Paint It All Red (Mindf*ck Series Book 5)

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by S. T. Abby


  “Part of the reason you’re so fierce today is because of that girl. Pretending as though you were never her is one step closer to detachment from reality. It’s a dangerous slope.”

  She rolls her eyes, but a small smile forms on her lips, surprising me. I’ll never get tired of how she never reacts the way I predict. Half of the reason I fell so hard was the constant mystery cloaking her.

  Even as pieces of the puzzle continue to fall together, I’m still just as intrigued and mystified by her.

  “You sound like Jake,” she finally says, running her fingers through my hair as her legs tangle with mine.

  “I hope Jake never held this position while having this conversation.”

  She laughs, rolling her eyes again, and finally she sighs.

  “Jake is just a friend,” she says quickly.

  “So you’ve said.”

  She flashes that smile that is real and not weighted like all her other ones have been tonight. For some reason, she likes it when I get jealous.

  “My mother and father were peculiar people with varied interests. My brother always said they had ‘eclectic’ personalities.”

  It’s so out of the blue that I don’t know how to respond. Fortunately, she doesn’t need me to speak to continue her story.

  “They loved classical music, and hated that none of us had an ounce of musical talent. But they also loved their hard rock and jazz too. You’re supposed to be able to judge someone based on their taste in music—hence the reason my brother deigned them with the eclectic personality label.”

  Her smile grows.

  “They were this amazing team. Dad worked a thankless job as a janitor—the true reason I pieced together the Boogeyman’s cleaning background—and Mom was a coroner. She was such a perky person for someone who dealt with death every day, and I was a little too comfortable around dead people, since she often had to take me to work with her. They took turns cooking, and they cleaned together. No one was ever more important than the other.”

  Her eyes grow distant, as though she’s recalling a memory, and I watch her, unable to tear my own eyes away from her face. I’ve never seen such a serene look on her.

  “They’d dance,” she says, her eyes sparking back to life as she meets my gaze again and smiles.

  “Dance?”

  “Every night after we went to bed, they’d stand in the living room, put on a slow song, and dance.” She clears her throat as her eyes water. “Mom would always have her head on Dad’s chest, and he’d be holding her to him with his eyes shut as they swayed off-rhythm to the music. Mom could sing so well, and she’d often sing as they danced.”

  I brush a tear from her cheek with my thumb, and she leans into the touch.

  “I would sneak out just to watch them dance. Sometimes Dad would catch me, but instead of scolding me, they’d have me dance with them. Same for Marcus. Even Jake was invited into the dancing ring on the nights he stayed over. It was a time so perfect that it eventually had to end in tragedy. Good things have a lesser reign than the bad.”

  She exhales heavily, and she offers me a tight, less genuine smile.

  “They were really in love. That must have been nice to grow up in,” I say, trying to encourage her to continue.

  Her spark fades again as a coldness surfaces, confusing me.

  “You see something for so long, and you take it for granted. In our minds, Marcus and I believed a love like that was common, easy to find, and effortless. In our minds, falling in love with someone had to be the simplest thing in the world.”

  She presses her hand to my chest, holding it against my heart, and her eyes stay fixed there.

  “We didn’t know how messy love could be or how jealous people would lash out.”

  “Jealous people?”

  Her eyes come up, and she releases her hand from my heart. “Everyone was envious of what my parents had. My father was a lowly janitor, but he was handsome. My mother was beautiful, and her smile could save the lives of the almost-dead. She radiated purity and warmth. Everything the opposite of me.”

  “I’m sure there’s a little girl living with Lindy Wheeler who would object to that,” I remind her.

  Her eyes harden again, and I decide not speaking would be a good idea. I have no idea what to say that won’t drive her farther into her own head.

  “Lindy suffered. She knows how to offer comfort to another. The little girl is in good hands. I made sure of that. One good deed doesn’t make me the angel she accuses me of being. And I’m not even bothered by it. I don’t want to be an angel. I was like my mother, only a little more hotheaded and ready to defend myself. I was just like her other than that. I saw the good in everyone, and I smiled even when someone was trying to break me down. I thought I was so strong and so smart. The problem is, I saw good where no good even existed.”

  “Like with Kyle?” I ask, an edge to my tone. Just knowing he touched her…

  “Like with Kyle,” she repeats, her tone flat and emotionless. “I trusted him even after he’d proven himself to be a jackass. I never saw the pure evil in him until that night. And my brother was just as naïve. The two of us walked directly into that trap, unprepared and outmatched, with no chance of walking away. And we never saw it coming, because we never thought people could be that cruel.”

  She blows out a breath, as though she’s keeping herself in check. I don’t press the issue or say anything, allowing her to tell the story however she wants to.

  But if I hear the details from her mouth, I may end up joining her on her killing spree. I just don’t think I’m strong enough to hear her break down and tell me what they did without killing everyone else involved in all of it.

  “We learned differently, and I shed the coat of naivety once I managed to survive. I made a promise to my brother that I intend to keep. A promise he knew I would be able to make. Now I only see the good when it’s there to see. I’m smarter. They made me smarter. They also made me what I am today—lethal and merciless. I have to believe there was a reason for that, and each time I save someone else from the same possible fate I suffered, I feel a bit closer to Marcus.”

  My mind is fucked. All she has to do is ask me to join her, and I’ll be at her side. So I’m grateful that she doesn’t, because I’m not even sure what to feel about this.

  “When the lights go off and the music is playing, I often think back to my mother dancing with my father. I was so young. My younger self didn’t understand how important it was to treasure and soak in all those memories. But the ones I have stay with me. Those memories kept me alive and helped drown out some of the nightmares.”

  My thumb traces over her lip as I study her.

  “Come on,” I say, rolling off her and standing up.

  She looks at me like I’ve lost my mind until I flip on my phone and the music starts streaming through. Her eyes glisten almost instantly, and she smiles as I tug her hand, urging her to join me.

  Naked in the middle of the bedroom, I pull her to me. Her head falls to my chest, and my lips press against the top of her head as I hold her as close as possible.

  And we dance.

  We dance for several songs.

  Until she’s suddenly climbing up me and kissing me hungrily, like she can’t hold back any longer, and the night is too close to ending.

  And I take her over and over, until the sun is shining down on us and we’re both too spent to even attempt another round.

  As she gets comfortable on top of me, her eyes lazily drifting shut, I ask, “Why Lana Myers? What made you choose that name?”

  She grins as her eyes struggle to remain open.

  “My mother said she and my father always argued about my name before I was born. They agreed immediately on Marcus, but my name? It was one of the few arguments they ever held. She wanted Victoria because of my late grandma. My father loved the name Lana, had heard it when he was traveling as a teen with his parents. He said he felt like I was going to be a Lana, and not some
regal girl like the name Victoria suggested.”

  She laughs under her breath, her gaze shifting as she drifts into her memories again.

  “Mom said after I was born, she knew she was right. But Dad said he was right, because the definition of Lana suited me perfectly, even though my mother argued I was as hot-tempered as any Victoria there ever was.”

  I tilt my head, wanting in on the inside joke. “What does Lana mean?”

  “Depends on the country. Precious. Little Rock. Sun Ray. But Dad said it was the Hawaiian meaning above all else that suited me—afloat; calm as still waters. It took a storm to offer me a calm.”

  She meets my gaze again, and I smile, thinking of how well it does suit her.

  “I needed a name that meant something; I needed something to keep me from fading into a new persona. That was the only one I had,” she goes on.

  I run my finger along her nose, tapping the end of it. “It fits you perfectly. But why Myers?”

  A darker smile lights her lips. “My father was also a horror movie buff. Old school horror movies. He said he didn’t have the time or patience for pretty boy douchebags who had mommy issues.”

  I laugh unexpectedly, and she grins.

  “Mom always teased him that he just liked the scary, in-your-face psychopaths with mommy issues. Michael Myers was one of his faves.”

  I laugh harder, shaking my head, and she lifts her hand, running her fingers through my hair. Our eyes meet and a calm silence washes over us.

  “Can I ask a case related question?” I ask hesitantly.

  “You know everything that’s happened,” Lana says warily. “I can’t tell you what’s left.”

  “Do you know who the original killer was?”

  That’s when there’s a knock at the door, pausing our conversation.

  “Yeah?” Lana calls out, her body sprawled across mine.

  “I hate to break up the reunion, but there’s an emergency meeting going on right now. Donny says we need to be at the cabins ASAP.”

  “Shit,” I groan, cursing the day already.

  Lana rolls off me with effortless grace and grabs a robe, tying it together before I even manage to pry myself from the bed. She leans against the wall and just watches me as I quickly dress.

  “You’re good, Logan,” Lana says quietly, drawing my attention to her as she perches on the edge of a dresser. “It’s the thing I love most about you. Do whatever you feel is right. Don’t worry about me. I’ll be okay.”

  I knew what her answer was going to be when I asked the question last night, but hearing the finality in her tone is like a sledgehammer to my stomach.

  “This isn’t goodbye, Lana. I’ll be back tonight. We may have to actually sleep, but I will be back.”

  She smiles at me, but it’s weighted once again.

  I turn my phone back on, letting it go crazy with messages I don’t have time to read. Instead of wasting these last few minutes, I kiss her, letting her know I love her even if she is choosing to finish this.

  My head is still spinning with a thousand conflicting arguments as to why this is wrong or right, but I refuse to give her up.

  “Later,” I say against her lips.

  “Later,” she whispers back.

  Hadley and I leave and head to her vehicle, and I take in her disheveled hair and realize…that house has only two bedrooms.

  “I thought you were gay,” I say as she works from her laptop in the passenger seat in the silver car she got from who knows where.

  “I told you I wasn’t. I’ve always liked guys and girls…but you know what? Let’s have this conversation later. Whatever is bugging Donny has me worried.”

  “I’m sure it’s nothing,” I say dismissively.

  It’s not until we’re almost back at the cabins that I realize I never got an answer to the question I asked Lana about the original serial killer.

  But the look in her eyes told me she knows.

  Chapter 9

  Everything’s fine today; that is our illusion.

  —Voltaire

  LANA

  “Showtime?” Jake asks as I walk into the living room. My hair is pulled back, my combat boots are on, and my red shirt is the only pop of color on the otherwise black apparel.

  “Final countdown.”

  I take out the paintbrushes, pull up my hoodie, and grab two cans of paint.

  “You take the east, and I’ll take the west. I’m assuming you know what that meeting is about?” Jake asks.

  “Yeah. It’s what we predicted from the start. Johnson and the director are about to railroad the entire investigation. Johnson has his target, which happens to be Diana’s son, despite his numerous alibies and the fact he’s states away.”

  “And dating a damn fancy lawyer who will give them hell before they ever even think about arresting him,” Jake adds with a smirk.

  “It’s almost anti-climatic how predictable they all are.” I feign a sad sigh, but he doesn’t smile the way I expect him to.

  “I’m having reservations about the final leg of the plan. I think we should just leave and let the fireworks happen instead of you risking yourself.”

  I quirk an eyebrow at him, ignoring all the festering emotions that are aching inside my chest. Today, Logan will leave. Tonight, Logan will be free to forget me.

  His life will go on, and he’ll eventually just see this as a blemish in his otherwise flawless character.

  “I’m not risking anything but them surviving if we deviate now, Jake. Have a little faith. I’m better than them. They’ve not even laid a hand on me.”

  His lips thin, and his gaze flicks to the bullet graze on my bandaged cheek, but he doesn’t argue as we pack our separate vehicles with the paint.

  “Quit dawdling. We have an entire town to terrorize,” I say when I know he’s about to press the issue.

  He’s worried about me surviving.

  I see a life too empty to be concerned with the notion of survival.

  Chapter 10

  The road to perdition has ever been accompanied by lip service to an ideal.

  —Albert Einstein

  LOGAN

  “You’re fucking kidding me,” I snap, glaring at Johnson as he pokes his chest out, posturing like a motherfucking gorilla about to beat the damn thing.

  “You have your orders. You and the rest of your team are to return to Quantico. The director signed off on it. That’s what happens when you stray from the current case to work on a closed case from ten years ago, while people continue to die in this town. Four people in one night died, and you didn’t even bother to ask any questions. Nor did you bother to show up to where all the officers set up to canvas the surrounding woods in that area.”

  Donny grips me before I can launch myself at the smug son of a bitch smirking at me.

  I brush Donny off, grabbing my phone as I walk out the door, ignoring the stupid fucking deputy who has the audacity to act like he’s going to lead me to one of the SUVs.

  Collins finally answers, and I immediately start snapping at him.

  “You’re letting this happen? You’re letting them pull us out so they can do what? Launch a new witch hunt like the one they did ten years ago? It’s obvious they didn’t learn their lesson. You’re really going after a pro athlete with a fucking lawyer girlfriend?”

  Collins heaves out a breath. “It’s out of my hands, and the girlfriend already knew about the intent to arrest before it was ever decided. Obviously they have a leak, and she’s pretty much squashed their entire case. It’s not going to be like last time.”

  There’s no fucking leak. Lana or Jake knew this was coming and warned them through Diana most likely. Or in a way that didn’t give them away. Or maybe they just don’t care who knows at this point and are gambling more.

  They can’t manufacture evidence this time, because Diana’s son has airtight alibies. It’d be too obvious.

  “Get back,” Collins says.

  “Fuck that. I’m not going an
ywhere.”

  “You have to, Logan,” he says, exasperated. “The director has called a meeting to see about having you removed from all your duties, pending an investigation into your actions. He’s claiming your entire team is compromised and exhibiting signs of empathy with the killer. He even said you helped a woman and child leave town, despite her husband’s murder, along with two other murders in her home, before you even reported the latter two murders. I told you to be discreet when looking into the past case. You ignored me.”

  “So you’re playing politics. I thought you were better than that. And the woman had no hand in those murders. Someone else acted on her behalf in self-defense. Those men were sent to silence Cheyenne Murdock.”

  He grows quiet for a moment, and I turn to see the rest of my team already packing up, giving in so easily. I can’t fucking leave Lana in this town. I’ll quit and stay here on my own if they try to make me.

  “I’m not playing politics, but I do have to play their game until I can see if that evidence you recovered is enough. If you don’t leave and return to us willingly, Johnson will arrest you for obstruction, and I can’t save you from anything while you’re there. It could be too late before I get there. Don’t risk it. It’s not worth it. Keep a lid on what you’ve discovered. Just come back. Don’t let them toss you in one of their cells. You know what that town is capable of.”

  My eyes rake over the men here. No doubt Lana wouldn’t trust me to take care of myself if I was locked up here. Too many violent memories from the past would have her risking her life to come after me.

  And that’s the only reason I won’t risk it.

  “Fine,” I bite out. “But you better have this resolved by the time I return so I can come right back.”

  “I’m trying, Logan. I really am. Just give me some time to—”

  A loud white noise sound comes over the speakers, and my eyes flick to the television in the living room. I vaguely remember the only innocent deputy telling me the sheriff owned the television network service, and he had a special broadcasting ability.

 

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