by Joyce Alec
“Wait!” Esther said, a thought suddenly coming to her. “What about your son, Lord Heber?”
“What about him?”
"He is friends with the Duke, what if he should recognize me?"
Agnes waved her concern away. “Bernard never looks twice at any servant here, except perhaps his valet. You need not concern yourself about that.”
Esther took a deep breath. "Society will not be inclined to welcome me back," she said, almost to herself. "If I do such a thing, there will be a lot of talk."
"All the more reason to do it," Agnes replied stoutly. "Lord Thompson will surely not wish to marry a wayward daughter with a stained reputation."
“Yes, that is true. However, it also means that other men will have reservations in courting me,” said Esther.
“Well, the choice is yours, Esther.”
Esther nodded. Agnes’s scheme was her best option. She did not want to marry Lord Thompson. She would be looked on with disgrace by society should the truth ever come out, but she didn’t care about her reputation in that moment.
“Very well,” she said, seeing the gleam in her godmother’s eye. “I shall return tomorrow, and we shall go to meet the Duke. I do hope you know what you’re doing.”
Her godmother clapped her hands together. “Excellent, my dear,” she grinned. “It shall all work out in the end, you will see!”
Esther nodded, trying to push away the feeling of impending doom.
The following day found Esther once more at Agnes’s door. She had brought nothing with her, for fear of raising her father’s suspicion. He had been in his study all morning, and she had not seen him. Esther knew that he expected her to fall in line with his demands as she had always done, but the idea of marrying Lord Thompson could simply not be borne. A part of her wished that she could have kissed him goodbye, but she knew even that would have alerted him to her change in demeanor. It was not a risk she could take. Despite everything, she still loved her father, even though he didn’t respect her choices.
“Come in, child, come in!” Agnes called as the butler led Esther to Agnes’s bedchamber. “I am quite prepared for you.”
Wishing she had even half of her godmother's eagerness, Esther tried on various dresses, all in differing shades of gray or brown. They had high collars and were the most modest dresses she had ever worn.
"Perfectly suitable for a housekeeper," Agnes commented while studying Esther.
Esther simply nodded, feeling cold with fright. She had no qualms about her ability to run a household, but Esther was frightfully nervous about her behavior. Her ingrained manners and lack of ability to drop her gaze as a servant were proving to be difficult mannerisms to change.
“Clasp your hands and gaze at his boots, whenever the Duke is speaking to you,” her godmother said, looking over her with a critical eye. “Yes, that’s right. Now,” she continued, looking at Esther’s ornately designed locks. “We shall have to do something about your hair.”
“My hair?” Esther exclaimed, pressing a hand to her head. “What do you mean?”
"Nothing serious," her godmother replied, pressing her into a chair. "We just need to ensure you can put your hair into a style suitable for a housekeeper." She brushed Esther's long hair, the fair color of her tresses catching the light. "You will need to wear it like this every day," she replied, putting it into a simple bun. "Another way is to cut it and then tie it up. Whatever way you choose, you must be able to do such things yourself for there will be no one to help you."
“I understand,” Esther replied, glad she could do both of those hairstyles easily. “I will have to simply try my best, Agnes.”
“You shall do magnificently,” her godmother replied with a smile. “Now, you look the part, and we have everything you need here.” She gestured to a large bag. “Are you ready to depart?”
“We are going immediately?” Esther replied, feeling nausea rise in her stomach. “I don’t even have time to get used to the idea?”
"You've had a lot of time already," her godmother replied, practical as ever. "Now is time to take hold of your new future. I am sure the Duke will be vastly pleased with my selection." She grinned, hugging her goddaughter, trying to push the fear from her eyes. "You know that you will always have a home here with me," she whispered. "No matter what happens."
“Thank you, Godmother,” Esther replied, feeling a lump in her throat. “I shall miss you.”
“And I shall miss you,” came the reply. After a moment, Agnes pulled back, giving herself a small shake. “Let us go.”
4
Ah, Lady Heber, how lovely to see you.”
“Good afternoon, Duke,” Agnes replied, walking confidently into his study. Esther remained at the door as Agnes had instructed, keeping her head bowed and not even glancing at the Duke.
Amos replied, kissing Lady Heber’s hand. “You must not wait so long in between your visits.”
"Indeed," Agnes laughed, sitting down in a comfortable chair. "You and Bernard have certainly had a long-standing friendship."
Agnes smiled at him fondly, recalling how, as a boy, he had run around their estate in the country. The Duke’s estate bordered their own, so Bernard and Amos had spent much of their childhood together. They had even gone to Eton at around the same time, and their friendship had become kinship. They were like brothers.
“I am grateful to you for finding me a replacement so quickly,” Amos continued, not even glancing at Esther. “The house has been in turmoil since yesterday morning.”
“I’m sure,” Agnes agreed, hoping that Esther would be able to take a firm hand over proceedings. “Why did you have to let her go? That’s been two in the last six weeks, has it not?”
Amos looked a little uncomfortable. “I admit that both were a little of my own doing. I have, as you know, something of a reputation.” He lowered his voice so that Esther could no longer hear a single word of what he said.
“Your Grace!” Agnes gasped, trying not to throw a worried glance in Esther’s direction. “You didn’t!”
“Of course not, of course not!” Amos replied, hastily. “However, it appears that they were given the distinct impression that I might be interested in them, in that sense.”
“Well, I can assure you that this one will certainly not be seeking such a thing,” Agnes said, firmly, thinking of Esther’s high moral character. “She is a good woman, well-trained, and able to run your household to perfection.”
“I am glad to hear it,” Amos said, relieved. “Let us meet her!”
“Ahem…” Agnes coughed, beckoning Esther over. “This is the Duke of Hawdon. Your Grace, this is Mrs. Mary Edwards."
Agnes and Esther chose the name, Mary Edwards, using Esther's middle name and her mother's maiden name. The staff and the Duke would refer to her as Mrs. Edwards, even though she was unmarried. It was the same for every housekeeper.
“Mrs. Edwards, is it?” Amos asked, looking her up and down. “Welcome. I am sure that if Lady Heber has recommended you, then you must be both competent and efficient.”
Amos did not smile, wishing that he had not felt a sudden attraction towards her. He always had a penchant for blonde hair, even though the woman had hers tied back into a neat bun. Her green eyes were intense, looking directly into his before suddenly dropping to the floor, as a slight blush tinged her cheek.
“You will be able to run my household well and keep my staff in check?” he asked.
“Yes, Your Grace,” Esther replied, remembering that she was now a servant and should never look the master directly in the eye. It had been her first mistake and one she would struggle not to repeat.
Amos fought against himself. He needed a new housekeeper, but he had been hoping for a plain, and perhaps slightly corpulent, housekeeper. He was not prepared for this blonde-haired young woman, whose curves were not altogether hidden within the folds of her dress. He bit back a sigh of frustration. He needed someone to run the household with competency. Agnes would
only recommend someone who she believed could do a good job.
“Very well,” Amos said, his hazel eyes serious. “I shall give you the keys at once, and you will have the remainder of the day to make yourself accustomed to the house and your duties. Make sure to introduce yourself to the rest of the staff, and remember that they will all be under your authority. I shall take any concerns you have to be of the utmost severity.” He coughed, trying to think of a way to be both frank and direct. "What you may not know, Mrs. Edwards is that I have somewhat of a reputation in society."
Esther did not move but raised her eyebrows a little in surprise. What sort of man was he?
“I would like you to make it abundantly clear to the maids—from the kitchen maids to the chamber maids—that I am not looking for a physical liaison with any of them. That includes you.”
“Your Grace!” Agnes said, startled. “This woman would never even consider—”
“Forgive me, Lady Heber,” Amos said, interrupting her. “I need to be unambiguous which is why I am speaking so openly.” He turned back to his new housekeeper. “Have I made myself clear?”
"I understand, Your Grace," Esther replied, her voice soft. She felt her cheeks heating and wished she could hide her embarrassment from him. The man was handsome enough, but she would never force herself on a man. "I will make sure the maids are aware of this also," she continued, her voice becoming a little firmer. "I am sure none of them wish to be turned out without a reference."
Forgetting her role, she looked him in the eye once more, her mouth set in a firm line. What kind of Duke allowed himself to get tangled up with not one, but two housekeepers? She assumed that was why he was now short of a housekeeper, having not heard the Duke's previous conversation with Agnes. Her measure of him fell quite short. She would do her job, take on her role, and hide from her father until the threat of marriage to Lord Thompson had passed. But she would not go near this man for anything other than her duties. He could be quite sure that she would not be anything like his previous housekeepers.
“Thank you,” Amos murmured, quite taken with the intensity of her gaze. Normally he would have been ruffled by a servant looking at him so directly, but on this occasion, he felt nothing but a sudden interest. She was clearly measuring him up, and by the look of distaste on her face, she had found him wanting. Mentally shrugging, he came around from behind his desk and handed her a set of keys.
"Here you are," he said, almost grandly. "You will find the back staircase along the corridor and to your left. I shall look forward to my household being back in order once more. I have written out simple instructions for you that you will find in your room. If you have any questions, please ask the butler or me."
"Thank you, Your Grace," Esther replied, turning to leave the room.
She wished she could hug her godmother goodbye, but knew she could not. She contented herself with a small smile, directed at Agnes, who returned it with one of her own. She knew Agnes wished her well, and it would not be long before she saw her again; she was sure of it. Making her way to the back stairs, Esther took a deep breath. From now on, she must be Mrs. Edwards, housekeeper to the Duke of Hawdon.
5
The next few days passed with little to concern Amos. He had met once with Esther to tell her exactly what he expected. After that, he saw neither sight nor sound of his housekeeper. She had obviously spoken to the other servants, as his favorite meals were prepared and his home was in perfect order, as it had been when his mother lived at the estate.
According to his valet, Mrs. Edwards was quite the house manager. Quiet, but efficient, the staff had immediately taken to her, and the house ran efficiently. He felt relieved. Perhaps Mrs. Edwards would be the answer to his prayers after all.
Esther, on the other hand, had struggled with tiredness and her quiet demeanor. It had been a challenge to get all of the maids to respect her given her youth, but after the threat of dismissal, they all came around. She worked hard from before dawn until the late evening, sometimes even into the early hours of the morning. It was hard work, but not once did she regret her decision. She hoped she would grow hardier as she worked and that the weariness she felt would not always be so all-consuming.
“Duke!”
“Heber? Come in!” Amos grinned at his friend entering his study. “A little early in the day for you, isn’t it?”
Bernard scowled, “At my mother’s insistence, I have become reformed. Rising before noon, even!” He let out a long, painful sigh. “Apparently, I am to find a wife.”
“Ah, back to her old schemes, is she?”
“It is the time of year,” Bernard acknowledged. “Mother always wishes for me to find a bride come the start of every summer. Although, she has begun a little late this year.”
Amos chuckled, seeing the morose face of his friend. “Surely, Heber, it cannot be that bad. There must be some lady who catches your eye.”
“They are all too young for a bachelor of my age,” he sighed. “I am well over thirty, and the youngest ladies are but seventeen. Just out of the schoolroom, by my estimation. That has not dissuaded my mother, of course.”
Amos replied, "Come now, many marriages with significant age differences take place. Consider your own parents."
“I have,” Bernard replied quickly. “That is precisely why I will not do it. My father died an old man, leaving my mother alone and in perfect health. I should not like to do that to my own bride.”
“How romantic,” Amos quipped drolly. “I know. I shall host a dinner party here on Friday. I will invite a number of eligible ladies—not all newly out, I assure you—and you can see if anyone sparkles enough to capture your interest.”
“Very well,” Bernard replied, leaning back in his chair and folding his arms. “It may put mother off haranguing me for a while.”
“I shall invite her as well,” Amos replied. “I will have to speak to the housekeeper to ensure she has adequate time to prepare." He pulled the bell.
“Have you heard the latest?” Bernard asked, changing the subject entirely. “It appears that Lord Bertram’s daughter has gone missing.”
“Missing?” Amos echoed, searching through his desk for a piece of paper with which he could begin to scribble a guest list. “When?”
“Only recently, it appears,” Bernard continued, nonchalantly. “There is no suggestion that she has run off with someone for, by all accounts, she was to marry Lord Thompson.”
Amos’s mouth fell open. “Lord Thompson? The man is practically as old as her father, surely? I have never met the lady, but I do know her father.”
Bernard shrugged. “I don’t believe it was a love match by any means.”
“It does not sound like it!” Amos interjected, wondering how a man could do such a thing to his daughter. “That man is vile; it is no wonder she has run away.”
"You believe she has run away from home then?"
A knock on the door interrupted Bernard, and Amos called to allow the housekeeper entry before turning his attention back to Bernard.
“Of course! Any woman would run away from such a prospect. Lord Thompson, indeed!”
A sudden gasp interrupted his thoughts, and he turned to see his housekeeper's face drained of color.
“Mrs. Edwards! Are you quite all right?”
Esther struggled to regain her composure, hiding her shaking hands in the folds of her skirts. “Quite, Your Grace. It was just the mention of Lord Thompson that quite startled me.”
“An old employer, I imagine,” Bernard said, not looking at the woman. “Quite a brute, by all respects.”
Not knowing what to say, Esther simply nodded.
“This is Lord Heber, Mrs. Edwards,” Amos interrupted. “You shall see him often, but he needs no special treatment. He has practically taken up residence here.” He winked, and Esther struggled not to blush.
“Regardless, Duke,” Bernard continued, ignoring Amos’s well-placed jibe, “The lady is missing, and her father is
apparently desperate for her return.”
“I can only imagine why,” Amos said, dryly. “A daughter running from an arranged marriage must be a stain on any gentleman’s reputation. Not under her father’s thumb, I assume?”
“Certainly not, by all appearances,” Bernard replied. “Although if what you say about Lord Thompson is true, I can only applaud her for escaping such a dreaded prospect.”
There was silence for a moment, with Amos struggling to remember why he had summoned the housekeeper. Her appearance was plain, as was required of a housekeeper, but her green eyes captured his interest once again. Despite himself, Amos found himself musing on how long her blonde hair would be.
“You are quite young to be a housekeeper,” Bernard said loudly, deliberately breaking the silence.
"Yes, my Lord," Esther replied, remembering not to look him directly in the face. "My talents at organizing and running the household became apparent at a young age."
“Well spoken, too,” Bernard murmured, sweeping his gaze down her slim figure and away from her face. Amos found himself irritated by Bernard’s perusal, clearing his throat to regain control of the situation as well as recapture his friend’s attention.
“Mrs. Edwards, may I first commend you on how well you have stepped into the role. My house is back in order again, and I feel quite at peace.” He smiled at her, noting with interest the slight pink tinge to her cheeks. “The maids have kept away from me also, which I am sure is your doing. You have done an outstanding job thus far.”
“Thank you, Your Grace,” Esther murmured, keeping her eyes lowered deferentially.
“Now, pay close attention, Mrs. Edwards. I wish to have a dinner party next Friday evening.” He continued, “I shall be sending out invitations today. I expect to have ten guests, plus myself and Bernard.
“And my mother,” Bernard interrupted.
“And Lady Heber,” Amos grinned. “So, that should be thirteen.”
Bernard let out a mock gasp of horror. “You cannot have thirteen, Amos! It is unlucky to have that number of guests!”
