Playing with Fire: A Single Dad and Nanny Romance (Game Time Book 1)

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by Alix Nichols


  Am I considering it? Maybe.

  Freja is. What with being a citizen of the European Union, she doesn’t need a work permit for France. If I decide to try my luck here, I’d have to deal with the catch-22 situation other non-European students have warned me about. It goes like this. When you apply for a work permit, you’re told you must have a contract first. So, you start looking for job… only to be told you need to have a permit before applying.

  It’s daunting just thinking about it.

  And, honestly, what chance do I have?

  Wouldn’t it be smarter to go back to Nepal and look for openings there? My certificate from Lesage and all the advanced techniques I’m learning will no doubt give me a considerable advantage. Launching my career in Nepal rather than in France would be a smart move.

  Problem is, Giriraj is waiting for me in Nepal.

  And Zach is here in France… avoiding me.

  What a mess!

  It’s Noah, not Zach, I should be thinking about.

  If only my mind had more control over my body!

  I contemplate all of that throughout the morning, unable to focus on my lessons. On the way to the chamber of commerce, located in the lovely Les Halles neighborhood, I share my doubts with Freja, leaving Zach and Noah out of the picture.

  “It will be much harder for you than for me to set up shop here,” Freja says, candid as ever. “But that doesn’t mean it isn’t worth a shot. When does your student visa expire?”

  “Next June.”

  “We graduate in December. That leaves you…”—she counts silently—“five months to try your luck. If it doesn’t work, you can always go back to Nepal and start over. What have you got to lose?”

  “Nothing,” I say.

  My heart.

  Freja gives me a little shrug as if to say “it’s a no-brainer” just as we come to the chamber’s entrance. We pass through the metal detector and head to the basement where our workshop will begin in a few minutes.

  When Freja and I enter the large room packed with people, we find two seats in the back. Facing the crowd of wannabe entrepreneurs are two serious-looking staffers. One of them sifts through his notes. The other is firing up her laptop and the projector. People in the audience open their notebooks and laptops to record the words of wisdom they’re about to hear.

  Freja and I do the same, our pencils sharp and our minds focused.

  “My name is Stanislas Balanchivadze,” the staffer with the notes says in a dull voice.

  Freja scribbles diligently.

  “What?” she says, smiling in response to my quizzical look. “He’ll appreciate my pronouncing his name correctly when I ask him a question.”

  I nod and make a mental note to learn some tricks from my clever friend.

  “This is an introductory lecture on starting a small business in France,” Stanislas says. “Feel free to jump in if you have a question.”

  The first slide his colleague shows us promises good things. It’s a photo of a smiling young woman in a green apron standing in front of a flower shop. The caption says, “Céline Mathieu, businesswoman, owner of Fleurs d’Inry.”

  I nudge Freja. “Inry—that’s my town! I mean, Zach’s town, where I live.”

  “You know the shop?”

  I shake my head.

  “This picture,” Stanislas says, “was taken two years ago. Last year, Céline Mathieu closed her flower shop and went back to her old job as a substitute teacher.”

  Freja and I exchange perplexed looks.

  Stanislas lets out a sigh. “All of you dream of becoming an entrepreneur, obviously.” He nods and sighs again. “But the truth is, it’s tough out there. Very tough. And it is my job to make sure you realize that.”

  “Isn’t his job to give us useful information to get started?” Freja whispers in my ear.

  “I’m sure he will, eventually,” I say, determined to stay optimistic.

  “Three years ago, Céline Mathieu quit her day job to pursue her dream,” Stanislas says. “She knew a good deal about flowers, and her parents and husband were able to support her financially, which is more than most of you can boast.”

  Freja hems. “I don’t like where he’s going with this.”

  “What Céline didn’t realize was the hours she’d have to put in over the first couple of years. With two young children and a husband who had a full-time job, she started to feel she was sacrificing her family life.”

  In the middle of the room, a woman raises her hand. “Are you saying young mothers shouldn’t do this?”

  “I’m saying they should be aware of what this would do to their family life.” Stanislas purses his lips. “There’s no such thing as family life balance when you start a business.”

  There are murmurs in the room, but no more questions.

  “Another thing you must realize is there are costs,” Stanislas says ominously. “Even if you’re starting small or from home, you’ll end up investing more than you’d planned.”

  “That’s why I’ll be doing this with a partner,” a man in the front of the room says.

  “Is he or she a friend?” Stanislas asks.

  “Yes, he is.”

  “Six months from now, he won’t be—mark my words.”

  “Our friendship is solid enough,” the man says defiantly.

  Stanislas shrugs. “Wait until you start arguing about money and blaming each other for your failures. Trust me, there’s a ninety-nine percent chance your friendship will be ruined.”

  “Are you saying it’s better to start out solo?” someone asks.

  “Not really.” Stanislas looks so depressed now I’d give him my last champagne truffle. “It’s lonely to do it solo. Especially if your business is a service that’s done online.”

  Freja rolls her eyes and sticks her pencil and notebook in her handbag.

  A few others do the same.

  Stanislas surveys the room and shakes his head. “Some of you seem disappointed to hear all of this. It’s understandable since you came here for a pep talk.”

  “I came here for guidance and tips,” a petite woman says, standing up to draw his attention. “Can you tell me how to go about finding a locale in Paris with at least four, preferably five, medium-sized rooms? I’m planning to open a language school for adults in January.”

  “Good luck with that,” Stanislas says. “I’ll eat my hat if you’ve found that kind of space inside Paris a year from now.”

  The woman sits down, frowning.

  “I’m not trying to scare you into giving up before you’ve even started,” Stanislas says.

  I perk up.

  “That’s exactly what you’re doing,” Freja mutters.

  “He just wants us to be realistic,” I say. “It’s a good thing, no?”

  “I just want to impress on you,” Stanislas says, “that you will most likely go under and call it quits in your second year after you’ve lost your family, money, and friends.”

  Freja turns to me, wide-eyed. “What the fuck?”

  I shrug. “No idea.”

  “Here’s a theory,” she says. “He started a business a few years back, and then all of those things happened to him. He lost everything. So, he had to go back to his old job teaching about how to start a business.”

  I smile, struggling not to let on how much this “introduction” has disheartened me.

  “Hey,” Freja says, patting my hand. “I don’t know about you, but I really need to see a screwball comedy now.”

  We grab our handbags and tiptoe out of the room with a few other wannabe entrepreneurs close behind us.

  Luckily, there’s a huge movie theater just five minutes’ walk from the chamber of commerce. We pick the least brainy movie playing this afternoon, buy our tickets and a big tub of popcorn, and prepare for an hour and a half of cheap thrills.

  Only I can’t focus on the movie.

  Poor Stanislas’s anti-pep talk did bring me down, no matter how hard I try to remind mys
elf I’m tougher than him, tougher than most of the people in that room. I’m a low-caste cobbler’s daughter from a shanty town on the outskirts of Kathmandu—not some pampered Parisienne who’s never seen hardship and who’d give up at the first serious obstacle. Aama and Baba didn’t raise Priyanka and me to expect things to be easy.

  Besides, I know from experience that good things do happen to people, even to the likes of me. Just the fact that I’m here in Paris, taking an expensive course at the most prestigious embroidery school in the world, is proof of that. It shows that gods—and humans as in Marguerite—can be magnanimous. It shows that the universe can be benevolent. There’s no question in my mind that a Dalit girl can enjoy some luck. The question is how far can she push it?

  I say a quick prayer to Lord Ganesh and then to Goddess Lakshmi and try to concentrate on the movie.

  But nothing doing—my attention wanders again, this time to Zach.

  It’s been three weeks since the “truffle incident.” Both of us have been acting like it never happened, but it’s getting harder and harder to do that, at least for me.

  Every time I look at him, I remember the exquisite sensations that coursed through me when he held me and the way my body responded to his touch. Instead of moving away, I sought more contact, I needed more contact. I was ready to allow him more.

  Much more.

  My heart quickens, just thinking about it. All I need to do is picture his arms around me, hugging me tight, and his chest pressed against my back, and I know.

  I want him.

  When the movie is over, Freja and I head to the left bank of the Seine near Jussieu where we meet up with her gang. My well-informed friend has discovered a lively open-air “dance floor” on the river’s edge where people gather May through September for improvised outdoor parties.

  When we get there, funky sixties music is playing, and couples whirl in the center while groups of people stand around nursing their drinks, watching, and chatting. There’s a carefreeness and childish joy in the air that reminds me of Renoir’s Bal du moulin de la Galette that Freja and I saw at the Musée d’Orsay last weekend.

  Ariel, a Spanish guy from our group, holds his hand out to Freja as soon as the music changes. “You said you could tango.”

  She gives him a sly smile and takes his hand. “I did.”

  My jaw drops when the pair of them begin to move with such grace and coordination you’d think they did this for a living. A part of me envies their European polish and savoir faire, but mostly I’m just awed by how good they are at the tango.

  When a man tries to pull me into the dancers’ circle, I shake my head and explain that I prefer to watch. Truth is, I’m so bad at dancing, I only do it on my own or with Sam. The man tries to persuade me, gives up, and finds another partner.

  As dusk falls, bright lights go on in the buildings on the other side of the river and on the passing boats. I listen to the music, watch Freja and Ariel dance, and wish Zach was here by my side, holding me.

  Stroking me gently.

  Kissing me.

  NINE

  Zach

  I hang up with my web developers and spend a moment considering if I should tackle the customer service issue that came up this morning.

  Maybe not.

  It’s Sunday about six in the evening, and I promised myself not to work Sundays.

  An hour ago, I called a cab to take Uma and Sam to Evan’s birthday party at an indoor activity park in the north of Paris. They should be there by now. Given that Evan’s parents have low-GI treats to put into Sam’s goody bag, Uma’s probably taking a break at a nearby cafe.

  Evan’s parents know what to do if Sam has a seizure, so I’m not anxious on that account. Neither do I worry Sam will be tempted to eat what he isn’t supposed to. He loves being seizure-free too much to take unnecessary risks.

  The plan is for Uma to have a drink and get some work done for her school project while Sam is at the party. At eight, I’ll pick them up and drive them home.

  That means I don’t have to leave until seven.

  Only, if I stay here, I know I’ll be less disciplined about avoiding work than Sam is about avoiding sugar. Why not join Uma at the cafe? I could have a beer and chat with her if she feels like it. I picture us sitting across from each other, talking. A whole hour of listening to her gentle voice and staring into her beautiful eyes, completely risk-free.

  For Uma, a cafe is a safer place to be around me than my house.

  I speed-dial her cell phone. “Would you care for company?”

  “If you promise not to distract me,” she says. “I’ll be graded on this project so my stitches must be perfect.”

  “I’ll bring a crossword puzzle to keep myself intellectually challenged.”

  She laughs. “I’ve never seen you do a crossword puzzle.”

  “The secret of getting ahead is in getting started,” I quote Mark Twain.

  She chuckles and gives me the name of the cafe.

  When I get there a half hour later, the first thing that strikes me is that the place is unusually dark. As I make my way through the crowded bar area, I notice something else. There are several couples kissing and touching near the front of the cafe, and there’s another couple perched on stools at the bar doing the same thing.

  All of them are same-sex.

  I spot Uma at the best lit table in the back, talking to a server. She holds her embroidery frame in one hand and points to a mug on the table in front of her with the other. “I’d like another tea, please.”

  “Sure thing, ma belle,” the waiter says, grabbing her mug.

  He wears a black leather cap, leather pants and a sleeveless leather jacket with metal zippers and no T-shirt underneath.

  “Wait!” Uma calls after him as he turns to walk away. “I changed my mind about the tea. I think I’d like something else for my second drink.”

  “Name your poison, honey.”

  “Hmm…” She pinches her chin. “Something hot… maybe—”

  “How about me?” He puts his right hand on his hip and gives her a sultry smile. “I’m hot.”

  Uma’s mouth falls open. She blinks, clearly taken aback, before comprehension flickers across her face. The poor darling’s just realized she’s in a gay bar.

  The waiter pouts. “Don’t look so scandalized.”

  “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to be rude.”

  The waiter’s expression softens.

  “You are very hot,” Uma says.

  “I know.” He grins. “This place, sweetheart,”—he points around the room—“is a haven of tolerance and open-mindedness.”

  She nods. “Of course.”

  “Our motto is, ‘Whatever lifts your rocket as long as it’s consensual.’ ”

  “That’s a great motto.”

  He points at the frame in her hands. “Some people, for example, get off on embroidery. And that’s OK. We don’t judge.”

  She grins, visibly relaxing. “You’re very kind.”

  “So, what shall I get you, babes?”

  “A cappuccino, please.”

  “You got it.”

  “And a Guinness for me,” I say, plonking myself across from Uma.

  The server nods and hurries away.

  Uma stares at me. “I didn’t see you walk in. How long have you been here?”

  “Couple of minutes.”

  “So, you witnessed my provincial dimness and my chastisement?”

  “I did.”

  She leans in, mischief brightening her eyes. “Do you mind starting on that crossword puzzle before the waiter comes back?”

  “Why?”

  “Misery loves company.”

  I arch an eyebrow. “In other words, you don’t want to be the only odd duck around here.”

  She nods.

  “I don’t have a crossword puzzle.” I spread my hands in apology.

  She sighs and packs her frame into her tote bag. “I guess we’ll have to talk, then.”r />
  The server returns with our drinks, and Uma gives me a quick account of the workshop she attended yesterday.

  I screw up my face in sympathy. “Lucky for me someone else taught the workshop when I took it a few years back. Your Stanislas might’ve discouraged me from trying.”

  She smiles. “I doubt it. No one can discourage you when you put your mind to it.”

  “Is that what you think?”

  She nods.

  We stare into each other’s eyes before I shift my gaze to my beer. “So, what’s your plan after December? Will you stay in France or go back to Nepal?”

  “If Stanislas is half-right, I’d better try my luck back home.”

  “Doing traditional embroidery?”

  “Not necessarily,” she says. “We have a burgeoning fashion industry and some up-and-coming designers I’d love to work with.”

  “Sounds great.”

  Not great. Not great at all.

  “It’s just…” She frowns. “When I go back to Nepal, my parents will expect me to marry Giriraj.”

  “Your wannabe fiancé.”

  She nods.

  “What about your real fiancé, Noah?”

  “He isn’t my fiancé.” She wrinkles her brow. “I mean, I don’t really know… We’ve never talked about it.”

  “I thought the two of you had an unspoken understanding.”

  She looks down and then up at me, smiling weakly. “Seeing as it’s unspoken, and as I don’t have mind-reading ability, I don’t know anything beyond what Marguerite tells me.”

  “What does she tell you?”

  “That Noah is in love with me.”

  Are you in love with him?

  If only I had the guts to ask that question! Instead, I gulp down my beer and gaze into Uma’s bottomless eyes, letting my misgivings and guilt dissolve in their depths.

  She holds my gaze.

  Slowly, the room and the people around us become a blur. Her delicate hands are flat on the table. So close. I’m dying to cover them with mine.

  God, she’s lovely. Unbearably, almost surreally lovely. She makes me think of candied ginger, sweet and spicy at the same time. I can almost taste it on my tongue as I look at her.

 

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