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CONTENTS
Epigraph
1. Pent Farm
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
2. Death of the Valkerie
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
3. Official Secrets
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
4. Enter Marlow
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
5. Friendship
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
6. Maps of the World
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
7. The Wayang
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Afterword
About the Author
For Toni
The yarns of seamen have a direct simplicity, the whole meaning of which lies within the shell of a cracked nut. But Marlow was not typical (if his propensity to spin yarns be excepted), and to him the meaning of an episode was not inside like a kernel but outside, enveloping the tale which brought it out only as a glow brings out a haze, in the likeness of one of these misty halos that sometimes are made visible by the spectral illumination of moonshine.
—JOSEPH CONRAD, HEART OF DARKNESS
I
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Pent Farm
Dear Ford,
I have imagined your surprise when you received this package and saw the name Jack Malone and my Dutch East Indies return address. Finding the manuscript inside must have made you wonder why you had been sent it, so I want to tell you straightaway that I am not asking you to vet it as you have done for so many writers over the years. It is yours to do with as you wish. I should add that it concerns Conrad—his life and work—as I have seen them through the lens of our friendship that lasted more than a quarter of a century and persists in memory to this day. To avoid any confusion at the outset, I think it best for me to begin with a brief explanation of how I came to write these pages and my reason for sending them to you.
Six years ago, in the fall of 1924, I boarded a freighter in London bound for Java. Still grieving for Conrad, who had died only a month earlier, I had become quite aware even then that my only chance to understand what had happened between us would be to put the story down on paper, the whole thing, from beginning to end. If I had had a reasonable grasp of what I wanted to say, the solitude and endless vistas of a long sea voyage would have been an ideal occasion to begin the enterprise, but at that point the story was a great jumble of people and places and objects. As I stood at the aft rail watching the dock recede, the well-wishers who had come to say good-bye growing smaller, the city flattening out, I saw in the spreading V of the freighter’s wake shimmering images of Conrad emerging from the fog at Tilbury Dock, a sign over the door of an old bookshop, the tormented eyes of a captain in the Royal Navy, a German U-boat’s conning tower decorated with kill signs. By the time I reached Batavia, Indonesia, several weeks later, those and other images, along with their attendant emotions, had overrun my mind, leaving me in a state of exhausted frustration.
Five years were to pass before I finally sat down to see what I could do in the way of memoir writing. After three false starts I was close to giving up. I remember crushing what I thought might well be the last page of my efforts and rolling it across the table, where the bloodless thing disappeared over the edge. And then, half an hour later, you appeared, Ford, descending like a ministering angel from the silky blackness of an Indonesian night to show me the way.
I had abandoned the table in the living room of my bungalow and was standing on the veranda, looking down at the Old Port of Batavia, whose bay was dotted with lanterns hanging from the prows of invisible fishing boats. Farther off lay a net of lights, the sparkling city, lovely and seductive. I was listening to the incessant nightly hum, a medley of human and inhuman sounds, hisses and groans and bangings, cars’ motors, the clip-clop of bullocks’ hooves, the creaking wheels of old carts, faint voices of people out for a stroll or coming home late from work.
Suddenly, I recalled an afternoon you and I spent with Conrad in Kent at his country house. We three had walked from Pent Farm to Stanford for lunch at his favorite pub, the one with the weathered picnic benches that stood outside on the grass, and afterward returned to the parlor. Nothing earth-shattering, simply a rescued moment that somehow led my thoughts to the opening pages of your Good Soldier, where John Dowell frets over how to tell his story and finally decides to imagine himself talking to a sympathetic soul in a country cottage. I had a vision of him and this nameless chap sitting by a crackling fire—Dowell, heartbroken and confused, going on about his trials with his poor wife, Florence, quite as a man would to someone who understood the torments of love and sex.
Well, my heart started pounding. In that instant I realized that I, too, needed a confidant, someone interested enough in Conrad to listen to what I had to say. There were plenty of candidates among Conrad’s writer friends—Henry James, H. G. Wells, Stephen Crane, Rudyard Kipling—but none was as well suited for the job as Ford Madox Ford, his friend and steadfast ally ever since you two had met in 1898. The fact that you had lived at Pent Farm and vacated it just before Conrad moved in made your role as my Muse even more natural. And it was also there at Pent that you and he began your collaboration on Romance, the first of the novels you wrote together. I also knew that you had a hand in revising Heart of Darkness, Nostromo, and parts of The Mirror of the Sea—work that let you understand far better than I what drove the man and what made him the artist we admired.
It was a heady moment, Ford, deeply exciting. To think that you, Conrad, and I could connect again on that inner, familiar landscape. As I gazed out over the bay at the lights of Batavia under the stars wheeling across the heavens, I thought that I might as well appropriate your imaginary cottage, too, and politely usher Dowell and his guest outside so you and I could take over the blazing fire, the pantry stocked with food and drink, the still-warm chairs. But charmed as I was by the idea of speaking to you over the echoes of your own book, I had the good sense to see that doing so in your fictional cottage would be too clever by half. Pent Farm, with its uneven brick floor in the kitchen, the stone fireplace guarded by bird-shaped andirons, the parlor with its comfortable furniture, where the three of us had spent so many pleasant evenings together, should be our place, yours and mine. In that quiet, simple room with a beam across the middle of the low ceiling, the windowsills fretted with the blooms of small roses, we’d sit together for as long as the story lasted.
These pages record what I have imagined telling you in that parlor for the last year and a half. I could not have written one of them without your intervention and guidance, and since I had all but abandoned any hope of being able to set down this memoir, I feel that I should tell you a little about my struggle before launching into the story proper.
As my Muse you played a role remarkably close to the one I fulfilled for Conrad years ago. It seems to me that that si
milarity binds the three of us together in the realm of a “magic suggestiveness,” about which Conrad spoke so movingly in his preface to The Nigger of the Narcissus, the suggestiveness that frees voices in a country cottage or on the deck of a yawl moored in London, where much of what I will unfold takes place. Though I am telling you this tale, Ford, you are more than a mere listener, more than a friend to me and Conrad. By showing me how to reveal all that happened you have become part of the story, my silent listener and compassionate judge, the very sympathetic soul you invented for your own character.
And so, avanti. . . .
A WEEK AFTER arriving in Batavia in the fall of 1924, I found the bungalow where I have stayed ever since. My pension allows me to live here like a pukka sahib in a section of the city far from the wretched kampongs, where the disenfranchised struggle to put rice on their tables by breaking their backs for the Dutch. Nothing unusual in that, of course, you see it everywhere, the large white colonial hand balled into a fist throwing a dark shadow across the land. But an uneasiness is stirring in the archipelago. One day there will be a revolution, though probably not in my lifetime. Such things are sluggish and demand wild-eyed leaders I have not seen, yet I know that out in the kampongs babies are trying their lungs, wailing precociously not for milk but for freedom. For all the unrest, Java’s traditions remain untouched. I delight in all of them, especially the Wayang kulit, the shadow theater performed at night during the season of the dry monsoon when the heat from the Australian Outback blows like a torch across the archipelago. After dinner I go down to the road and hail a betjak, a half-bicycle, half-carriage contraption I sit in beneath a black canvas hood while a man thin as a rail peddles me through town as if I were a viceroy. In a field, sometimes a dusty square, I spend the long hot nights listening to the bells and gongs of the gamelan while beak-nosed puppets move in response to the storyteller’s chants.
During the dry season a little more than a year and a half ago, the heat had become unbearable in Batavia and I decided to escape for a few days, taking a bus to Panchuk, a village in the highlands. One rides for an hour with the heat streaming through the open windows and then, within a mile or two, the road rises into foothills and the temperature drops before you reach the lush green tea plantations that range over the slopes and perfume the air for miles around. Higher up in the mountains, palm trees grow side by side with pines, giving Panchuk the look of an imagined place.
It rained the night of my arrival. I was sitting on the balcony, enjoying the downpour while thunder cracked over the mountains, remembering bad weather at sea, when my thoughts drifted to my first meeting with Conrad in Singapore, in 1892. He was in a hospital recovering from a nasty blow to the head administered by a boom that had got loose, a good crack that might have killed him but only gave him terrible headaches and some rather wonderful nightmares. Being there for malaria, I was seeing things myself. I had fallen ill off the China coast while in command of a filthy steamer I had been chained to for nearly a year, continuing to work while the disease dug its hooks into me, feeling weaker and more light-headed by the day. At some point, two deckhands came into my cabin looking like angels of death—what I construed as wings must have been slickers, a squall having overtaken the ship—but I recalled nothing between then and when I regained consciousness in that sweltering room filled with beds holding what appeared to be corpses.
My head felt as if it were full of bilgewater as I sat up and noticed a man with an aristocratic air about my age staring at me. It was Conrad and he had been waiting for me to come round, assuming from my pasty skin that I spoke English or French and could rescue him from the incomprehensible languages of the East. He introduced himself as the chief mate of the Highland Forest, a position he would still occupy were it not for the accident during the passage from Amsterdam to Samarang. He was seeing things even then, some quite pleasant, some he wouldn’t care to come upon again, things with rather longish tails. A Dutch doctor in Samarang advised him to go into hospital as soon as he reached Singapore and remain absolutely silent for an indefinite period of time. He called the idea preposterous. From his point of view, it was better to let some witch doctor dance about and sprinkle a little goat urine, maybe shake a gourd in front of his nose and utter incantations that would probably sound like hyenas arguing over first rights to the offal of a hapless wildebeest.
His humor did as much to help me recover as the quinine. When we were fit enough to be discharged, we took rooms in a hotel and went out to explore the city, which I knew quite well. Singapore wants to be experienced in small bites, nibbled, not swallowed in chunks like an Englishman’s baron of beef. With anyone other than Conrad that would have been my preferred course, but he was tireless, indefatigably curious. We wandered down the esplanade, shadowed by big trees and surrounded by neat green lawns. He was suitably awed by the blazing white cathedral. Up Sultan Gate, off the Beach Road, we inspected the Arab sector, where, amid the mosques, Arab textile traders begged for our business while calligraphers went about their work in the shadows of the palace of the former sultan. I had intentionally taken a route that led us to the waterfront, where it seemed as if the whole populace of the city flowed between piles of goods lying alongside the roads, half-naked men jostling to position their rickshaws, the lower part of their bodies wrapped in sarongs, their heads covered with conical straw hats. And everywhere there were the beautiful women of Singapore—slim, elegant, seeming to float above the noise and filth of the streets. At the Boat Quay the bustle of the roads gave way to sampans and lighters disgorging cargo, a huge eye glaring from each bow, which the sailors believed beneficial in warning off evil spirits. We walked about until the eyes faded at dusk, when lanterns set up on the boats cast an eerie glow on the spars and masts.
As we were both famished, I offered to stand him dinner at Raffles. We went up to the nearest cross street past the Cricket Club pavilion and were soon tucking into the hotel’s fine food, after which we took our drinks out to the Palm Court and decided then and there to stick together for a while. A fortnight later we signed on as chief and second mate aboard the Vidar, a steamer owned by an Arab with the euphonious name of Syed Mohsin Bin Saleh Al Joofree and commanded by an Englishman, Walter Craig. To make the international nature of the compact complete, she sailed under the Dutch flag. We made a three-week voyage from Singapore through the Malay Archipelago, threading through the Carimata Strait to Banjarmassin on the Borneo coast and from thence to Palo Laut for coal, down to Dongala in the Celebes for coffee before finally turning round at Belingan, heavy with rubber, cane, and gutta-percha. My memory of that voyage was intense, filled with images of docks stacked with goods, men sweating under the Asian sun bent double by the weight of sacks or boxes, Conrad wearing a blue head cloth, shirtless, in charge of the loading, the two of us still young enough to work long hours in the heat, determined to satisfy Walter Craig, who depended on us to keep his ship on schedule and make sure we were not cheated by the locals.
We both left the Vidar a few months later for better posts. The next important thing that happened occurred five years later in London, where we saw a good deal of each other, most often on the Nellie, a cruising yawl owned by an old friend of Conrad’s named Harrison whose financial talents had led him to the boardroom of a company where he presided as director.
Conrad had met Harrison at the beginning of his writing career and through Conrad I made his acquaintance. At one time Harrison and the other members of our gang—a lawyer named Barnes and an accountant named Kepler—had followed the sea, and my position as a captain had a nostalgic appeal that fed their dreams. We may have seemed an odd lot at first glance, but friendships have been forged among people with less in common, the bond of the sea overcoming differences in temperament and outlook. That bond does not exactly constitute a philosophy, Ford, but it is the basis for thoughts with a philosophical turn, a shaper of ideas and attitudes you immediately recognize when a fellow starts talking. Whether we were sailing or in po
rt due to inclement weather, playing dominoes and watching ships coming and going in the estuary, we talked exhaustively—business, politics, religion along with soul-searching that would have been quite unthinkable in a pub or even in someone’s home. There was a whiff of confession in our stories, admissions of things we had thought or done or desired to do, of failures and heartaches usually uttered through a lattice to a man in a collar. We felt free to do so because of an unspoken pact that nothing we said went off the boat.
The five of us took the Nellie out on weekend excursions that lasted as long as a day or as little as an hour. Our talk then was all of ships until we returned to port and slipped into rambling conversations fueled by nostalgia and whisky, conversations that did not last as long as a performance of the shadow puppets in Batavia, but often went on into the small hours of the night. The old gang was an interesting lot, intelligent men who had seen things in life worth sharing and thinking about afterward. The quality of those conversations kept Conrad and me coming back to the Nellie over the years whenever we were in the city at the same time. And in these conversations, too, lies some of the story I want to tell.
AFTER I HAD returned to my bungalow in Batavia from the mountains of Panchuk, I felt that I was at last onto something, Ford, a way into the layers and years of history between Conrad and me. I sat down and jotted some notes. It seemed that I could begin this story either in Singapore or, marching forward in time, a few years later in London. And then it occurred to me that I might jump ahead many years to the last conversation I had with my old friend Hans Viereck, who knew everything about my relationship with Conrad except the final outcome. I wanted expressly to talk with him about Conrad and his wartime encounter with a British naval officer David Fox-Bourne, captain of HMS Brigadier, a man whose fate echoed eerily with certain events in Lord Jim.
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