by Rich Horton
“What are you going to do?” I asked in bewilderment. “Why are you here?”
“We've got to take this over, Taibo.” He managed to sound sad and reluctant, as if it had really not been something he wanted to do. “This has gotten completely out of hand. I had hoped you would be able to handle ... well, it's all water under the bridge now, isn't it? Some things look really easy when others do them, but then turn out to take a great deal of skill. Just remember that, next time.”
It took every ounce of my willpower to keep from punching him. That was nothing you wanted to do while on two dozen channels of net coverage. People would be critiquing my form—"too much arm, not enough body"—before I was even under arrest.
“So ... I still don't understand. Are you helping us out?”
“No,” he said. “We're not helping you out. We're formally taking over this operation. All of it. It's the only way, Taibo. I'm sure you understand it.”
There. He'd finally gotten it out formally, though I was sure he'd also filed the necessary permissions. Along with the AI, he'd just taken on all the liabilities associated with the operation. Whatever happened, all the property damage was now entirely Chet's problem.
“This is a really dangerous AI, Chet.” I got all goggle-eyed and paranoid. “You have no idea—”
He smiled and patted my shoulder. “Come on, Taibo. Let's go in, and you can see how the big boys do it.”
* * * *
Petra raised the lid. “Who had the pork and coconut?”
“Me.” Max shoveled most of the bowl onto his rice and started eating. Petra looked at me and shrugged. We'd all earned a decent meal. “Shrimp and baby corn. You on a diet, Taibo?” She knew I usually went for pork. “It's going to be a long haul, Petra. I don't want to weigh myself down.”
She shrugged. “Suit yourself.”
The aromas of curry, fish sauce, and galangal mingled in the air.
It had been an uncomfortable scene. Chet's crew had torn the place apart. No Gardener. No aicons. Nothing. Just a huge hole in the floor and some astronomical liability. They'd found Petra in the barewear shop trying on some delts she didn't need, and hauled Max out of his hidey hole behind a fish tank. The exposed orchid aicon had been the biggest risk.
* * * *
Max hadn't yet said anything about what might have happened to it, and Chet had spent a lot of time looking for it, based on the description Duster had phoned in from his holding cell.
Chet had spent some time telling me what an idiot he thought I was, how he had played me the whole way, how I had never had a clue. In the end, he had managed to imply that I'd somehow taken advantage of his generosity to an old and unsuccessful friend in order to betray him. I'd invited him to join us for lunch.
As it happened, he had other plans.
Petra glanced at Max, who still had his face buried in his food. “Okay, Max. Come up for air and tell us where the aicon is.”
Max looked up, vaguely irritated, and, instead of answering Petra's question, signaled a waiter. “Hey! Where's the extra?” He then grinned at us. “I ordered another dish for us. From the fish tank. Stuff like that's always best when it's fresh.”
“From the—stop screwing around, Max.”
“You gave me the assignment ... ah, here we go.”
The waiter pushed up a cart. Max grinned at him and took the covered tray from it.
Petra stared at it. “How—”
“Can't show it yet. Taibo's buds are still staring at us. The orchid's in a doggie bag. We can haul it out with our lefties. I shoved it through the basement maintenance hatch of the fish tank with an almost-neutral floater. It's an old drug smuggling trick. Thing looks just like some bit of kelp or something. Floated right up past these guys while they were charging around.”
“Well, Max.” Petra sat back. “Very enterprising.” She looked at me. “You don't look too happy about it, Taibo.”
I had been moving my food around, but not eating it. “I—I don't actually like shrimp that much.”
“Hey, man, you scared that Maureen won't like you when you come after her supersmart gardening machine?” Max laughed, spilling rice down his chin. “You got a steady job. She'll forgive you.”
I didn't look at him. He was my buddy, but sometimes he really annoyed me.
“That really was good work, Taibo.” Petra sat back in her chair. “We have a link back to the AI. Beagle & Charlevoix have been forced to assume all the liability for this job, by formally taking it over. It'll bankrupt them, guaranteed.” If I hadn't known her dedication to AI hunting, I would have thought that the most pleasing aspect of the job was the damage it would do to her former employer. “But shorn of aicons, with its processing reduced for transport, this Brenda or whatever it is will still look like the Donald we originally thought it was.” She glanced at me, looked away. “Maureen's looking for support from the acolyte underground, but it will be a few days before she manages to find it.”
Neither Max nor Petra understood my position. I'd been mediocre in various positions in the past. But now I had a job I was good at. It was in a declining industry, natch, but you can't have everything. The next step, in addition to being good at it, was to be successful at it.
“Let's grab our leftovers,” I said. “Who's driving?”
[Back to Table of Contents]
* * *
FOR SOLO CELLO, OP. 12
Mary Robinette Kowal
His keys dropped, rattling on the parquet floor. Julius stared at them, unwilling to look at the bandaged stump where two weeks ago his left hand had been. He should be used to it by now. He should not still be trying to pass things from his right hand to his left. But it still felt as if his hand were there.
The shaking began again, a tremelo building in his hand and knees. Julius pressed his right hand—his only hand—against his mouth so he did not vomit on the floor. Reaching for calm, he imagined playing through Belparda's Étude no. 1. It focussed on bowing, on the right hand. Forget the left. When he was eight, Julius had learned it on a cello as big as he had been. The remembered bounce of the bow against the strings pulsed in his right hand. Don't think about the fingering.
“Jules, are you all right?”
Cheri's voice startled him. He hadn't heard the door open.
Lowering his hand, Julius opened his eyes. His wife stood silhouetted in the light from their apartment. Her hair hung in loose tendrils around her face, bleached almost colourless by the backlight.
He snatched his keys off the floor. “I'm fine.” Julius leaned forward to kiss her before she could notice his shaking, but Cheri turned her head and put a hand to her mouth.
“No. Sorry. I—I was just sick.” A sheen of sweat coated her upper lip. Julius slid his good arm around her and pulled her to him.
“I'm sorry. The baby?” This close, her lilac perfume mixed with the sour scent of vomit.
His phantom hand twitched.
She half-laughed and pressed her head into his shoulder. “Every time I throw up, I think that at least it means I'm still pregnant.”
“You'll keep this one.”
She sighed as if he had given her a gift.
“Maybe. Two months, tomorrow.”
“See.” He brushed her hair with his lips.
“Oh...” Some of the tension came back to her shoulders.
“Your agent called.”
Julius stiffened. His agent. How long would a one-handed cellist be of interest? “What did Leonard say?”
“He wants to talk to you. Didn't say why.”
Cheri drifted away and began obsessively straightening the magazines on the bureau in the foyer.
Julius let her. He had given up telling her that the accident had not been her fault. They both knew he would not have taken the tour if Cheri had not insisted. He would have stayed in the hotel, practicing for a concert he never gave.
He tossed his keys on the bureau. “Well. Maybe he's booked a talk show for me.”
&nbs
p; * * * *
At the coffee shop, Julius felt the baristas staring as he fumbled with his wallet. Leonard reached for the wallet with his pudgy sausage fingers. “Let me help.”
“No!” Julius gritted his teeth, clutching the slick leather. “I have to learn to do this.”
“Okay.” Leonard patted the sweat on his face with a napkin and waited. The line shuffled behind him. Every footfall, every cough drove a nail into his nerves. A woman whispered, “Julius Sanford, you know, the cellist.”
Julius almost turned and threw his wallet at her. Who the hell was she? Had she even heard him play before the accident or had she only seen him on the nightly news? Since the accident, sales of his albums had gone through the roof.
He wasn't dead, but he might as well be.
Julius bit the inside of his cheek until he tasted blood and pressed his wallet against the counter with the stump. The bandages bit into the still tender flesh, but the wallet stayed put.
He pulled out his credit card with his right hand. It was stupid and it felt good and he hated it, all at once.
As if celebrating, his phantom hand flicked through the opening passage to Vivaldi's Sonata in F major. Jules pressed the wallet harder against the counter, trying to drive out the memory of a hand with each throb of pain. Avoiding eye contact, he took his iced latte from the barista. He did not want to know if she was the type who watched him with pity or if she stared with naked curiosity.
Leonard had already picked a table outside. Jules dropped into the chair across from him. “So?”
“So.” Leonard sipped his mocha. “What if you didn't have to learn to do that?”
“What? Handle credit cards?”
Leonard shrugged, and dabbed the back of his neck. “What would you give to play cello again?”
Julius's heart kicked against the inside of his ribs. He squeezed the plastic cup to keep from throwing it at Leonard. “Anything.”
The older man looked away. His tongue darted out, lizard-like. “Is that hyperbole, or would you really give anything?”
Shaking, Julius shoved the stump squarely in Leonard's vision. The phantom twitched with inaudible music. “If the devil sat down with us and offered to trade my hand for my soul, I'd do it. I'd throw yours in with the bargain.”
“Good.” Beads of sweat dotted Leonard's forehead. “Except he's already got mine.” He pushed a newspaper across the table, folded open to a page in the Arts and Leisure section.
“SVETLANA MAKES TRIUMPHANT RETURN TO FIGURE SKATING”
Julius stared at the article. She had suffered from bone cancer and lost her foot. Two years ago, she was told she would never skate again. Now she was at the Olympics.
“How?”
“A blastema bud.”
Jules wiped his hand over his mouth. “I thought those were illegal.”
“Here. Yes. Calcutta? No.” His tongue flicked again, always the sign of a sticking point in negotiations. “But the blastema has to be from a related embryo to reduce chances of rejection.” He paused. “Svetlana got herself pregnant.”
The phantom hand froze.
“I know her doctor.” Leonard tapped the paper. “I can get you in.”
* * * *
Cheri sat in the living room looking at a catalogue of baby furniture. When Julius entered, she smiled, barely looking up from the glossy pages. “Did Leonard have anything interesting to say?”
Julius hesitated in the door and then eased onto the sofa across from her. “He's found a way to get my hand back.”
Her catalogue hit the coffee table, the pages slapping against the wood. Cheri stared at the stump. Her mouth worked soundlessly.
“It's not legal.” Agitato beats pulsed in his phantom fingers. “It's...” He broke off, rubbing his left arm above the bandages to ease the ache. She wanted the baby so badly. “I feel like I'm dead. Like this.”
Cheri reached across the coffee table to grab his good hand. “Whatever it takes, Jules.”
He started to shake and pulled back. “The doctors can transplant a blastema bud to the stump and regrow my hand. But we have to do it before scar tissue forms.”
“That's not so bad.” She got off the couch to kneel beside him. “I don't mind moving to a country where it's legal.”
He bit his lip and nodded.
Cheri ran her hand through his hair. Cool and soothing, her fingers traced a line from his scalp to the nape of his neck. “Hey. Sweetie. What's wrong?”
Wrong. She wanted to know what was wrong. The shaking started again. “It has to be related.”
She froze. They hung suspended, as if waiting for a conductor to start the next movement. Julius stared at the carpet until Cheri moved her hand. She slid it down his back and stood.
“Related?”
He nodded. “To reduce the chances of rejection.”
“So it might not work?” Cheri wrapped her arms around herself.
“I don't have another choice.” He held the stump up so she could see it. “Do you have any idea what it's like? I can't play.”
“You could teach.”
A laugh ripped out of him. “It's not the same thing! I can't go from being part of the music to hearing it butchered. I mean, can you imagine me with eight-year-olds? Christ. Kill me now.”
“Sorry.” Cheri paled, her skin becoming almost translucent in the light. She turned and went to the window. “What do you want me to say?”
Say yes. Say you understand. “I—I just wanted to talk about options.” Julius crossed the room to stand behind Cheri. He reached out to hold her and stopped, staring at the stump. In his memory, the tour-bus tipped and landed with his arm out the window, sliding on his hand. Grinding it away. “I should have stayed in the room.”
“What?”
“Nothing.” He wouldn't have gone if she hadn't insisted. “We can make another baby.”
“Can we?” A vein pulsed in her neck. “It's been two years, Jules.”
“So you miscarried before.” The phantom hand clenched in a tight fist. “You might miscarry again, and then you won't have a baby and I still won't have a hand. Is that what you want? Are you happy that I can't play anymore?”
Her shoulders hitched and Cheri shook her head.
Julius pinched the bridge of his nose. He had gone too far, but she had to understand. “I'm sorry. I just see this chance and it's the first time I've hoped since the accident.” He put his hand on her shoulder. She trembled, her shoulder as tight as a bow. “I'm sorry.”
She nodded but did not turn.
Julius waited for more but Cheri continued to stare out the window. He squeezed her once and walked away.
“Jules?” Her voice caught him halfway across room. “We should do it.”
Afraid to look at her, he stopped. “Do you mean that?”
“Yes.” The word almost disappeared into the hush of the room.
“Because I don't want to force you into anything.” He tasted the hypocrisy on his lips, but he needed this. She had to understand that.
She turned to face him then. Her face, all cheekbones and dark circles, was blotched red with anger. “You're offering me a choice between giving you your hand back and raising a child that you hate. What choice do you think there is?”
“I didn't mean...”
Cheri shook her head, rejecting his apology. “Tell Leonard I said yes.”
She turned back to the window and leaned her head against the glass.
“Cheri.” He stopped. Nothing he could say would make her feel better, without giving away the thing he wanted. The thing he needed. He plucked at the bandages on his stump. If he could play again ... “You have to understand what this means to me.”
“I understand that I'm your second love. I said yes. I can't give you anything else.”
Julius stared at her unforgiving back. “Thank you.”
He slid out of the room to call Leonard. His hand trembled on the receiver. Down the hall, the door to the bathroom shut. Ch
eri retched once. Then again. Julius pressed the phone harder against his ear and started running Wilde's Lament in his mind.
* * * *
He concentrated on the fingering.
The last vibrations of Wilde's op. 12 buzzed through Julius's thighs and into his chest. He flexed the fingers on his left hand as he released the cello's neck.
Across the room, Leonard sat with his head tilted down so that his chin vanished in his neck. Julius swallowed, the gulp sounding as loud as it had when he first auditioned for Leonard.
Leonard lifted his head. “What was that?”
“A Lament in Rondo Form for Solo Cello, op.12.” Julius stroked the cello's silky wood. The sweat on his palm left a film on the instrument.
Leonard grunted. His tongue darted out to wet his lips. “Well.”
“Well?” Christ, the man was trying to kill him. Julius looked down, loosening his bow as he waited for the verdict.
“Heard from Cheri?”
“She sent me a card on my birthday.” His left hand spasmed. “Are you going to tell me what you thought?”
“Turn the gig down.”
Julius almost dropped the bow. “You're kidding. It's Carnegie Hall! I've been working for this for the last three years.”
Leonard leaned forward. “Jules. Have I ever steered you wrong?”
“Three years, Leonard.” He'd given up more than time to be able to play again.
“Take a gig in a symphony, build up your chops again. You wouldn't have to audition.”
“Screw that.”
“You asked for my opinion. As your agent...”
“Another agent would get me the gigs that I want.”
“Sure.” Leonard shrugged and headed for the door. “Take it, you'll sell out the house. But after people hear you play, the only gigs you'll be able to book will be novelty shows.”
His words resonated in the belly of the cello. “You aren't ready. It's like you're playing two different pieces now.”
Julius hadn't thought anyone else could hear it. He gripped the cello between his knees, as if the fragile wood could shield him from the truth.
