Cheap Diamonds
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CONTENTS
COVER
TITLE PAGE
DEDICATION
1 CHEEKBONES AND AIRPLANES
2 GO-SEE
3 830 BROADWAY
4 FLYIN’ JACK’S
5 MOST HANDSOME
6 THE BEST ATTIC
7 THE HEN PARTY
8 THE FIRST TEST
9 THE GOOD-TIME GIRL
10 JOE JR.’S
11 THE TAN THUNDERBIRD
12 ON THE ROAD
13 CALLING THE HOGS
14 THE END OF THE ROAD
15 GHOST IN SUNLIGHT
16 CASSIE’S PLEA
17 SOHO
18 LALEA
19 ITALIANS
20 MONKEYS, SCHMONKEYS
21 ON THE WAY TO MAX’S
22 RESCUING MISS SALLY
23 WAITING IT OUT
24 MAX’S KANSAS CITY
25 THE BIG YELLOW DUCK
26 DIAMONDS
27 SUZAN AND FREDDY
28 THE FORTUNE
29 ROOMMATES
30 FATHER LEO
31 SIN
32 GIRLFRIENDS AND GENTLEMEN
33 PAINTING IN THE LOFT
34 DR. NICK
35 THE TRIO
36 JAZZ
37 THE CHRISTMAS PARTY
38 FOX IN THE HENHOUSE
39 NANA’S
40 CHRISTMAS
41 VOGUE
42 LEAVING FOR OZ
43 MIAMI MOONLIGHT
44 THE FIRST DAY
45 THE UNBELIEVABLE
46 CASSIE AND RICHARD
47 THE TALK
48 THE GUIDING LIGHT
49 THE LITTLE BLUE FAIRY
50 THE HOGS
51 MRS. DIGBY’S SECRET
52 CASSIE AND LALE
53 THE DUNGEON
54 THE RIVIERA
55 GOOD-BYE, FREDDY
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
AUTHOR’S NOTE
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
ALSO BY NORRIS CHURCH MAILER
COPYRIGHT
For my mother, Gaynell Davis,
and the sweet memory of my father, James Arthur Davis
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CHEEKBONES AND AIRPLANES
There just simply wasn’t any such place as 830 Broadway. It went down to 860 and dead-ended at Union Square Park, and that was all she wrote. I checked my appointment book to see if I had misread it, but no—in the nine o’clock space it said, Ron Bonetti, 830 Broadway. I stared at the numbers on the building again, then looked around the corner to see if they might for some reason continue down that way. Nope—860 was all there was.
Great.
On top of running out of Broadway, I was practically crippled from walking twenty-two blocks in new patent-leather gillies that had rubbed blisters on both of my heels, my right eyelash was off-kilter, and I was sweating in my mulberry Bobbie Brooks crew-necked sweater and box-pleated miniskirt. I never thought New York would be this hot in September, as far up north as it was. All I remembered from the news was big snowstorms, but then in Sweet Valley there never was a whole lot about New York on the news unless somebody got shot in a restaurant or thrown onto the subway tracks and run over, which seemed to happen a lot. Cabs cost a fortune and subways were faster than buses but I can tell you right now, I was leery of going down into them. I have a little problem with being underground anyhow, and most of the stations were not very well lit and had an odor like mothballs and dirty bathroom. Plus, I was shocked when I saw that homeless people lived down there, and I didn’t like myself for the way I reacted to them. Part of me was disgusted that human beings could smell that bad and carry on their life right out in public the way they did, and another part felt sorry for them and un-Christian if I didn’t give them money. Like what if they were the old angel-in-disguise beggar from the Bible story, testing my compassion? I would flunk big-time, because I really needed every quarter I had. The subway was thirty cents, and that added up if you had to go several places in a day. Which was another reason I had decided to walk it this morning, since the day was pretty and sunny, and I didn’t know exactly how far it was. I was going to have to study a map of Manhattan, and soon.
I crossed the street to Union Square Park, found a bench near a statue of Abraham Lincoln, and sat down to reglue my eyelash and try to figure out what might be the best way to go to find more Broadway. My blistered feet didn’t want to make too many detours. I made a mental note to carry Band-Aids in my purse from now on. Thank goodness I had gotten up early and left myself a lot of time, having already found out the hard way how long it took to get anywhere in this town, and another little phobia of mine is being late.
Sitting in the park under green shade trees with the cheeky pigeons pecking on the ground right by my feet, I still had a hard time believing I was really in New York City. I’m not sure what I was expecting, but it wasn’t what had gone on in the last crazy week. Everything had happened so fast that, like Alice, I felt I was running as hard as I could just to stay in place. Up until last Saturday, I had never been on an airplane in my life, or out of the state of Arkansas, for that matter, except for a couple of trips to Vian, Oklahoma, to visit my aunt Juanita’s family.
“I just can’t understand why you want to go to New York and try to be one of those models, Cherry,” Mama said for the umpteenth time. “It’s a big old dirty city, and there are young girls in the papers every day up there who get killed or worse. I won’t get one good night’s sleep worrying about you in that place. I thought you wanted to be an art teacher! That’s what we paid for you to go to college and do. Is all that money wasted? And what are we supposed to do with that big box of expensive oil paints and brushes you brought home? Your daddy and me sure can’t use them. I couldn’t paint a straight line with a ruler.”
Daddy just said flatly that I wasn’t going, and that was the end of that.
But that’s what he thought. I talked to them until I was blue in the face. I had done a lot of research in Cosmopolitan and Vogue, and they said the model agencies took good care of their girls—why would they want anything to happen to their moneymakers? And I wouldn’t be all alone up there. I would make friends. I was good at that. If an agency didn’t take me on, I’d come right back home, I promised. If one did, I would call every week and write a lot. I was twenty-two years old, for Pete’s sake! A college graduate. Half my friends were married with kids, including my cousin Lucille, who was younger than me and already had a baby more than a year old. Her mother and daddy didn’t treat her like she was a child. I had never in my life done anything drastic that they didn’t want me to do, and I know I was their only child and they would miss me, but I really, really wanted to go to New York and I just couldn’t go if I didn’t have their blessing. Or at least their saying it was sort of all right.
It took a while, but I wore them down. Mama, I think, even got to be a little excited about it. She’d never had a chance to do anything but be a wife and mother, since she had married Daddy the summer before her senior year of high school and had me the next July. She even confessed that at one time she’d dreamed about going to Hollywood, but didn’t have the money or the nerve. At forty, she was the mother all the boys my age voted the hottest-looking mom; blond and beautiful and slim, she always dressed like a movie star to the best of her ability. She wore filmy nylon negligees around the house, and high-heeled satin slippers with marabou feathers on the vamps. I think her feet were permanently arched, like Barbie’s, from always wearing heels, and flats weren’t comfortable. She didn’t even own a pair.
“There’s no reason to pad around the house in flip-flops and a ratty old robe, like some fat housewife who has given up. Just remember, Cherry, if you let yourself g
o, your husband won’t be far behind.”
She always said that, but she and I both knew she had Daddy wrapped around her little finger. And when she finally came around to my side, Daddy had to throw up his hands and quit.
“I can’t fight the both of you,” he said. “But I’m buying you a round-trip ticket, Cheryl Ann, and you get on that plane and come home the first time you even smell trouble, do you hear?” I heard. I heard he was buying my ticket!
Watching out the thick round window of a plane as the ground falls away and the cars on the highway become the size of Raisinets is not the most comforting of feelings, especially after the stewardess made a big point of showing us what to do in case of emergency, how to blow up the life vests and breathe in the little yellow cups and all, and I couldn’t help but notice there was a booth that sold flight insurance right by the counter where I got my ticket. I thought about buying some, but figured my parents would be too grief-stricken to spend the money if the plane crashed, so I saved my seven dollars. They were plenty unhappy as it was, and waving good-bye to them from behind the rope at the airport gate was one of the hardest things I had ever had to do. We were all teary-eyed, and I thought for three full seconds about turning back and forgetting the whole thing, but there was that little siren voice in my head that kept calling out to me—Cherrrry…come to New Yorrrrrk…yoooou can be a model…you knooooow you can—so I took a deep breath, blew them a kiss, and got on the plane. In spite of how much I loved Mama and Daddy, Sweet Valley was not the place for a girl with stars in her eyes, and I had stars big enough to blind me.
Plus, I needed a change of scenery, big-time.
It’s a long story, but a lot had happened to me since last year. The Reader’s Digest version is, I had sort of fallen in love for the first time in my life (and finally lost my virginity!) with a guy named Tripp Barlow, and then it ended, which, as it turned out, was all for the best, since he had a wife he neglected to tell me about that he had married in Vietnam. Although he thought they were separated, she had other ideas, and now they had a baby girl named Mai.
I went, in the spring, up to St. Juniper’s Catholic Boys Academy in the Ozarks to do my practice teaching, then came back and graduated from DuVall University, B.A. in art, class of 1970. I was out of school and the sixties were over. I’m optimistic by nature, but the last couple of years strained it, with several of my friends getting messed up in Vietnam, a couple of them killed. President Nixon promised he would end the war, but he sure was taking his good sweet time about it. It looked like his plan was to bomb them until there was nothing left to fight over—burning down the village to save the village, as the government is fond of saying. Like the Vietnamese are deader when the Communists kill them than when we do. And the ones they put to doing the shooting and burning are boys like my friends. It was getting crazy, especially after the National Guard shot those kids at Kent State last May. A lot of students across the country kind of lost it, rioting and taking over the administration buildings of colleges, but we hadn’t done near that much at DuVall. We had a rally and everyone lit candles, but that was about it. I felt like I had done all the protesting I could, though, and needed a break from it all.
It was bittersweet, watching Arkansas disappear beneath the clouds as the plane carried me away. I felt light, like I was leaving everything behind—the war, the ex-boyfriend, Du U, and the schoolwork, but I felt a little lost as well. I was also leaving everything I loved, my family and friends, especially my best friend, Baby, who I hadn’t been apart from since we were four years old.
But, like the angels in heaven, Sweet Valley and all I loved was still there; I just couldn’t see them for the clouds.
The plane landed without crashing, thank the Lord, and after I called Mama and Daddy collect, I took a taxi to the Barbizon Hotel up on Lexington and Sixty-third Street, which Cosmo had said was a good, safe place to stay until you got your break. It was for women only and Grace Kelly and Lauren Bacall had once stayed there. Hopefully, I would be taken by an agency and could get an apartment soon, which would be a lot cheaper. I figured I had enough savings to last two months, if I was careful, and that seemed like enough time to make a start.
The room at the Barbizon was tiny, with a closet that barely held five of my outfits, so I had to leave the rest in suitcases, stacked around the bed, which didn’t leave much room to walk. I shouldn’t have brought so many clothes, but you never know what you’ll need and the season was changing, so I pretty much brought everything I had.
Sunday, I spent the better part of the day trying to pick out what to wear for my interview at the model agency on Monday. All my clothes seemed hicky and wrong to me here in New York, even the few good outfits from Millie’s, the best store in Sweet Valley, which Millie copied from the latest magazines as close as she could. I had sewn most of the rest myself, and although I used Vogue patterns, I had gotten a C in home ec, which, sorry to say, was deserved. As hard as I tried, I wasn’t good at zippers, and the stitching on my hems could make you seasick looking at it. Plus, everything I had was a miniskirt, and all the fall magazines were showing midis. So be it. I would get some new clothes when I started making money, and maybe the midi was just a fad anyhow and wouldn’t last. If they couldn’t see past what I wore at the agency, it was their loss and they could just lump it.
Brave words, said into the mirror.
Given everybody back home warning me about muggers, I was a little nervous about walking around in the city by myself, but finally I got hungry and bored of the Barbizon café, so I ventured out and bought a slice of real pizza at the closest place to the hotel on Lexington Avenue and sat at a little table on the sidewalk watching the people pass by. Not every woman was beautiful and chic, as I thought they might be, which was somehow cheering, and there were lots of women pushing baby carriages. How dangerous could it be, finally, if the streets were full of babies? I relaxed. After dreaming about it for years, I was really here, on the street in New York City! Eating pizza!
I lay awake most of the night, too excited to sleep, thinking about tomorrow and listening to the noises of the traffic and police sirens and the muted voices that drifted up to the third floor of the Barbizon. It was strange and magical. Even the air was different in New York, like every breath was jammed full of electric currents that tingled my nerves.
I drifted off to sleep and dreamed I was climbing hundreds of stairs to get to the top of the Empire State Building. The higher I went, the more stairs kept on appearing, and I woke up at six o’clock, worn out and feeling alone. I wished somehow Baby had managed to come with me. Baby was nearly as upset as Mama and Daddy about me going, but she had already signed a teaching contract, and even though she was the most beautiful girl I knew, she wasn’t the type to be a model, being four feet ten, and you had to at least be five-seven. I came in at five feet twelve, or even five-thirteen if I was honest. Although Baby and I got a lot of Mutt and Jeff jokes, we had been best friends ever since her family moved from the Philippines to Sweet Valley when we were four. We promised to write a lot and call when we could, but it wasn’t the same. I wished I could get her opinion on what to wear. Her zippers were always perfect.
Finally, I put on one of my Millie outfits and went out for my interview at the Suzan Hartman model agency, praying she would take me on, which obviously she did, or I wouldn’t be out here now hunting for a photographer named Ron Bonetti who had a studio at nonexistent 830 Broadway.
Suzan Hartman was one of the biggest models in the 1950s and had started the agency several years ago when she turned thirty and the modeling jobs started drying up. She was originally from Arkansas, too, which is why I even thought about being a model in the first place. She grew up in Little Rock, but her grandmother lived in Sweet Valley, and Suzan’s mother moved back there to live with her after Suzan left out for New York when she was barely seventeen and Mr. Hartman died of a heart attack. I’m not clear if Suzan’s leaving caused the heart attack or not, but I’m inclin
ed to believe it did, if my own father’s reaction was any clue. Anyhow, Suzan’s mother, Mrs. Hartman, was my sixth-grade teacher. She used to bring magazines with Suzan’s pictures into class, and she pinned her covers on the bulletin board. There were a lot of them. We hardly had any room for our artwork. Suzan (pronounced Suzan) had started out life as Susan, but changed it when she became a model, although her mother still called her Susan. Mrs. Hartman seemed to have a soft spot for me and said once that I had the makings of a model, being tall and skinny with a little nose, which thrilled me no end, since usually the boys made fun of my long legs and called me Snipe. She even gave me the part of the Fairy in a Christmas play we did, and let me wear one of Suzan’s old dresses. I was a good-size girl already by the sixth grade, and the dress was none too big. It was blue net with a gold top that itched like the dickens and flaked off, trailing glitter in the air like pixie dust. Suzan had worn it to her high school junior prom. I couldn’t imagine how she danced all night in that dress. Her skin must have been scraped raw and bloody. In spite of all that, though, I did feel pretty glamorous, and from then on I was a little obsessed with Suzan, who didn’t seem to come home to visit much. I only saw her in person one time, when I bumped into her and her mother at the county fair. I was in high school by that time, and she was not getting covers anymore. In any case, I had switched my allegiance to Lauren Hutton, Jean Shrimpton, Veruschka, and, later, Twiggy, who were so mod and great-looking and all a little offbeat, especially Veruschka, who, unlike me, admitted to being six feet one! I wondered what she had been called as a kid.
At the fair, Suzan was classically beautiful, in the fifties Grace Kelly style, her blond hair up in a perfect French twist, not one single hair sticking out. Among a crowd of blue jeans and plaid shirts, she was like somebody from another planet, wearing a simple sleeveless orange shift, no jewelry, and leather thong sandals with little gold coins dangling from the straps. I wanted those sandals so bad I could taste them, but they looked expensive and it was doubtful any store in Arkansas would carry them. Even if one did, they more than likely wouldn’t come in my size, which unfortunately was eleven.