“Dammit!” The alarm rings to life, sending a shrieking noise throughout the small apartment. The moment between us, the feeling of shared excitement and warmth, dissipates in one unexpected millisecond. Race races off to the other side to turn it off.
From my upside-down angle on the bed, I watch him check his phone and then root through the pile of his clean clothes for an identical outfit to the one he wore yesterday. Black tight shirt and dark jeans along with black socks and leather boots. He doesn’t look the part of a father, but I’ll give him those ‘bad daddy’ vibes.
“I’ve got to go,” he says without looking down at me.
“No breakfast?” I ask, somewhat stunned at how hurt I am at him rushing out on me.
“No. Not today. Today is… well, it’s different. I’m going to come get you later.”
As I sit up, something hits me – a wave of dizziness that I know can’t just be from spending a moment with him. I pull myself all the way up so that I can watch him storm out of the apartment with a piece of plain bread in his hand.
“I’ll call you,” he shouts to me from the other room.
“I’ll be here,” I reply softly, looking around the vacant bedroom. The picture of him and Miranda still sits on the bed where he left it. But it doesn’t matter. It’s only us now. And it’s anyone’s guess for how long that’s going to be true.
Chapter Twelve
Race
Miranda. That bitch’s name seems to follow me everywhere I go like a ghost I can’t ward off. I’ve done my best to stuff her down, keep her out of my life, but she pops back up in the least unexpected moments. First, there was on the long ride over from Colorado to L.A., and now there she was in my bedroom with Delilah. The last place I want her to be.
The last few weeks with Del has been nothing short of fucking awesome. For a guy who dreads the thought of having sex with the same woman on repeat, bedding her every damn night (and most days) has never been without surprises. Her body moves with mine eagerly, and she’s always up for whatever I cook up for her. She complies, twisting her tiny body until we end up tangled together on the bed, in the kitchen, or around the shower.
Seeing the new girl with the old, however, is dredging up thoughts I’d rather put back in the box they came from. For now, a cleansing ride is going to have to do. I’ve managed to track down bits and pieces of Del’s background. The slim manilla folder of her life’s unimportant and bland details sits on my desk in my office. Nothing’s jumped out at me so far, and I can sense a wall coming around the corner.
But I can’t rest. I can’t rest until I know who the hell she is and who could be after her. The only person that knows more than she does, or that of the club’s old dogs, is the woman who birthed her. The little I’ve gotten out of Del has been small notes about how nagging Shannon can be or how sad her life has turned out – single mom, working at some shitty diner on the side of the highway. She did her best for Del as a kid, but Del’s got scars from the sacrifices.
Shannon seems like the only way I’m going to get some answers about Del’s past. And today’s the day to make a ride out to her work. It’s a half hour from here, still in Bad Devils’ land. The Rosewood Cafe almost looks like it’s been taken out of the 50s with its vinyl round seats and the Formica countertops. A few women, all in their fifties, meander around in blue uniforms that were probably retro years ago but now look stale and antique. I take a seat near a waiting waitress I recognize from a picture of Del’s family. She makes no motion towards me until I’m seated with a menu open.
“Can I help you?” Shannon, Del’s mom, asks as she leans over to pour my coffee. She gives me a look that has been hardened with age. She’s probably had more than a thousand men stare her down like I am now. The sentiment hasn’t gotten any more flattering with time; the same old scum checking out her tits and ass as she does her job.
It takes me a few seconds to snap out of whatever fog I’m in. Shannon may be Del’s perfect twin with her lean body and flowing hair, but she’s got an edge to her that Del hasn’t found. There seems to be pain in almost every one of her steps, and her back leans forward slightly from the weight of work and pressure. Her eyes are darkened and puffy while her skin wrinkles in the creases of her sunken face.
“Just coffee,” I lie as I think of some way to approach this. When I’m usually questioning a man, I take him by the collar and throw him out some back door until his head slams up against a brick wall. They talk real fast after that. But I’m going to have to approach Shannon with some delicacy here. She doesn’t look at all like the type that would respond well to threats and punishment.
She finishes pouring my cup of coffee and moves on to the next table with her pad and pencil in hand. I listen to her make small chitchat with the customers behind me. They’re traveling from Utah. The good Mormons are looking for a place to stay outside of Los Angeles before they head further north up the coastline to more greener places. They don’t realize who they are talking to and what her background is. To them, she’s a decently friendly, if not rundown face, at a dive restaurant at the side of the highway.
A few minutes pass, and she makes the rounds back at my table. This time, she doesn’t stand so close, and she goes out of her way to not lean over to pour my coffee. The awkward pour splashes out the side of the white cup, staining the paper napkin underneath it.
“Your name’s Shannon, is it?” I ask her, ready to get this over with.
She clicks a nail to her name tag hanging on the corner of her vintage blue dress. “That’s me. Do I know you or something?”
“No. You don’t. But I’m here to ask you some questions.”
“I don’t talk to strangers unless they’re ordering something outside the dollar cup of coffee you’ve got there.”
“Fine. Order me up whatever you like. But then I’d appreciate you sitting down with me when you’ve got a break. It’s about your daughter.”
At the first mention of Del, her face changes. The blood drains from her skin, and her put-on smile disappears. Her brightly painted red lips quiver slightly as she asks quietly, “Del? You know where Del is?” She uses the red vinyl booth for support as she takes a step back.
“Yeah. I do.”
“Where? Tell me where the hell my daughter is.”
Something boils in her. She takes a seat across from me and places her hand on the tabletop, her fingers shaking. I have forgotten how long Del’s been with me now. Four or five weeks is an awfully long time to be without contact with someone you’re used to seeing every other day or so.
From what Del’s told me, she sees her mom often. They share dinners together and have movie nights out, and Del sometimes slips her some money to cover the bills waitressing at the diner won’t cover. Your dutiful daughter abandoning you like that is a major red flag – one that would, in most cases, mean calling the cops. But I’ve yet to hear a word from our detective friends about Del’s disappearance. That alone has got my wheels turning.
“She’s safe… for now.”
“I knew it. I knew when you walked in that you were trouble. Are you with Aaron? Did he take her?”
“Jacob… your ex-husband?” I lead her on.
“Yeah. Jacob. What’s that son of a bitch done to her? I thought we had a deal that he would keep the hell away from her when he left us. Now he’s back when she’s grown up? And what the fuck would he want with her? She’s nothing to him. Nothing!”
“You had a deal with him?”
“Of course I did! He abandoned us when she was a little girl. The idiot tried to fake his death, but he couldn’t run from me. When I found him, I made a deal that he would leave us alone in exchange for me being quiet about his whereabouts.”
I try to stop myself, but the words fall out before I can catch them: “He’s alive? Jacob’s alive?”
She pauses, sensing that her suspicion of me is off, if only slightly. It’s obvious that I didn’t know jack shit about Jacob or her relationship with
him outside them being exes. The only information I’ve gotten from the intel folder was that their marriage was rocky and forbidden. She was the last person who saw him alive the night he vanished, but she had told all the boys in the Bad Devils that she knew nothing about his work or where he was hanging. She played the widow or the jilted spouse role to perfection, tricking even the best men on the job.
Shannon’s eyes peer into mine, looking me over again for a second or third time. This time, she was taking me all in, reviewing my tattoos and scars as if they may give me away. She shifts in her seat and scoots near the edge for a quick getaway should she need it.
“Who are you? Why are you here?”
“I’m here because I have your daughter, Delilah.” I hand her my phone. It’s already queued up to a picture I took of Del a couple of nights back. She’s smiling in it as she leans over the kitchen table. I figured when I took it that the look of her smiling and carefree would be the best proof I could possibly have that she wasn’t tied up in some desolate shack and starved to death.
She takes a long, scrutinizing look at the screen and then slides the phone back my way. “That doesn’t answer my questions. Who are you, and why are you here?”
“My name’s Race. I’m the new Vice President of the Bad Devils.”
Her voice goes soft as she leans in and replies, “Yes. I’ve heard about you. Some of the old guys, they still come in here after the meetings. They told me you’ve come from Colorado with the new president. Can’t say I’ll miss the old one; he was an asshole.”
“So I’m told. I’m assuming he didn’t give you what you deserved when your man left you and Del?”
“No. You’re right about that. They didn’t even pay the rent like they promised they would. After a few months, we were as good as homeless. No one would talk to me, let alone visit Del. After all my husband had given them, it was the least they could do…”
“Then what is this agreement?”
“I’ll tell you my secret if you tell me why the hell my daughter is back with you all, and why she hasn’t answered her phone or come by to see me if Jacob isn’t the one keeping her?”
“It’s because I gave her instructions not to contact anyone. She’s not safe. And frankly, I don’t think you are either depending on the story you’re about to tell me.”
“Safe? What do you mean?”
“You tell me. Why the hell haven’t you called the cops and reported your daughter missing? Why haven’t you come around asking for Bad Devils help finding her? And why did you automatically think that your ex had something to do with it when everyone around these territory lines thinks he’s ridden off into the sunset?”
Shannon’s stunned by my interrogation, practically glued to her seat. She inhales and exhales with a heavy sigh and then looks out towards the window. The sky’s turned dark in the short time I’ve been here. A rare storm’s about to come. I can feel the electricity in the air. Something tells me that she knows it too.
“Her dad didn’t die or was taken. All that was a cover. I swear to God, I had absolutely nothing to do with it though. Him leaving us out of the blue – that is the true story. He blindsided me as much as he hoodwinked the club. What I know, what I did get out of him, is that he was unhappy with the leadership and how they never elevated him up to the top. He thought his talents were better elsewhere.”
“Elsewhere? To another fucking club?” I ask in disbelief.
“Yeah. To another club. The Roadheads. The last I heard, he was the second in command. Just like you.”
“Shit,” I manage to get out. “You can’t be serious. Del’s the daughter of...”
“Roadhead leadership,” Shannon finishes my thoughts for me. “And from what I’ve heard, not only leadership but the leader – was elected a few months ago and he’s been riding hell all over the north section of your territory. Some of the girls that come in here have the Roadhead seal on them. I know they wouldn’t be traveling this far south if Jacob isn’t pushing them down into your area.”
I try to control myself, cool myself down, but the anger in me spills out as I slam my fist onto the table. The coffee splashes out of the cup again, and her pot nearly knocks itself over. I apologize under my breath, grabbing a few napkins to wipe up the mess.
“Then why Del? Why do you think he would want her now?” I finally ask.
“Is there reason to think he does?”
“Yeah. One morning, over a month ago now, I took two non-color riders down as they followed her from my motel to brunch with her friend.”
“Your motel room?” Her eyebrow lifts somewhat playfully.
“Yeah. My motel room.” I try to ignore this detail and move on to the more important point. “A while later, her apartment was broken into. Nothing was taken. They were clearly waiting for her to come home from her shift. She called me, and I’ve had her ever since.”
“Jacob. It had to be him.”
“That’s what I’m figuring now that I’ve talked to you. You swear you haven’t heard from him? Haven’t seen him around town?”
“No. Not since – not since we made the agreement he would leave her be. That was over five or ten years ago now.”
“And did he give her up easily?”
She looks down at her folded hands and answers, “No. He was a good father – he loved his girl very much. Me... Well, I was worth giving up for that power. But she was a different story.” Shannon sighs heavily. “And that’s why I need to warn you, Race. You’re new around these parts, and not many men are around to remember his history. But her father, Jacob, he’s a man who gets what he wants. And he won’t stop until he does. So if she’s what he’s after, something’s coming for you, and I need you to be prepared. I can’t have anything happen to her. She’s my world.”
“I understand.” I reach for my wallet in my back pocket and grab a few bills. It’s more than enough to pay for the coffee and whatever she ordered me earlier. The urge to get the hell out of here is calling me back to the apartment.
But before I can stand, Shannon reaches for me and takes me by the arm. Her voice breaks as she stares at me: “I have to ask you, Race. Can you protect her?”
“I’m gonna do my best, Shannon. She’s safe where she is, but I’ll move her if need be.”
“Let me see her then.”
“I can’t do that. The more you know, the more of a liability you are.”
“Please, Race. Consider it. A girl can’t go without her mom for long, no matter how bad of a mother I may have been. I have the right to see her in case… in case something goes down and you’re not able to keep Jacob and the Roadheads from her.”
“That’s not going to happen,” I reply sternly. “Not on my watch. I will protect her no matter what the cost.”
She suddenly gets up to stand, looking down at me from on high. She smiles slightly. “Just think about it. And, if anything, tell her I love her.”
“I’ll do that, ma’am.”
She nods a few times, clearly holding back words, but the diner’s filled up now. The dinner rush is here; there’s no time to be emotional or play any more games. This is her life, as sad as it may be. But her world, like she said, is back in my home waiting for answers on who she is.
And who she isn’t.
Chapter Thirteen
Delilah
My hands shake violently as I grasp onto the tiny white stick. I’ve seen these kinds of commercials before. The woman stares at the test. A minute passes, and then, she grins from ear to ear. Her husband joins her as they come together in a loving embrace. And the next thing you know, there’s a nursery painted in some non-gender-specific pastel color with a brand-new crib sitting in the middle of the room. Outside, the sun shines on the happy home, and the couple starts its “happily ever after” as a new family.
I look out the bathroom door to the rest of the empty apartment, and I know I won’t find anything close to that idyllic picture. For me, there will be no doting husband wai
ting anxiously by my side. The bedroom I share with Race can barely hold the queen-size bed and a dresser. There’s absolutely no room for a crib or a high chair, let alone the toys, the mounds of diapers, and other baby gear that piles up in my mind.
And there is no outdoor space for a child here. There isn’t even a space for a kid to play. Outside these doors is an open drug den and club bar where strippers regularly perform, and hookers cook dinner for the boys working the night shift.
This is not a place for a baby. It certainly isn’t a place for my baby. Or Race’s, for that matter, if it’s his.
If. No. No way. It’s definitely his. It has to be. He’s the only person I’ve been with in months, and he’s the only person I’ve let come inside of me without any extra protection. I thought the pill would protect me from this, but with all the changes going on in my life, I admit that I’ve missed a few days here and there. And there was that one week that I skipped altogether. Could it have been then?
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