by Five Odd
His voice trailed off and he looked out of the port, as if to assure himself that all that lay beyond it was the familiar starscape of points and smudges of light
"And yet what?" Clovis asked, irritably this time.
"I was just thinking that we really ought to be thankful for having plenty to do. There's the routine, and the fruits and vegetables to look after, and Myri's story.. . . How's that going, by the way? Won't you read us some of it? This evening, perhaps?"
"Not until it's finished, if you don't mind." "Oh, but I do mind. It's part of our duty to entertain one another. And I'm very interested in it personally." "Why?"
"Because you're an interesting girl. Bright brown eyes and a healthy, glowing skin—how do you manage it after all this time in space? And you've more energy than any of us."
Myri said nothing. Bruno was good at making remarks there was nothing to say to.
"What's it about this story of yours?" he pursued. "At least you can tell us that."
"I have told you. It's about normal life. Life on Earth be-
fore there were any space stations, lots of different people
doing different things, not this------------ "
"That's normal life, is it different people doing different
things? I can't wait to hear what the things are. Who's the hero, Myri? Our dear Clovis?"
Myri put her hand on Clovis's shoulder. "No more, please, Bruno. Let's go back to your point about the routine. I couldn't understand why you left out the most important part, the part that keeps us busiest of all."
"Ah, the strange happenings." Bruno dipped his head in a characteristic gesture, half laugh, half nervous tremor. "And the hours we spend discussing them. Oh yes. How could I have failed to mention all that?"
"If you've got any sense you'll go on not mentioning it," Clovis snapped. "We're all fed up with the whole business."
"You may be, but I'm not I want to discuss it So does Myri, dont you, Myri?"
"I do think perhaps it's time we made another attempt to
find a pattern," Myri said. This was a case of Bruno not be-
ing pleasant but being right "
"Oh, not again." Clovis bounded up and went over to the drinks table. "Ah, hallo, Lia," he said to the tall, thin blonde woman who had just entered with a tray of cold dishes. "Let me get you a drink. Bruno and Myri are getting philosophical —looking for patterns. What do you think? Ill tell you what I think. I think we're doing enough already. I think patterns are Base's job."
"We can make it ours too," Bruno said. "You agree, Lia?"
"Of course," Lia said in the deep voice that seemed to Myri to carry so much more firmness and individuality in its tone than any of its owner's words or actions.
"Very well. You can stay out of this if you like, Clovis. We start from the fact that what we see and hear need not be illusions, although they may be."
"At least that they're illusions that any human being might have, they're not special to us, as we know from Base's reports of what happens to other stations."
"Correct Myri. In any event, illusions or not they are being directed at us by an intelligence and for a purpose."
"We dont know that," Myri objected. "They may be natural phenomena, or the by-product of some intelligent activity-not directed at us."
"Correct again, but let us reserve these less probable possibilities until later. Now, as a sample, consider the last week's strange happenings. Ill fetch the log so that there can be no dispute."
"I wish you'd stop it," Clovis said when Bruno had gone out to the apparatus room. "It's a waste of tune."
"Time's the only thing we're not short of."
"I'm not short of anything," he said, touching her thigh. "Come with me for a little while."
"Later."
"Lia always goes with Bruno when he asks her." "Oh yes, but that's my choice," Lia said. "She doesnt want to now. Wait until she wants to." "I dont like waiting." "Waiting can make it better."
"Here we are," Bruno said briskly, returning. "Right . . . Monday. Within a few seconds the sphere became encased in a thick brownish damp substance that tests revealed to be both impermeable and infinitely thick. No action by the staff suggested itself. After three hours and eleven minutes the substance disappeared. It's the infinitely thick thing that's interesting. That must have been an illusion, or something would have happened to all the other stations at the same time, not to speak of the stars and planets. A total or partial illusion, then. Agreed?"
"Go on."
"Tuesday.Metallic object of size comparable to that of the sphere approaching on collision course at 500 kilometres per second. No countermeasures available. Object appeared instantaneously at 35 million kilometres' distance and disappeared instantaneously at 1500 kilometres. What about that?"
"We've had ones like that before," Lia put in. "Only this was the longest time it's taken to approach and the nearest it's come before disappearing.''
"Incomprehensible or illusion," Myri suggested.
"Yes, I think that's the best we can do at the moment. Wednesday: a very trivial one, not worth discussing. A being apparently constructed entirely of bone approached the main port and made beckoning motions. Whoever's doing this must be running out of ideas. Thursday. All bodies external to the sphere vanished to all instruments simultaneously, reappearing to all instruments simultaneously two hours later. That's not a new one either, I seem to remember. Illusion? Good. Friday. Beings resembling terrestrial reptiles covered the sphere, fighting ceaselessly and eating portions of one another. Loud rustling and slithering sounds. The sounds at least must have been an illusion, with no air out there, and 1 never heard of a reptile that didn't breathe. The same sort
of thing applies to yesterday's performance. Human screams of pain and extreme astonishment approaching and receding. No visual or other accompaniment." He paused and looked round at them. "Well? Any uniformities suggest themselves?"
"No," Clovis said, helping himself to salad, for they sat now at the lunch table. "And 1 defy any human brain to devise any. The whole thing's arbitrary."
"On the contrary, the very next happening—today's when it comes—might reveal an unmistakable pattern."
"The one to concentrate on," Myri said, "is the approaching object Why did it vanish before striking the sphere?"
Bruno stared at her. "It had to, if it was an illusion."
"Not at all. Why couldn't we have had an illusion of the sphere being struck? And supposing it wasn't an illusion?"
"Next time there's an object, perhaps it will strike," Lia said.
Clovis laughed. "That's a good one. What would happen if it did, I wonder? And it wasn't an illusion?"
They all looked at Bruno for an answer. After a moment or two, he said: "I presume the sphere would shatter and we'd all be thrown into space. I simply can't imagine what that would be like. We should be . . . Never to see one another again, or anybody or anything else, to be nothing more than a senseless lump floating in space for ever. The chances of—"
"It would be worth something to be rid of your conversation," Clovis said, amiable again now that Bruno was discomfited. "Let's be practical for a change. How long will it take you to run off your analyses this afternoon? There's a lot of stuff to go out to Base and I shan't be able to give you a hand."
"An hour, perhaps, after I've run the final tests." "Why run tests at all? She was lined up perfectly when we finished this morning." "Fortunately."
"Fortunately indeed. One more variable and we might have found it impossible."
"Yes," Bruno said abstractedly. Then he got to his feet so abruptly that the other three started. "But we didn't did we? There wasn't one more variable, was there? It didn't quite happen, you see, the thing we couldn't handle."
Nobody spoke.
"Excuse me, I must be by myself."
"If Bruno keeps this up," Clovis said to the two women, "Base will send us a relief sooner than we think."
Myri tried to dr
ive the thought of Bruno's strange behaviour out of her head when, half an hour later, she sat down to work on her story. The expression on his face as he left the table had been one she could not name. Excitement? Dislike? Surprise? That was the nearest—a kind of persistent surprise. Well, he was certain, being Bruno, to set about explaining ft at dinner. She wished he were more pleasant, because he did think well.
Finally expelling the image of Bruno's face, she began rereading the page of manuscript she had been working on when the screams had interrupted her the previous afternoon. It was part of a difficult scene, one in which a woman met by chance a man who had been having her ten years earlier, with the complication that she was at the time in the company of the man who was currently having her. The scene was an eating alcove in a large city.
"Go away," Voisci said, "Or Til hit you."
Norbu smiled in a not-pleasant way. "What good would that do? lrmy likes me better than she Wees you. You are more pleasant, no doubt, but she likes me better. She remembers me having her ten years ago more clearly than she remembers you having her last night. I am good at thinking, which is better than any amount of being pleasant."
"She's having her meal with me," Voisci said, pointing to the cold food and drinks in front of them. "Aren't you, lrmy?"
"Yes, lrmy," Norbu said. "You must choose. If you can't let both of us have you, you must say which of us you like better."
lrmy looked from one man to the other. There was so much difference between them that she could hardly begin to choose: the one more pleasant, the other better at thinking, the one slim, the other plump. She decided being pleasant was better. It was more important and more significant— better in every way that made a real difference. She said: "I'll have Voisci.".
Norbu looked surprised and sorry. "I think you're wrong."
"You might as well go now," Voisci said, "lla will be wait-tng.
"Yes," Norbu said. He looked extremely sorry now. lrmy felt quite sorry too. "Good-bye, Norbu," she said. Myri smiled to herself. It was good, even better than she
had remembered—there was no point in being modest inside one's own mind. She must be a real writer in spite of Bruno's scoffing, or how could she have invented these characters, who were so utterly unlike anybody she knew, and then put them into a situation that was so completely outside her experience? The only thing she was not sure about was whether she might not have overplayed the part about feeling or dwelt on it at too great length. Perhaps extremely sorry was a little heavy; she replaced it by sorrier than before. Excellent: now there was just the right touch of restraint in the middle of all the feeling. She decided she could finish off the scene in a few lines.
"Probably see you at some cocktail hour," Vobcl said, she wrote, then looked up with a frown as the buzzer sounded at her door. She crossed her tiny wedge-shaped room—its rear wall was part of the outer wall of the sphere, but it had no port—threw the lock and found Bruno on the threshold. He was breathing fast, as if he had been hurrying or lifting a heavy weight, and she saw with distaste that there were drops of sweat on his thick skin. He pushed past her and sat down on her bed, his mouth open.
"What is it?" she asked, displeased. The afternoon was a private time unless some other arrangements were made at lunch.
"I don't know what is it I think I must be ill."
"111? But you can't be. Only people on Earth get ill. Nobody on a station is ever ill: Base told us that Illness is caused by—"
"I don't think I believe some of the things that Base says."
"But who can we believe if we don't believe Base?"
Bruno evidently did not hear her question. He said: "I had to come to you—Lia's no good for this. Please let me stay with you, I've got so much to say."
"It's no use, Bruno. Clovis is the one who has me. I thought you understood that I didnt—"
"That's not what I mean," he said impatiently. "Where I need you is in thinking. Though that's connected with the other, the having. I don't expect you to see that I've only just begun to see it myself."
Myri could make nothing of this last part "Thinking? Thinking about what?"
He bit his lip and shut his eyes for a moment "Listen to this," he said. "It was the analyser that set my mind going. Almost every other day it breaks down. And the computer, the counters, the repellers, the scanners and the rest of them —they're always breaking down too, and so are their power supplies. But not the purifier or the fluid-reconstitutor or the fruit and vegetable growers or the heaters or the main power source. Why not?"
"Well, they're less complicated. How can a fruit grower go wrong? A chemical tank and a water tank is all there is to it You ask Lia about that"
"All right Try answering this, then. The strange happenings. If they're illusions, why are they always outside the sphere? Why are there never any inside?"
"Perhaps there are," Myri said.
"Don't. I don't Want that. I shouldn't like that I want everything in here to be real. Are you real? I must believe you are."
"Of course I'm real." She was now thoroughly puzzled.
"And it makes a difference, doesn't it? It's very important that you and everything else should be real, everything in the sphere. But tell me: whatever's arranging these happenings must be pretty powerful if it can fool our instruments and our senses so completely and consistently, and yet it can't do anything—anything we recognise as strange, that is —inside this puny little steel skin. Why not?"
"Presumably it has its limitations. We should be pleased."
"Yes. All right, next point You remember the time I tried to sit up in the lounge after midnight and stay awake?"
"That was silly. Nobody can stay awake after midnight Standing Orders were quite clear on that point"
"Yes, they were, weren't they?" Bruno seemed to be trying to grin. "Do you remember my telling you how I couldn't account for being in my own bed as usual when the music woke us—you remember the big music? And—this is what I'm really after—do you remember how we all agreed at breakfast that life in space must have conditioned us in such a way that falling asleep at a fixed time had become an automatic mechanism? You remember that?"
"Naturally I do."
"Right. Two questions, then. Does that strike you as a likely explanation? That sort of complete self-conditioning in all four of us after... just a number of months?"
"Not when you put it like that"
"But we all agreed on it didn't we? Without hesitation."
Myri, leaning against a side wall, fidgeted. He was being not pleasant in a new way, one that made her want to stop
him talking even while he was thinking at his best. "What's your other question, Bruno?" Her voice sounded unusual to her.
"Ah, you're feeling it too, are you?" "I dont know what you mean."
"I think you will in a minute. Try my other question. The night of the music was a long time ago, soon after we arrived here, but you remember it clearly. So do I. And yet when I try to remember what I was doing only a couple of months earlier, on Earth, finishing up my life there, getting ready for this, it's just a vague blur. Nothing stands out."
"It's all so remote."
"Maybe. But I remember the trip clearly enough, don't
you?"
Myri caught her breath. I feel surprised, she told herself. Or something like that I feel the way Bruno looked when he left the lunch table. She said nothing.
"You're feeling it now all right aren't you?" He was watching her closely with his narrow eyes. "Let me try to describe it A surprise that goes on and on. Puzzlement Symptoms of physical exertion or strain. And above all a . . . a sort of discomfort only in the mind. Like having a sharp object pressed against a tender part of your body, except that this is in your mind."
"What are you talking about?"
"A difficulty of vocabulary."
The loudspeaker above die door clicked on and Clovis's voice said: "Attention. Strange happening. Assemble in the lounge at once. Strange happening."<
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Myri and Bruno stopped staring at each other and hurried out along the narrow corridor. Clovis and Lia were already in the lounge, looking out of the port
Apparently only a few feet beyond the steelhard glass, and illuminated from some invisible source, were two floating figures. The detail was excellent and the four inside the sphere could distinguish without difficulty every fold in the naked skin of the two caricatures of humanity presented, it seemed, for their thorough inspection, a presumption given added weight by the slow rotation of the pair that enabled their every portion to be scrutinised. Except for a scrubby growth at the base of the skull, they were hairless. The limbs were foreshortened, lacking the normal narrowing at the joints, and the bellies protuberant One had male characteristics, the other female, yet in neither case were these complete. From each open, wet, quivering toothless mouth there came a loud, clearly audible yelling, higher in pitch than any those in the sphere could have produced, and of an unfamiliar emotional range.
"Well, I wonder how long this will last," Clovis said.
"Is it worth trying the repellers on them?" Lia asked. "What does the radar say? Does it see them?"
"Ill go and have a look."
Bruno turned his back on the port "I dont like them." "Why not?" Myri saw he was sweating again. "They remind me of something." "What?"
"I'm trying to think."
But although Bruno went on trying to think for the rest of that day, with such obvious seriousness that even Clovis did his best to help with suggestions, he was no nearer a solution when they parted, as was their habit at five minutes to midnight And when, several times in the next couple of days, Myri mentioned the afternoon of the caricatures to him, he showed little interest
"Bruno, you are extraordinary," she said one evening. "What happened to those odd feelings of yours yod were so eager to describe to me just before Clovis called us into the lounge?"
He shrugged his narrow shoulders in the almost girlish way he had. "Oh, I dont know what could have got into me," he said. "I expect I was just angry with that confounded analyser and the way it kept breaking down. It's been much better recendy."
