by David Skuy
To Mom.
Table of Contents
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
About the Author
Other books by David Skuy
Copyright
Chapter 1
BANG! BANG! BANG!
The noise scared me at first, until I turned around and saw this kid in a dark-blue hockey jersey and a black tuque staring at me through the wire mesh that went around the hockey rink. The kid was banging away on the boards with his stick. I was about to flip him the finger and take off when he called out to me, “You mind getting our puck?” He nodded to the kid next to him. “This loser doesn’t know how to shoot.”
The other kid was real big and wore the same hockey jersey. “It’s not easy to deflect a puck off the crossbar and over the fence. That’s true talent,” the big kid said, laughing.
“Give me a break,” the first kid said. “You couldn’t do that again if you took a million shots.”
I really don’t know why I helped. I really don’t. I was freezing cold and totally hungry. All I’d eaten today was a bag of chips. Why should I care about a couple of Reggies? That’s what Undergrounders call kids with regular lives, kids who go to school and have parents — and play hockey — and who don’t live on the streets. Of course, I didn’t exactly live on the streets. I lived in the Underground with Lewis and Rigger and all the other Undergrounders.
“It’s over by that blue van, I think,” the first kid said. “Could you look? We got our skates on and can’t go on the pavement.”
I shoved my hands into my pockets. Some idiot had stolen my gloves last night; my hands were about to come off. Lewis said it’s the cold that’ll kill you, not the streets. I think not eating is the killer, but I didn’t say anything because he was a lot older and didn’t like it when I didn’t agree.
I found the puck leaning against one of the blue van’s tires, and the two Reggies cheered when they saw I’d got it.
“Toss it over the fence. Thanks a lot. We owe you one,” the first kid said.
A third player came over. He wore the same jersey as the other two. I figured they must be on the same hockey team.
“Did you get it, or what?” the third kid demanded. He sounded real angry. “I’m freezing standing around.”
“We got it. We got it,” the big kid said. “Chill out.”
“That’s the problem,” the angry kid said. “I am chilled out.”
I threw the puck as far as I could onto the ice. It felt good to move my arms like that. Two of them chased after it. The first kid banged his stick on the boards.
“Thanks again. If you live around here you should come play. We’re here after school most days.” He turned to join the shinny game. I don’t meet many friendly guys like that.
Weird how I hated hockey now. I used to love it. I was on a real team, and was always playing street hockey and at school. For some reason the sight of these guys playing hockey made my chest feel heavy. The grumbling in my stomach was all the motivation I needed to leave, anyway. I had to eat soon or I’d faint.
I tried to remember when I had last played. For sure it was way before my mom died, maybe just before we moved to Brentwood after my mom lost her job at the auto parts factory. I usually forced myself not to think of my mom because it made me too sad. Once I cried about her a bit and one of the Undergrounders, Will, made fun of me and everyone was laughing and calling me a big baby and stuff. Now that I was all alone I let myself remember a bit. Ron had got a part-time job in Brentwood, so off we went. I most definitely didn’t like thinking of that jerk, and I’ll never know why my mom made him her boyfriend. She said she was lonely after Dad left, and Ron made her laugh. He never made me laugh, not once.
I was in the hospital room when Mom begged Ron to take care of me after she died because there was no one else. The doctors had told her the cancer was too big in her body. I was crying and Ron said, “No problem, Angela.” I heard him say it.
“Be strong, my sweet boy. It’ll be okay, I promise. Ron will take care of things. It’ll be fine. You’re a strong boy — and so smart. Things will be good. I know you’re sad, and so am I. Just remember that your mommy loves you — I’ll love you forever, for all time. Just remember I’ll be keeping my eye on you from heaven, so make me proud. Just remember you’ll always be my angel boy.”
Those were the last words she ever said to anyone. She fell asleep and never woke up. Never even opened her eyes. The cancer plain killed her. Even though I knew she had only died a bit more than a year ago, it sometimes seemed like a million years — and then sometimes it felt like only yesterday.
Ron was a liar, that’s for sure, because he disappeared the day after my mom died, ran off just like my dad. I woke up that morning and he was gone. I made some toast, although the bread was totally old and gross. Then someone started pounding on the door. I figured it was Ron and I yelled, “The door’s open, idiot!” The pounding kept going so I opened it and there was the landlord all red in the face and with angry eyes.
“I knew you were no good!” he yelled. “It was stupid for me to rent to losers.”
I didn’t care what he said about Ron, but there was no way he could say that about my mom.
“My mom’s not a loser. You are — you stupid jerk,” and I gave him my best glare.
He sort of caught me off guard by grabbing me by the collar and pulling me outside. I struggled but he was strong for an old guy. “Don’t sass me. I’m out three months’ rent because I felt sorry for your mom. I just saw Ron drive off with his car packed, which makes me doubt he’ll ever pay me, and I sure don’t think you got the money.”
He let go of my collar and looked at me real hard. I had no idea how much three months’ rent was, but I knew I didn’t have it. All I had was five bucks in quarters and loonies, and a ten-dollar bill I’d found under the couch back a few months, which fell out of Ron’s pocket when he was sleeping.
“Ron cleared out. Now you have to clear out in ten minutes or I’m calling the cops. Ten minutes or you’re going to jail!” he thundered.
“But my mom …” I stammered.
That softened him up a bit. He shrugged and said, “Okay. Maybe you can take the morning to call your relatives, pack up and go. But I need you out by twelve. I have to clean this place up and show it to possible renters tomorrow morning.” And then he was gone.
My mom had no family. Ron was supposed to take care of me. I never knew my dad. He took off before I was born. “Nothin’ wrong with being a single mom,” she always said to me. “You’re the only man I need since I love you so much.” I knew she loved me, but for some reason she let Ron stay with us, and look where that got me. I guess love doesn’t make you smart. So I was on my own, and I wasn’t going to wait for the police. I grabbed my sleeping bag from under my bed. I got it when I was a little kid, and it wasn’t much thicker than a towel, but I figured it was better than no
thing. Then I stuffed some clothes into a knapsack, and with only a small picture of my mom, left that bogus apartment and never looked back. Been on the streets since then.
At first it wasn’t so bad. In the summer I could sleep in the forest down by the river, only it kept getting colder and I think I might have frozen to death if Lewis hadn’t got me into the Underground. He saved my life and was my best friend, which is why I didn’t mind doing business stuff for him like delivering packages.
The Underground was an old abandoned part of a building behind the train station. Some crazy guy started to build a shopping mall, but he never built more than the underground part. Lewis said he ran out of money. An older kid, called Rigger because his last name was Riggins — and he wasn’t really a kid but more like an adult — figured out how to get water from a pipe with no one finding out. Rigger charged fifty cents a night to sleep there, but it was worth it. We Undergrounders were different from Streeters because we had a place to sleep at night.
I left Cedarview Park and the outdoor rink and kept walking about twenty minutes until I got to the alley, which was a sweet shortcut Lewis showed me to get to the Market. I wanted to hawk at least two bucks today, and I had to get a good spot near the front doors. Then I’d have enough to give to Rigger for rent tonight, and have extra for some Chinese buns and maybe even a drink. Yesterday, I was late and had to go to the back of the Market, and there was hardly any traffic, or maybe all the cheapskates came out that door on account of street kids bugging them for money all the time.
I would have loved to be in the Underground right now. Rigger was strict about that and we had to clear out in the morning by nine and couldn’t come back until after five, which was hours from now. I would turn into a Popsicle by then. Stupid weather. I jingled the two quarters together in my pocket. Enough to pay rent for tonight, but nothing for eating, and my stomach was like a black hole pulling at me, like an itch you can’t scratch.
Chapter 2
The backs of the stores lined one side of the alley, with garages on the other. The recycling bins and stuff lined up against the garages made it a pain to walk on that side so I scrunched over against the stores to get out of that stupid wind that was freezing my face off. I was thinking about the Market and where to hawk when I saw a screen door at the bottom of some stairs that was open a crack.
Double quick I hopped down the stairs and slid in between the screen and the door to the building as best I could. It felt so good to get out of the wind for a few minutes. I hunkered down and wrapped my hands around me and under my armpits. My feet were cold but at least it was a bit warmer in here. Only it was boring all crunched up behind a door, and soon I decided to leave. I pulled myself up by the door handle — and guess what? It turned! I kept turning it, and pushed a bit with my shoulder, and the door actually opened.
The warm rolled over me like a wave when you’re floating in the ocean. I went to the ocean with my mom and Ron once; at least they said it was the ocean but I knew it was actually a lake. Still, it was big, and even though it wasn’t salty it was fun. A crazy idea hit me. It was Sunday morning and stores probably weren’t open yet. I could sneak inside for a few minutes and warm up for real.
I was too cold to care anyway and was inside before I knew it, although I closed the door too loud and gave myself a total heart attack. I tucked myself into a corner behind some boxes and made myself real small. That wasn’t hard to do for me — I wasn’t the biggest kid in the world. Lewis called me Mouse, and I didn’t mind when he did it, but then all the Undergrounders started calling me that, and it bugged me but I couldn’t do anything about it. I would have killed to get bigger.
Slowly, my eyes adjusted to the darkness. There were boxes all over the place, and piles of sweaters, hockey pants and other equipment. I knew where I was — in the basement of Baxter’s, a hockey store. I think they sold other stuff too, but mostly it was hockey. I passed it all the time on the way to the Market when I didn’t take the alley. Best part was I knew it was closed on Sundays.
It was dead quiet. The place had to be empty. No reason to stay curled up in a little ball, so I started to wander a bit. Rows of skates rested on wooden shelves, and the other equipment was organized into sections: pants, shin pads, elbow pads, helmets. I could tell it was used stuff.
Bang!
I dropped to the floor in a panic and looked around real frantic. I’m dead, I thought. Lewis had told me about kid jail — he called it juvie, which is short for juvenile detention. It’s where the cops put kids who are criminals. He’d been there when he was fourteen and he said it’s the worst place in the world — vicious guards and other kids pounding you, and no food, and work all the time.
Bang!
Then I had to laugh. The noise was the screen door blowing in the wind. What a doofus move to leave it open. I went back out and closed it tight, then tiptoed over to the stairs leading to the main floor. Keeping real low, I crept up and poked my head over the top step, feeling kind of like those woodchucks that I saw in a movie at school about nature. Me and James, who was my best friend, fired spitballs at Sophie Kelly until our teacher caught us. Boy, did we get in trouble.
Racks of hockey sticks blocked the window to the street, so I figured it was safe to check things out. At the back of the store they’d hung all the new skates on the wall like trophies. The skates were shiny, and the prices almost took my breath away. One pair cost $750. I could live forever on that kind of coin. Farther along a large sign read Junior Section. One pair was totally sick — Grafs — blacker than the rest with a silver line running along the sole. Even the blade was shiny. I took it down — light as a feather. I turned the price tag around so I could see it — $525. Unbelievable!
I knew it was wrong. I knew it was crazed. But I just had to have them. I tried to resist — I did — and even picked through some jerseys. But no chance. The idea of skating on that rink was too strong. There were tons of skate boxes lined up against the wall. They wouldn’t even notice one missing. It didn’t take me too long to find the Grafs. I tried on a nine and it was huge. The eight was also big, so I took a seven and figured that would work. I was so freaked at what I was doing I thought my heart was going to explode.
I had already spotted this awesome Easton stick so I grabbed that, and then I saw hockey gloves hung on pegs near the front window. How great would new gloves be? I became like a total criminal and snagged a pair of red and blue ones. Then I saw this bin of winter mitts, and I needed those. Lucky they had some black bags with shoulder straps, and I stuffed all that junk into the bag. I knew I’d been here too long; time to make tracks, as Lewis said, before the cops came. Only I remembered I’d need a puck and stuffed one into the bag, along with a roll of stick tape, and finally a blue Maple Leafs hockey sweater.
But that’s not the worst thing I did. I nosed around the cash register and found a box with some money in it — a five-dollar bill. Jackpot! And to top it off, in the fridge there was this huge submarine sandwich and a can of Coke, and guess where that ended up!
I know stealing is wrong. My mom taught me that. My mom said she’d be looking down on me from heaven, which made me feel good usually. I prayed she was too busy right now to be watching. She sure wouldn’t be happy with me. But somehow I couldn’t stop myself.
In no time I was outside and tearing down the alley as fast as I could. Even though I’m small, I’m fast. I stopped after I got back to the street and scarfed that sandwich, and the Coke disappeared in seconds. I had to keep reminding myself that this wasn’t a dream, that this was really happening. I had money, skates, a stick, gloves; I wasn’t even cold anymore. I hadn’t been warm, I mean really warm, in I don’t know how long.
I was beyond stoked when I thought about the skates. Instead of wandering the streets all day with nothing to do, I could go to the rink and skate and shoot the puck around.
So maybe I didn’t really hate hockey.
Chapter 3
I went right back to the
rink. If those boys were gone I was going to try these skates out, even if they weren’t sharpened. No chance I was going out with them there. I hadn’t played hockey in over a year, and I knew I’d completely suck. I walked across the parking lot and looked over the boards. It was all mine! The change room was off to the side of the rink, so I went in and sat in the corner.
Next second I couldn’t believe how dumb I’d been. Lewis said a street kid’s got to be on the lookout for trouble because it comes out of nowhere, and he was right. Those kids came back. They must have just finished playing and gone to the vending machines. I recognized the three kids who’d asked me for the puck.
“I’m gonna bomb out in Math tomorrow,” the big kid said. “Every time I tried to study I fell asleep.”
“That’s because you only tried once and then went to bed,” the friendly kid laughed.
The big kid didn’t get angry. “I’ll just sneak into the gifted class and cheat off your sister.”
“She’ll kick your butt if you try — but go for it.”
They punched fists. Obviously they were buds like me and Lewis. That big kid was really huge, almost as big as Lewis — and Lewis was sixteen. These kids didn’t look older than me.
“You free tomorrow, Rasheed?” the angry kid asked the friendly kid.
“Yeah. We practise on Tuesday, so we can play here tomorrow after school.” He tugged on the big kid’s shirt. “Collin, you in?”
“Like I’m gonna miss a chance to dangle you? Of course I’m in.”
“Awesome. Derrick?” Rasheed asked the angry kid.
“Sounds good,” Derrick answered.
“So is everyone in?” Rasheed asked, and they all nodded.
I was putting on my skates the entire time, keeping my head down so they wouldn’t notice me. Lewis had warned me about getting too close to Reggies. Said they’ll turn on you and pound you something bad. I’d finished lacing up one skate when I noticed things got darker. I looked up. Rasheed was in front of me.
“Sorry. We just finished playing like five minutes ago. But we’re coming tomorrow after school. You should come out.”
