How strong he was, and how insistent. Once again she thought what a dangerous man he was, and what a dangerous game she was playing. The thought served only to spur her own passion on, to build her fire higher and hotter.
She felt her body preparing itself for orgasm, felt the urge growing to abandon herself, to lose control utterly. But a portion of herself remained remote, aloof, and she let her arm hang over the side of the bed and reached for her purse, groped within it.
And found the knife.
Now she could relax, now she could give up, now she could surrender to what she felt. She opened her eyes, stared upward. His own eyes were closed as he thrust furiously at her. Open your eyes, she urged him silently. Open them, open them, look at me—
And it seemed that his eyes did open to meet hers, even as they climaxed together, even as she centered the knife over his back and plunged it unerringly into his heart.
Afterward, in her own apartment, she put his eyes in the box with the others.
Souls Burning
Bill Pronzini
Bill Pronzini’s “Nameless” detective books are among the two or three best private- eye novels being published in America. But hopefully “Nameless” will lead his readers to other aspects of his work as well, which include both some fine westerns and even finer suspense novels, the best of which, Snowbound , will soon be back in print from Dell.
First published in 1991.
Hotel Majestic, Sixth Street, downtown San Francisco. A hell of an address—a hell of a place for an ex-con not long out of Folsom to set up housekeeping. Sixth Street, south of Market—South of the Slot, it used to be called—is the heart of the city’s Skid Road and has been for more than half a century.
Eddie Quinlan. A name and a voice out of the past, neither of which I’d recognized when he called that morning. Close to seven years since I had seen or spoken to him, six years since I’d even thought of him. Eddie Quinlan. Edgewalker, shadow-man with no real substance or purpose, drifting along the narrow catwalk that separates conventional society from the underworld. Information seller, gofer, small-time bagman, doer of any insignificant job, legitimate or otherwise, that would help keep him in food and shelter, liquor and cigarettes. The kind of man you looked at but never really saw: a modern-day Yehudi, the little man who wasn’t there. Eddie Quinlan. Nobody, loser—fall guy. Drug bust in the Tenderloin one night six and a half years ago; one dealer setting up another, and Eddie Quinlan, small-time bagman, caught in the middle; hard-assed judge, five years in Folsom, good-bye Eddie Quinlan. And the drug dealers? They walked, of course. Both of them.
And now Eddie was out, had been out for six months. And after six months of freedom, he’d called me. Would I come to his room at the Hotel Majestic tonight around eight? He’d tell me why when he saw me. It was real important—would I come? All right, Eddie. But I couldn’t figure it. I had bought information from him in the old days, bits and pieces for five or ten dollars; maybe he had something to sell now. Only I wasn’t looking for anything and I hadn’t put the word out, so why pick me to call?
If you’re smart you don’t park your car on the street at night, South of the Slot. I put mine in the Fifth and Mission Garage at 7:45 and walked over to Sixth. It had rained most of the day and the streets were still wet, but now the sky was cold and clear. The kind of night that is as hard as black glass, so that light seems to bounce off the dark instead of shining through it; lights and their colors so bright and sharp reflecting off the night and the wet surfaces that the glare is like splinters against your eyes.
Friday night, and Sixth Street was teeming. Sidewalks jammed—old men, young men, bag ladies, painted ladies, blacks, whites, Asians, addicts, pushers, muttering mental cases, drunks leaning against walls in tight little clusters while they shared paper- bagged bottles of sweet wine and cans of malt liquor; men and women in filthy rags, in smart new outfits topped off with sunglasses, carrying ghetto blasters and red-and-white canes, some of the canes in the hands of individuals who could see as well as I could, and a hidden array of guns and knives and other lethal instruments. Cheap hotels, greasy spoons, seedy taverns, and liquor stores, complete with barred windows and cynical proprietors, that it stayed open well past midnight. Laughter, shouts, curses, threats; bickering and dickering. The stenches of urine and vomit and unwashed bodies and rotgut liquor, and over those like an umbrella, the subtle effluvium of despair. Predators and prey, half hidden in shadow, half revealed in the bright, sharp dazzle of fluorescent lights and bloody neon.
It was a mean street, Sixth, one of the meanest, and I walked it warily. I may be fifty-eight but I’m a big man and I walk hard, too; and I look like what I am. Two winos tried to panhandle me and a fat hooker in an orange wig tried to sell me a piece of her tired body, but no one gave me any trouble.
The Majestic was five stories of old wood and plaster and dirty brick, just off Howard Street. In front of its narrow entrance, a crack dealer and one of his customers were haggling over the price of a baggie of rock cocaine; neither of them paid any attention to me as I moved past them. Drug deals go down in the open
here, day and night. It’s not that the cops don’t care, or that they don’t patrol Sixth regularly; it’s just that the dealers outnumber them ten to one. On Skid Road any crime less severe than aggravated assault is strictly low priority.
Small, barren lobby: no furniture of any kind. The smell of ammonia hung in the air like swamp gas. Behind the cubbyhole desk was an old man with dead eyes that would never see anything they didn’t want to see. I said, “Eddie Quinlan,” and he said, “Two-oh-two” without moving his lips. There was an elevator but it had an Out of Order sign on it; dust speckled the sign. I went up the adjacent stairs.
The disinfectant smell permeated the second-floor hallway as well. Room 202 was just off the stairs, fronting on Sixth; one of the metal 2’s on the door had lost a screw and was hanging upside down. I used my knuckles just below it. Scraping noise inside, and a voice said, “Yeah?” I identified myself. A lock clicked, a chain rattled, the door wobbled open, and for the first time in nearly seven years I was looking at Eddie Quinlan.
He hadn’t changed much. Little guy, about five eight, and past forty now. Thin, nondescript features, pale eyes, hair the color of sand. The hair was thinner and the lines in his face were longer and deeper, almost like incisions where they bracketed his nose. Otherwise he was the same Eddie Quinlan.
“Hey,” he said, “thanks for coming. I mean it, thanks.”
“Sure, Eddie.”
“Come on in.”
The room made me think of a box—the inside of a huge rotting packing crate. Four bare walls with the scaly remnants of paper on them like psoriatic skin, bare uncarpeted floor, unshaded bulb hanging from the center of a bare ceiling. The bulb was dark; what light there was came from a low-wattage reading lamp and a wash of red-and-green neon from the hotel’s sign that spilled in through a single window. Old iron-framed bed, unpainted nightstand, scarred dresser, straight-backed chair next to the bed and in front of the window, alcove with a sink and toilet and no door, closet that wouldn’t be much larger than a coffin.
“Not much, is it,” Eddie said.
I didn’t say anything.
He shut the hall door, locked it. “Only place to sit is that chair there. Unless you want to sit on the bed? Sheets are clean. I try to keep things clean as I can.”
“Chair’s fine.”
I went across to it; Eddie put himself on the bed. A room with a view, he’d said on the phone. Some view. Sitting here you could look down past Howard and up across Mission—almost two full blocks of the worst street in the city. It was so close you could hear the beat of its pulse, the ugly sounds of its living and its dying.
“So why did you ask me here, Eddie? If it’s information for sale, I’m not buying right now.”
“No, no, nothing like that. I ain’t in the business anymore.”
“Is that right?”
“Prison
taught me a lesson. I got rehabilitated.” There was no sarcasm or irony in the words; he said them matter-of-factly. “I’m glad to hear it.”
“I been a good citizen ever since I got out. No lie. I haven’t had a drink, ain’t even been in a bar.”
“What are you doing for money?”
“I got a job,” he said. “Shipping department at a wholesale sporting goods outfit on Brannan. It don’t pay much, but it’s honest work.”
I nodded. “What is it you want, Eddie?”
“Somebody I can talk to, somebody who’ll understand—that’s all I want. You always treated me decent. Most of ’em, no matter who they were, they treated me like I wasn’t even human. Like I was a turd or something.”
“Understand what?”
“About what’s happening down there.”
“Where? Sixth Street?”
“Look at it,” he said. He reached over and tapped the window; stared through it. “Look at the people . . . there, you see that guy in the wheelchair and the one pushing him? Across the street there?”
I leaned closer to the glass. The man in the wheelchair wore a military camouflage jacket, had a heavy wool blanket across his lap; the black man manipulating him along the crowded sidewalk was thick-bodied, with a shiny bald head. “I see them.”
“White guy’s name is Baxter,” Eddie said. “Grenade blew up under him in ’Nam and now he’s a paraplegic. Lives right here in the Majestic, on this floor down at the end. Deals crack and smack out of his room. Elroy, the black dude, is his bodyguard and roommate. Mean, both of’ ‘em. Couple of months ago, Elroy killed a guy over on Minna that tried to stiff them. Busted his head with a brick. You believe it?”
“I believe it.”
“And they ain’t the worst on the street. Not the worst.”
“I believe that, too.”
“Before I went to prison I lived and worked with people like that and I never saw what they were. I mean I just never saw it. Now I do, I see it clear—every day walking back and forth to work, every night from up here. It makes you sick after a while, the things you see when you see ’em clear.”
“Why don’t you move?”
“Where to? I can’t afford no place better than this.”
“No better room, maybe, but why not another neighborhood? You don’t have to live on Sixth Street.”
“Wouldn’t be much better, any other neighborhood I could buy into. They’re all over the city now, the ones like Baxter and Elroy. Used to be it was just Skid Road and the Tenderloin and the ghettos. Now they’re everywhere, more and more every day. You know?”
“I know.”
“Why? It don’t have to be this way, does it?”
Hard times, bad times: alienation, poverty, corruption, too much government, not enough government, lack of social services, lack of caring, drugs like a cancer destroying society. Simplistic explanations that were no explanations at all and as dehumanizing as the ills they described. I was tired of hearing them and I didn’t want to repeat them, to Eddie Quinlan or anybody else. So I said nothing.
He shook his head. “Souls burning everywhere you go,” he said, and it was as if the words hurt his mouth coming out. Souls burning. “You find religion at Folsom, Eddie?”
“Religion? I don’t know, maybe a little. Chaplain we had there, I talked to him sometimes. He used to say that about the hard- timers, that their souls were burning and there wasn’t nothing he could do to put out the fire. They were doomed, he said, and they’d doom others to burn with ’em.”
I had nothing to say to that, either. In the small silence a voice from outside said distinctly, “Dirty bastard, what you doin’ with my pipe?” It was cold in there, with the hard bright night pressing against the window. Next to the door was a rusty steam radiator, but it was cold, too; the heat would not be on more than a few hours a day, even in the dead of winter, in the Hotel Majestic.
“That’s the way it is in the city,” Eddie said. “Souls burning. All day long, all night long, souls on fire.”
“Don’t let it get to you.”
“Don’t it get to you?”
“Yes. Sometimes.”
He bobbed his head up and down. “You want to do something, you know? You want to try to fix it somehow, put out the fires. There has to be a way.”
“I can’t tell you what it is,” I said.
He said, “If we all just did something. It ain’t too late. You don’t think it’s too late?”
“No.”
“Me neither. There’s still hope.”
“Hope, faith, blind optimism—sure.”
“You got to believe,” he said, nodding. “That’s all, you just got to believe.”
Angry voices rose suddenly from outside; a woman screamed, thin and brittle. Eddie came off the bed, hauled up the window sash. Chill damp air and street noises came pouring in: shouts, cries, horns honking, cars whispering on the wet pavement, a Muni bus clattering along Mission; more shrieks. He leaned out, peering downward.
“Look,” he said. “Look.”
I stretched forward and looked. On the sidewalk below, a hooker in a leopard-skin coat was running wildly toward Howard; she was the one doing the yelling. Chasing behind her, tight black skirt hiked up over the tops of net stockings and hairy thighs, was a hideously rouged transvestite waving a pocket knife. A group of winos began laughing and chanting “Rape! Rape!” as the hooker and the transvestite ran zigzagging out of sight on Howard.
Eddie pulled his head back in. The flickery neon wash made his face seem surreal, like a hallucinogenic vision. “That’s the way it is,” he said sadly. “Night after night, day after day.”
With the window open, the cold was intense; it penetrated my clothing and crawled on my skin. I’d had enough of it, and of this room and Eddie Quinlan and Sixth Street.
“Eddie, just what is it you want from me?”
“I already told you. Talk to somebody who understands how it is down there.”
“Is that the only reason you asked me here?”
“Ain’t it enough?”
“For you, maybe.” I got to my feet. “I’ll be going now.”
He didn’t argue. “Sure, you go ahead.”
“Nothing else you want to say?”
“Nothing else.” He walked to the door with me, unlocked it, and then put out his hand. “Thanks for coming. I appreciate it, I really do.”
“Yeah. Good luck, Eddie.”
“You, too,” he said. “Keep the faith.”
I went out into the hall, and the door shut gently and the lock clicked behind me.
Downstairs, out of the Majestic, along the mean street and back to the garage where I’d left my car. And all the way I kept thinking: There’s something else, something more he wanted from me . . . and I gave it to him by going there and listening to him. But what? What did he really want?
I found out later that night. It was all over the TV—special bulletins and then the eleven o’clock news.
Twenty minutes after I left him, Eddie Quinlan stood at the window of his room-with-a-view, and in less than a minute, using a high-powered semiautomatic rifle he’d taken from the sporting goods outfit where he worked, he shot down fourteen people on the street below. Nine dead, five wounded, one of the wounded in critical condition and not expected to live. Six of the victims were known drug dealers; all of the others also had arrest records, for crimes ranging from prostitution to burglary. Two of the dead were Baxter, the paraplegic ex-Vietnam vet, and his bodyguard, Elroy.
By the time the cops showed up, Sixth Street was empty except for the dead and the dying. No more targets. And up in his room, Eddie Quinlan had sat on the bed and put the rifle’s muzzle in his mouth and used his big toe to pull the trigger.
My first reaction was to blame myself. But how could I have known or even guessed? Eddie Quinlan. Nobody, loser, shadow- man without substance or purpose. How could anyone have figured him for a thing like that?
Somebody I can t
alk to, somebody who I understand—that’s all I want.
No. What he’d wanted was somebody to help him justify to himself what he was about to do. Somebody to record his verbal suicide note. Somebody he could trust to pass it on afterward, tell it right and true to the world.
You want to do something, you know ? You want to try to fix it somehow, put out the fires. There has to be a way.
Nine dead, five wounded, one of the wounded in critical condition and not expected to live. Not that way.
Souls burning. All day long, all night long, souls on fire.
The soul that had burned tonight was Eddie Quinlan’s.
A Handgun
For Protection
John Lutz
John Lutz is one of those easygoing writers whose work sort of sneaks up on you. His SWF Seeks Same was the best urban horror novel of 1991, and his novel Bonegrinder remains one of the most unsettling books ever written. He’s also author of Bloodfire, a piece of virtuoso action writing.
First published in 1974.
I had to have her. Lani Sundale was her name, and for the past three Saturday nights I’d sat at the corner of the bar in the Lost Beach Lounge and listened to her talk to her friends—another girl, a blonde—and a tall, husky guy with graying hair and bushy eyebrows. Once there was an older woman with a lot of jewelry who acted like she was the gray haired guy’s wife. They’d sit and drink and gab to each other about nothing in particular, and I’d sit working on my bourbon and water, watching her reflection in the back bar mirror.
It wasn’t until the second Saturday night, when she got a telephone call, that I learned her name, but even before that I was—well, let’s say committed.
Lani was a dark haired, medium-height, liquid motion girl, shapely and a little heavier than was the style, like a woman should be. But with her face she didn’t need her body. She really got to me right off: high cheekbones, upturned nose, and slightly parted, pouty little red lips, as if she’d just been slapped. Then she had those big dark eyes that kind of looked deep into a guy and asked questions. And from time to time she’d look up at me in the mirror and smile like it just might mean something.
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