by Suzy Cox
Dedication
FOR PAT, MY FAVORITE STORYTELLER
A Big Red Door (and then some)–sized thank you to:
The amazing Sarah and Kari at HarperTeen, for your patience and guidance; Lindsey, for your support, creativity, and awesome taste in handbags—this page would not exist without you; the ladies of Slayerfest, for being my own personal Scoobies; Emma, Suse, and Hattie, for reading and not laughing; Anna and Martin, for being cooler than me; Lyndsay, for everything; my parents, for always reading me “just one more page”; and Christian, for showing me New York—and being the right combination of David and Ed.
Contents
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
About the Author
Credits
Copyright
Back Ad
About the Publisher
Chapter 1
POP QUIZ: WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU only had one day left to live? Just one clear day. A few short hours to fill with a list of your “lasts.” Tough call, isn’t it? Would you steal your mom’s credit card and brutalize Barneys, because—let’s face it—you might as well go out looking your best. (And you can’t be grounded in the grave.) Go tell that senior you’ve always had a crush on just how much you heart him and end it all on a kiss? Get blind drunk, act obnoxious, vandalize something—just because you could? Or would you find your family, apologize for any time you’ve let them down, and spend the day telling them you don’t want to let them go?
Me? Well, if you’d asked me on that morning, my answer would have been simple: I would have wanted to spend my last precious hours with my boyfriend, David. Yeah, whatever, I know how that sounds—all Bella and Edward bleh—but give me a break, I was really into him. His floppy blond hair. His skater boy pants. Those sea-blue eyes that made me think of … Oh God, I’ll stop. I’m even making myself feel sick. Anyway, if you’d asked me then, I would have wanted to grab David’s hand, walk through New York’s autumn-air streets to the Plaza, duck into Central Park, and climb our rock. We’d lie back, talk about books we’d read and places we wanted to see, and watch the perfect blue sky above us. Then, when the sun started to slide, we’d laugh and do shots until the edges of the world began to blur—so that when I left it, I wouldn’t be sure what had happened, much less be aware of everything I’d just lost.
How I wouldn’t want to spend my last day? By sleeping through my alarm because I’d been up watching reruns of Gilmore Girls (I know: tragic). Being late for first period and a chem test that had completely slipped my mind. Or, afterward, slamming into Kristen, head cheerleader/head bitch extraordinaire, causing her to drop all her books and me to (probably) be the recipient of her evils for the rest of the semester. To leave school, step right into a muddy puddle crossing Fifth and 49th, writing off my mom’s new suede DVF boots. Which I’d borrowed without asking. I certainly didn’t want to get down to the F-train platform, hot, sticky, stressed, and—for once—desperate to get home, only to find the train delayed. And when it finally did steam in, I didn’t want to die after feeling the sharpest push to the small of my back, then falling—as someone behind me screamed—onto the tracks.
But when I woke up that morning, I didn’t know I only had six hours of my life left. Why would I? When it comes to the end—biting the bullet, kicking the bucket—it’s not like someone walks up and warns you. You don’t see blond girls dressed all in white, flapping their big old angel wings. Or a particularly menacing black crow. Your iPhone doesn’t suddenly install a Reaper app.
Because life’s not like that. Life—as your mom says—isn’t always fair. And when it comes to your afterlife, well, there’s a whole new book of rules to learn. Not the normal ones like, “Only go for the hot meal in the cafeteria on a Monday” or “Don’t make eye contact with the lacrosse team unless you’re in twelfth grade.” Oh nooo. Rules far more serious than that. Ones that actually matter. Ones that can change your death forever …
Chapter 2
WIND SUCKS BACK HAIR. THE F TRAIN CHUGS. Foot feels wet. Headlights in the dark. There’s that push. Heat. Someone screams. Then …
“Charlotte! Charlotte! Open your eyes. It’ll be fine, I promise.”
For pretty much the first time since sixth grade, I did as I was told. I opened my eyes. And saw a girl in a blue-and-white-striped top standing over me, smiling in a nervous way. I blinked.
“Charlotte …” The girl pushed a strand of her thick squirrel-red hair behind her ear, making the black frames of her glasses wiggle. She looked about my age, sixteen, maybe seventeen.
“Okay, so this is going to be incredibly weird, but please try not to freak out. It’ll only make things worse.” She was talking above me, looking at me hard. Like she really, really needed me to concentrate, but wasn’t sure I could. She paused. “Do you remember being on the train platform?”
The platform. Oh yeah. How did I get from the F train to here? Did I miss my stop? And where is here anyway? I sat up—too fast, I guess, because the room whirled. It looked like I was in some sort of art deco hotel lobby. The floor tiles were black and white and there were these plush red-velvet drapes around the doors. Yes, it must be a hotel, because there was a reception desk and above it a sign with—duh—Hotel Attesa, written in curly, swirly letters.
“Charlotte. I need you to listen.”
I looked at the girl and tried to think back, but it was as if I were looking at my memories through a window smeared with Vaseline. I was on my way home after class. I was getting on the train. So how did I end up in a hotel? Oh God, I bet I blacked out on the platform. It was hot down there, and I’d fainted that one time during detention last summer. Now, that was mortifying. What if I was one of those people who pass out on the platform, then have to be taken off someplace to sit down—someplace like this old hotel—until they feel better. I hoped I wasn’t that lame. I’d die of embarrassment if …
“There’s no easy way to say this, but something bad has happened to you, Charlotte.”
Oh no, I was pass-out girl. I knew I should have eaten breakfast and had more than a salad for lunch. Mom was always telling me that. It’s just that I couldn’t face food that early in the morning. It feels weird to eat straight after you’ve brushed your teeth and …
“Charlotte, you’re … dead.”
“I’m d—What?”
Suddenly, I was focused. Focused enough to know this girl was deranged. Who the hell thought it was a good idea to leave an ill person like me with a psycho like her?
Or, wait a minute, I knew what was happening! This was all some weird fainting-dream thing. I was still passed out on the platform. In a minute I was going to come around, then they’d call my mom and everything would be fine. Maybe I’d even get out of school tomorrow.
“You’re dead. And from what we can tell”—she looked down at an ancie
nt-looking letter in her hand—“someone pushed you onto the tracks just as the F train came in. And, well, I’m sorry, but you didn’t make it.” She smiled in a nice “oh well” way. Like she’d just told me I didn’t make the swim team or that the last dress in my size was out of stock in every branch of Urban Outfitters.
Wow, I must have really hit my head, and hard, because this was some trippy Dorothy-goes-to-Oz hallucination I was having. My English teacher, Ms. Jackson, would totally pass me if she knew I was subconsciously this creative.
I looked down at my body. Nope, it was the same as always. I hadn’t imagined myself with train-track marks or anything. Instead I was sitting, all nice and comfortable, on this big, black, squishy leather couch in this hotel lobby.
“This is a very confusing time. I know that. Which is why I’m here to help you all I can. I’m Nancy, by the way. Nancy Radley. I’m dead too.”
The girl held out her hand. And because I had no better plan of action right then, I smiled and took it. She was super-polite for a figment of my imagination.
“Now, I think the best way to get you acclimated to the situation is to just throw you in at the deep end. Tell you everything you need to know in one go, then you can absorb it at your own rate.”
Acclimated? Absorb? Dead Girl Nancy must have been working her way through the SAT word list before she “died.”
“Sure.” I smiled serenely and stood up to follow. I just hoped I’d remember all this when I woke up. David would get a total kick out of my imaginary friend.
“Come on then, let’s get you up to your room. I’ll fill you in on the way.”
Ha! Here we go. This was totally not right.
“Room?” I asked. In what underworld would a ghost actually need a room? This was so dumb. I just wanted to wake up, call David, and dry out Mom’s shoes before she realized they were missing.
Nancy looked at me with a little smile. “Well, to be honest you don’t need a room,” she said. “After all, ghosts don’t sleep. But we figured, seeing as we’ve got this hotel, and there are rooms here, why not give them to people when they arrive? You had a room while you were alive, right? So we give you one when you’re newly dead. We think it makes the transition from that life to this one feel a little less weird. Well, we hope it does.”
“We? So you’re not alone?” Jeez, my imagination must be doing overtime. I’d not just dream-invented one ghost but a whole bunch of them.
“Yes, of course. You’ll meet the others later.” She opened a door and led me into an elevator. Which also seemed a little stupid. If I were a ghost, surely I’d be able to walk through walls? I tried pinching my arm.
“Right now you are in the Hotel Attesa, just off Washington Square in New York City,” Nancy explained. “It’s right next to a regular old human hotel. Of course, the Living can’t see the Hotel Attesa, only we can. Otherwise you’d get all these ghost hunters popping in with their electromagnetic detectors or PKE meters or whatever other crap they saw in Ghost Busters trying to prove we exist. Which is the last thing we want—especially when we’ve got such important work to do.”
I pinched again. And again. Nope, still not awake.
Ping! The elevator stopped and Nancy led me down a red-carpeted corridor. I couldn’t help but think that, if I were conscious and this hotel didn’t just exist in my dream, it was exactly the kind of place I’d love to stay in. If my parents didn’t think hotels were “a complete waste of our money,” that is. It was super-classy, old yet pristine.
Nancy opened the door and the room inside was even more gorgeous than the lobby—white walls, antique lights, prints of old Hollywood movie stars in sleek black frames, a sink-into-me bed and floor-to-ceiling windows on one wall. I walked over to the windows, which looked out on Fifth Avenue and the Empire State Building. Wow. Nice imaginary view.
“Don’t get too excited by the location,” a high-pitched voice said. I turned around to see a blond girl standing über-close to me. Another ghost? Awesome. This one was like something from an Abercrombie ad, all glowing skin, Mac-counter makeup, and perfect hair. She wouldn’t look out of place in one of those frames on the wall.
“Want to know the suckiest thing about the afterlife?” she asked. “It’s all look, look, look, but don’t touch. Like, there’s all this on our doorstep …” She motioned to the streets below. “And us? We can’t even enjoy it.” She leaned on the window so closely she would have left a breath mark. If she was still breathing, that is. “I’m Lorna by the way.”
This was getting ridiculous. “What are you talking about?” I asked.
“Oh, Nancy didn’t tell you that little Rule yet? It’s a bummer. Totally and utterly hideous. I mean, there are some great things about being dead: no eating equals no dieting. No more split ends or breakouts. Of course, style-wise, death sucks. The rule is that we ghosts have to spend all our time in whatever outfit we died in. Which as you can see, for me, is a baby blue Marc Jacobs Spring/Summer ’06 dress. Not a bad choice. I mean, I’d totally be seen dead in it. It’s just that I’ll never get to wear anything else. Ever.”
I looked down at my outfit and saw my gross school uniform: a blue-and-yellow plaid skirt, white shirt, my navy blazer … and Mom’s DVF heels. Wouldn’t my favorite Seven jeans and Converse have been more eternity appropriate?
I smiled politely, all the while pinching my arm like a crazy person. Like the worst thing about being dead would be the limited clothing decisions. What about missing your family or your friends or, I don’t know, being alive? Then, on the eighteenth pinch, something in my brain clicked. A memory broke through. When I was on the platform, right before I opened my eyes here in the hotel, I felt something. What was it? A push. In my lower back. So hard I lost my balance. Then there was that scream. And the heat. And then I was here.
What if this wasn’t a dream? What if I had been pushed? Right onto the tracks and under the F train. What if … what if, like Nancy said, I was dead?
Shut up, Charlotte, I told myself, stepping backward and landing awkwardly on the bed. I mean, come on. There was no tunnel with bright lights at the end, no big pearly gate, no old bearded guy welcoming me in. I held up my hand to the light—I couldn’t suddenly see through it. I hadn’t turned into Casper or anything.
“So what else do I need to know?” I asked, trying to play along and make sense of whatever was happening. Maybe this was some elaborate practical joke. “I mean, this whole hotel thing is nice and all, but I always thought heaven would be more sitting on a cloud with unlimited Ben and Jerry’s and less downtown fancy hotel.”
“Sorry, sorry,” Nancy said, turning her attention back to me. “I was getting to that. So here’s the deal.” She sat on the bed beside me and gave me another of her reassuring smiles. Worrying, I realized that she had the air of someone who had done this before. A lot.
“When teenagers die in mysterious circumstances—like you being pushed under that train—they don’t pass straight over to the Other Side, as people do when it’s their natural time to go. Instead, in New York, they come here, to Hotel Attesa—”
“It’s kinda like a waiting room,” Lorna interrupted. “But adults, they go to this other hotel uptown. It’s, like, way nicer because it’s more modern and it’s nearer the park and whoever decorated it did this thing with pink paint and …”
“Lorna! Be quiet?” Nancy glared at her friend. Note to self, do not cut Nancy off mid-sentence. “While you’re here, you’re stuck. You can’t go over to the Other Side until you’ve worked out who killed you and why. Basically, you need to set things straight before you can move on. And we—me, Lorna, and Tess—”
“Yes, you so need to meet Tess,” said Lorna.
“And Tess.” Nancy ignored her this time. “We’re here too, trying to help out those who come in because, you know, then they might get to the Other Side faster.”
“Nancy calls us the Dead Girls Detective Agency,” Lorna said, smoothing down her skirt. “And she’s actuall
y proud of it.”
I tried to focus. Maybe, just maybe, if this actually was some big, stupid, fainty dream, if I solved my murder, I’d wake up. Like, it was a coma and not a dream. Ohmigod, if I was in a coma my mom was going to freak. And she was going to know I stole her boots.
“So this Other Side,” I said, trying to stay calm. “If we figure out who killed me, how do I get there?”
“Through the Big Red Door,” said a new voice behind me. I spun around to see a brunette standing in the doorway. She was not channeling Nancy’s reassuring smile or the kindness in Lorna’s eyes. Instead she looked bored. As if she’d been here a million times before and couldn’t care less. I wondered how long she’d been standing there, just listening.
“That’s Tess,” Lorna said, checking out her cuticles. “She’s been here the longest of all of us girls. Tess is the best, but she can be kind of …”
Nancy shot Lorna another look and gave me an eye roll. “Subtle, Lorna.”
“I can be kind of what?” Tess asked. “Honest? Harsh? A mega-bitch?”
When Lorna shrugged vacantly, Tess turned to me. “Well, seeing as I appear to have a rep, I may as well live up to it. All those little fantasies you’re currently having? The ones where you’re trying to convince yourself that this isn’t real and any second now, Mommy dearest will come into your bedroom and wake you up? Forget them. They’re all lies.”
She carried on talking before I could tell her I’d already worked out I was in a coma.
