My connection to Devin faltered and terror began to rise in me. I couldn’t look away from Alex. Why did he look so worried? So...scared? My breathing became short and my heart raced in my chest. The concern and tenderness that Alex emanated made Devin’s love look counterfeit.
No, that can’t be right. Devin loves me. He will protect me and care for me. Alex is a stranger. He’s dangerous.
I forced my eyes away from Alex’s and looked into Devin’s black eyes. He was frowning slightly.
“Keep your eyes on me, Anna,” he murmured in a low voice. “I will give you the strength to walk through tonight. Anyone else will take it away from you, leaving you vulnerable.”
I willed myself to stay looking into Devin’s eyes as he brought the piercing gun to my right breast. He had to look away from my eyes as he positioned the gun properly, but I didn’t look away from him.
Alex will make me vulnerable. I never want to be vulnerable again.
Devin looked back at me. “Give me your pain, Anna,” he whispered and I felt a sharp stab in my nipple. Tears filled my eyes and I gasped and blinked, but didn’t look away from Devin.
Devin leaned forward to kiss me and I felt him take my pain and received his pleasure. Peace descended to my heart once more. Devin positioned the gun at my belly button and the stabbing pain came once more. This one wasn’t as bad, but tears still filled my eyes. Devin kissed me again, then leaned back to pull at the left outer lip of my pussy and position the gun
He looked into my eyes. “Mine,” he said firmly.
I nodded and he pierced the skin. If I could have made noise, I would have cried out. All I could do, however, was open my mouth and inhale loudly.
I began shaking and he stroked my cheek.
“Good girl, Anna,” he whispered. “Good girl.” He kissed me deeply and I felt his pleasure. “There is one more thing I must do and then I will perform our special ritual, okay?”
He pulled back and looked me in the eye. I nodded and blinked back tears of pain. I gave him a brave smile and he looked pleased. I wanted to ask if the ritual would hurt too, but I obviously couldn’t.
“Go sit between Wilhelm and Alex. I will get you when I’m ready.”
I stared at him. Go sit next to the man who makes me loose connection with you? Why? I want to stay near you!
I hadn’t moved and Devin frowned. I nodded quickly and stood with shaky legs. My new piercings stung. As I walked across the platform, the ring between my legs jostled and I winced. I carefully went to my knees and greeted Wilhelm with a bow.
I felt Wilhelm’s gentle hand on my head and looked up. His eyes were full of concern. He gave me a gentle smile and I looked back down at the ground and motioned to the spot between him and Alex.
“Devin told you to come sit between us?” Wilhelm asked softly, his brows raised slightly.
I nodded.
“Then do so. I would be honored to have you next to me, Anna.”
I smiled gratefully at him and sat on my heels between the two men. Wilhelm petted my hair briefly then removed his hand.
I looked subtly up at the platform where two young men stood naked. Two women sat at their feet and Devin stood between them. He was saying something about new brothers.
I felt a large but gentle hand on my head. I thought it was Wilhelm again but then I realized the angle was wrong. It was Alex? My eyes closed involuntarily and I felt warmth from his hand spread through my body. The pain from the piercings lessened as the warmth spread.
What is going on? What is Alex doing to me?
Alex’s touch distracted me from Devin’s words. I tried to concentrate, but Devin’s voice faded and all I knew was Alex’s hand on my head and his comforting, yet disturbing, presence next to me. I felt soothed, not only from the pain, but from the reality of my life itself.
No! Alex will hurt me. Alex will take me away from Devin.
I knew I needed to maintain my connection with Devin and wanted to lean away from Alex, but I was afraid to move for fear of upsetting Devin. I dug my fingernails into my palms, trying to distract myself from Alex, but it was becoming increasingly difficult as the minutes passed in close proximity of Alex.
Abruptly, Alex removed his hand and Devin’s voice slowly came back into focus. I opened my eyes and blinked, trying to orient myself.
Devin was standing in front of a man in his mid-twenties holding the piercing gun. The man’s cock was erect. Devin took it in his hand and pressed the gun to the crest of the other man’s cock. I heard a click and the younger man hissed. A moment later, the gun was removed and he had the double-ring piercing of the Brotherhood.
Another man was sitting on the step with a woman next to him, stroking his cock. I could see that he already had his piercing. Two other women emerged from another side door holding blue robes. The newly arrive women and the others worked to put the robes on the men and then the men went to stand next to Devin.
“Let us welcome our new Brothers, Quinn and Shawn,” Devin announced. There was a loud round of applause. The women escorted the new Brothers off the platform.
Chapter 20
Ian was suddenly in front of me. I looked up at him and he reached out his hands to help me to my feet. He led me across the platform to Devin.
Devin stepped in front of me and looked at me intently. I blinked, uncertain of my connection to him. He frowned and glanced behind me, then looked back into my eyes. He gave me a tender smile and then kissed me. When he pulled away, I was confident of him again.
Devin took my hand. “Lie down on the table, Baby.” He kissed my forehead and walked to the front of the platform, speaking to the rest of the men.
I did as instructed and Ian chained me, spread eagle, to the table. The metal dug into my ankles and wrists and I winced.
Ian stepped between my knees and looked at me apologetically and I felt something cool in my pussy. He walked around to my right side and gave me a shot in my upper arm. A few minutes later my pussy began to sting at the same time I began to feel loopy. The stinging inside me felt slightly familiar, but my brain was getting fuzzy and I couldn’t concentrate on anything. I closed my eyes when the room began to spin.
I heard Devin speaking at the front of the platform. I heard a strange bleating noise from the direction of the eagle. Did I just hear a goat? No, I must be imagining things.
Devin turned back to me and stepped close to stroke my cheek. I tried to look at him adoringly but didn’t know if I succeeded. He gave me a strange smile and trailed his finger down in between my breasts. He leaned to take my unpierced nipple into his mouth.
I gasped with pleasure and thrust my chest up, wanting more. He obliged and brought his hand around to caress my tender right breast. He bit my nipple hard but it aroused me even more. He squeezed the freshly pierced nipple in between his hard knuckles and I gasped in pain, but I could feel my arousal increasing.
“Are you ready to become completely mine, Baby?” Devin whispered into my ear.
I nodded absently. My thoughts were blurred and disconnected. He trailed his fingers down my ribs and stomach to my swollen pussy. Oh, I want him inside me. I squirmed as he caressed the outer lips and then gasped as he brushed my clit.
He moved his finger down and pressed forward. A sharp pain exploded in my body and I inhaled sharply at the pain.
“Good,” He murmured. “Almost ready.” He walked away.
The pain had cleared my mind for a moment and I remembered why the stinging felt familiar. He’d used it when he punished me for my suicide attempt.
Oh, God, no! Please not that.
He had used a cream to tighten my vaginal muscles to the point where a small finger inserted hurt. It was more painful than the first time he had sex with me. The cream didn’t allow my muscles to relax; I stayed tight until it wore off, hours later.
Tears stung my eyes. Why? Why is he punishing me? I’ve tried so hard to be good. I strained against my bindings and saw Devin look over at me and smil
e.
Why does he look pleased that I’m uncomfortable? I thought he loved me. No, I know he loves me. He said tonight would hurt...then everything would be perfect. Give him my pain...I just have to make it through a little bit more. I can do this.
My brain went fuzzy again and I couldn’t concentrate on anything for long. I closed my eyes, afraid, but I couldn’t remember what I was afraid of. I tried not to think of anything and almost succeeded.
Suddenly the overhead lights went out. Only the fire at the back of the platform gave light to the room. I heard a strange sound. Almost singing, but not quite. My mind began to clear. Chanting, I concluded. It sounded like Devin.
I heard the bleat of what I had assumed was a goat, a swiping sound and then a dull thud followed by silence. Devin, Jack wearing a blue robe, Alex, and a man in a green robe that I didn’t know approached the table. Devin stood at my feet. Jack was to my right, Alex to my left and the unknown man at my head. Ian stood a few feet behind Devin, his face impassive as he looked at me.
I tried to control my fear as I lay there watching Devin. He stared at the contents of the black stone bowl for a moment then looked at me. His dark eyes flickered in the firelight. I stared back, unable to look away.
He held the bowl above his head, murmured something, and then lowered it and tipped it back to drink. He pulled the bowl away from his mouth and passed it to Jack, who looked at me with a smirk on his face. Jack lifted the bowl to his lips and grimaced slightly. He drank and then passed it to the unknown man. The unknown man drank and then passed it to Alex. Alex tensed as he took the bowl and hesitated for a moment, then closed his eyes and drank.
Alex lowered the bowl and had a determined look on his face. I felt my head being raised off the table and Alex put the bowl to my lips. There was a thick, dark liquid inside.
“Drink,” Alex said gently.
I looked up at him fearfully and he gave me an encouraging smile. I felt uncertain as I looked at him, his eyes were sad and sympathetic. “Open,” he said quietly.
I opened my mouth and a warm, metallic-tasting, thick liquid was poured into my mouth, enough to fill my mouth. I tried to swallow and sputtered. Red drops splatter on my breasts.
Did I just drink blood?
I closed my eyes and coughed, shuddering at what I’d just done. A gentle hand brushed my left temple.
Just a little while longer. Then I’ll be completely Devin’s. I won’t have to worry about anything....
I opened my eyes as Devin began to chant again. He held the bowl above his head and then lowered it to take another drink. I was afraid I’d have to take another drink, but he handed the bowl to Ian who set it on a table behind him.
As he was chanting, Devin began stroking my legs. My body began to feel light. The other men stepped back and Devin made his way around the table, chanting and skimming his hands all over my body. I began to get dizzy again. He returned to my head and placed his hands on either temple, chanting all the while.
I looked up at my beloved Devin and terror gripped my heart. Gone was the gentle loving look that he’d given me only minutes before. His eyes were black and cold. Hard and full of hate. His lips curled into a sneer. He looked at me as if he were going to consume me from the inside out.
I tried to look away. To turn my head or close my eyes. He held my head still. Inside my head, I screamed for help. He smirked as if he could hear my internal panic.
I didn't want to do this. I wanted to run away. I strained against the manacles, feeling the metal cut into my wrists, but I could only look up into Devin’s cruel black eyes. I felt like I was floating up to him. My mind drifted and he grabbed hold of it, wrenching it from my will. I stiffened and I let out a grunt. I began to tremble and watched fearfully as Devin walked back to my feet, fingers trailing down my body to my legs.
I couldn’t stop shaking. My heart raced so fast and so hard that I was afraid it would explode. Dread filled me as Devin stood at the end of the table. The chains holding my wrists loosened and he pulled my hips down to the edge of the table.
No! I screamed inside my head. Devin's not safe! Devin will hurt me! I don't want this! My heart was in my throat. I yanked against the restraints, willing my voice to work so that I could scream.
With all my strength, I tore my eyes away from Devin and looked at Alex. My mouth gaped as I stared at him. Help me! He stared back at me, his eyes mirroring my fear.
I felt Devin’s cock at the entrance of my sex and tears filled my eyes, but I kept looking at Alex. I begged him with my eyes. I didn't know him, but something told me that he could help me.
Suddenly, pain shot through my body as Devin rammed himself into me with one long thrust. My mouth opened in a silent scream and I arched my back completely off the table. Strong hands on all sides of my body pushed me back down onto the table. I resisted as hard as I could, but they were much stronger than I was. Devin thrust in and out and I thrashed my head from side to side. Inside my head, the screams were unbearable. Outside I was silent.
After an eternity, I heard Devin cry out and stiffen. A few moments later I felt him withdraw. He sneered at me and he turned away to face the men in blue robes.
Betrayal stabbed my heart. My pussy burned and tears rolled down my cheeks. The hands that had held me slowly removed the pressure. Devin moved to the front of the platform, grinning, but not nicely.
A large hand brushed my forehead and I turned my head to see Alex looking down at me. His beautiful cobalt-blue eyes were wide with shock. My eyes filled with tears as we stared at each other. I knew he would have done something if he could have.
My mind began to go fuzzy again. My eyes drooped and I was feeling sleepy. Goodbye, Alex. He seemed so far away and moving farther as the seconds passed. As my eyes closed, I saw a look of determination on his face. He moved above my head and put his large hands on my temples, much like Devin had.
I half-opened my eyes and I could see his mouth moving but his voice was fading into the distance. My eyes fluttered again as I felt my mind going blank.
I faintly heard Alex say, “Stay with me, Anna.” My name sounded nice coming out of his mouth.
He looked anxious. Suddenly the same floating sensation flowed over my body and the overwhelming mind-meeting sensation brought me fully awake and made me grunt.
He kissed my forehead and then moved to the foot of the table. I looked at him, eyes widening and fear filling me as I realized what he was going to do.
I shook my head mutely.
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Devin turn around to see what was going on. In my mind’s eye, I could see his face was first surprised, then shocked, then full of rage as he took steps towards Alex.
“Forgive me, Schatzi.” Alex’s voice caught my attention. A pained expression entered his eyes and then he gritted his teeth. “Forgive me,” he repeated.
In my head I saw Devin lunge towards us just as I felt pain explode between my legs. It felt like I was being ripped apart.
I faintly heard Devin scream “No!” over the internal scream in my head.
My body convulsed and shook. Alex held my hips down as he thrust in and out of me. Tears streamed down my face and I tried to pull away. Why was he doing this to me? I thought he felt bad for what Devin did to me? Why is he doing the same thing?
I thrashed my head from side to side. Oh! The pain was unbearable. My body arched off the table and Alex moved one hand between my breasts, holding me down.
Oh, God. When will it end? Pain shot through my body with every thrust. I knew my body wouldn’t shut down and remove the pain. The cream was designed to prevent that sort of relief. Devin had told me so himself the first time he used it on me.
Devin stood frozen to my left, horrified shock on his face.
I heard Alex groan. He gave one last thrust and then pulled out, chest heaving and head resting on my knee.
I hurt all over and I sobbed silently. What is going on? Why did Alex do that to me? I pulled weakly
at my wrist and ankle restraints. I wanted to curl up into a ball but couldn’t move. My struggle seemed to bring Alex back to awareness.
He straightened and looked at me, tears in his eyes. Tears? What are they for?
Alex looked at Devin and they stared at each other for a long minute. I could feel Devin’s wrath radiating from him. Then he plastered a fake smile on his face and turned to face the rest of the room. “Enjoy the girls, my Brothers.” The lights came up and male and female voices rose and filled the room.
Alex pointed behind me. “Get me a blanket,” he commanded. His voice was firm, not to be questioned.
Jack squeaked behind me. “What?”
Alex gritted his teeth. “Get me a fucking blanket for her or I’ll break your fucking neck.”
Shock momentarily erased the pain in my body. No one talked to Jack that way. I looked at Alex in awe. What power did he possess to make Jack squeak?
Devin turned back around to face Alex with shock on his face. He blinked and I could sense him trying to figure out what had just happened.
Alex glared at Devin as he freed my ankles from the restraints. He pushed Devin out of the way as he moved up to my arms. He unfastened my wrists and brought my arms slowly down to my sides. I hissed in pain as my muscles cramped from the movement.
“I’m sorry, Schatzi,” he said quietly as he massaged my shoulders.
My body hurt all over, but where he touched me, the pain seemed to subside. He picked me up and sat on the floor behind the table, cradling me against his chest.
“Shhh, Schatzi,” he whispered. “It will be okay.”
His embrace felt wonderful. I was shaking and hurting, but being in his arms was somehow soothing.
“What the fuck did you just do?” Devin stood above Alex and glared down at him. His voice was deadly low, his rage just barely contained. The force of it threatened to suffocate me.
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