by Mz. Lady P
“It’s all good. I just want to make you and Heaven happy.” I poured some of her body wash on a towel and started to wipe her body clean. I gently washed in between her legs causing her to moan out in pleasure. With the soap still over her body I couldn’t help but bend her over and go balls deep inside of her.
“Ahhhhh! Yes, Remy. Just like that baby.” I grabbed a hand full of her hair with one hand and smacked her on the ass with the other one. The sight of her ass jiggling made me come long and hard inside of her. For the rest of the night we made love to one another and it was the best feeling in the world. My wife had the best pussy I ever had and I’ve had pussy all over the world. Ain’t nobody fucking with my bae.
Chapter 6-Honey
Things have been real fucked up between Boo and I. He knows I’m not wrapped too tight, yet he continues to play with me like I’m a lame ass bitch. This nigga thinks I need him. I’ve never needed a man for shit. I’m a hustler to my heart. I want him and that’s the motherfucking difference. I don’t know how I fell for a street nigga like him. I’ve always steered clear from the dope boy type. I tried my best to stay away from him when he came to the Kitty Kat. This nigga would pay me two thousand a night just to sit and entertain him. I wanted to turn it down because I knew he was feeling me. Plus, Remy would have kicked my ass if he knew I was turning down some dough like that. Usually I would never even consider turning down money.
I only wanted to because I was feeling him. One night he came and I started drinking with him. I was so fucked up that he had to take me home. Next thing I know this nigga got me bent over my damn sectional, fucking the lining out my ass. We fucked all night and all the next day. By the time he got up to leave, he had staked his claim and told Remy I was no longer an employee of his establishment. I didn’t even know until I went to work and Remy told me I could no longer strip. At first I was mad but eventually I got over it. Boo and I have been doing good but that motherfucker still be entertaining other bitches. A hoe had the nerve to confront me about my nigga in the damn nail shop. I laughed at her ass and walked away. Bitch was lucky it was Martin Luther King Jr.’s birthday. Had it been any other day I would have stomped her fucking ears together. I knew the bitch wasn’t lying because she had showed me pictures of him asleep in her bed. These niggas will never learn that these side bitches don’t mean them no fucking good. Instead of me confronting him, I decided to beat him at his own fucking game.
I started back talking to an old friend. I never had sex with the dude but I went out on dates with him and made sure to post that shit to Facebook and Instagram. Don’t play with my motherfucking heart; I’ll hurt your feelings and have your ego all fucked up. That’s why Boo came in the restaurant acting a fool and being disrespectful. He dished it out but couldn’t take it. He was like a deer in headlights when I called him out on his indiscretions. He shut the fuck up and got out of my face then. I haven’t said a word to his retarded ass since that day and it’s been two weeks since the incident. It will be another two weeks if he thinks I’m going to kiss his ass. He calls himself being mad because I put sugar in the tank of his Range and sliced all the tires. That motherfucker will think twice before he put his hands on me again. If I told him once I told his ass twice, I don’t take kindly to ass whoopings. I never have and I never will. That’s still my baby though. We’re both crazy so we balance each other out. We got the type of relationship that no one understands but us.
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“I swear to you Honey, if I find out Peanut is still fucking with that bitch I’m going to jail.” Neicee had called and woke me up out of my sleep at two in the damn morning. Boo was knocked out drunk and I was glad, because he would have sworn up and down that I was going somewhere to meet a nigga. We wanted to call Rose` but since her and Remy made up, her ass has been MIA. I don’t blame her though; they deserve to be happy. The death of Remy Jr. has taken a toll on the both of them.
“Calm down bitch. I doubt if Peanut is fucking her. Here, smoke this shit. So, you can calm down.” I handed her a blunt but she pushed it away.
“I wish I could smoke. That nigga done knocked my ass up again. I’m two months.” Neicee put her head down and started going through her phone.
“Two months? Your ass don’t look pregnant at all. Does Peanut Know?”
“He doesn’t know because I just found out. I had no clue because I was still getting a period. I want to sneak and get an abortion but I know that I can’t do that to him or my baby.”
“I guess congratulations are in order. That’s my god baby though. Rose` already has Lil’ Peanut and you got Heaven; since I can’t have kids, I’ll deal with my God Baby.”
“Boo still making sure you take them pills.” We both laughed. Boo didn’t want any kids and he made sure I took them faithfully.
“Yeah. I’ve been having baby fever though being around you and Rose`. I’ve been thinking about telling him that I want to get off of them so that we can start a family, but I’m not even ready for that argument.” The car became silent as we continued to drive to Kim’s house.
“You know what, let’s turn around. I just want to go home with my son. I’m too much of a woman for this. I know that if I see some shit. I’m going to hurt him bad. My son doesn’t deserve for his mother to be sitting in jail behind his daddy. I’m good.”
I didn’t say anything. I just made a U-turn and dropped her off to her car and went home. I thought about her wanting to turn around. I knew she was scared because Peanut probably was with that bitch. I really hope he’s not still fucking with that girl. He and Neicee just got married. I know that this shit will crush her. Boo was still sleep when I made it back home, but I wasn’t even sleepy. I just laid in bed and contemplated if I wanted to get off the pill or not. Lord knows we’re arguing and fighting every other week. Can we really be parents to another human being?
The next day when we were out at Famous Dave’s for lunch, I decided to just lay it all on the table and see his thoughts about having a baby. I was glad he was high as a kite because he would be calmer while we were discussing it.
“I want to have a baby.” I got straight to the point; I wasn’t about to beat around the bush.
“Right now is not a good time.” He continued to eat like it was nothing.
“When will it be the right time Boo?”
“Can we not talk about this right now?” He spoke with a hint of anger in his voice, so I left it alone. Later that night I stood in the bathroom holding my birth control pills in my hand. I lifted the toilet seat and emptied them all in the toilet. I walked out the bathroom and laid in bed with him. Before I knew it he was on top of me. We usually wore condoms but this night he didn’t put one on. Hopefully, by the time we were finished I would be pregnant. Let me clarify something. I know that it might seem like I’m trying to trap him. I’m not doing this to get him to stay with me because if he decides to leave if I do get pregnant, that’s fine. I have no problem raising my child on my own. This is just something that I want for myself.
Chapter 7- Peanut
“I fucked up big time homie,” I said as I passed the blunt to Remy. He, Boo, and I sat around the warehouse counting the shipment that had just arrived before we distributed it to our workers. I had been putting in more work on the streets because I couldn’t bear to look at my wife.
“Just tell Neicee and get the shit over with Bro,” Remy said as he took a hit off the blunt and passed it to Boo.
“Hell naw. She’s going to kill his ass.” This nigga Boo always laughing like some shit funny.
“I’m worried about her feelings. How the fuck am I going to tell my wife that Kim has a daughter by me. Not to mention they were born on the same day and they’re the same age.” I laid my head back because this shit had been weighing heavy on my mind and heart. Neicee had accepted a lot of shit, but I know for certain she’s going to leave me after this. I love her ass and my son too. I know that she will never accept my daughter, Paris, simply because she hate
s Kim. I could never choose my wife over my seed. So I’m prepared for Neicee to walk away if she decided to. A nigga will be crushed but I have to deal with the shit that I created.
“You need to tell her yourself. You don’t want her to find that shit out on her own. It’s going to be worse on you.”
“Speaking of telling people shit did you tell Rose` about us going to Miami?”
“Not yet. I’m going to tell her tonight after Madear party. I’m not going to tell her about the bitch, Ava until I get a visual on that hoe with my own eyes. Rose` is still a little fragile and I don’t want her to get all worked up for nothing. Trust me I’m not even approaching the bitch without my wife being with me. I fucked up last time leaving her of the loop. I can’t make the same mistake twice.”
“I feel you.” We all dapped up each other and got ready to head over to Madear’s sixtieth birthday party. On the drive over I decided to tell Neicee when we made it home from the party. This shit was weighing heavily on me. I knew that I would feel a lot better when I got it off of my chest.
The party was in full swing when we finally arrived. The whole neighborhood was at the party; everybody loved her. She was like a grandmother to everybody that she came in contact with. I couldn’t do anything but smile as I watched her do the original Electric Slide. I love that crazy old lady with all my heart. She’s been so good to Boo and I since the death of our mother so many years ago. I know that she’s going to be mad when we tell her that she is moving because we bought her a new house in Miami. She is so stuck in her ways. We’re going to have to drag her out of here. I watched as my son noticed me and ran towards me with his hands up.
“What’s good son?” I asked as I picked him up and kissed him on the forehead.
“Move out of my way Boo! Where the fuck is Peanut’s ass at?” I cringed hearing Kim’s voice. I distinctly told this bitch not to come to this party. I turned around and this bitch was speed walking towards me with Paris on her hip. I looked around and everybody had stopped what they were doing. Even the DJ had stopped the music.
“Nephew strikes again,” Dino said as he pulled a lawn chair closer to where we were.
“Get the fuck out of here Kim before I beat your ass!”
“Da Da!” My daughter reached out to me and I had to grab her.
“I know motherfucking well you ain’t came to my house being messy.” Madear started walking towards us and I knew shit was about to get mad real.
“I’m tired of keeping my daughter a secret just so he can keep Neicee happy. My daughter deserves to come to family functions as well. She has every right to be around her family just like Neicee’s son.” Kim’s ass had started with the fake ass tears. Before I knew it Neicee, Honey, and Rose` had started jumping on Kim.
“You snake ass bitch!” Neicee said as they continued to fight Kim. The bitch ain’t have a chance once they got her ass on the ground. Rose` and Honey ended up stepping back and let Neicee dig in that ass. I know that I had no business letting my baby momma’s fight. I was just stuck.
“Break this shit up. These kids don’t need to see this.” Dino was now breaking up the fight along with Boo and Remy. I just stood there helpless because my kids were more important to me right now.
“Give me my motherfucking son. I swear if you know what’s good you will not come home. As a matter of fact take your ass to this bitch’s house.” She grabbed our son out of my hand and stormed out of the backyard. I was about to go after her but the bitch Kim stepped in front of me. I wanted to slap the fuck out of her for even coming here and starting all this bullshit.
“I can’t believe you let them bitches jump on me. All I wanted was for Paris to be a part of the family too. I’m sorry Madear for disrespecting your house. That was not my intention.
“Shut the fuck up with your stupid ass. You never should have come here.” I didn’t care about her getting her ass beat. She deserved that shit for playing with me, after I told her ass not to come here.
“I understand all that but this was not the place to reveal all of this. This is my house and your ass is not only being disrespectful to me but also to my granddaughter-in-law. You’re not fooling me with them crocodile ass tears. Your ass is here being messy. You had to know that you were walking into an ass whooping coming over here on bullshit. Please leave my home Kim. When the party is over, I’ll make sure your baby gets home after we cut the cake. Peanut show her the door and bring your ass in the house. This shit don’t make no sense. I don’t play this bullshit about my motherfucking house!” Madear walked away and went inside the house. I haven’t seen her this mad since she caught me fucking in her bed when I was sixteen.
“Go home Kim. I’ll call you and we can make arrangements for me to get Paris. As I told your hardheaded ass before today was not a good day. Yet, you showed up anyway.”
“Fuck you Peanut. You don’t ever have to worry about me or my daughter again. Get a good ass look at her because this is the last time you will ever see her again.” Kim tried to get in the car but I yoked her ass up quick. The only thing that kept me from smacking the shit out of her was my daughter crying.
“I will kill you dead bitch. Don’t play with me about my daughter. Take your ass home.” I kissed my daughter and strapped her inside of the car seat. I knew that I should have been going inside to talk to Madear, but I needed to talk to my wife first.
Chapter 8- Neicee
The entire drive to my house I was pissed the fuck off. I already knew some shit was going on between them so that part didn’t hurt. What hurt the most was seeing her daughter and knowing that she was his. She was his twin. The resemblance between her and my son was obvious as well. I was too damn mad to cry. Crying was the last thing I wanted to do. I was in a fit of rage as I drove home. I had totally blanked out and forgot I had my son with me. When we made it to the house, I put my son inside his room and put a movie on for him. The moment I went inside our bedroom I went crazy. I went inside his closet and I started ripping shit to shreds. One thing led to another and I had all his clothes inside of our bathroom. I went and found bleach and poured it on all of his shit. I took all his shoes and started cutting them bitches up. Whatever I didn’t destroy I flung out of the window. This nigga had me completely fucked up. I couldn’t believe this nigga had a baby with a bitch that I despised. How could he keep that shit from me? He has given everybody a reason to sit up and laugh at my ass. I know that bitch Kim is having a field day with this shit. That’s okay. We’ll see who gets the last laugh because I’m going to beat her ass each and every time I see her ass. I was so busy tearing up Peanut’s shit I never heard him come into the house.
“Really bitch!” Peanut came inside the room and looked at all the damage I had done.
“Get the fuck out my house and life. I’m done with your ass, you bitch ass nigga.” I rushed his ass and I started swinging. I honestly forgot I had the scissors in my hand. Peanut was blocking the blows and at the same time he was punching the shit out of me. I was in so much rage that I didn’t even see all the blood until Peanut fell back on the bed holding his chest. Not long after, Lil’ Peanut came in the room and was crying.
“Call the ambulance Neicee.”
“Oh my God! It was an accident.” I ran to the bed to grab him and that’s when I saw how bad he really was. I watched as his eyes started to roll in the back of his head. I started to scream and panic as I called for help. I sat on the bed and rocked Lil’ Peanut back and forth as Peanut laid in the bed moaning and groaning. Minutes later the police and ambulance arrived. I screamed and hollered as I watched them perform CPR on him.
“Oh my God! What happened to my baby?” I heard Madear screaming and hollering as her and the rest of the family ran towards me.
“I didn’t mean to. Get my baby. Please don’t let them take my baby!” I begged and pleaded as they put me in the back of the police car. I was relieved when I saw them give my baby to Madear. I know that she might hate me right now but she would
never do anything to my son. I cried as I watched Honey and Rose` crying, as they pulled away with me in the back seat. I felt my baby move for the first time. I guess he or she was reminding me that I was pregnant because I had actually forgot during the whole fiasco. As I sat in the backseat of the squad car, I prayed that Peanut was okay.
*****
I had been locked up at the county jail for the past two weeks. I had been charged with Domestic Battery and Aggravated Assault with a Weapon. I hadn’t had any visits except from my public defender. It was through her I found out that Peanut was in a coma and on a ventilator due to both of his lungs collapsing. It was still touch and go for now. She made me fully aware that the state was trying to upgrade my charges to Attempted Murder. Just thinking about what I’ve done to my family has me all fucked up in the head. My son had been on my mind heavy. I could imagine the trauma that he was experiencing after seeing his father bleeding to death and his mother being hauled off to jail.
I was in the dayroom when I was told that I had a visitor. I wondered who it could be because I haven’t had a visitor since I’ve been here. I was so happy when I sat down. It was Honey. I wished Rose` could have come to visit but she was on parole, so there was no way she could come and visit me. I wiped my tears away with my shirt as I sat down to speak with her.
“Don’t cry Neicee. Everything is going to be okay.”
“How is Peanut doing?”
“He’s fine. He woke up the other day.” I put my head down and breathed a sigh of relief.
“I feel so bad about this. Things happened so fast. I didn’t even realize he was hurt until he fell back on the bed and I noticed the blood.”
“Shhh!” Honey gestured for me to stop talking because they probably were listening to our conversation.
