by Field, Mark
Along the way, Buffy’s statements to Lily could really apply to herself, while Lily suggests that Buffy actually has brought this on herself (as, to some extent, she has):
“Lily: …Why would this happen to him?
Buffy: That's *not* the point. (Lily calms a bit) These things happen all the time. You can't just . . . close your eyes and hope that they're gonna go away.
Lily: Is it 'cause of you?
Buffy: (confused) What?
Lily: You know about . . . monsters and stuff. You could have brought this with you.”
Lily, like Buffy, is trying to deny her authentic self, an attempt the name changes make obvious for both of them. Joyce asked Giles, “And who, exactly, is she [meaning Buffy]?” The question seems ironic because of her name change, but the very next scene will begin to answer the question. Lily came up and started to address her with her real name: “Buff—“.
Joss set up Buffy’s decision to reclaim her identity as the ultimate test of existential authenticity. Remember this quotation from my post on Lie to Me:
“A critical claim in existentialist thought is that individuals are always free to make choices and guide their lives towards their own chosen goal or "project". The claim holds that individuals cannot escape this freedom, even in overwhelming circumstances. For instance, even an empire's colonized victims possess choices: to submit to rule, to negotiate, to act in complicity, to commit suicide, to resist nonviolently, or to counter-attack.
Although external circumstances may limit individuals..., they cannot force a person to follow one of the remaining courses over another. In this sense the individual still has some freedom of choice.”
Buffy’s finds herself actually in the most overwhelming situation imaginable: she’s outnumbered, she’s trapped in Hell, and her potential allies have already given up. In the face of all this, she retains her freedom to choose; she just had to find it. Buffy definitively reclaims her chosen (heh) goal – her authentic self – when she makes the choice to fight, namely when she declares to the guard, in one of the show’s great moments, that “I’m Buffy, the Vampire Slayer.” Inspired by Buffy’s example, Lily then shows that she has the courage to make a choice of her own and push Ken off the ledge. And both of them find their way back to freedom as a result.
Two quick points:
Joyce blamed Giles for Buffy’s departure. This seemed pretty harsh to me when I first saw the episode, but it actually has some merit. Giles has been a secret influence on Buffy’s life, guiding her on a journey that excluded Joyce. And it was Giles who insisted, in Passion, that Buffy not tell her mother that she was the Slayer:
“Buffy: …I'm gonna have to tell her something. (sits on a wall and looks at Giles) The truth?
Giles: (approaches her, waving his finger) No. You-you-you-you can't do that.”
Buffy had to violate this instruction at the worst possible moment. That left Joyce in the position of reacting badly, for which she no doubt blames herself while she’s taking it out on Giles.
The attempts at slayage by Xander, Willow, Oz and Cordy raise an interesting question: Why not resoul all the vamps? After all, Willow just resouled Angel. I think there’s actually a reason beyond the fact that this would destroy the premise of the show. It can’t be done. It’s not even clear that Willow did the restoration spell herself, much less that she has the power to do it again. Unfortunately, the vamps still need to be slain.
Trivia notes: (1) “This time it’s personal.” comes from Jaws: The Revenge. (2) “What is Hell but the total absence of hope?” This is standard, among poets at least. The sign over the entrance to Hell in Dante’s “Inferno” reads “Abandon all hope, ye who enter here”. Also see John Milton, Paradise Lost, describing what Satan sees when he first opens his eyes in Hell: “No light, but rather darkness visible/Served only to discover sights of woe/Regions of sorrow, doleful shades, where peace/And rest can never dwell, hope never comes/That comes to all.” (3) The scenes in the factory pay visual tribute to the Fritz Lang film Metropolis. (4) There’s a visual joke at one point in the scene where Buffy is fighting the guards, as Buffy is holding both a hammer and a sickle, the symbols of communism or worker revolt against oppressive capitalism. I think the scene can be interpreted two very different ways, either as a revolt against capitalism or as Buffy seizing the symbols of the communist oppressors in order to liberate the workers.
Dead Man’s Party
I have a hard time writing about Dead Man’s Party because it’s one of two episodes in the entire series which I really dislike watching (the other being As You Were, if you must know). I wrote the following 9 years ago at ATPO, and my opinion hasn’t really changed:
“When something bothers me, people tell me I "must" talk about it or things will get worse. I find this untrue. I find that talking about it is, in fact, what makes things worse. It works much better for me to resolve things internally; that's the way I’m able to put them behind me and move forward. When Buffy ran away after Becoming 2, I completely identified with her and was (and still am) furious at Xander, Joyce, and Willow for their mis-treatment of Buffy upon her return.”
I’d be fine if the episode just presented 2 sides to the issue, with viewers free to take one or the other, but the whole episode, including its aftermath in later episodes, reinforces the message that Buffy was the only one in the wrong. I really can’t watch without getting mad about this.
That’s me following the plotline. If you have the same reaction I do, it may help to think of it in metaphor. In the metaphors I’ve suggested for the show, Xander represents Buffy’s heart and Willow her spirit. One way to read the episode is that Buffy’s heart and spirit are angry with her for abandoning her duty after Becoming. IOW, she’s guilt-tripping herself. An obvious example of this would be the dialogue right after the teaser, when she’s hesitating before knocking on Giles’ door:
“Buffy: What if he's mad?
Xander: Mad? Just because you ran away and abandoned your post and your friends and your mom and made him lay awake every night worrying about you?”
That certainly could be Buffy talking to herself. Try applying this to other confrontations and see if that helps.
Whether we think of it as plot or as a metaphor for internal guilt, we should analyze the behavior of the characters for what that says about them (or about Buffy’s conscience). I’ll try to summarize what I see as the key points.
Willow. Willow did three things wrong in this episode that I can see: (1) she flaked on her date with Buffy; (2) she didn’t listen to Buffy at the party, both metaphorically and in reality unable to hear her; and (3) she whined about life issues that are pretty standard for any teenager, while never even asking about the much more extreme trauma Buffy suffered (in part because of Willow herself) in Becoming 2.
That said, I do cut Willow some slack here. She may not have known that Buffy blamed herself for Willow’s injuries (Becoming 2: “I never should have let her do that spell. Angel must have known.”), even though we the viewers know that Angel did not know and the raid to get Giles wasn’t Buffy’s fault at all. Willow tried to resoul Angel because she thought that’s what Buffy wanted. She had no way to know that it worked out in the worst possible way. And the reason she didn’t know was not her fault at all, it was that Xander lied to Buffy. Buffy obviously couldn’t talk to Willow about the spell or its consequences if she thought that Willow really did want her to kill Angel as Xander told her. So Xander’s Lie drove a real rift between the two friends.
Joyce. Her biggest mistake was insisting on confronting Buffy in front of the entire party. She had the opportunity to raise her issues with Buffy at any time. She’s also the adult; she should know when and where to have such a discussion. She also unfairly criticized Buffy when she told her that “you made some bad choices” and might have to suffer “consequences” such as going to private school. Buffy’s “bad choices” aren’t what got her kicked out of school. That was a combination of her du
ty and the fact that Snyder is a “nasty little horrid, bigoted, rodent-man.”
Xander. Almost every single word he says to or about Buffy is utterly indefensible. The reason she couldn’t confide in anyone was largely the fact that his Lie to her separated her from her friends, particularly Willow. I don’t want to make this post tediously long, so I’ll limit myself to his worst example: “I'm sorry that your honey was a demon, but most girls don't hop a Greyhound over boy troubles.”
Word by word (almost): Xander hated Angel and certainly isn’t “sorry”; “honey” demeans her relationship with Angel and probably Buffy herself; Angel’s status was much more complicated than just that of “demon”; Buffy is not “most girls”; and “boy troubles” is so inadequate a description of what Buffy went through that I would have cheered if she actually had punched him right then.
That leaves us to consider Buffy. In fairness I ought to give both sides of this, and my bias is pretty obvious, so I’m going to quote a discussion I had years ago with another ATPO poster and livejournal friend of mine, shadowkat. I’ll let her make the general case for Xander, Willow, and Joyce (somewhat edited) and of course repeat my response (also edited). Note that shadowkat wasn’t trying to defend every particular thing they said, just their general side of the case:
Shadowkat: “They saved the world with her in Becoming. At the end of that two-part episode: Xander barely got Giles out alive, Willow had just come out of a coma and did an amazingly difficult spell, and Joyce wasn't sure if her daughter had gone off to her death. Buffy just leaves Joyce a note that she's leaving. Buffy is 17 years of age and Joyce's only child….. Not sure if Joyce shared her note with them or not. Would assume so...but still. That just means, Buffy only saw fit to tell Joyce. Not them.
They have no clue if she's okay, what happened with Angel, etc. As far as they know she and Angel could have taken off together or Angelus kidnapped her. All they know at the end of Becoming Part II? Is the world didn't end.
All summer they fight vampires. Get injured. Try to make things work and try not to worry about Buffy. Has Buffy worried once about her friends? Not that we know of.
Has she thought about Giles? Not that we are aware of. All Buffy thinks about is Angel. She hasn't sent her mother a note saying she's okay or any word to Giles. Giles in fact has been traveling around looking for her - this we find out in Anne.
So Buffy comes back to Sunnydale. She expects everyone and everything to be the same as she left. Sorry doesn't happen that way. Part of life is dealing with change and dealing with the consequences of leaving without any word or note. Also realizing that other people and their problems no matter how seemingly trival can be important. She was needed and loved by her friends as more than just the slayer. In Dead Man's Party she begins to realize that.
She tells them little. They on the other hand reveal quite a bit of how they feel. And to their credit? They attempt to deal with her. But Buff is not the sort to discuss her problems. She contains everything and wants to move forward without talking about it. Makes sense - after all up until Becoming she had to keep the whole slaying gig a secret from her mom. So discussing things? Just does not come naturally. This causes all the pent up emotions that everyone is trying to contain to erupt. Like they always do. In a very bad way.”
Me again:
“The problem I have is not that Buffy was completely in the right (she wasn't), but that her friends were so clearly in the wrong.
The main problem was this: not one of them tried to find out what had happened in the mansion or to understand what might have caused her to flee. They never even asked. They were all accusatory (Xander) or self-centered (Willow). And not once did they stop to consider that their own actions may have contributed to the problem.
As for Buffy, I think her silence about Angel was the right approach. She knew her friends had tried to help. If she told them that their "help" was actually a disaster, that wouldn't change the result but it might make them less willing to help in the future.”
Shadowkat: “Actually I think they did try to find out. Remember that scene towards the beginning where they are all hanging out at Giles' apartment?
“Oz: Hey, so you're not wanted for murder anymore.
Buffy: Good. That was such a drag.
Xander: So where were you? Did you go to Belgium?
Buffy: (gives him an odd look) Why would I go to Belgium?
Xander: I think the relevant question is why wouldn't you? (smiles hugely and giggles) Bel-gium!
They both laugh.
Buffy: What about you, Xander? What's up with you?
Xander: Oh, you know, same old, same old.
Cordelia: Hardly.
Xander: Okay, I lied, a whole lot is new.
Buffy: Well, that's good, isn't it? New is good.
Cordelia: So were you, like, living in a box, or what?
Buffy: Well, it's a long story.
Xander: So skip the heartwarming stuff about kindly old people and saving the farm and get right to the dirt.
Giles: Perhaps Buffy could use a little time to adjust before we grill her on her summer activities.
Buffy: What he said.
Xander: Fair enough. In fact, you can leave the slaying to us while you settle in. We got you covered.”
See? Xander asks twice and she fluffs it off. I doubt she told them much of anything. They may have assumed she had a great time in LA when they were worrying about her.”
And I get the last word ‘cuz this is my book:
“No. My point was that no one asked what happened in the mansion. What Xander asked, twice, was where she went/what she did over the summer. Not the same thing.
What Buffy did over the summer (waiting tables in a cheap restaurant) was not very interesting from an outsider's perspective. What she was really doing was trying to come to terms with the fact that she had been left with nothing but herself:
Whistler: In the end, you're always by yourself. You're all you've got. That's the point.
That wasn't something she could tell Xander then or ever. But it also wasn't the key point in Xander's misbehavior in DMP. That had to do with Angel. And here's what Xander had to say [see “sorry your honey was a demon” line discussed above].
Doesn't sound like much effort on his part to understand. And that's leaving out his betrayal of her in Becoming.
As for Willow, she didn't come to the room to understand, she came to accuse Buffy of ignoring Willow's problems [discussed above].
I know Xander and Willow were both 17. I just don't think that gives them any more of an excuse than it gives Buffy.
I'm not saying that Buffy was entirely in the right. She wasn't. But Buffy is shown to be entirely in the wrong, and, worse, accepting that conclusion:
Buffy: I am sorry.
Willow: It's okay. I understand you having to bail. I can forgive that. Mm, I have to make allowances for what you're going through a-and be a grownup about it. (gives Buffy a slightly smug look)
Buffy: (smiles) You're really enjoying this whole moral superiority thing, aren't you?
Willow: (smiles) It's like a drug!
Buffy: Fine! Okay. I'm the bad.
It's that combination of misbehavior by her friends and Buffy (as usual) taking the blame that makes the episode so difficult.”
In comments, local-max made some excellent points which I’ll incorporate (slightly edited) as well, along with my response:
“I'm sympathetic to the Scoobies here, though I think they are ultimately more in the wrong than Buffy is. I think the most essential point for explaining (not justifying, explaining) their behaviour is that Buffy's having left them for months convinces them, as Shadowkat points/pointed out, that Buffy doesn't really care about them. Buffy has, in a sense, all the power in her relationships with those around her -- from their perspective. She can up and leave at any time, and they can do nothing about it; they are dependent on her, emotionally, and to give their lives meaning, in a way she isn
't on them. And I do think, ultimately, that to every one of the characters here, Buffy is more central to their lives than they are to hers: Buffy is Willow and Xander's idol, and indeed the *only* important person in Joyce's life, save Pat, who dies at the episode's end. That's a very hard thing to live with, and they all, of course, deal with it badly.
Mostly, I think that the episode comes across the way it does because of the strong Buffy POV we are given. We see Buffy suffering; the Scoobies don't. We don't really see the Scoobies' inner lives, though we get glimpses of them. The reason why I believe that this is important is that the central reason people are upset with Buffy is that they realize here that they are basically supporting players in Buffy's story, to be discarded and then picked up at will. This is something that leads to a dependency on Buffy which is quite unhealthy and causes many of their problems….
Willow, I think, stands Buffy up out of fear of rejection, which can be overpowering. And when she finally comes to see Buffy, I really don't think she is coming there to tell Buffy that she wished Buffy were there for her. I think she was coming there to try to talk to her, to communicate, to see where she was -- and then Buffy was packing up to *leave*. To leave them again, to prove Willow's fear that she's just stopping off before the next abandonment. And indeed, Willow's reason for bringing up her own reasons for needing Buffy are partly selfish, but there is another layer to them too: Buffy had just indicated that she knows that Willow stood her up because she was worried about her, and Willow is trying to get across that she has her own inner life, one which she feels that Buffy doesn't care about. Buffy doesn't owe it to Willow to care about her when her problems are that much bigger, but it happens to run across her biggest fear, which is that people will ultimately come to their senses, decide she is a loser, and leave her.”
