by Iris Blaire
"My studio is in northern Cali, near my old college," I tell Beatrice. "I'm with my parents in Malibu right now."
"You're there for two months," says Evan. "Can't you take a couple of weeks and head back to the studio? We can meet you there and balls-to-the-wall it to get everything done.”
“Pun intended,” says Dallas. Evan elbows his arm.
I grit my teeth. This is one part of my life that Evan doesn't get. No one really does, except for Cam. "My family is incredibly—close. When I make a promise to stay with them, I have to keep it, especially if I don’t have a good excuse as to why I’d be leaving them. They’ve already bought me a countless number of luncheon and benefit dinner tickets for all of their summer rich people activities.”
Evan frowns, and Beatrice raises an eyebrow. "That sounds... incestuous."
I guffaw. "No kidding."
"What are they giving you in return?"
"An inheritance. Since summer is benefit dinner and luncheon season, they want Cam and I around to be showcased as gleaming, successful, and supportive children."
"It isn't going to take long for one of your parents’ rich friends, or someone in your community, to figure out what your career really is and spill the beans to your parents," says Evan.
"Yeah, I know." It's a shock my parents don't already know. I mean, my name is all over the internet in connection to EPE. Apparently, they trust me enough to never think to Google me.
"We'll have to find a way to bring the models to you, then," Beatrice says. "Rent a studio for a month somewhere in Malibu. You'll just have to sneak out enough for the shoots. Think you can manage that?"
The thought of my models coming to me in my hometown makes my entire stomach flip upside-down, but I'm not going to argue. Beatrice and the publisher have already done me enough favors. I sigh. "I'll make it work, I guess."
"I'll go ahead and send you some more outlines," Andrea says. Sympathy laces her voice. I study Evan's and Dallas's faces, and they're looking mighty sorry too.
"I'm fine, guys. My parents aren't that bad. They're just freakishly controlling. I'll survive. I'm a big girl."
Beatrice lays out the nitty-gritty. My manager will contact my models and send me a list of the ones who will be able to make it. We need to start shooting in two weeks. By then, I'll have chosen a storyline for Andrea to begin working on, and have several shoot ideas ready to execute.
When I've finally logged out of Skype, I collapse onto my bed. It's stupid, how afraid of my parents I am. What's the worse they could do? Disown me? Pull my inheritance? I don't need the money, but I've always had my family to fall back on.
You're afraid of them finding out the true you.
They only know good, obedient Britain. Chaste Britain. Britain with a guilty conscience. And I've only known the family that has always accepted me.
As strong of a person I believe I am, rocking that boat is scary as all hell.
CHAPTER THREE
On Monday, I try to break as much of the news I can to Mom and Dad. Gladys, the housekeeper, has made finger sandwiches and lemonade and Mom invites me to read and bake out in the sun with her by the pool. When she's relaxed and spending quality time with me is the perfect opportunity to ask for a favor.
I put down my novel, losing my place. I've been flipping the pages and not really reading anyway. "So I have some friends coming into town."
She takes a delicate sip of lemonade and blinks at me.
"They're going to be here for two weeks and I'd really like to spend some quality time with them, so I probably won't be around the house much. I hope that's okay.”
Mom frowns and slides her big sunglasses down the bridge of her nose. "Friends? From school?"
I nod. "Most of them graduated last year though, so I haven't seen them in a while."
"Where are they staying?"
I shrug. "Some hotel."
"Are they, well, good people?"
I press my lips together. Mom and Dad both use that phase more often than not. Good people. Like there is some universal rule and everyone is innately aware of who is a good person and who is a bad person. My parents consider good people to be modest and polite and respectful... virtuous, I guess. I think of Jaime and how much my mother disapproved of him over the years. Jaime might have been Cam's best friend, but he was definitely not a good person.
"Good people," I say. I think of Evan and how she's an actress at heart. She's like me, putting on a role for the people around her so she's to be accepted. "You know Evan, right? I mean, you haven't met her, but I talk about her—”
"All the time," my mother finishes with a grin. "You talk about her all the time. I'd love to meet her!"
Well, if this is what it takes to be able to shoot erotica without my parents getting in the way. "Of course you can. Maybe we can all go out to lunch one day."
Mom waves her hand in front of her face dismissively. "Oh don't be silly. They'll all stay here, of course."
My jaw threatens to fall open, and all I want to do is mutter a string of expletives, but Mom hasn't ever heard me even use the word "fuck" before. "I don't know if that would be such a good idea. I mean, I don't know exactly who's coming yet. It'll probably be like, ten people."
"Ten good people."
"Still, Mom, I—”
"Be gracious to your friends!" Mom cries. "We have the space, don't we? And these rooms are nicer than any hotel. Plus, I'd love to meet all of the people you spend your time with." Mom waves her hand toward Gladys, who's wiping down the patio furniture at the other end of the pool. "Gladys! Grab my husband, will you?"
Gladys disappears into the house and returns with Dad and Cam, who are both in their swim trunks. As Cam dives into the pool, Mom quickly explains to Dad the situation with my friends, and how she wants them all to stay here.
"It's really okay," I say quickly, silently praying that Dad will see some absurdity in housing all of my friends for two weeks.
"Nonsense." Dad reaches toward me and grabs the straw sun hat off my head, placing it on his own.
"You look ridiculous, Dad.”
"I'm a ridiculous man." He grins before returning to the conversation. "Of course we can host your friends for two weeks. Throw a couple of pool parties, make you kids some cocktails." He winks at me like he's doing me a favor, like I'm fifteen and not twenty-two and a cocktail is some naughty, delectable treat. "Don't look so distraught, Brit. Your friends will love us."
"Friends?" Cam says from the pool. Water drips down his face. "What friends?"
"We're going to host Britain's friends for a couple of weeks," Mom says cheerfully.
I swallow the painful lump in my throat, and Cam raises an eyebrow. "Are these friends incredibly attractive?"
I'm sure Mom and Dad are thinking that Cam is just being Cam, asking if the friends that will be over at the house are hot—maybe nice to look at when they’re in bikinis—but I know what he's really asking. Cam knows my secret. He's asking if these friends are models.
Mom tssks. "Don't be a pig, Cameron."
"Incredibly attractive," I say, keeping my eyes glued to my older brother.
"Oh, dear," he says slowly. I kind of want to punch the smirk off his face.
When I finally manage to creep away from the pool, I run up to my room and call Evan, telling her everything.
"Wow," she finally says. "So your parents are insisting to house a bunch of porn stars without even knowing it, huh?"
"This is a nightmare, Evan. A fucking nightmare." I groan and slide down the wall. "My parents are modest, conservative, and pretty much from the 1950s. If they found out what I did for a living, I'd lose... I'd lose..."
"What?" she asks. "What exactly would you lose?"
"My inheritance. Their respect."
"Think of it this way," Evan says. "Take it from a girl who spent a solid chunk of her college years trying to hide who she was. Your first mistake was not changing your name for the magazine. I've Googled you. You pop up
all over the Internet. Your dad is in software, right?"
"Well, yeah."
"He's not computer illiterate. They know, Brit. They have to know, whether they've told you or not."
I mull over Evan's words slowly. She's right. I'm in denial if I think that just because I've been a good daughter, my parents haven't Googled me.
"I haven't met your parents," she continues, “so I don't exactly know the relationship you have with them. But I know you. You love your work. Don't be ashamed of yourself just because you're afraid of Mommy and Daddy. Let's have a kickass summer, Brit! I get to see you in two weeks. Who cares if we're all staying at your parents?"
I grin. She's right. "Okay, okay. You may be right, but for the sake of my sanity, I really hope the publisher covers the cost of decent location housing for you guys so all of you don't have to crash at Mommy's and Daddy's."
When I'm off the phone with Evan, I shoot an email to Beatrice and get her caught up on the situation. I change into leggings, a tank top, and tennis shoes, hoping a run will clear my head, and head for downstairs when floating voices on the second floor stop me in my tracks. Cam and Dad. They’re in Dad's office.
"You can't be serious," Cameron says. "He stole from us!"
He sounds pissed. I don't think I've ever heard Cameron speak to Dad that way. Dad has never let him get away with that tone of voice.
But when Dad responds, he doesn't scold Cam. In fact, he's gentle with him. "We don't know that, son. There was never any evidence proving Jaime was the one who took the fifty grand. It wasn't in his accounts. There wasn't even a paper trail."
I hold my breath and freeze in the hall, listening closely.
Dad sighs. "I let anger cloud my judgment when the money went missing. Firing Jaime felt just and right. It felt like I was doing something to fix the situation, even if it meant that I couldn't find that money. But Britain's right. Jaime doesn't even want his job back. He only wants to make amends with our family. And I think that's honorable."
"Unless he's playing you," Cam says. "Unless he's trying to weasel his way back into the family to... I don't know... steal again."
Why was Cam so against giving Jaime another chance? They had been best friends for years. The situation feels like I'm in another dimension. It should be Cam begging to give Jaime another chance, not Dad.
I slip away before either of them step out of the office and notice that I've been listening. But when I head out for run, I can't stop thinking about Jaime and Cam. They were practically inseparable in high school. If they worked in the same department together, maybe there was something that Jaime did that Cam isn't telling Dad.
I run around the block a couple of times and come back home sweaty and disgusting. Before I hop in the shower, I text Jaime:
Ready to play Prince Charming again? Or Romeo, or whoever the fuck sneaks into the Princess's room via the window like a creepy bastard?
Jaime: Lol. Wasn't that whoever Rapunzel was banging? Rapunzel, Rapunzel, let down your long hair.
Yeah, him.
Jaime: Time?
I tell Jaime not to come until late and decide to skip the shower. After a late dinner with my parents and Cam, I slip into my red bikini, the one I've had since high school—the one Jaime remembers—and head to the pool.
I swim for what feels like hours before he shows up. He hisses my name from the hedges at the far side of the pool. I wonder if that's where he watched me bang Nate. I should be totally creeped out and disgusted that Jaime was there to witness that tragedy, but he was right: I did entice him to climb up to my room. I also enticed him with this bikini.
I nod toward the bushes and make my way to the shallow end of the pool. When I walk up the steps, I am very aware of the way the water drips off of my exposed body, and the way my old bikini fits all too snugly. But I have to take a line from Evan's book. She's like my spirit animal when it comes to guys and not being bashful. Especially Jaime, who I fantasized about for the majority of my teenage years and was simultaneously terrified of his sexual advances.
I turn to face the bushes, where I know he's watching me from, gather my hair, and wring it out slowly so the water drips down my breasts. Then I pick up my towel and head inside.
It doesn't take him long to climb up to the window; he's waiting for me when I enter my bedroom. I drop my towel and saunter to the window and open it.
He's wearing jeans and a tight shirt, dirtied from scrambling up the side of the house. I tear my eyes from the ripples of his muscles beneath the fabric to his face—the face that photographs fucking perfectly. Full lips, strong jaw, high cheekbones. I can't deny that when looking through my reel after a shoot, every single one of Jaime's images are salvageable.
Even when he looks smug as all hell, which has always been his most common expression.
I say nothing and walk to my vanity, sitting and grabbing my hair brush. I watch him through the mirror as he swings his legs into my room and hops down onto the carpet.
"You rang?"
"I did."
He sits on my bed. "You know, you can't just use me for booty calls, Brit. I'm a person," he drawls amusedly. “I have feelings.”
I roll my eyes. "Get over yourself."
"Get over myself? You're the one who texted me, and then chose to be swimming in that when I showed up."
I grin. When Jaime and I were in Boston, he shared one of his fantasies with me. I used to wear this bikini my junior and senior year of high school, and he got off on the thought of peeling it from my body and eating me out.
All I want to do right now is live out that fantasy, but I've got business to tend to. Sadly.
As I work out the knots in my hair, I tell Jaime about the situation with the shoot and the ten porn stars my parents want to host at their house in a couple of weeks. By the end, he's cracking up. "I got the email from your manager for the schedule for this summer, but I didn't know you were planning on shooting it here, in Malibu. Jesus, Brit. A little close for comfort."
"It's not funny," I say flatly. "You know my mom and dad."
Jaime rolls his eyes. "Give it up. They'd shit themselves if they knew a lot of things." He stands from the bed and walks over to me. When he reaches the vanity, he hunches down until his face is right next to mine, and my eyes catch his earthy ones in the mirror’s reflection. He reaches up and toys with the bikini string tied at the back of my neck. "They'd be less pissed about your job than the fact that you've fucked me."
Hearing him say those words out loud is enough to send a pulse of pleasure through my abdomen. "I think they'd be pretty pissed about both. But Evan thinks they already know about EPE. It comes up everywhere when you Google me."
"I don't know." I watch the mirror as he coils the string of my bikini around his finger and tugs. The bow loop slowly shrinks. "Your parents used to openly voice their distaste for Cameron's lifestyle every day. Didn't stop after he graduated college, either. They would tell you if they found out about EPE."
The bow unravels. He loosens the strings, and the triangles of my bikini fall down. I cock an eyebrow. "What do you think you're doing?"
I watch in the mirror as his eyes flit to my exposed breasts. "What do you think? I thought this was a..."
"Not a booty call," I say with a smirk. I reach around by and untie the bottom of my bikini top and stand, walking to the dresser and throwing on a white t-shirt I know is totally see through. Just because this isn't a booty call doesn't mean I don't want to drive him crazy. "I bought a new lens," I say nonchalantly. “Haven't been able to try it out on a body yet." I grab my camera off the dresser top and spin toward him. "I want to use you, just not for fucking."
He stands and crosses his arms over his chest. "Can't you shoot pics of your family or something to test out your lens?"
I scrunch my nose. "Eww."
Then he gets that I want him to strip. "You're using me for my naked body."
"Exactly," I say stoically. "Now take off your clothes."
He purses his lips. "All business and no fun, Miss McCulley."
"What I do best."
He grips the bottom of his tight t-shirt and slowly peels it up and away from his chest. I grit my teeth to keep my mouth from falling open. I've looked over Jaime's reels millions of times, sometimes for business and sometimes just because I want to. No matter how great those photos turned out, they don't do him justice, and they never will.
He tucks his thumbs in his pocket right when I nod toward his jeans. "Those too. And your boxers."
The corner of his lip raises. "I'm sure you don't need a total strip to figure out how good your lens is."
He's teasing. He's been teasing since he slipped into this room and started toying with my bikini strings. But two can play this game. "Yes, but I'm your boss and you'll do as I say."
He bites down on his bottom lip before popping the button of his jeans. "Yes ma'am."
He slips his jeans and boxers down at once, over his perfect ass, his legs... and everything else. I try to keep my face straight and demanding, but maybe this was a mistake. He's been naked for only two seconds and I'm already dizzy.
I nod toward the bed, and he sits. It's impossible to ignore that his cock is hard. I think of Boston and his bed and how he flipped me over and fucked me from behind before he let me ride him. I clear my throat. "Lie back."
“Guy's solo shoots are really awkward,” he says while following my instructions. "Sure you don't want to set that thing up on a tripod and join me?"
"No." Yes. Truth is, I don't really need to test my lens. I'm full of shit. I only want to tease Jaime, remind him of how much power I have. Wearing only a white t-shirt and my wet bikini bottoms, I crawl onto the bed and straddle his naked body.
I listen to his intake of breath. Now it's my turn to be smug.
As I adjust my camera, I feel his cock harden against me. I rock into him, the only thing separating us my wet bikini bottoms. He groans and grips my hips. "I'm pretty sure I could pin you for sexual harassment, boss."
