Chase’s slant was unbiased, but even in the unbiased version, Chase felt Michael’s side was not just well represented, but understandable. Samson had contacted Chase too, backing up the senator’s story and supplying his own painful tale for the world to read. But he no longer resembled the sad, misunderstood man the people of Yorkshire Falls had come to know.
Just as Chase no longer resembled the heartbreaker his brothers jokingly called him. And they both had Sloane to thank. The difference was, Samson had Sloane in his life, while Chase was still alone, ironically finding no satisfaction in the story of a lifetime or the career he’d insisted was so important.
Sloane was his future, but how to convince her of his sincerity? Irony came to play once more, as he decided that his mother’s matchmaking talents might be useful, after all.
Sloane awoke with a start. Considering she was still in the hospital, she’d slept well, or at least in between being woken up for temperature and IV checks. She wasn’t sure what had roused her from sleep, but something had. She opened one eye and realized she was facing the window and the aluminum blinds let a hint of sun slip through the horizontal slats. Morning already. She tried to move and winced, realizing how much of a beating her body had taken and how much pain she was actually in.
She buzzed for the nurse, determined to take only half the amount of painkillers they’d administered yesterday. She wanted a clear head for her last hours in Yorkshire Falls. Her parents were taking her home today.
A muffled sound caught her attention and she turned her head gingerly toward the door, expecting a nurse with a hypodermic needle. Instead, she saw an unfamiliar man wearing a dark suit, sitting in the chair beside her bed, watching her in silence.
“You’d better be more careful next time you pass by open windows, young lady,” he admonished in a gruff but familiar voice.
“Samson!” His rough outer exterior might have changed, but she’d know that gravelly tone anywhere.
“What’s the matter? You don’t recognize your old man?” he asked in that Samson-type language she’d come to know. But his expression softened as he continued. “I’m guessing this look is what you’d have preferred to find when you came looking for the man who sired you?” He gestured up and down, taking in the fitted suit, shirt, and tie. A deep crimson stained his clean-shaven cheeks, but to his credit, he didn’t glance away.
Sloane immediately noticed the gleam in his eyes, more apparent now that his face was visible and his hair freshly washed, cut, and styled. He accepted who he was—then and now. He was about to find out, so did she.
A lump settled in her throat, but she forced herself to speak over it. “I didn’t care what you looked like,” she said truthfully. “I just wanted to meet my father.”
He treated her to a warm smile and she was struck for the first time just how handsome and distinguished-looking he actually was.
Reaching over the blanket that covered her, he extended a shaking hand. “Your father’s right here.”
Sloane met him halfway, and using her uninjured arm, she placed her palm inside his larger, callused one. When she looked at him now, she saw a different man from the gruff one she’d met; she saw the one Jacqueline, her mother, must have fallen in love with, the one who’d sacrificed his entire life for his gambler father and sick mother. And though he had his share of regrets, he never admitted them to the outside world.
Sloane was scared to ask the question that hovered in her mind, because now that she’d found this man, she didn’t want to say good-bye. “Where do we go from here?”
“That’s up to you.”
She smiled, realizing that like Chase, he might be a man of few words, but also like Chase, Samson would, in fact, be okay. He wasn’t going to push her away anymore, which meant she now had this gruff, enigmatic man in her life. Relief and happiness washed over her, making her almost giddy.
A knock sounded at the door and a nurse walked inside, tray in hand. “I have your morning medication, Ms. Carlisle,” she said in an efficient voice that set Sloane’s nerves on edge. She wanted out of here.
“Can you come back in a little while, please?” Though she’d called for medication, she needed absolute clarity while she and Samson talked.
“Are you sure?” he asked. “It’s no crime to accept a little weakness.”
Sloane laughed while the nurse hovered, waiting for an answer. “I’m sure. And I promise that when we finish talking, I’ll take the painkillers. I’m not going to be a martyr. I just want this time with my father.”
Samson glanced over his shoulder at the nurse. “You heard my daughter,” he said with pride. He looked back to Sloane, the need for her approval so obvious in his eyes.
Happy, she squeezed his hand, giving him everything he’d asked for. But he hadn’t answered her question. They’d established a biological bond and had just begun to make an emotional connection.
Where did they go from here? she wondered. “Where will you live?” she asked him when the nurse walked out. She still vividly recalled the ashes and destruction that were the remains of his home.
His gaze darted back and forth, nervousness evident as he pulled his hand back and twisted his fingers together. “What I have to say is going to shock you,” he warned.
“I can’t imagine how,” she said. “Life’s thrown me so many curves, I’m used to them.”
“Oh yeah? I’m wealthy.” As he made his statement, he locked his stare on her face.
He’d been right. He’d floored her, she thought, and sucked in a startled breath. He certainly didn’t live or act like he had money. “You’re what?”
“Wealthy,” he repeated. “I have money saved.”
“But . . . how? And what about the run-down state of your house before the explosion? The mooching sandwiches from Norman’s? The ratty clothes?” Her head spun.
But even as she asked the questions, she recalled Earl and Ernie discussing Samson’s money and who’d inherit after he was gone.
He sighed. “Remember how I explained it was easier to keep people away from me by being surly and nasty, by dropping refinement and pretending I was the low-class bum everyone wanted to believe I was?”
She nodded, still stunned.
“Once I established myself, people ignored me without guilt. The human psyche is an amazing yet sad thing.” He shook his head. “Anyway, I figured if I was going to use the poor-Samson bit as a pretense, why not live that way too? At the time, I didn’t give a damn about anyone or anything. And who was left in my life to impress?”
Sloane wanted to answer, to say he should have wanted to impress himself, but she couldn’t. Through his slumped shoulders, his embarrassment was already clear. So she swallowed hard and remained silent.
“Much as I hate to admit it, I began to wallow in the truth I created. The truth the town accepted.”
“I understand the motivation.” And it saddened her. “But the money? Where did that come from?”
“A few months after your senator grandfather died, an envelope arrived at my house.”
Sloane’s eyes opened wide. “And?”
“Your grandfather had provided enough money to compensate me for my sacrifice. At least that’s what the low-life snake’s letter said. Fat good the money did me after he stole your mother and ruined my life.” Though he sounded bitter, he’d also accepted the way life had turned out.
Which, Sloane supposed, was the story of his life. “But you refused to spend his money?” she guessed, since he said he was wealthy.
Samson shrugged. “Why give the man any satisfaction? He thought he could rule the world, even from the grave. Sent me blood money when it was too late, when your mother was already gone. It certainly wasn’t like I could go after her then. So I just invested and let it build up.”
“So Grandfather Jack had a conscience,” Sloane said bitterly. “One he defined by his own terms, as usual.”
“Exactly.”
Tears filled her eyes, yet
she couldn’t waste time worrying about the past. “But you’re willing to use his blood money to rebuild your house?” she asked Samson.
He nodded. “I want a place my daughter can come visit and be proud of. A place she can bring her own family,” he said, hope lacing his gruff voice.
She glanced down, unable to face him, knowing she’d be disappointing the man who’d already suffered so many letdowns. “I wouldn’t get your hopes up on the family angle,” she told him. She looked at him from the corner of her eye.
He squared his shoulders, obviously upset. “Does that Chandler boy have rocks in his head? I told him to get off his ass and see what’s in front of him before it’s too late. I told him life’s too short to waste with regrets and could-have-beens.” He let out a low growl. “He doesn’t have a lick of his mother’s sense, that much I can tell you.”
“Whoa,” Sloane said, realization dawning. “Back up. You told Chase to go after me?”
“Of course I did. Do you think I want you or him suffering the same fate as me? I told him what it’s like to live life wishing things could have been different,” Samson said, clarifying, his eyes glittering with satisfaction that he’d done his daughter a good turn.
She didn’t want to know when he and Chase had had this conversation. Nor could she bring herself to tell him that he’d merely played on Chase’s innate guilt and white-knight complex. Samson had helped push Chase into Sloane’s arms, offering proclamations of forever, but Chase needed to come on his own, without being prompted. Without guilt. He needed to opt for a future with her because it was what he wanted, not what he thought he owed her, or what he thought she needed.
But Samson had performed his first parental duty on Sloane’s behalf and she loved him for it. She crooked her finger and Samson came forward, and this time, no bullet flew as she received her first father-daughter hug from Samson.
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
Chase paced the floor of the hospital waiting area, along with the rest of the family. Charlotte’s water had unexpectedly broken, nearly a month early, and she was inside, in labor. Thank God all signs indicated nothing was seriously wrong except for the baby’s rush to join the Chandler clan on its own schedule. Charlotte’s parents were on their way back from L.A. and the rest of the Chandlers were gathered here together. Waiting.
“You are one pathetic human being,” Rick said to Chase as he leaned against the wall.
Although everyone was nervous for Roman and Charlotte, that wouldn’t stop Rick from ganging up on Chase in the meantime. And since Rick knew Chase wouldn’t leave until the baby was born, he had Chase cornered. “So I’m pathetic, huh?”
“That’s what he said.” Hannah came up beside them, bouncing from foot to foot, excited beyond belief at the prospect of being crowned baby-sitter.
“Go away, squirt. I’m trying to talk to my brother,” Rick said.
Hannah shook her head. “There’s no talking to Chase when his mind’s made up about something. At least that’s what you always say.” The pretty fourteen-year-old grinned, laughing wickedly.
Rick groaned. “You’re not helping.”
“Oh, I think she is.” Chase leaned closer to Hannah and whispered, “What else does Rick say about me?”
“Hmm.” She twirled a long strand of hair around her finger and pursed her lips in thought. “He says you’ve been a pain in the ass since Sloane left. That you should have gotten down on your hands and knees and begged.” She paused to giggle. “But it probably wouldn’t have mattered, since Sloane got out while the getting was good.” She nodded, apparently satisfied she’d hit on all pertinent details.
“Tsk, tsk.” Rick said, winking at Hannah. “There’s no allowance for you this week, kid.”
“Hannah, you get over here and leave Rick and Chase alone,” Kendall called from across the room.
Rick rolled his eyes. “Too little, too late,” he informed his wife.
Kendall shrugged. “I tried.” Then she turned her attention back to Raina, who was sitting on the couch, browsing through a magazine.
Chase dug one sneakered foot against the linoleum floor, wondering how much to tell Rick about Sloane leaving him. “I never figured you had much of a brain, but I have to admit you nailed things with me and Sloane.”
Rick raised an eyebrow. “What happened?” he asked, all signs of joking and laughter gone from both his tone and expression.
When things got serious, the brothers were there for one another, ribbing and kidding put aside. “I did ask her to stay. In a manner of speaking. I told her I’d changed my mind, that I wanted a future.”
“And she left anyway,” Rick said.
The reminder caused an ache in Chase’s already empty heart. “That much is obvious.”
“But you don’t know why.”
Embarrassed to be discussing both his failures and his love life, Chase merely nodded.
“Need me to spell out Sloane’s reasons for you?”
“Might as well start.” How else could Chase fix things? He’d come up empty on his own.
“Sloane knows you well.” Rick pulled up a chair and straddled it, settling in. “Probably as well as Roman and I do, and considering how short a time you’ve been together, that’s saying a lot.”
Chase snorted. “You call this analysis? Tell me something I don’t know.”
Rick shrugged. “Relax. I’m getting there. I’m guessing Sloane thinks you wanted an affair. Short term by definition. No commitment.”
Folding his arms across his chest, Chase eyed his middle sibling. “Again, so far I’m not impressed. This is all obvious.”
“I’m just getting started.” Rick rubbed his hands together in anticipation. “She thinks these things because you used your famous saying: Safety first, kids never. Am I right?”
Chase rubbed a weary hand over his burning eyes. “That about sums it up.” It was the same lecture he’d given his brothers over the years, when being forced to perform the fatherly duty of safe-sex discussions. “So?”
“So women have memories like elephants,” Rick explained. “Sloane’s not likely to forget you said that.”
“You’d think she’d appreciate the fact that I looked after her,” Chase muttered.
“She appreciates it, all right. Then she fell in love and all that appreciation flew out the window. Now she wants the house, the white picket fence, the kids,” Rick said, his eyes drifting to his own wife, who sat holding Raina’s hand.
Chase sighed. “I told her I want all those things too.”
“After she’d seen Chase Chandler in action. She’s seen you with your family, seen how you put Mom first. If I had to guess, she’s seen you step up in a crisis and pull away in the aftermath.” Rick slanted his head toward Chase, awaiting an answer.
“What the hell makes you think you know me so well?”
His eyes opened wide. “I grew up with you, the model of perfection. You never once bailed on a responsibility. But when you’re alone and quiet, you withdraw. I’m sure that wasn’t easy for Sloane.”
“Yeah, well, she loves me in spite of it,” Chase said defensively.
“Yet she’s in D.C. and you’re here. What gives?” His brother raised an eyebrow, his challenge obvious.
“She doesn’t believe I love her. Oh shit, that’s not true.” Chase kicked the wall, grateful afterward he was wearing sneakers and caused no damage. “She believes I love her; she just doesn’t believe I want those things you mentioned.” He paced the floor. “Can’t a man change his mind? Women do it all the time and we’re forced to accept it.”
“Women are their own breed. They can do whatever they want and, like you said, we men accept it. It’s our lot in life.”
“I heard that,” Kendall called from across the room, making Chase realize she and his mother had grown silent, listening to Chase’s problems instead.
“And I love you even when you’re eavesdropping,” Rick called back, then faced Chase once more. “Did Sloane have
a reason to believe you changed your mind about marriage? Women need proof.”
“Would you quit lumping us all into one broad category?” Raina suggested, getting involved for the first time. “Every woman is an individual. I’m certain Sloane needs proof because she doesn’t want to feel she trapped you into marriage.”
Chase slapped his head with one hand. “When did this become a family conversation?” he muttered. “I have nothing to prove. I love the woman. I want to spend the rest of my damn life with her and she thinks the need will wear off! Have you ever heard anything so ridiculous in your life?”
Raina put down the magazine she’d been thumbing through. “She must have a valid reason.”
He glanced at his mother, annoyed with her attempt to be the voice of reason, and he gritted his teeth. If it weren’t for the fact that dissecting his life took the focus off waiting on Charlotte, he’d walk out on this farce of a conversation now. Hannah, thank God, had gotten engrossed in television and wasn’t paying attention.
“She must have a valid reason,” Chase mimicked. But when he let himself think, he was forced to admit the truth. “She does,” he admitted aloud. “Sloane thinks I’ve got this white-knight complex. That I feel guilty I wasn’t there when she got shot.”
“Do you?” Kendall asked softly.
“Of course I feel guilty. But I wouldn’t saddle myself with a wife or even consider having kids just because I think I failed her.”
“I hope not,” Raina said.
He glanced at his mother, a woman on the verge of getting her first blood-related grandchild and saw a glimmer of hope in his dim future. “If you mean that, put your matchmaking skills to work and help me get Sloane back,” Chase said to Raina, picking up on the idea he’d had the other day.
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