The night I caught Brad cheating on her changed everything. I held her in my arms as she fell apart, and I realized I wanted her for my own. It was the absolute worst fucking timing to figure out that I didn’t love her like a sister. I just loved her.
She needed time to get over Brad and what he did. She wasn’t ready for a boyfriend, and I couldn’t just play with her. My mom would kill me if I didn’t treat Lex right. I knew that when we got together that would be it. So I enjoyed the girls in college while I waited. Tried new things and discovered I like my sex hard and rough. I waited some more so I could get it out of my system before going to her. I put it off so long that Drake swooped in and stole her right out from underneath my nose.
I knew the second I saw them together that I had waited too long. He wanted her, and I couldn’t blame him. She was hot. Lots of guys wanted her. It was the way she looked at him that got to me. Her eyes lit up any time he was near, and she’d get this look on her face. Like he was the only thing she could see. I tried to tell myself it was only a fling and that it was a good sign. She was ready for a relationship again. I just had to wait until Drake messed up, and then I could finally have Lex. But when it came down to it, I just couldn’t do it. She loved him, and he made her happy. More than anything, I wanted her to be happy.
When Drake calmed down and listened to me, the look of horror on his face told me he loved her, too. My worst fear was confirmed when he refused to budge from her dorm, unwilling to go anywhere until he could find Lex. By the time Aubrey finally answered her phone, I felt sorry for the guy. He was a total wreck knowing how much he had hurt her. If she forgave him, he wasn’t ever going to let her go. So I had to do it.
Now here I am, on my way to find Sasha to make sure she doesn’t interfere in their relationship again. Talk about an awkward conversation. I had to talk to a chick that I banged the fuck out of last year. About not messing with the girl that I’m in love with and her boyfriend. The situation is so fucked up that I couldn’t make this shit up if I tried.
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