Bound by One Scandalous Night

by Diane Gaston

  She blushed. ‘I am happy. That is the reason.’

  Her husband approached. ‘How good you could come on such short notice. I am delighted we will have the evening together.’

  Glenville and Tess stepped aside.

  From a chair near the fireplace, another woman stood. ‘Hello, Edmund.’

  Amelie! He caught himself before he spoke her name aloud, bowing instead. ‘Miss Glenville. Good to see you again.’

  A memory of holding her in his arms, feeling her soft skin against his palms, her lips against his, slammed into him. He’d missed her, although why he should miss a woman he’d only spent a few hours with would make no sense to anyone.

  Except to him. Those hours together had had an impact that would never leave him. She was the inspiration for him to dare to make himself a success.

  She looked as beautiful as ever, but thinner. Paler.

  ‘You must call me Amelie.’ Even her voice seemed altered. Softer. Tenser. She made an attempt at a smile.

  Tess pulled him towards the sofa, near Amelie. ‘Come. Sit. Marc will pour you a glass of claret. You must tell me why you are in London and why you did not write to us that you were coming.’ She gave him a scolding look.

  He glanced at Amelie, who sat again, before turning to Tess. ‘I assumed you would be in the country.’ He assumed they all would be in the country.

  ‘Marc had some work to finish,’ Tess said. ‘And Amelie came for a visit.’

  Marc poured the wine and handed a glass to him and one to Tess. ‘That was why I was at Horse Guards.’

  Edmund tore his eyes away from Amelie. ‘Work brought you to Horse Guards?’ What sort of work at Horse Guards did a viscount’s heir perform?

  Glenville smiled. ‘Indeed.’ But he did not explain.

  It appeared Edmund and Amelie were not the only ones to keep secrets.

  ‘But why did you come to London, Edmund?’ Tess asked again.

  He took a sip of his wine and took one more glance at Amelie before facing Tess. ‘I sold my commission.’

  Her eyes widened. ‘You are no longer in the army?’

  ‘I sold out.’ He gestured to his clothes. ‘That is why I am not in uniform.’ He met Tess’s gaze, but wondered if Amelie even attended to his words. ‘Napoleon is defeated. The war is over. Without the war, there is no future for me in the army. Regiments will disband, I fear. There will be fewer and fewer opportunities to advance.’

  And who would promote a bastard when there were plenty of aristocratic sons wanting the higher ranks? When fighting in Spain, he’d been passed over for field promotions. Captaincies had been given to men with fewer skills and less seniority.

  ‘But what will you do?’ Tess asked.

  He could not resist a glance at Amelie, who sat primly, eyes lowered, hands folded in her lap. ‘I plan to return to Brussels.’

  ‘Brussels? With Mama?’ Tess’s voice rose.

  Tess and her sisters had not known their mother was in Brussels, let alone that Edmund had corresponded with her for several years and stayed with her when his regiment was sent to the area. Because of Edmund, Tess and Lady Summerfield had forged a reconciliation, albeit an ambivalent one. Unlike Edmund, Tess had not forgiven her mother for abandoning them.

  But this was not the time to discuss Lady Summerfield.

  ‘There are fortunes to be made on the Continent, now that the war is over,’ he said instead. And Count von Osten had a talent for finding them.

  ‘You sound like Papa,’ Tess accused.

  Their late father had always chased an easy fortune, finding instead only debts and failure. When his half-sister Lorene sent him money to purchase a captaincy, Edmund had been surprised there had been any money left to inherit. While Edmund recuperated in Brussels, he used that money, not to purchase an advancement in the army, but to make the very sort of investment his father might have made. Except, unlike his father, Edmund made good profits from taking the risk. Now that he’d sold his lieutenancy, he had even more money to invest.

  ‘I’ll do well enough, Tess,’ he assured her. ‘Besides, I only have me to worry over.’ Not a wife, three daughters and a bastard son, like their father.

  ‘No more talk of money,’ her husband said cheerfully.

  ‘Then tell me of Lorene and Genna,’ Edmund said, glad to change the subject. ‘Are they in London, too?’

  Their sister Lorene had married a very old man, a reclusive earl who lived near their village in Lincolnshire. She’d married him for his money, which seemed unlike her. Edmund had never met the man.

  ‘Lord Tinmore has retired to the country.’ Glenville’s voice rang with contempt. ‘He has filled Tinmore Hall with guests who are invited for the bird shooting.’

  ‘Guests?’ Edmund said. ‘I thought he was an old recluse. Was that not what was said of him when we were growing up?’

  ‘He probably has invited his eligible gentlemen friends in an effort to get Genna married off,’ Tess responded. ‘He is eager to be rid of her, I think.’

  ‘How old is Genna?’ Edmund asked. ‘Is she not too young?’ His eyes darted to Amelie again. How old was she? he wondered. Had she been too young? He’d not given that a thought that fateful night.

  ‘She is nineteen now.’ Tess rolled her eyes. ‘Plenty old enough, but she professes to be against marriage. She sometimes vows never to marry, but it is unlikely Tinmore will allow her that choice.’

  Edmund was alarmed. ‘Surely he will not force her!’

  Tess exchanged a look with her husband, who answered, ‘I fear Tinmore is capable of almost anything.’

  ‘What of Lorene?’ Edmund asked. Could he take care of both Lorene and Genna if it became necessary? ‘Does he treat her ill?’

  Tess shook her head. ‘He is indulgent of Lorene as far as I can surmise. She wants for nothing, but he wants Lorene all to himself, not shared with her sisters.’

  Edmund curled his fingers into a fist. ‘You will tell me if he mistreats either of them.’

  ‘We will not let them be mistreated,’ Glenville said emphatically.

  The butler entered the room to announce that dinner was served. Tess took Glenville’s arm. There was nothing for Edmund to do but offer to escort Amelie. Her graceful fingers wrapped around his offered arm.

  ‘How are you, Amelie?’ he asked in a lowered voice as they trailed behind Tess and Glenville.

  She raised her blue eyes to his for a moment but quickly averted them again. ‘I am well enough, I suppose.’

  She appeared altered, though, not full of sparkle and happiness like when he first met her in Brussels. She was different than when he’d made love to her, as well. She seemed...worried.

  In the dining room she was seated next to him, and he was aware the entire time of her closeness. He found himself wanting to see the expressions on her face to gauge how she was feeling.

  There were so many questions he wished to ask her. Was she ill? Was she still affected by Fowler’s behaviour in Brussels? Did she ever think of the night they’d spent together? If so, did she remember it as he did? As a transforming experience? Or did she feel regret, remorse, or worst of all, shame? Should he have left her at the hotel door?

  He hardly attended to the conversation at the table, hardly knew what he’d said to anyone. He’d talked about his investments, his plans to travel to wherever a fortune could be made. He and Glenville debated what countries that might be and also what the end of the war might mean to the economies of Britain, France and the rest of the Continent. If only he could remember what they concluded. A part of his mind had fixed on Amelie and would not let go.

  * * *

  Amelie made a show of eating, although she mostly pushed food around her plate. She’d not had an appetite of late. Would he notice?

  She’d
forgotten how handsome he was. Out of uniform in a beautifully tailored coat and trousers that showed his muscular legs, he was an impressive sight.

  Was he glad to see her? She could not tell. There was no way to talk to him alone, and she dared not reveal that she knew him a great deal better than Marc or Tess could ever imagine. Perhaps his reticence to even look at her was to help keep their secret. She hoped so. She hoped it was not that he disliked encountering her again.

  * * *

  After dinner he and Marc did not linger over brandy. Instead they all returned to the drawing room for more conversation.

  She’d thought she might never see Edmund again, thought he’d return to the army and be sent somewhere far away, but here he was and now she needed to make a decision. To speak to him now, to tell him of her—situation—or to have him find out later, perhaps in a letter from Tess.

  It had bothered her greatly that he would find out after the fact and not hear it from her own lips.

  He was here now, though. This might be her only chance.

  But how to speak to him alone?

  She could not think of any excuse to do so. He seemed not to pay her much mind, so would likely miss any hint she could try to send him to let him know she wanted to see him alone, with no one around. Just her and Edmund.

  Eventually she excused herself, saying she was going to bed. Instead she put on her cloak and sneaked outside. She’d stand in the chilly September air until he walked out the door.

  She waited in the stairs that led from the street to the servants’ entrance, hoping none of them opened the door and caught her there. The wind and damp seemed to find their way to her hiding place, making the minutes ticking by move even more slowly. How easy it would be to simply turn around and re-enter the house and tell herself she’d tried. He might stay for hours, might he not? Could she wait so long? Her feet, still in her dinner slippers, felt like ice, and her ungloved fingers trembled as they sought warmth in the recesses of her cloak. How long had it been? She tried to listen for the chiming of clocks, but all she could hear was the wind, an occasional carriage rumbling by or the chattering of her teeth.

  Finally she heard the front door open, and she emerged from her hiding place, stepping into the light cast by the rush lamps.

  He turned at the sound of her footsteps. ‘Amelie! What are you doing out here?’

  ‘I—I wanted to see you alone,’ she managed.

  He took hold of her arm and walked her back into the darkness. ‘Tell me truthfully, Amelie. How do you fare? Your brother said you were not doing well. Are you ill?’

  ‘I’m not ill,’ she said.

  ‘Do not tell me you are still affected by Fowler.’

  She almost laughed. ‘Certainly not.’

  ‘Then is it what transpired between us?’ He sounded distressed. ‘If so, I am so sincerely sorry—’

  ‘It is not that,’ she broke in. ‘At least not precisely.’

  ‘You must not allow that night to change you. You are still beautiful. More beautiful, in fact. There is no reason you cannot marry—’

  She cut him off again. ‘There is a reason, Edmund! A very important reason. That is why I contrived to see you alone. There is something I must tell you.’

  ‘What is it?’ His voice was tense. She could not clearly see his face.

  Her heart pounded painfully in her chest. She took a deep breath and said words she’d never until this moment spoken aloud.

  ‘I am going to have a baby.’

  Chapter Five

  The air was knocked out of Edmund’s chest.

  A baby.

  He knew efforts to prevent a baby were anything but reliable, but he’d ignored that. He’d allowed his passion to overtake him.

  ‘You might wish to ask if the child is yours,’ she said stiffly. ‘I assure you it is. And I am certain I am carrying a child. I have not had my courses since—since that night. I am sick every morning, fatigued all day, and I feel...altered. No one knows. Of course, they will discover it soon enough.’

  ‘A baby,’ he whispered.

  She lifted her chin. ‘Do not fear. No one knows of our meeting that night, and I will say nothing. You will be safe from blame. I am perfectly aware I was the cause of this.’

  ‘No.’ He knew who was to blame.

  She took a breath. ‘Well. There it is. That is why I wanted to see you alone.’

  She turned to leave, but he seized her arm. ‘Do not tell me such a thing and then leave.’

  ‘There is no more to say,’ she told him. ‘I ask nothing of you.’

  ‘Nothing of me?’ he repeated. She wanted him to have no part of it?

  Her eyes flashed. ‘I’ll not get rid of it, if that is what you are about to say.’

  He still gripped her arm. ‘I was not about to say that.’ He was about to ask her why she wanted him to have no part in a child they created together, why she did not see what they must do, even if she disliked it.

  ‘I do not yet know what I will do,’ she went on. ‘Perhaps my parents will send me to France. I have relatives there. I’ve never met them, but perhaps they will be accommodating.’

  He released her and paced in front of her, talking more to himself than to her. ‘You would give the baby away? Or pay someone to care for it?’ She preferred that?

  She shrugged. ‘I do not want to do either of those things, but I cannot imagine my parents allowing me to keep the child. Think of the scandal I would bring on them.’

  He came closer. ‘There will be scandal, no matter what.’ But he knew the right thing to do.

  ‘You need not worry about that,’ she said.

  He need not worry? He’d been born to scandal. He never worried about what people thought of him.

  Except for one person. He cared what Amelie thought of him, and it seemed she wanted nothing to do with him.

  He was so close to her now his body flared in response to her, betraying him as it had that night in Brussels. He again remembered how it felt to lie next to her, how it felt to be inside her.

  It wounded him that she did not want him to take responsibility for the child, but what did that matter? She must see there could be no other way.

  He began pacing again. ‘I can provide for the child.’

  ‘Money is no issue,’ she said. ‘I have an inheritance, and my father can easily pay.’

  ‘I am not speaking of money.’ He was speaking of what must be done.

  She cleared her throat. ‘I have no more to say. I—I thought it my duty to tell you. I truly ask nothing of you—’

  Before he could protest, before he could tell her what he thought they must do, no matter how distasteful to her, she turned and rushed down the servants’ stairs and into the house.

  She left him standing on the pavement. Alone.

  * * *

  Amelie closed the door and ran up the servant’s staircase to her bedchamber, fighting tears.

  There. She told him. She’d done her duty to him and assured him she would not use the child against him. No one would ever know it was Edmund’s child; no one but her. At least she could console herself that he would be free to live his life, to build his fortune, to have his adventure, like he’d spoken of at dinner with so much energy and passion. She would do nothing to stop him, nothing to spoil his happiness.

  She tore off her cloak and flung herself on her bed.

  If only he had not looked so handsome. If only he had yelled at her for being so foolish as to allow a baby to be conceived. If only he had not roused in her those wanton feelings. Goodness! Merely having his hands gripping her arms made her recall how those hands felt against her naked flesh. Even in her predicament, she’d yearned to couple with him again, to feel that intense ecstasy that he created in her.


  Well-bred young ladies did not feel such things. Well-bred ladies did not get themselves with child. They married for social advantage for their families and procreated to beget heirs, not because they craved a man’s touch and the thrill he could create. This was her downfall, certainly. If she had not been so wanton, she would not be in this fix, but she was determined she would not ruin his life along with her own.

  It was some consolation that she’d assured him of that fact.

  * * *

  Edmund returned to the Grosvenor Street town house at ten the next morning. As he announced himself to the footman attending the door, Glenville walked down the stairs.

  ‘Edmund!’ Glenville was, of course, surprised to see him. ‘You are back so soon. To what do we owe this pleasure?’

  Edmund had come to call upon Amelie, but to say so now would only cause Glenville to ask questions. He might as well provide the answers first.

  ‘A moment of your time?’ he asked.

  ‘Certainly,’ Glenville said, still sounding puzzled. ‘Come to the library. Would you like some refreshment?’

  ‘No,’ Edmund handed his hat and gloves to the footman. ‘Just a word with you.’

  Glenville gestured for Edmund to follow him. The library was behind the drawing room, in the back of the house. If the drawing room was designed to impress and entertain, the library was intended for comfort and solitude. It was lined with books and filled with comfortable chairs.

  Glenville lowered himself into one of them. ‘Please have a seat.’

  Edmund remained standing and debated how to start.

  Might as well charge ahead. ‘I came to ask for something which, no doubt, you will be unprepared to hear.’

  Glenville’s brows rose.

  ‘Actually, it is not something I think you can grant, but I owe you the courtesy of hearing it from me.’

  ‘And this is?’ Glenville asked.

  ‘I would like to pay my addresses to your sister.’

  Glenville’s eyes widened. ‘Pay addresses?’

  ‘Court her,’ Edmund went on. ‘Marry her.’