
They walked towards Lucas’s hall, and Jenny came out of the bathroom. Jenny laughed as she walked by, Tessa let go of Lucas and grabbed her and pushed her against the wall.
“Listen up whore, stay away from my boyfriend, or I will have him put a restraining order on your ass. And then I’ll tell your boyfriend.”
Tessa spit in her face and walked towards Lucas. He took her hand, and they walked to his room.
She sat on the bed and looked down.
“Do you feel better?”
“No, that isn’t me,” she whispered. Except when it comes to how I am with you, she thought
“I know that.”
“Then why did you let me?” she asked.
Why did you not stop me that night? he thought, and quickly stopped.
“Tessa it was deserved and I certainly don’t want to make you mad, I ju
st got you back,” he said biting back a smile.
"You think it's funny.”
He looked at her, “Truth?” She shook her head yes. And he chuckled.
“It’s not funny,” she said smiling and looking down.
He laughed, “Yes it is.”
She laughed, and he hugged her. She looked at him and shook her head smiling.
His eyes skimmed her body, “May I?”
She shook her head up and down, “Yes.”
He hugged her, and she kissed his neck he sat back and looked at her. He breathed deeply, and touched her breast she closed her eyes and took a deep breath.
He stood up and removed her pants and skimmed her slit with his finger. Her breath hastened and he laid her down. He opened his mouth and covered her completely as his tongue rubbed up and down her, with each lick he pushed deeper. Her hips began to move into him and he hit her clit. Tessa cried out as he devoured her. She’d missed him and knew he missed her too. He was so damn good at pleasing her physically, and when he was on …her heart could not be filled anymore. She hated the hurt he had caused her, but right now at this moment as his tongue circled her and his fingers pushed into her she was lost in a sea of ecstasy.
He walked out of the bathroom smiling and walked past the common area towards his room. Jenny glared at him, he laughed.
Tessa was still lying on the bed trying to catch her breath. He lay next to her and rubbed her belly and kissed her.
“You taste like S’mores baby,” he moved down.
“Holy sh…Lucas,” she moaned as Lucas went down…again.
~
He walked out of the bathroom again, and Jose was sitting there.
“Again man?” he laughed.
“I missed my girl,” Lucas winked.
Tessa was asleep when he came back in. He covered her up and lay next to her. Finally feeling whole again, he fell asleep.
His room door opened, and Tess covered her head shielding her eyes from the unwelcome light.
“Lucas, I need to talk to you,” Jenny’s voice whispered as she walked towards them.
“Jenny get the fuck out,” he said in a sleepy voice.
“No, how many times do I have to tell you I want you?” she giggled.
He looked at Tessa.
“I want to hear this, Lucas,” Tessa whispered.
“How many times have I told you to back off! Not interested Jenny.”
“You will be, I won’t take no for an answer,” she giggled again.
“Did you hear my girlfriend today?”
“I don’t care what she has to say. If it feels good why not do it?” Jenny giggled.
He sat up, “I do care, and I’ll absolutely file that restraining order!””
“Then I’ll call her and tell her you’re full of shit,” she said.
“You’ve already tried, it didn’t work,” he said.
“She doesn’t trust you already. I’m here now and very willing,” Jenny purred.
“Seriously what is wrong with you?” Tessa sat up.
Jenny was shocked.
“Lucas you need to make that call,” Tessa grabbed Lucas’s hand.
“Okay,” he said.
“No, you don’t,” Jenny snapped.
“Jenny we have dealt with crazy before-- it’s not happening again,” Tessa laughed in anger, “You need to leave and not come back.”
“I won’t need to. He’ll come around. You can’t be here every day,” Jenny warned.
“No, but I am moving into my apartment next month and he’ll be with me there,” Tessa snapped, “You should really get some help!”
Lucas pointed towards the door. “Out.”
He turned to Tessa and kissed her.
“Lucas she is nuts,” she said, “You need to start locking your door.”
He jumped up and locked it. She sat up and saw his naked body. Angry and confused by everything she had allowed and wanted she closed her eyes. No going back, he loves you, you love him, everything will be alright. Tessa opened her eyes.
“And now you need to lie down," she sat on his lap, and they made love. Slow deep kisses, gentle touches, thrusts given and returned. His hands and mouth loving hers. Pleasure’s arrival delivered with renewed trust, hope, and love.
When they were done, Tessa reluctantly got up to leave.
“Baby it’s two in the morning, sleep here tonight I’ll wake you up in time to get to class.”
Tessa texted Alex and he replied he would cover.
She laid down and fell asleep on his chest. He closed his eyes and finally really slept for the first time in over a month.
~
Lucas sat up and looked at his phone and kissed her head, “Tessa its ten o’clock. Baby, you’re late.”
She smiled and grabbed him, “Are you late?”
“No, my first class was cancelled Friday, but I have another at twelve thirty. I’m sorry,” he got up.
Tessa looked at him. He had bulked up since high school, and the sight of his bare naked backside was a site to behold. That and the morning wood made Tessa want him badly.
“I’m not, come back to bed,” she smiled.
“Really?” Lucas was surprised that she was so eager and willing. Wow!
“Yes please,” she giggled at his expression.
~
He went to shower, and she grabbed her clothes, put them in one of his bags, and threw on a pair of his sweats and a sweat shirt. Tessa left his room and sat in the common area waiting for him.
“Miss, we had a complaint about an overnight guest, did you sleep here last night?” the security guard asked.
She was feeling feisty this morning, “Well I didn’t actually sleep --all that much.”
“Your tone, Miss.”
“You asked,” she shrugged.
Jose was walking down the hall and she saw him walking towards them.
“I need your name,” he said.
“For what?” she asked.
“I’m issuing you a ticket, you’ll have to pay a fine and could possible be banned from campus,” he said
“Hey Tessa, how are you? Ted have you met Tessa?” Jose asked
“No, I haven’t had the pleasure of getting her name yet Jose, what did you say it was?”
"Tessa Ross," Jose said looking at him like he should know.
He looked at her, “Oh, oh, Lucas’s friend.”
“Yes and if it’s your job to write tickets for trespassing I think there is a Jenny who needs one, she seems to think she can pop her head..”
Jose cut her off, “Ted are we all set here?”
“Is Links going to be able to perform this Saturday his head has been up his ass for a few weeks,” Ted glared at Tessa.
“Why Ted, he is actually at peak performance level. He performed very nicely last night and this morning a few times…”
“Ted, you’ve met Tessa?” Lucas smiled at her as he walked out.
“Yes I have she is a bit full piss and vinegar,” Ted started, “But she says you’re up to peak performance level.”
“Oh she did, did she?” he laughed, as she blushed.
“Ted I think I may stay this night Friday night-- is that alright with you?” she asked sarcastically.
Lucas smiled and shook his head yes. “Well if Links wants you here, I guess you can.”
“Lucas needs a bigger bed so I can more finely tune…” Lucas kissed her to shut her up.
”I think that’s all Ted,” Jose said.
Tessa giggled as she pulled away. “No, I actually think I get this game. TED, Jenny needs a chain. She shouldn’t get to wander around freely, I am pretty sure she’s rabid. SO if she was the one who complained you need to have a talk with her TED, okay?” Tessa smiled sarcastically.
Lucas looked at him, “She knows everything, and should be treated like an MVP around here. Baby I’m going to be late. Can I walk you out?”
“I will Links; I want to fill your girl in on what MVP means,�
�� Jose laughed.
“Text me when you get home?” he asked and kissed her.
“Yes,” she smiled.
“I love you Tessa,” he said not wanting to let go.
“I love you,” she pushed him away smiling.
Jose gave her the low down. She was considered an MVP because her guy was an important addition to the team. It came with perks. She could be here whenever she wanted, she was able to sit in preferred seating, which he suggested, and she could bring one guest to sit with her to each game as long as it wasn’t distracting to her player. Her concessions would be provided; she had preferred parking here at the dorm and at the dome. She didn’t have to wait in line, and the gym was at her disposal after the scheduled time for the players.
“So that’s why she thinks she can do anything she wants,” Tessa sat back confused.
“Pretty much. Tessa I already know I can trust you, I am going to tell you something even Lucas doesn’t know, you just have to promise that your lips stay sealed girl, okay? No matter what happens?” he asked.
“Of course,” Tessa said nervously.
“You want to know why Jenny is treated like royalty around here?”
“Because of Miles,” she answered.
“Exactly, how interested do you think he seems to be in her?”
“Well he is never around her. Every time I ask he’s at tutoring. He can dance but doesn’t with her. I’m not getting it?” she scowled.
“They grew up together, were best friends all through school,” he said softly.
“How the hell could he stand to be around her, or kiss her or god forbid…” she started.
“Use that brain of yours girl, why is she going after Lucas so hard?”
“Have you looked at him?” she laughed.
“No, but Miles might,” he smirked.
“No way,” Tessa gasped.
“SHHH, top secret I’m not even supposed to know. That’s why they don’t push Jenny too hard. They know there are idiots out there, ignorant people, you know? Miles and the coaching staff here worry about ticket sales and his chances at Pro,” He smiled. “Lips sealed, right girl?”
“Yes Jose-- but she is crazy what if she ruins it for him?”
“I got Lucas’ back here. I promise Tessa-- just steer clear, alright girl?” He warned.
“I pinned her against the wall and spit in her face last night.” Tessa covered her face embarrassed.
