by Jim Butcher
Frank smiled for the first time at the sight of it, and it was not a very nice smile. It was the smile of a man who wanted something men are not supposed to want, not supposed to be able to want. This was more than need, or lust, or desire. This was obsession. He raised a trembling hand to knock, and the door silently opened itself before him.
The doors of Hell are never bolted or barred, to those who belong there.
Frank hurried inside, the door closed behind him, and our glimpse into Time Past came to an end. I busied myself putting the torn pieces of photo away, so I wouldn’t have to see the disappointment and betrayal of trust in Liza’s face. Dead Boy turned around in his seat to look at us, calmly munching on a chocolate digestive. He didn’t care about where we were, or what we were doing here. He was just along for the ride. Apparently when you’re dead you only have so much emotion in you, and he doesn’t like to waste it. He would go along with whatever I decided. But this wasn’t my decision; it was Liza’s.
“We don’t have to do this,” I said, as gently as I could. “We can still turn the car around, and go back.”
“After coming all this way to find Frank?” said Liza. “Why would I want to leave, when all the answers are in there waiting for me? I need to know about Frank, and I need to know what happened to my memories.”
“We should leave,” I said, “because Frank has come to a really bad place. Trust me; there are no good answers to be found in Silicon Heaven.”
Liza looked from me to Dead Boy and back again. She could see something in our faces, something we knew and didn’t want to say. Typically, she became angry rather than concerned. She wasn’t scared and she wasn’t put off; she wanted to know.
“What is this place, this Silicon Heaven? What goes on behind that door? You know, don’t you?”
“Liza,” I said. “This isn’t easy . . .”
“It doesn’t matter,” she said firmly, resolutely. “If Frank’s in there, I’m going in after him.”
She wrestled with the door handle, but it wouldn’t turn, no matter how much strength she used.
“No one’s going anywhere, just yet,” Dead Boy said calmly. “We are all staying right here, until John has worked out a plan of action. This is not your world, Liza Barclay; you don’t know the rules, how things work, in situations like this.”
“He’s right, Liza,” I said. “This is a nasty business, even for the Nightside, with its own special dangers for the body and the soul.”
“But . . . look at it!” said Liza, gesturing at Silicon Heaven, with its boarded-up window and its stained, paint-peeling door. “It’s a mess! This whole street would need an extreme make-over before it could be upgraded enough to be condemned! And this . . . shop, or whatever it is, looks like it’s been deserted and left empty for months. Probably nobody home but the rats.”
“Protective camouflage,” I said, when she finally ran out of breath. “Remember the baby that wasn’t a baby? Silicon Heaven set up business here, because only a location like this would tolerate a trade like theirs; but even so, it doesn’t want to draw unwelcome attention to itself. There are a lot of people who object to the very existence of a place like Silicon Heaven, for all kinds of ethical, religious, and scientific reasons. We like to say anything goes in the Nightside, but even we draw the line at some things. If only on aesthetic grounds. Silicon Heaven has serious enemies, and would probably be under attack right now by a mob with flaming torches, if they weren’t afraid to come here.”
“Are you afraid?” said Liza, fixing me with her cold, determined eyes.
“I try very hard not to be,” I said evenly. “It’s bad for the reputation. But I have learned to be . . . cautious.”
Liza looked at Dead Boy. “I suppose you’re going to say you’re never afraid, being dead.”
“There’s nothing here that bothers me,” said Dead Boy, “but there are things I fear. Being dead isn’t the worst thing that can happen to you.”
“You really do get off on being enigmatic, don’t you?” said Liza.
Dead Boy laughed. “You must allow the dead their little pleasures.”
“Talking of fates worse than death,” I said, and Liza immediately turned back to look at me, “you have to brace yourself, if we’re going in there. Just by coming to an establishment like this, Frank is telling us things about himself, and they’re things you’re not going to want to hear. But you have to know, if we’re going in there after him.”
“Tell me,” said Liza. “I can take it. Tell me everything.”
“Silicon Heaven,” I said carefully, “exists to cater to people with extreme desires. For men, and women, for whom the ordinary pleasures of the flesh aren’t enough. And I’m not talking about the usual fetishes or obsessions. You can find all of that in the Nightside, and more. In Silicon Heaven, science and the unnatural go hand in hand like lovers, producing new forms of sexuality, new objects of desire. They’re here to provide extreme and unforgivable outlets for love and lust and everything in between. This is the place where people go to have sex with computers.”
Liza looked at me for a long moment. She wanted to laugh, but she could see the seriousness in my face, hear it in my voice, telling her that there was nothing laughable about Silicon Heaven.
“Sex . . . with computers?” she said numbly. “I don’t believe it. How is that even possible?”
“This is the Nightside,” said Dead Boy. “We do ten impossible things before breakfast, just for a cheap thrill. Abandon all taboos, ye who enter here.”
“I won’t believe it until I see it,” said Liza, and there was enough in her voice beyond mere stubbornness that I gave the nod to Dead Boy. We were going to have to go all the way with this, and hope there were still some pieces left to pick up afterwards. Dead Boy spoke nicely to his car, and the doors swung open.
We stepped out onto Rotten Row, and the ambience hit us like a closed fist. The night air was hot and sweaty, almost feverish, and it smelled of spilled blood and sparking static. Blue-white moonlight gave the street a cold, alien look, defiantly hostile and unsafe. I could feel the pressure of unseen watching eyes, cold and calculating, and casually cruel. And over all, a constant feeling that we didn’t belong here, that we had no business being here, that we were getting into things we could never hope to understand or appreciate. But I have made a business, and a very good living, out of going places where I wasn’t wanted, and finding out things no one wanted me to know. I turned slowly around, letting the whole street get a good look at me. My hard-earned reputation was normally enough to keep the flies off, but you never knew what desperate acts a man might be driven to, in a street like Rotten Row.
The futuristic car’s doors all closed by themselves, and there was the quiet but definite sound of many locks closing. Liza looked back at the car, frowning uncertainly.
“Is it safe to just leave it here, on its own?”
“Don’t worry,” said Dead Boy, patting the bonnet fondly. “My sweetie can look after herself.”
Even as they were speaking, a slim gun barrel emerged abruptly from the side of the car, and fired a brief but devastating bolt of energy at something moving not quite furtively enough in the shadows. There was an explosion, flames, and a very brief scream. Various shadowy people who’d started to emerge into the street, and display a certain covetous interest in the futuristic car, had a sudden attack of good sense and disappeared back into the shadows. Dead Boy sniggered loudly.
“My car has extensive self-defence systems, a total lack of scruples about using them, and a really quite appalling sense of humour. She kept one would-be thief locked in the boot for three weeks. He’d probably still be there, if I hadn’t noticed the flies.”
In his own way, he was trying to distract Liza and make her laugh, but she only had eyes for Silicon Heaven. So I took the lead, and strolled over to the door as though I had every right to be there. Liza and Dead Boy immediately fell in beside me, not wanting to be left out of anything. Up clos
e, the door didn’t look like much; just an everyday old-fashioned wooden door with the paint peeling off it in long strips . . . but this was Rotten Row, where ordinary and everyday were just lies to hide behind. I sneered at the tacky brass doorknob, sniffed loudly at the entirely tasteless brass door knocker, and didn’t even try to touch the door itself. I didn’t want the people inside thinking I could be taken out of the game that easily.
I thrust both hands deep into my coat pockets, and surreptitiously ran my fingertips over certain useful items that might come in handy for a little light breaking and entering. A private investigator needs to know many useful skills. In the end, I decided to err on the side of caution, and gave Dead Boy the nod to start things off, on the grounds that since he was dead, whatever happened next wouldn’t affect him as much as the rest of us. He grinned widely, and drew back a gray fist. And the door swung slowly open, all by itself. I gestured quickly for Dead Boy to hold back. A door opening by itself is rarely a good sign. At the very least, it means you’re being watched . . . and, that the people inside don’t think they have anything to fear from you entering. Or it could just be one big bluff. The Nightside runs on the gentle art of putting one over on the rubes.
“Are we expecting trouble?” said Liza, as I stood still, considering the open door.
“Always,” Dead Boy said cheerfully. “It’s only the threat of danger and sudden destruction that makes me feel alive.”
“Then by all means, you go in first and soak up the punishment,” I said generously.
“Right!” said Dead Boy, brightening immediately. He kicked the door wide open and stalked forward into the impenetrable darkness beyond. His voice drifted back to us: “Come on! Give me your best shot, you bastards! I can take it!”
Liza looked at me. “Is he always like this?”
“Pretty much,” I said. “This is why most people won’t work with him. Personally, I’ve always found him very useful for hiding behind when the bullets start flying. Shall we go?”
Liza looked at the open doorway, and the darkness beyond, her face completely free of any expression. “I don’t want to do this, John. I just know something really bad will happen in there; but I need to know the truth. I need to remember what I’ve forgotten, whether I want to or not.”
She stepped determinedly forward, her small hands clenched into fists at her sides, and I moved quickly to follow her through the doorway. My shoulder brushed against hers, and I could feel the tension in her rock-hard muscles. I thought it was something simple: fear or anticipation. I should have known better.
The darkness disappeared the moment the door closed behind us, and a bright, almost painful glare illuminated the room we’d walked into. Solid steel walls surrounded us, a good forty foot a side, and even the floor and the ceiling were made from the same brightly gleaming metal. Our own distorted images stared back at us from the shining walls. Dead Boy stood in the middle of the room, glaring pugnaciously around him, ready to hit anything that moved or even looked at him funny, but we were the only ones there. There was no obvious way out, and when I looked back, even the door we’d come through had disappeared.
“I don’t understand,” said Liza. “This room is a hell of a lot bigger than the shop front suggested.”
“In the Nightside, the interior of a building is often much bigger than its exterior,” I said. “It’s the only way we can fit everything in.”
There was no obvious source for the sharp, stark light that filled the steel room. The air was dry and lifeless, and the only sounds were the ones we made ourselves. I moved over to the nearest wall, and studied it carefully without touching it. Up close, the metal was covered with faint tracings, endless lines in endless intricate patterns, like . . . painted-on circuitry. The patterns moved slowly, changing subtly under the pressure of my gaze, twisting and turning as they transformed themselves into whole new permutations. As though the wall was thinking, or dreaming. I gestured for Dead Boy and Liza to join me, and pointed out the patterns. Dead Boy just shrugged. Liza looked at me.
“Does this mean something to you?”
“Not . . . as such,” I said. “Could be some future form of hieroglyphics. Could be some form of adaptive circuitry. But it’s definitely not from around here. This is future tech, machine code from a future time line . . . There are rumours that Silicon Heaven is really just one big machine, holding everything within.”
“And we’ve just walked right into it,” said Dead Boy. “Great. Anyone got a can opener?”
He leaned in close to study the wall tracings, and prodded them with a long pale finger. Blue-gray lines leapt from the wall onto his finger and swarmed all over it. Dead Boy automatically pulled his finger back, and the circuitry lines stretched away from the wall, clinging to his dead flesh with stubborn strength. They crawled all over his hand and shot up his arm, growing and multiplying all the time, twisting and curling and leaping into the air. Dead Boy grabbed a big handful of the stuff, wrenched it away, and then popped it into his mouth. Dead Boy has always been one for the direct approach. He chewed thoughtfully, evaluating the flavour. The blue-gray lines slipped back down his arm and leapt back onto the wall, becoming still and inert again.
“Interesting,” said Dead Boy, chewing and swallowing. “Could use a little salt, though.”
I offered him some, but he laughed, and declined.
Liza made a sudden pained noise, and her knees started to buckle. I grabbed her by one arm to steady her, but I don’t think she even knew I was there. Her face was pale and sweaty, and her mouth was trembling. Her eyes weren’t tracking; her gaze was fixed on something only she could see. She looked like she’d just seen her own death, up close and bloody. I held her up, gripping both her arms firmly, and said her name loudly, right into her face. Her eyes snapped back into focus, and she got her feet back under her again. I let go of her arms, but she just stood where she was, looking at me miserably.
“Something bad is going to happen,” she said, in a small, hopeless voice. “Something really bad . . .”
A dozen robots rose silently up out of the metal floor, almost seeming to form themselves out of the gleaming steel. More robots stepped out of the four walls, and dropped down from the ceiling. It seemed Silicon Heaven had a security force after all. The robots surrounded us on every side, silent and implacable, blocky mechanical constructs with only the most basic humanoid form. Liza shrank back against me. Dead Boy and I moved quickly to put her between us.
For a long moment the robots stood utterly still, as though taking the measure of us, or perhaps checking our appearance against their records. They were roughly human in shape, but there was nothing of human aesthetics about them. They were purely functional, created to serve a purpose and nothing more. Bits and pieces put together with no covering, their every working open to the eye. There were crystals and ceramics and other things moving around inside them, while strange lights came and went. Sharp-edged components stuck out all over them, along with all kinds of weapons, everything from sharp blades and circular saws to energy weapons and blunt grasping hands. They had no faces, no eyes, but all of them were orientated on the three of us. They knew where we were.
Many things about them made no sense at all, to human eyes and human perspectives. Because human science had no part in their making.
They all moved forward at the same moment, suddenly and without warning, metal feet hammering on the metal floor. They did not move in a human way, their arms and legs bending and stretching in unnatural ways, their centres of gravity seeming to slip back and forth as needed. They reached for us with their blocky hands, all kinds of sharp things sticking out of their fingers. Buzz saws rose out of bulking chests, spinning at impossible speeds. Energy weapons sparked and glowed, humming loudly as they powered up. The robots came for us. They would kill us if they could, without rage or passion or even satisfaction, blunt instruments of Silicon Heaven’s will.
I’ve always prided myself on my ability to talk
my way out of most unpleasant situations, but they weren’t going to listen.
Dead Boy stepped forward, grabbed the nearest robot with brisk directness, picked it up and threw it at the next nearest robot. They both had to have weighed hundreds of pounds, but that was nothing to the strength in Dead Boy’s unliving muscles. The sheer impact slammed both robots to the steel floor, denting it perceptibly, the sound almost unbearably loud. But though both robots fell in a heap, they untangled themselves almost immediately and rose to their feet again, undamaged.
Dead Boy punched a robot in what should have been its head, and the whole assembly broke off and flew away. The robot kept coming anyway. Another robot grabbed Dead Boy’s shoulder from behind with its crude steel hand, the fingers closing like a mantrap. The purple greatcoat stretched and tore, but Dead Boy felt no pain. He tried to pull free, and snarled when he found he couldn’t. He had to wrench himself free with brute strength, ruining his coat, and while he was distracted by that, another robot punched him in the back of the head.
I’m sure I heard bone crack and break. It was a blow that would have killed any ordinary man, but Dead Boy had left ordinary behind long ago. The blow still sent him staggering forward, off balance, and straight into the arms of another robot. The uneven arms slammed closed around him immediately, forcing the breath out of his lungs with brutal strength. But Dead Boy only breathes when he needs to talk. He broke the hold easily, and yanked one of the robot’s arms right out of its socket. He used the arm as a club, happily hammering the robot about the head and shoulders, smashing pieces off and damaging others. But even as bits of the robot flew through the air, it kept coming, and Dead Boy had to back away before it. And while he was concentrating on one robot, the others closed in around him.
