His Baby: A Babycrazy Romance

by Cassandra Dee

  “Because she wanted to be with you,” I bite out. “She cared for you. She wanted to be the mother of your child. But you left her behind.”

  The silence in the living room is deafening for a moment.

  “We had to move on,” Sam says finally. “Having an heir is the cornerstone of our long-term strategy. We enjoyed the woman, and spent a lot of money and time trying to make it work. But she couldn’t get pregnant,” he concludes simply.

  That got me. Calling Heather “the woman.” Spelling out her role in their “strategy.” What the hell? That was rich, real rich, striking to the heart of the problem like a dart on a bullseye.

  And I had to take a stand for feminism. For the things I believe in. Sure, I’m not Ms. Corporate Titan, but at the same time, people are people and deserve to be treated with respect.

  “A woman is not a business plan. A baby is not a business plan. I am not a business plan,” I say tightly, standing and clenching my fists into white-knuckled balls. “These are human beings you’re talking about, people with hopes, feelings and desires. Heather is a person – a person who’s hurting because of you and your master plan. You don’t feel anything for her? Really? Not anything?”

  A pause once more.

  “We do care for her,” Matt says slowly. “We pay for her lifestyle, the house, the car, everything. Heather’s set up for life.”

  The air leaves my lungs in a whoosh. The Morgans really have no idea what’s wrong in this scenario. No clue whatsoever.

  “That’s not it,” I say tightly, “She misses you, and it’s gonna kill her. Heather was the center of your universe for years and then – poof! – you’re gone. That’s bullshit and you know it. Money doesn’t make up for that.”

  For the first time in a long time, all seven Morgan brothers are quiet. There’s no posturing, no arguing, no ordering. They’re just quiet, stares trained on me. I get a hold of myself, jerking my robe tight before starting for the second floor, ready to retreat to my room.

  But as my slipper touches the first step, Sam’s deep voice sounds from across the room.

  “It wasn’t great what we did, you’re right,” comes his baritone.

  My head swivels like the girl in the Exorcist, almost flying off my shoulders. I stare in shock. Really? An admission of error? Acknowledgment of a mistake? From the Morgans? This can’t be happening.

  But he nods slowly.

  “We care about Heather,” interrupts Tim. “We absolutely cared about her, all the way until the end. But you have to understand Macy. We wanted something, and she couldn’t provide. This isn’t a question of money or wealth or any of that other shit. The biological urge for a child is real, and infertility is devastating. Even for happily married couples, it can wreck a relationship.”

  My mouth snaps shut. That’s true. I’ve read articles about how infertility is a silent killer, devastating marriages because of dreams destroyed, visions of a family vanished into thin air. But still, it didn’t make sense.

  “Break ups are break ups,” come my slow words, head shaking. “But this girl, she’s different. She’s wrecked. Absolutely wrecked, just a shadow of a human being now. And she says you did that to her.”

  The men nod.

  “She’s having a hard time, for sure,” says Smith, expressionless. “It was bound to happen.”

  “Bound to happen?” I guffaw. “Why is that?”

  Sam’s blue eyes are intent.

  “Because she was at the center of a vortex. There were seven of us, and just one her. The feelings are magnified, emotions running like electrical currents all the time. Any woman would be broken once that current is shut down.”

  But I shake my head again.

  “I get it, sort of,” come my slow words. “But still, it’s crazy. Heather was a shell, nothing more than a living, breathing corpse. Is there something you can do for her?”

  Silence once more.

  “Are you sure that’s what you want?” says Trent smoothly. “Most women don’t want their lovers to have any contact with exes.”

  “It’s a bad idea,” interrupts Smith, voice harsh. “This is a fucked-up idea if there was ever one.”

  But my head nods slowly.

  “Listen,” I say, taking a deep breath. “I want to help Heather, if we can. Ex or no ex. Somehow, I want her to be okay. Or at least better than she is now. But there’s still this question about me ….” The words falter on my lips.

  Suddenly, all seven men are on full alert.

  “And?” comes Trent’s raspy question. “And what about you, Macy?”

  I’m not sure what to say then. But I have to tell them of my uncertainties.

  “I don’t know,” come my slow words, jerking my robe tighter around my waist. The air is heavy now, filling my lungs, making it difficult to breathe. “I just don’t know anymore. Meeting her, realizing that I’m just a cog, it’s disturbing.”

  “Not that disturbing,” bites Tim. “We’re all pawns in a master game.”

  I shake my head slowly.

  “Yes, there’s a master game, and that’s called life. But I want to be more than a pawn,” come my words. “It’s not enough just to be a vessel, someone who’s going to have your kid. I have to be more than that, even if I can’t deliver.”

  The men are silent then. What are they going to say?

  But no words come. Instead, they merely look at me, contemplative, blue eyes taking in everything.

  Oh god, have I miscalculated? Have I thrown the best thing that ever happened to me away? And all on the word of a sick girl?

  But I had to say it. I had to tell them the truth, that I don’t know what’s going to happen now. And turning to the side, my shoulders hunch, taking the steps one by one like a frail old lady.

  Because the Morgans’ spell is already cast, writhing and twisting with devilish green light. If I don’t get a dose of goodness, a fresh shot of vitality and energy, I’m gonna end up just like Heather. Dead to the world. A pale, waxen figure, with raccoon eyes and a mind living in the past.

  I won’t let that happen to me, I refuse. But what next? I’m a teen girl living in a luxury apartment with seven men. They pay all my bills. I’ve dropped out of college, my parents barely talk to me anymore. I’m caught in their web, and there’s no escape. Slowly, my limbs move into bed, arms and legs stiff, soul numb.

  Because I love them still. I crave their bodies, the incredible energy that emanates from the alpha males. So it’s hard to reconcile what I witnessed today with the powerful billionaires. Or maybe that’s the thing. They’re powerful billionaires because of their innate ruthlessness, the way they take what’s theirs with no mercy.

  And turning my face into the pillow, hot tears begin to roll, staining my cheeks before dropping wetly into the soft cloth. Because I love the brothers so much … and yet there’s no path forwards now.

  CHAPTER FOURTEEN

  Macy

  The boys are gone for the day by the time I manage to talk myself out of bed. There are no notes of apology. No flowers. Not that I’d have expected any. These are the Morgan brothers, so I don’t expect them to act like awkward teen boys, tripping over their feet. But still, it would be nice.

  Hauling myself out of bed, my feet stumble downstairs. I’m a mess for sure, and decide to make some scrambled eggs to start the day. The runny yolk always makes me hungry, but this time, the opposite happens. Looking at the dark yellow slime, my stomach heaves and then bleeeeech! Vomit splatters in the sink, green and brown and ugly. Oh god, oh god. It must be true. I must be pregnant.

  After some dry toast and a ginger ale, I haul on some sweats. There’s no sense in hanging out here any longer. I’m not gonna cook, I’m just going to mope and drive myself to new levels of confusion, locked in this beautiful apartment. So instead, I drive myself to Grandma Patty’s house.

  As usual, the old woman takes one look at the bird’s nest on my head, the sleepless, haunted eyes, and sits me on her petite floral sofa
with the lumpy stuffing.

  “What’s wrong honey?” she says, stroking my curls. “What’s wrong?”

  And the story comes boiling out then, interspersed with sobs, violent cries, and gallons of hot tears. I lay my head on her shoulder and tell her about Heather. How she was a shell of a woman, a scarecrow with barely any life force because of the Morgans.

  “They just left her, Grandma Patty. She used to be healthy and beautiful and they turned her into dust. It makes me sick,” my voice wails. “What do I do?”

  My grandmother takes my hands in hers and looks at me thoughtfully. “It’s hard to say,” she replies. “I’m an old woman,” she begins slowly, eyes faraway. “These new-fangled situations are strange to me. Seven men? This Heather woman was with seven men?”

  Now it’s time for the big admission.

  “Nana,” I say slowly, blinking my eyes hard to stop the tears. “I’m not sure if you heard me. Or even if you heard me, I want to make it crystal clear. It’s not just her. It’s me too. I’m with seven men, Nana, I’m in love with seven men. It’s wrong, it’s awful, because they’ve turned out to be monsters! So what do I do? What do I dooooo?”

  The pathetic wail is terrible, ringing loudly in the living room of my grandma’s small cottage. But I can’t help the despair and fresh tears flow once more, choking me. “What do I do?” are my broken words. “What happens now?”

  Nana is kind, patting my hand, those withered fingers soft.

  “Seven is different,” she says slowly. “Back when I was a girl, even two or three was a lot.”

  “Two or three?” I gasp. Never in my wildest dreams would I have guessed that Nana knew something about ménage.

  But my grandma’s eyes spark mischievously.

  “Oh sure,” she murmurs. “I was around during the Sixties, honey. It was all swingers and free love, expressing your true self. You have to remember that in those times, society was breaking free, shaking off its chains. Young people didn’t want to be held back, so I saw it all,” she winks.

  I nod slowly. That makes some sense

  “But I always thought you were family-oriented,” I say slowly. “Like raising Mom and all that.”

  “Who said I’m not family-oriented?” asks Nana playfully. “You can have a family and also have a life. There are lots of ways to be happy.”

  And words escape me then. What is Nana saying? What is she hinting at?

  Patty can tell I’m confused, and continues.

  “Back to you, honey,” she says candidly. “It’s not as if the Morgans lied. They were honest with Heather about the terms of the relationship, and about what they needed from her.”

  Again, I’m dumbstruck.

  “What?” I exclaim. “They left her for not being able to have a child. She has nothing now. The woman’s like death warmed over.”

  Patty pulls her expression into a wry look, lips twisting slightly.

  “I don’t know about that,” she says slowly. “I’ve lived a long time, seen a lot of things in this world, and through it all, I’ve learned that nothing is black and white. Nothing is totally right or totally wrong, because there are always shades of grey. Those men have all agreed that they want to share the responsibility of parenting one child, of loving one woman. It’s non-traditional, to be sure, but it’s their choice to make for their own lives. And that young woman knew what they wanted when she embarked on that particular journey.”

  I sit back in my seat, laying my head against the couch and closing my eyes to keep from crying.

  “They mutilated her with all those treatments,” I cry desperately. “She’s a skeleton. There isn’t much left of her, all because of what they did.”

  A slight giggle escapes from my grandma, and I bolt up straight on the lumpy couch.

  “It’s not funny,” comes my voice tightly. “If you saw what I saw, you’d have second thoughts too.”

  But Nana is unperturbed.

  “Oh honey, don’t be so dramatic,” she admonishes. “Mutilated? That seems a little far out. After all, Heather did it willingly, yes? She wasn’t tied down and forced to go through the fertility treatments, right? No one told her to stop living altogether.”

  “I gu- guess not,” comes my stammer.

  Patty clucks then.

  “See? She had a choice. And so did they. They tried and tried and when they found out that what they wanted was impossible, the men moved on. Furthermore, it sounds like they tried to do right by her.”

  “No, that’s not it,” I say slowly. “What the Morgans did to her was wrong. They left her with nothing.”

  “Nothing by whose standards?” Patty asks sharply. I open my eyes to see her raising an eyebrow at me. “They bought her a house, a nice one at that, and furnished it. The men pay her bills, her bank account’s overflowing. How many women have all that? Not many. If you ask me, I think this Heather woman needs to suck it up and move on.”

  What? That’s some straight talk and my head whirls.

  “I’m not sure,” comes my stammer. Could my grandma be right? “I’m not sure,” come my weak words once more.

  But Patty is adamant.

  “They couldn’t give themselves anymore,” Patty says. “So they gave what they could. They tried, and that’s what counts.”

  I sit, stunned and silent. My grandmother has seen a world war. She was on the front lines for women’s rights in the workplace. To hear her take the Morgans’ side is flabbergasting and downright strange.

  “Nana,” I try again, taking a deep breath. “Even if I can get past this, what if I can’t give them the baby they want? Will I end up banished somewhere? Wasting away? Forgetting who I was before they came along?”

  Patty gives me a keen, eagle-eyed appraisal. “I’m pretty sure that’s not going to be an issue, now is it?”

  I turn sharply, sucking in a shocked breath.

  “What?”

  But Patty nods knowingly.

  “I’d say you’re a couple of months along, sweetheart, so it seems like your fears are unfounded. Am I right?”

  My nod is soundless, eyes wide, almost daring not to breathe.

  “It’s the glow, darlin’,” Patty chuckles. “I’ve been around a long line of pregnant ladies in my years and I can see it from a mile away. Your skin is bright; your hair is shiny. Expectant mothers just glow.”

  Tears prick at my lashes. Patty puts her hands on my shoulders and looks me dead in the eye now.

  “This world is complicated and messy sometimes,” she says seriously. “People have agendas, they play politics. They mess with each other to be cruel, or to get ahead. But those boys have been honest with you. They were honest with that Heather. And due to no fault of her own, she lost the men she loved. Sometimes things don’t work out. But that’s just life, and you have to live your best one. Yours, not hers.”

  But that can’t be true. This is my business. This is how I’ll be treated if I can’t produce.

  “I don’t agree,” come my slow words. “This is everything to me.”

  Patty looks at me closely then, weighing her words carefully now.

  “Honey, I never wanted to say this, but you’re not turning out to be very smart.”

  At that, I jump in my seat, literally jerking backwards until my head bumps the wall painfully.

  “What?” I gasp, eyes wide, whirling on my grandma. “What?” Nana’s never called me names before.

  “Just sayin’,” she shrugs her thin shoulders. “I thought you were different from Marsha, but you’re not showing any promise.”

  “What?” my voice almost screeches now. “What are you talking about?” It’s a nightmare to be compared to my mother.

  “Haven’t you heard of leaving the past in the past?” Patty says forcefully now. “Move on! This woman is in their past. If I had a dime for every ex your grandfather had, I’d be a millionaire.”

  I bite my lip. Of course. I shouldn’t be digging in my lovers’ romantic history, but still. />
  “Okay,” I say tightly. “Okay, I’ll try to put it behind me.”

  “That’s right,” says Patty, nodding her head with approval. “You can’t help Heather anymore. And she shouldn’t be your business.”

  Man, that’s an honest way of putting it. Slowly, I nod my head once. But Patty’s not done yet.

  “Besides, you seem to be using them as well,” she tosses out casually, cocking her head once more. “You know, using goes both ways honey.”

  I bolt up straight once more.

  “What?” the shocked gasp escapes my lips. “What in the world? Of course I’m not using them!” comes my outraged sputter.

  Because has Patty gone insane? What’s with these accusations and finger-pointing? I came to her house looking for comfort, not to be hurled into the fire.

  But Nana continues.

  “You’re using them too, honey,” she says calmly. “And you and I both know it.”

  That’s not true.

  “How am I using them?” I demand, hands balled on my hips. “How am I, a teen girl, using seven men? That’s preposterous,” is my vehement statement.