Coming Back Stronger

by Drew Brees

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  Coming Back Stronger: Unleashing the Hidden Power of Adversity

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  Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

  Brees, Drew, date.

  Coming back stronger : unleashing the hidden power of adversity / Drew Brees with Chris Fabry.

  p. cm.

  ISBN 978-1-4143-3943-6 (hc)

  1. Brees, Drew, date. 2. Suffering—Religious aspects—Christianity. I. Fabry, Chris, date.

  II. Title.

  BV4909.B73 2010

  248.8'6—dc22 2010016560

  To my wife, Brittany, my little boy, Baylen, and our children yet to come. You have brought more joy into my life than I ever thought possible. You are my inspiration.

  Foreword

  In the NFL, there are a lot of good quarterbacks. And very few that can be considered great. But what defines greatness in that position? Are the great quarterbacks those who have won Super Bowl championships? Is greatness reserved for the quarterbacks who have broken passing records or have been to multiple Pro Bowls? In my opinion, a truly great quarterback is one who plays at a very high level on the field—and off the field as well. A guy who plays like a champion, not only on Sundays, but also on every other day of the week.

  I met Drew Brees at the beginning of the 2003 season, when he was the starting quarterback for San Diego. His Chargers were coming to play the Jacksonville Jaguars, and both teams were 0–4. I didn’t know much about Drew at the time other than the successful career he’d had at Purdue. He clearly was talented, yet he and his team were struggling. Many critics wondered if Drew Brees was good enough to be successful in this league. Some thought he was too short. Some considered him a bust. Little did they know. . . .

  Seven years later, it’s clear: Drew has silenced his critics. He is at the top of his game and without a doubt one of the best quarterbacks in the NFL today. The guy who fought to hold on to his job in San Diego now holds the Lombardi Trophy as a champion. I was fortunate to share that experience with him, and I can honestly say that Drew Brees is a champion in every sense of the word. I have never been around anybody more focused, more competitive, and more driven to succeed than Drew.

  That passion is by no means limited to the football field. His commitment to his family, his friends, and the kids and communities he supports is positively unmatched. Drew is a man on a mission. For him there are no wasted days, no wasted hours, no wasted minutes. I am continually impressed by how willing Drew is to sacrifice his time and energy to help those around him succeed—both on and off the field.

  He’d cringe to hear me say this, but in many ways, Drew is a modern-day hero. It’s difficult to describe what he has meant to the city of New Orleans. I guess the best way to say it is that, in many ways, he has brought hope to this city. He gave fans hope in the form of a Super Bowl championship. And with the work he and his wife, Brittany, have done through their foundation, he has given the city hope for better neighborhoods and has provided programs that give kids, families, and previously shattered communities the hope of a brighter future.

  Simply put, Drew is making a difference. The Bible is clear that God has a purpose for each of our lives, and I wholeheartedly believe that God has brought Drew to New Orleans for a specific purpose—a purpose that goes far beyond winning football games. God is using Drew in a powerful way to make a difference in the lives of so many people in New Orleans. While the city has come a long way since 2005, most would agree that there is still much more that needs to be done. While many have given up, Drew has not. He never quits on the field, and he will never quit working to help this community that has so openly embraced him.

  It is a privilege to have Drew as a friend, and I consider myself extremely fortunate to have had the opportunity to play alongside him and to be a part of what he has accomplished—in his career, on this team, and for New Orleans. Drew Brees is truly a great quarterback.

  Mark Brunell

  Acknowledgments

  First of all, writing a book is an interesting process. The time and effort required to put together a memoir like this was extensive. I really had no idea what I was getting myself into when I took on this challenge, but it has been one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. I hope that those who read this book are motivated and inspired by the experiences that are shared and the lessons learned. I talk about many things I have not talked much about before, at least not in this great of detail all at once. Writing this book was an emotionally freeing experience and truly a labor of love. I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I did writing it.

  I would first like to thank Chris Fabry for all his help in writing this book. We did not have a lot of time to put this collaboration together, but our ability to trust each other and communicate helped us through it all. I would also like to thank the staff at Tyndale House Publishers for all their hard work. I k
now it was not easy at times, but they handled everything with great respect and professionalism, and as a result we were able to put together a tremendous book.

  I would also like to thank my family, friends, chaplains, teachers, mentors, teammates, and coaches for believing in me and being a part of this journey. I think about you all every day.

  Then there is Chris Stuart. We have been through a lot together in a short amount of time. You are a true friend and a special person. Thanks for teaching me how to “win the day.”

  And last but certainly not least, I would like to thank the city of New Orleans for embracing me at a time when I needed it most. You saved me.

  Prologue

  Saturday, December 31, 2005

  San Diego Chargers vs. Denver Broncos

  Eight seconds was all it took to change my life forever. Eight seconds at the end of the second quarter, in the middle of a meaningless game. Of course it wasn’t meaningless to me. No game in the NFL ever is, especially when you have something to prove.

  It was the final game of the season. With 4:22 left in the first half, our offense had taken over at our own eight yard line. The Broncos, our archrivals, had already sealed a playoff berth. At 9–6, we’d been eliminated from playoff contention a week earlier. Some said we should rest our starters and avoid any unnecessary injuries, but our coach, Marty Schottenheimer, disagreed. He believed that closing out a tough season with a victory on our home field was important—especially if that victory came against the Broncos. I knew he was right, and I also had my own reasons for wanting to be on the field. A younger quarterback was waiting in the wings, and this was my chance to prove once again that I deserved to lead this team as we looked to the future.

  The Broncos were up 7–0. The slight drizzle that fell over Qualcomm Stadium echoed the mood of the Chargers fans. In fact, there seemed to be as many people cheering for Denver as there were for San Diego. Denver certainly had a lot to cheer about that year; they had already clinched the number two seed in the AFC. Plus, their fans always travel well.

  On first and ten, I handed off to LaDainian Tomlinson, who ran off left tackle for a one-yard gain. Running the ball wasn’t going to be easy. The Denver defense was one of the best in the league against the run.

  Second down was a pass to Keenan McCardell that fell incomplete. Champ Bailey broke up the play, as he always seemed to do. Early in the season he had picked off one of my passes in Denver and run it back for a touchdown. I wish I had that pass to do over again. But you can’t live in the past in the NFL. And you can’t live too far in the future. You have to live in the now.

  Cam Cameron, our offensive coordinator, called in another pass play, and I surveyed the defense from the shotgun. I noticed John Lynch, All-Pro safety, creeping toward the line of scrimmage off left tackle. I knew what that meant: he was going to blitz. We had the correct protection called to block him, but there was still a sense of urgency for me to get rid of the ball. If we could get a first down, we would still have around 3:30 left on the clock to tie the score, or at the very least, attempt a field goal. Anything to take some momentum into the locker room at the half.

  Nick Hardwick gave me a clean snap, and I dropped back in the pocket, going through my read. Take care of the football. Make a good decision. Trust your progression on this play. My feet were in our end zone as I scanned the receivers running their routes. The coverage was good, but I anticipated the opening as Keenan McCardell ran into the clear. Just as I pulled the ball back to throw, John Lynch, who was blitzing from my blind side, swiped at my arm before I was able to get the throw off. Lynch had fought through his block, and he got just enough of my arm to knock the ball loose. It wobbled out like a wounded duck and rolled to a dead stop right in front of the goal line.

  The last thing a quarterback ever wants to see is a football lying loose on the ground. It should be either in your own hands, in the arms of your running back, or on the way to your receiver. But never on the ground. Ever. I knew my arm wasn’t going forward when the ball was stripped—it was going back—so it was definitely a fumble, a live ball.

  Lynch was behind me, and Sam Brandon and Gerard Warren of the Broncos were in front of me, moving to recover the ball. I had been coached to never jump into those loose ball situations on the ground, because bad things happen to quarterbacks who dive into a pile. Jim Harbaugh broke his arm jumping into a pile when he played quarterback at Michigan, and I had seen Kurt Warner dislocate his elbow trying to pull in a fumble. A dropped snap is one thing. You fall on it and cover up, and you’re okay. But a loose ball is different. With several three-hundred-pound guys converging from different angles in a matter of seconds, there’s a high risk for injury. But in that moment, instinct kicked in. It was my responsibility to get that ball back. I had lost it. And I was going to recover it.

  As I dived for the ball, I saw defensive tackle Gerard Warren coming toward me—all 330 pounds of him. I jumped toward the ball, extending my right arm to scoop it up and pull it in. As I hit the ground, Warren did what every defensive player does when he has a chance to take a legal shot at the quarterback. He took it. He drove into my left side, jolting me backward. The blow spun my body around on the ground, while my right arm was stuck in an awkward position above my head.

  The force of Warren’s hit, and then the others who piled on, twisted my arm in a direction it is not supposed to go. The collision was ferocious, and it happened in a matter of milliseconds. And then there was silence—a stunned silence for me. The only way I can describe it is that the entire stadium became still. It wasn’t just pain in my arm and shoulder—there was a signal that went to every part of my body telling me something was off. Way off.

  When the whistle blew, the Broncos had the ball, and thanks to me, they were less than a yard away from another touchdown. Their defense celebrated and ran off the field. As our offense hurried off the field and our defense ran in, I rolled over, pushed myself up with my left arm, and struggled to stand. I couldn’t move my right arm at all. When I looked down, it was tilted at a disturbing angle—stuck out to the side in an unnatural L. There was no movement and not much feeling.

  As much as I didn’t want to admit it, I knew exactly what I had done. This wasn’t just a separation. I had separated my left shoulder in 2004, so I knew what that felt like. This was something with much graver implications. I was in absolute shock. I stood in the end zone looking up but not seeing anything. I glanced into the stands and tried to focus, but a million thoughts raced through my mind. I didn’t need to hear it from a doctor: deep down I sensed how serious this was.

  I started for the sidelines, and all of a sudden I became sick to my stomach. This may be the last time I’ll ever wear a Chargers uniform. Fear rose up. Maybe this is the last time I’ll ever wear a football uniform. This could be the end of my career. The feeling was real. I could taste it. And it was terrifying.

  By the time I took a handful of agonizing steps, the medical staff had flown into action.

  “It’s my arm,” I said. “I can’t move it. It’s stuck.”

  They took me behind the bench, and Dr. David Chao felt around the injury. He winced as he examined me, and then he looked straight at me. “Drew, you’ve dislocated your shoulder. I need to pop it back in place. You ready?”

  I nodded as his prognosis confirmed my worst fear. He extended my arm and pulled until it slipped into place. I held it close to my body and sat on the bench. I’ve heard that one of the most painful things to experience is having a shoulder put back into the socket, but I wasn’t feeling much of anything. I was focused on what had just happened and the implications of the injury—for me, for my family, and for my team.

  I thought about my future and how long it might take to come back. Then I thought about Brittany, my wife. She had to be freaking out. We had plans for that night, New Year’s Eve, and plans for the off-season. I had my contract to think about. And next year. There were a lot of good, positive things going on in our lives, and
in an instant, with one play, it could all be gone.

  “You have to call my wife and tell her I’m okay,” I said to James Collins, our head trainer.

  “Sure thing, Drew.”

  We took that long walk from the field to the locker room, and I had an X-ray. That’s when the reality started to set in. And with reality came the pain . . . and the emotions. My shoulder started to throb, and with each wave I thought of Brittany. It’s one thing to go through an injury when you’re the one on the field, but it’s excruciating for family and friends who are watching from the stands.

  “I have to get a cell phone and call my wife,” I said to one of the doctors. “I need her to hear my voice. To let her know I’m okay.”

  The cell service was bad in the locker room because it’s nothing but concrete down there. I was moving around trying to get a good signal, and I had to call Brittany three times before the phone finally connected. As soon as she answered, I heard the fear in her voice.

  “Babe, I’m okay,” I said. I didn’t want her to know how bad it was, so I tried to keep my emotions in check.

  “The trainer said it was your throwing shoulder, but he wouldn’t tell me any more than that.”

  “We don’t know anything yet. I’m just getting the X-rays now. It probably looked a lot worse than it really is.”

  She asked me what had happened, and I tried to explain it without letting on how bad the injury was. She’s been around football long enough to know it’s not a good sign if you’re taken to the locker room and you don’t come back out. And an injury to the shoulder of the throwing arm is never good news for a quarterback.

  It didn’t take Brittany long to figure out things weren’t okay. That’s when the tears began running down my cheeks. My arm was throbbing. And the dreams we’d built seemed to come crashing down right in front of me.

  I’m not one of those people who can keep the tears back once they start. When the emotion begins, it’s hard for me to control. So as we talked, I was trying to tell myself, Be strong for her. Tell her it’s going to be okay. We’re going to be fine. Reassure her. You’re supposed to be strong here. I tried to hold it together, but I don’t think I did a very good job.