by Kay, Colbie
"Yeah, that's what I was thinkin'. Shit, Crazy Girl's got the best pussy I ever had and I don't tell her shit about club business. Fuck, she even had to go with us to get his ass out."
"Crazy Girl's here with you though, he thought she was gonna leave her family to be here with him."
"That's true. I hate to put him back at the bottom but fuck that shit can't happen again."
"Yeah, I know. Sorry to interrupt you and Crazy Girl with the call. I knew Chatty was gonna need her though for this shit."
"It's fine. You did the right thing. Today we found out we're gonna have a baby."
"Really? Congratulations Brother."
"Thanks. Gunner, it always seems like once shit goes good something always fuckin' happens to fuck it up."
"That's about right. Hanger, how the fuck is Chatty gonna get through this? She watched him die man?"
"I don't know, she's pretty tore up about it. She gonna need time and a lot of it. What happen?”
"He was out at the garage. Was heading back to the clubhouse when they pulled up. He tried to take cover, but he didn't have enough time. The bullet hit him in his chest. Chatty started screaming and ran outside. They just left after that. She dropped to the ground and held him until Bear was able to pull her away from him so we could look over his body to see if there was anything we could do but it was too late."
"Fuck. Let’s get back out there and help get this mess cleaned up. God damn, I'm gonna fuckin' miss Ripper.''
"Yeah, we all are. He was one hell of a brother."
We get out to the bar, Zoey has taken Chatty to her room. I make sure everything’s cleaned up and head to our room. I pull my phone out of my pocket and call Snake.
"Yeah, Hanger?"
"Yeah, the fuckin' Italians shot up our clubhouse tonight. We lost a brother."
"Fuck. Why?"
"It was retaliation. We had to go in and get Romeo a few weeks ago. They were holding him hostage."
"Shit, who did you lose?"
"Ripper."
"Fuck, I'm sorry man. When can you come up so we can get a new plan going?"
"Yeah, I'll be there tomorrow."
"See you then." As soon as I hang up with Snake, I call Bones.
"What’s up, Hanger?"
"Hey, just need to let you know, we got shot up tonight by the Italians. We lost Ripper."
"Shit I'm sorry. He was a damn good brother."
"Yeah, he was. I'm gonna meet with Snake tomorrow and we are going to put a new plan together. This shit can’t go on anymore."
"Okay, give me a call."
"Will do."
I fall asleep knowing she will be with Chatty all night. My Crazy Girl is a damn good Ol’ Lady. She will do anything for me and this club. She keeps showing all of us that, with the way she steps up for us. First, the way she handled herself with the whole Romeo situation and now how she’s being there for Chatty. Damn, I love her.
The next morning I get up and get ready to go on the run. I find Zoey and tell her I'll be gone for most of the day. She's gonna be with Chatty anyway. So I give my Ol’ Lady a kiss, tell her I love her and go to my bike.
I get to the compound and go to Snake's office. After he tells me to come in I walk over and sit in the chair across from his desk.
"So, what do you wanna do, Hanger?"
"I wanna take all of those motherfuckers out."
"Have you talked to your other chapters yet?"
"I talked to Bones last night. I'll call him again today when we are done. I was thinking what if we gave it sometime, let everything settle. Then go with the same plan as we had just at a different time."
"Sounds, like it might work. Get ahold of me when you wanna do it. We will be there whenever you are ready."
"Yeah. So how's the gun business?"
"It is shit. It will stay shit until we take them out. Then it'll go back to normal. How's your business?"
"Same." With that I make my call to Bones. Letting him know what we decided. Then I ask him if he will call Texas and fill them in on the plan. Even though the plan hasn’t really changed I still have to give them a heads up on everything. Once the calls over I stay a while longer until we have covered everything. I head out to my bike start it up. Then go home to my Ol’ Lady and my club.
It's been a week since Ripper was killed. I've been with Chatty a lot, helping her get through this as best as I can. I can't even imagine having to live without Hanger. She's just so sad all the time. I'm trying to help her but I just don't know what else I can do or if there is even anything that I can do. I make her food but she doesn't want to eat. I run her showers, she doesn't want to get out of bed, I try to talk to her but she just lays there staring at the wall. I guess the only thing I can do is just be here for her. She has become one of my best friends and I hate that she is hurting, it makes me hurt for her. When she lays in the bed and cries, I climb in behind her, hold her to me and I cry with her. I've had my sister and Jacey come see her but they haven't been any help either. Nobody knows what to do for her, I just hope she pulls out of this soon.
It was a few days after he died, I was holding her in bed when she asks "Crazy Girl, what am I gonna do?" While sobbing, it about broke my heart to hear her so fragile.
"I don't know, Chat. I'm trying to be here but I don't think it's enough."
"It is. I just keep remembering what happened."
"You want to talk about it?" It takes a few minutes then she lets out a deep breath.
"I was in the bar, Ripper was in the garage working on his bike. All of a sudden there were gun shots, I dropped to the ground, and the guys started pulling out their guns to shoot back. I waited until I didn't hear any more shots fired and I ran to the door, opened it and the driver sped away, but when I looked out to the yard.” A sob broke from her throat. “There he was just lying there, I couldn’t tell if he was breathing. There was so much blood, Crazy Girl. I just ran out there, grabbed him, and pulled him so he was laying in my lap. He was still breathing but it was so shallow, I started screaming for somebody to help me, to help him. He said my name and I looked down to him. He was smiling at me, as he lifted up his arm, but he couldn't make it all the way, so I leaned down and put my cheek in his hand. He said ‘You have always been the prettiest girl I have ever seen. I love you more than you will ever know, but you have to go on now and be happy. Live your life baby. I love you.’ Then I watched him take his final breath and I kissed him for the last time."
"Oh, Chatty. I am so sorry."
"How do I go on without him? He was everything to me."
"You just need time, Chatty." Then we both cried some more.
We had the funeral, what can you say about a funeral? It was nice, beautiful even, but damn we were there to bury somebody we all loved. We are all going to miss him so much. Hanger sang Knockin' On Heaven's Door by Guns N Roses, it was almost too much to take. Seeing Chatty break down, she's just so lost now. After Hanger was done singing, I don't think there was a dry eye. Poor Chatty tried to do the eulogy, but she couldn't get through it. So I went to help her. I gently placed my hands on hers and took the paper from her hands, and started to read.
"Ripper was my best friend, my love, he was my life. He was everything to me. I met him when I was twenty and he was thirty five. Yeah, there was a big age difference but he would always tell me who cares when it comes to love. I don't and I love you. He chased me until I finally gave in and took a chance on him. He was so persistent, never giving up. I will forever regret missing out on the days I made him chase me, when I could have had that time with him. I will love you and will miss you every day. Until the day I see you again, Ripper." I hug Chatty tightly to my chest help her to her seat, help her sit. Then I go into Hanger's waiting arms and cry my eyes out.
The funeral was last week and I've taken over for Chatty at the bar. I'm cleaning up when she walks in "Hey, Crazy Girl. I need to talk to you."
"Okay." We sit down and I'm looking at her this can't be g
ood.
"I want to thank you for everything you have done for me. But my time here is over. I can't be here anymore. It’s not the same without him. There’s just a bunch of memories. It's too much to take. There's no place for me here now."
"Chatty, what are you talking about? I need you, your one of my best friends. The guys need you. You take care of them, shit all of us. I don't want you to leave." I start crying.
"Crazy Girl, you will always be my friend, and for the guys they have you now. I know you love all of them like I do. You will take good care of them for me. I gotta go. I need to be with my family and try to get past all this. You never know I might come back one day."
"Will you still call me? I'm pregnant and you’re gonna miss it. What about the wedding?"
"You know I will call you. You can tell me all about the wedding and the baby."
"When do you leave?"
"I called a taxi, they are on their way to pick me up. I have all my stuff packed already. I just wanted to say goodbye to you before I left. Tell Hanger and the guys I said I love them and I’m going to miss all of them? I just can't do all the goodbyes, it's already too hard."
"Okay, I'll tell them. Oh Chatty I’m going to miss you so much. Thank you for everything you’ve done for me I love you."
"I'll miss you too and I love you too girl. We had some good times." And with that she stands up gives me a tight hug and she walks away from us.
Today Zoey has to go back to the doctor, it's been a month since her last visit. It's been hard watching her get sick all the time, the nausea medicine helps some though. She's tired a lot, I have to tell the guys to quiet down so she can get sleep. I keep thinking more and more about buying a house.
I walk up behind her and put my arms around her, she is already showing and I love it. I love seeing her belly grow with my baby inside her body. "You ready, Babe?"
"Yeah, almost. I can't decide what top to wear. None of my shit fits. I have pornstar tits now and my belly is like a small basketball. Hanger, how can I be this big already? I wasn't even showing the first time."
"I don’t know, Babe. But I do know that I love your pornstar tits." She turns and slaps my arm. I start laughing but grab her before she can turn away. "Crazy Girl, seriously you are so fuckin' beautiful and even more now that you are starting to show. I didn't think it was possible for you to get any sexier but you proved me wrong. I love you, Crazy Girl." I kiss her tears away and give her a tender kiss on the lips while rubbing her belly.
"Thank you, Hanger. I love you too. I'm so emotional, this pregnancy is messing with me." She gives me a smile. "Can I wear one of your shirts?" I walk over to the dresser and pull out a shirt and hand it to her. She puts it on "Okay, I'm ready." We go out to the truck, I help her in and head to the doctor's office.
We've been waiting about twenty minutes when the doctor comes in. "It's nice to see you guys again. How are you feeling Zoey?"
"Well, I’m still gettin sick, I'm tired all the time. I guess other than that I'm good."
"Yes, sorry to say all of that is normal. It should go away when you get into your second trimester but I’m not going to say that it will because some people have morning sickness and are tired the whole pregnancy. I wanna take a look at the baby today and listen to the heartbeat."
"Okay." The doctor says she will be right back and goes out the door. Zoey looks at me and says "I'm nervous, Hanger." I get up and take her hand, kissing her palm, turn it over then kiss all her knuckles.
"Me too, Babe, but everything is gonna be okay." The doctor comes back in with a little machine, and starts setting everything up. She tells Zoey to lay back and to pull her shirt up over her belly. She then puts gel on Zoey's stomach, and then puts the thing she's holding on her stomach.
"Okay, guys. Let’s see your baby, oh wait a minute."
"What? What is it Dr. Greene is everything okay?" I ask suddenly terrified as fuck something is wrong. I'm squeezing Zoey's hand so hard, I don't know if she's got feeling left in it.
"Oh, I’m sorry. Don't worry, Hanger. Everything looks good. The thing is there isn’t just one baby in there, you guys are going to be having twins."
"Twins? What the fuck?" I look to Zoey. She's looking at me, both our eyes big, mouths open then at the same time both of us break out in smiles laughing.
"Do you guys want to hear the heartbeats?" We both just nod and listen. All of a sudden the room fills with the most beautiful sound I have ever heard. One little heartbeat fast and strong and then another one.
"Okay, the heartbeats are healthy, and strong everything looks great. So I want to see you back in a month."
Zoey says "Okay, thank you." I help her get the gel off her stomach, then pull her to help her sit up and we head out. Once we are in the truck she pulls her phone out, and makes a call. "Hey Chat, how are you?"
"I'm good."
"Guess what just fucking happened. We just got out of the doctor’s office.
Our second appointment was today and we found out we are having twins."
"I know right! Okay, I love you and miss you." She hangs up and turns to me, I can see she's about to cry.
"It is okay, Babe. How is she doin'?"
"She's okay. She’s starting to sound like the old Chatty again. I miss her, Hanger."
"I know, Babe. We all do but she needs this."
"I know. So twins, huh?"
"Yeah. What do you think they are?"
"I think they are girls. What about you?"
"No. No fuckin' way, nope. It's gotta be boys. If it's girls then karma is coming back on me like a motherfucker." I smile and then she busts out laughing.
"Let’s go to my parents' house. I want to tell them." I head there while she calls Jacey, to tell her, then she texts her sister.
We head into my parents’ house, I just walk right in and I call out "Mom, Dad."
My mom responds "Yeah, honey we're in here." I follow the sound of her voice into the kitchen.
"Hey, what are you guys doing?"
"Oh, I was just trying out some new recipes. And making your father taste them."
"Oh, well how are they Dad?"
"You know your mother is an amazing cook. So it is delicious but I think she's gonna make me fat." We all laugh.
My mom says "It’s not Sunday. What brings you two by?"
"Well, we got some news and I couldn’t wait to tell you guys."
My dad asks "What is it? Is everything okay?" I see the worried look on his face.
"Everything is fine, Daddy. I'm pregnant."
"What?" They both say in unison, then they look to each other. My mom turns back to me "I'm gonna be a grandma?" She whispers out with unshed tears in her eyes. I nod my head while smiling. She runs up to me, throwing her arms around my neck hugging me "I'm so happy for you baby." My dad’s next with the hugs, they both even hug Hanger too.
"Well, that wasn't all we wanted to tell you." They stop and stare at me.
"I had a doctor’s appointment today, and we got to listen to the heart beat. Come to find out there wasn’t just one heart beat there were two. Looks like we will be having twins."
My mom says "Twins?"
My dad says "Hot damn." We all start laughing again.
"When do you find out what you’re having?"
"Mom, I'm just under three months. It will be a couple more months before we can find out."
"Well. You come tell me as soon as you find out. Then we will go shopping."
"Okay. Mom I will." I say with a big smile on my face. We stay for a while longer. Trying the recipes that my mom had and they are in fact delicious. We hug them both again on our way out and head back to the clubhouse.
Today was Ever's graduation from fashion school. I couldn't be more proud of my sister. Watching her go from this shy little girl, and grow into the beautiful confident woman she is has been amazing. She always had to have an interpreter with her throughout school just like in college but she never let that slow her d
own. Writer went with us to the graduation. I couldn't ask for someone better for my sister, you can see all the love he has for her every time he looks at or mentions her. Today though seeing him watch her graduate, I saw nothing but pride in his eyes. We spent a few hours at our parents' house but now we are on our way to the clubhouse.
"Alright, Demon shots for everybody!" He gives me a look with his eyebrow cocked. "Well, everyone except me, of course." I say while laughing.
"You got it, Crazy Girl." He brings a tray over, hands everyone shots and me an orange juice. "Here this one’s for you. Why they call you, Crazy Girl, anyway?"
"Oh, Demon, just you wait until I have these babies, you'll find out." I give him a sly smile and he smiles back. "I want to say how proud I am of you Ever. You will do amazing things in the future. Congratulations. now drink up." I grab my shot of orange juice and tip my head back along with everyone else. We all bust out laughing. I mean really, who shoots orange juice? Crazy Girls that’s who. The music is going everybody is dancing or playing pool. Hanger comes up to me and grabs my hand "Let's dance, Babe." He leads me out to the dance floor. Grabbing my hips, he pulls my back against him as close as I can get. Then we start moving to the beat of the music. He runs his hands over my belly and puts his mouth to my ear, his breathing on my skin causing goose bumps and a throbbing between my legs. He takes my hand and puts it on his jeans, letting me feel his massive erection. "You feel what you do to me, Crazy Girl? Just from a look or one touch you got me feelin' like a teenager again. You drive me fuckin' insane with how fuckin' sexy you are, with my babies growin' in you."
"Shit, Hanger." I love his dirty words, the throbbing is almost unbearable, and the heat rising in my core is almost uncontrollable. Then all of a sudden there's a big kick I grab his hand and move it to the spot, and there’s another kick. We both start laughing, what a way to kill the mood. When the song ends he leads me back to the bar. It would be rude to skip out on Ever's graduation party.
Later on Hanger walks up to me "How you doin' Crazy Girl?"
