by Ruth Vincent
Dedication
To Matt, for making real life so magical
Contents
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Also by Ruth Vincent
Copyright
About the Publisher
Chapter 1
Not everyone’s mother leaves a knife on their pillow, but not everyone’s mother is the Fairy Queen.
It was only 7:00 a.m. I had just emerged in a burst of steam from the bathroom I shared with my roommate and best friend, Eva, my hair wrapped in a towel turban, racing to get ready for work, when I saw it out of the corner of my eye. There was something dark and glinting on the immaculate whiteness of my pillowcase: a stone blade with a copper handle, shaped like the crescent moon. And all I could think was, Please no. Not now.
I knew exactly what the knife was—and what it meant. For a brief moment, I tried to ignore the fairy knife and continue getting ready for work. I shimmied into my tights, buttoned the tiny, translucent buttons on my crisp white shirt until I realized my hands were shaking. Cursing, I turned back to the knife on my pillow.
I couldn’t just not deal with it. I’d spent the past eight months not dealing with things: hundreds of human children held hostage in a death-like sleep in the Vale, the drought of Elixir that was killing the fairies, and a looming vacancy for the worst job in the universe—the Fey throne, which my mother, the Queen, expected me to fill. But I didn’t know how to deal with any of those things. Eight months since I’d journeyed the Vale, and I still had no idea how to fix the mess we were in. No amount of brainstorming with my boyfriend, Obadiah, had gotten us any closer to a solution. I didn’t want to go back without a plan.
The knife hadn’t been there on the pillow when the alarm clock jangled me awake this morning. Which meant somehow, in the span of my shower, a fairy had entered my bedroom, left this “gift” and exited. The thought unnerved me. Even in my own home I couldn’t ever truly get away from my mother or the role I’d been born to play.
Half-dressed, my hands on my hips, I stared at the knife. The morning sun from the curtainless window made a brilliant white square on the pillowcase, but nothing was able to illuminate the black obsidian blade. It was creepy in its ancientness, from a time before there were Fairy Queens, before the Vale itself. The stone blade was sharper than steel. It would cut from one world into the next. It was a knife that could take me back to the Vale, back home.
Except New York City was my home now. And the Queen had almost tricked my boyfriend into stabbing himself to death with this knife’s lookalike, I thought bitterly.
I picked up the blade. It was warm in my fingers, unnaturally so. Stone should be cold, so should copper, but the blade was hot as human skin, as if something living pulsed beneath the cold minerals and metals. It very well might be alive.
Staring down at it, I noticed there was writing scratched faintly into the side of the blade. I lifted it up to examine it more closely, trying to ignore the awful feeling in my fingertips.
It was indeed writing, the first line in English, the second line in High Faerie. The message was the same, like a Rosetta stone. It read simply:
Please come home.
A lump rose in my throat and I swallowed it down, hard. I knew my mother missed me. That didn’t mean I was ready or that it was a good idea to go.
I was about to place the knife back on the pillow when I thought to check the opposite side of the blade. There was more writing:
It’s gotten worse.
I resisted the urge to fling the knife across the room. What did my mother mean? What had gotten worse? The drought? The deaths? Whatever it was, it was definitely bad news.
It wasn’t that I didn’t care; I still had nightmares about all those tiny, too-still faces trapped in their enchanted cocoons. But I didn’t have a plan to help them yet. And I wasn’t ready to leave my human life behind. I’d been a fairy once, but I’d been a changeling for the past twenty-three years; I was closer to human now than anything else.
I looked at the clock. If I didn’t leave soon, I’d be late for work with Reggie. There was no way I could go back to the Vale without at least checking in with my boss first, I reasoned. I’d deal with the knife tonight. When Obadiah came over after work, we could talk about it.
Wincing, I slipped the knife underneath my pillow, so that if Eva entered my room while I was out she wouldn’t see it. It would definitely freak her out. I continued getting dressed. Still, I could feel the presence of the blade, even when I turned my back to the bed to slip into black pumps. It was like the knife could sense my moments and was watching me.
I shivered, but grabbed my purse and tiptoed out into the hallway of our apartment, hoping the sound of my heels wouldn’t wake up Eva, who had likely worked a night shift. She hadn’t been around when I’d gone to bed last night. She’d gotten a new job, and it seemed like I barely saw her anymore.
I’d just turned towards the kitchen when I noticed there was an unfamiliar pair of shoes next to the welcome mat. Men’s shoes. And not Obadiah’s. He didn’t favor obnoxiously loud sneakers, orange and teal with neon swooshes; he was an old-world, leather-loafer kind of guy. Eva must have had a boy over last night, I thought. Which didn’t perturb me. She deserved a fling. Except she normally told me first as a courtesy. Then again, Eva and I had barely seen each other the whole past month; she was always working.
And then suddenly Eva’s bead curtain door burst open, jangling the strands. An unfamiliar young man was standing in the kitchen, staring at me with a kind of dazed, terrified, deer-in-headlights expression. Cute, I thought appraisingly, looking up at the tall, blond, muscular, blue-eyed boy. Though his cheeks were a bit too cherubic for my taste. I liked my men a little rough around the edges, like Obadiah. Still, he was attractive, in a “recently retired teen idol” sort of a way. His shirt was rumpled, hastily put on, and those cherubic cheeks were blushing. Clearly he knew I knew that they’d been up to something highly un-cherubic behind Eva’s swinging bead door. Like I cared.
“Oh, I’m heading out,” he stammered, his voice changing midway from high-pitched squeak to low rumble. How old was this guy? But he was probably Eva’s and my age, just really nervous.
I gave him a friendly smile.
“It’s fine. You don’t have to leave because of me.”
He still looked terrified, however. Maybe he didn’t believe me.
“Seriously,” I said. “I made a pot of coffee. You can have some if you want. I always leave some for Eva. There’s milk in the fridge.”
My effort to ease his terror didn’t seem to be working, though, by the look on his face.
“Uh, no, thanks, I’d better be going.”
And in a terrible hurry, he put on his sneakers, not even bothering to tie the neon laces. He got halfway to the door, stopped and awkwardly rush-tied them, and then literally ran out, with no more than a quick, wincing nod goodbye.
The door slammed shut behind him.
I stood there for a moment, staring at the closed door, listening to the clomp of his feet as he bounded down the three flights of stairs ending in the bang of the front door. The whole interaction had been so weird and awkward. My intuition prickled with worry. Wh
y was this guy so quick to run off? Had he said goodbye to Eva first? Was she okay?
I walked over to the curtain of beads that separated her room, and paused in front of the shimmering strands, wondering if I should go in. I was about to part the curtain when I heard Eva’s voice, singing.
My shoulders relaxed, and I turned away. A singing Eva was a happy Eva, I’d learned after two years of living together. Her voice drifted through the shared wall between her closet and the kitchen as I poured coffee into my to-go mug, snatches of old Spanish folksongs belted out in her deep, imperfect but soulful way. When Eva sang in her first language, it meant she was especially content. That boy must have had to leave early for a job, I thought, fastening the lid on my coffee cup. Likely he’d said goodbye to her before she’d gotten up to dress for work. I was probably worried over nothing, as usual. I hoped this one would work out for Eva. Maybe she’d finally have a relationship that lasted longer than six weeks.
One glance at the wall clock made me rush for the door. As I bounced down the stairs, I couldn’t shake that naggy-twisty feeling in my gut that there was something not quite right about that boy. But I couldn’t figure out what had triggered it. Telling myself I’d call Eva on my lunch break, I stepped outside into the warm Indian summer morning, the cheerful blue September sky at odds with my uneasy heart.
I arrived at the dingy office building on West 37th Street exactly, to the minute, on time. When I strode in, my boss, Reggie, had his feet propped up on his filing cabinet. A banquet of breakfast items was scattered across the desk. I’d learned already that Reggie did not begin the work of the day until he’d consumed at least one egg sandwich, a large coffee stretched to two cups with about a carton of heavy cream and a fresh-squeezed orange juice. Only when proteined, carbed and caffeinated could the mind properly begin its work, Reggie always said. His fuzzy, caterpillar-like eyebrows twitched up as I walked through the door. For a moment, seeing his eagerly expectant face, I almost forgot about the knife under my pillow.
“Mab, glad you’re here. We got a new case,” he said excitedly, his mouth still full. “Breakfast sandwich?”
“Sure.” I acquiesced to the overstuffed everything bagel in his proffered hand, and took a seat in the chair across the desk from him.
As Reggie thoughtfully chewed, I let my breakfast sandwich sit there in its foil wrapper for a moment, twisting my hands beneath my desk. I wished I could tell him about the knife. Eventually I would have to say something, when I asked for the time off from work to go visit the Vale, but I wished I could tell him where I was really going. That could never be, though. Reggie was the last person on earth I could ever imagine believing in magic. Actually, that was the reason I liked him: his charm was in his earthiness, his humanity. But it did make some things difficult.
“Eat up, Mab, gotta clear this away in fifteen minutes. She’ll be here soon.”
He threw away the remains of his breakfast, wiping the grease stains from his fingers on a paper napkin.
“Who will be here?” I asked, digging into my sandwich.
“Our new client. From the little bit she told me on the phone, I think this will be the perfect first independent case for you. The girl is around your age. Not the one who’s coming, that’s her mother. But the daughter is twenty-something.”
“Not another missing-persons case, is it?” I asked, grimacing, thinking of our last case. That poor girl had been found dead.
“No, this one is alive. So you can talk to her. That’s why I think it’s a perfect match for you. Maybe you can get her to open up to you.”
I leaned in closer to the mahogany desk, excited to hear more. This was the work I was really cut out for—detective work, not becoming the next Fairy Queen.
“What’s the case about?” I asked.
Reggie frowned. “I’ll let the mother explain it when she comes in. She wasn’t entirely forthcoming over the phone.”
He was just finishing the words when the buzzer rang.
“Boy, is she ever punctual,” Reggie exclaimed, looking at the clock and giving his fingers a final wipe with a paper napkin. I quickly discarded the remains of my sandwich as he picked up the phone to let her in.
Moments later, a woman in her early fifties appeared at the glass door of Reggie’s office. She was impeccably dressed, in the sort of casual elegance that spoke of old money, affluence without the gaucheness of trying too hard. Her rumpled white linen blouse was deceptively informal, but the designer sunglasses and red-soled shoes, with a matching handbag, made her money perfectly plain. She was in excellent shape for her age, her hair an artfully highlighted blond. She looked like she’d had a bit of work done on her face too—just a tad, not enough to seem unnatural. It gave a slight stiffness to her smile, though that could have been there to begin with. She greeted us cheerfully, but I detected the disparaging glance she gave to the tired, out-of-fashion sofa in Reggie’s waiting room.
“Good morning, I’m Brenda Sheffield.” She extended a pearly pink manicured hand, first to Reggie, then to me.
“Reggie Ruggiero.” Reggie shook her hand heartily.
“Mabily Jones.” I smiled.
Her fingers were weak in my grasp, and she fidgeted when I met her eye. This woman was nervous, really nervous. I could see it through her flutters of “Lovely to meet you.”
“Can I get you a coffee?” Reggie asked. “A bagel? We got bagels.”
“I’m fine.” The woman gave Reggie a tight-lipped smile, plastered over disgust, that said, I don’t eat that sort of thing. I subsist entirely upon organic mesclun greens.
The three of us stood around awkwardly for a moment, till Reggie took a seat behind his desk. I assumed my usual seat beside him, and Brenda daintily lowered herself into Reggie’s client chair. She seemed distinctly uncomfortable and kept glancing through the glass doors into the lobby, as if she was worried someone would walk in and see that she was here. There was a slight redness around her perfectly contoured cheekbones, and I didn’t think it was sunburn: it was shame.
“So, Brenda,” Reggie began, breaking the awkward silence. “What can we help you with? You said on the phone about your daughter . . .” His voice trailed off, waiting for her to speak.
But the woman didn’t answer. She flinched ever so slightly. Then she turned her head to the window, facing away from us. It struck me as a shockingly rude gesture from someone who seemed so intent on being polite.
And then I saw her shoulders were shaking.
There was a little hushed peep, like the cry of a smothered baby bird.
And that’s when I realized she was sobbing.
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry,” she managed to say, the words hiccupped and choked through her tears.
Reggie and I both reached for his silver plated tissue box at the same time, banging knuckles.
I plucked one out and offered it to her.
She snatched it quickly from my hand. When she finally looked up at us, her face was flushed red in clear embarrassment.
“I’m so sorry,” she muttered again.
“Please don’t apologize. There’s no need,” I said gently. It had always bothered me how much human women apologized. And it bothered me more how the habit had rubbed off on me during my time as a human.
She blew her nose as daintily as one could blow one’s nose, which was not very.
“I’m sorry,” she said again, “it’s just . . . I don’t do this. Ever. Well, not in public.”
I offered her another tissue, and held my breath for what she would say next. I knew it had to be bad if she was letting us see her this vulnerable. I may have known Brenda Sheffield for all of three minutes but I knew she was telling us the truth: this was not a woman who let her emotions show easily, and definitely not with strangers. Something must be deeply wrong in this woman’s life, and I felt guilty for having judged her about her shoes.
At last Brenda collected herself.
“Something is wrong with my daughter,” she
said quietly.
“What’s going on?” I asked.
Brenda shook her head. “I don’t know. That’s why I came here. My friend Jessie Goldstein recommended you. I know you had great success when her husband, well, you know what he did . . .” Her voice trailed off. “I just . . . I don’t know where else to turn.”
“Tell us a little more about your daughter.” Reggie cast me a quick glance and I could tell he knew I was studying him, absorbing the way he handled clients, the way he questioned them, so that I could eventually do it on my own.
Brenda’s face brightened at the mention of her daughter, though there was still pain behind her eyes.
“Our daughter, Quinn, is twenty-one. She’s a senior in college at Vassar. Or she was. Until recently. She dropped out halfway through her last semester.”
Oh man, I thought. That must have been tough on her parents. The Sheffields, at least going by her mother, did not seem like the type of people who had a child drop out of school.
“But that’s not even what has me worried. I mean, it’s Quinn’s life; she can live it however she wants.” There was something a bit forced in Brenda’s voice when she made this statement. “But what has us concerned is that Quinn’s whole personality . . . it just changed overnight. It’s terrifying. For the past few months, Quinn has just laid in bed all day. She won’t come out of her room. She won’t go to class. She won’t speak to her friends. She won’t even speak to me. She’s catatonic.”
“Mrs. Sheffield, if I may?” Reggie interrupted her gently. “I’m not sure if we, as a private detective agency, are really the best party to help you, or your daughter. You should probably talk to a different kind of professional about this, a doctor, maybe, or . . .”
I knew he was about to say “a psychiatrist” and clearly Brenda knew that too, because she interrupted him, shaking her head almost violently.
“Don’t you think I’ve tried that already?” she said harshly. When I flinched, the tone was instantly gone, replaced by her previously demure expression. “I’m sorry, it’s just . . . we’ve been to see everyone: doctors, therapists, psychiatrists, neurologists. None of them have been able to help.”
