He caught himself shaking his head at the offering of a cup of steaming brew. It was too quiet in this room, too quiet for so many strangers being in it. They were all looking at him, as if waiting for him to do something. Something as stupid as bruising his shoulder against a sealed door. Or maybe they were waiting for him to cry.
The morning he woke up when Ella was gone, he cried. He cried for so long that he missed breakfast and then school. Brody came to see him afterwards but he refused to see him. He didn't want Brody to ever see him cry again. But he needed to then. He could either cry or stop breathing, and his body wouldn’t let him stop breathing. His parents let him be that day. They let him skip supper too, and that night his mother came to tuck him in, but he could tell from the sadness in her eyes that he couldn't ask her to comfort him.
The woman was speaking again, less softly now, "Riley. I don't know how to begin to tell you this. Any of this, really. I don't know how much you know about the wars and what's been happening here for the last four decades or so. We don't tend to discuss things like this with little kids much...."
He cringed. "Where are my parents?" He hoped his voice wasn't of a little kid.
She walked a pace closer to him and crouched, so her no longer smiling face was in front of his, "They are gone, Riley. The Alliance took them. Your parents knew this might happen. They asked me to look after you."
The words seemed so detached from him. It was like she was describing someone he didn't know, other people, strangers, not his parents, not him. He stared at her, waiting for her to tell him that she made a mistake, and it wasn't his family that was now lost. She didn't.
"Where is Samson?" almost a whisper, that.
Brody ran up to him then, tears in his eyes, and flung his arms around his neck, sobbing into his coat, "Samson was barking at them and they shot him, Riley. They shot him to keep him from barking. I'm so sorry, Riley...."
Samson, who never barked, got shot for barking. This was the thing he could hold on to. Samson never barked. Everybody knew that. They've had him since Riley was a toddler and he never once barked at anything or anyone. He laughed in relief. He knew now this was about someone else's family, not his. Couldn't be his. Samson never barked.
He needed to go home. They would all be there, waiting for him, worried that it took him so long to get home from school. Mom and dad and Samson. All but Ella. He stood up, looking Andy in the eyes. "I have to go home, Andy. I have to go home, and you have to let me." Andy nodded and reached for his coat. Brody was already at the door. They were going with him, and there was no arguing this point, he knew, so he didn't. He just needed to get home, and they'll see that everything was okay.
Mom would be just starting on supper. Dad would be chewing on a piece of mint or whatever he was in the mood for today. They'd be very angry at him for what happened in school today, and his father would very likely beat him and then ground him, and he wouldn't argue with any of it. He could whip him with that old skinny belt if he wanted to until his back was bleeding, he would smile through it all.
He was running now, Andy and Brody barely keeping up, just past Mrs Olden's house with her perpetually littered yard, and four more houses till the last turn. From here he'd normally already see the thin sliver of smoke from the chimney. Maybe mother didn't want to start supper until she knew he was home and safe. Maybe they were out looking for him at Brody's. Just a few more steps and he was there, staring at the very words he wrote on the fence written in yellow paint across the front door of his house. The door was left ajar and was swinging lightly, creaking as it went, the words turning into a blur at the arcs.
He stood there, unable to take another step and not letting himself look away as the three words came swinging in and out of view, edges blurring more and more now, as blurry as Ella's face had become, and saltily running down his frozen cheeks. Brody was handing him a thermos, nodding for him to take it. The cap was already off. He drank from it, greedily, not stopping until he was done, burning his tongue and then the rest of him, all the way down to the pit of his stomach, burning through the blur of words on the fence, words on the house, Ella's face, until he finally felt warm and the distance between where he stood and the swaying front door was suddenly too great.
He knew then, knew for sure, that the wrongness was permanent. And that he would never again walk through that door.
Razor
Drake, March 25, 2236 Female Replenishers Compound
When Drake saw them bring Ella in, his heart sank. He would have rather he never saw her again, than see her with the slave band on her hands, and those eyes, her always alive and watching everything eyes now so timid, all the fire gone out of them. People didn't change like this, he knew. His Ella would have fought them, even with the stun gun jammed between her shoulder blades. She would have at least screamed, to let them know that her voice was still hers. That they didn't own her, not yet anyway. But this Ella didn't do any of those things.
This Ella looked half-asleep, as if she didn't know what was happening to her. As if she didn't know what they would take from her, but everybody knew that. They've been doing it for so long, and didn't even try to hide it. It was as if they wanted everyone to know. Maybe they did. Just another way for them to keep them afraid, to keep them from fighting. He laughed at the thought of anyone fighting anymore. They were all half starved now, and far too broken.
That was a week ago, and he hadn't seen her come out of the compound once. Most slaves didn't though. He didn't know where they put her, and the few notes he passed around the slave kitchen went unanswered. Nobody seemed to know anything about her.
He was hoping Riley was gone, not dead gone, not Brody gone, but gone some place far enough away from this compound. There were rumors he'd been looking for her everywhere he could get to for years. Maybe his search took him well out of range. He couldn't see her like this. Not ever. He tried looking after him when they took Dave and Anna, but he didn't let anyone in, not really. He just didn't seem to want to talk to anyone, not to him, not even to Brody.
He was like a ghost of the old Riley, sleepwalking through the mandatory school years, doing okay enough, from what he heard, and then, as soon as it was over, he was gone. He should have told him about Samson. He never could get over that the bastards shot his dog, that sweet mutt who loved on everybody. He buried him when he heard what happened, before the kid got home, so at least he didn't have to see him like that, to remember him like that, with the hole in his chest, and all that blood coming out of it. He wanted to tell him so many times that he'd buried his Samson, but just couldn't bring himself to do it, to remind him of it.
He filled up his large thermos with steaming hot tea at the slave kitchen, and grabbed a few bars that tasted like sawdust, but would keep his belly from growling for the six hours he'd spend in the tower. He didn't know why they trusted him to guard the place or what he was guarding it from. The damn walls were too high to scale anyway. Maybe that's why they let him do this. They didn't have boy slaves and probably didn't know what the hell to do with him. Just as well. He liked being alone, and the tower was as good a place as any for that.
He climbed up the ladder to the door without counting the steps. He'd done it so many times, he hardly paid any attention to it anymore. Maybe people did change. He couldn't even climb to the roof of their tiny house when he was a kid, and they had a kitten stuck up there. The poor bastard was making the most pitiful noises too, screaming in its tiny voice. He tried to, he really did, but his hands just wouldn't listen to him when he was just a few meters up.
It wasn't that he was afraid of hurting himself, he got hurt plenty. It was that the world moved and swayed down below making him feel shaky and wrong everywhere. His insides just weren't where they were supposed to be when he was up there, making him too dizzy to climb, or to think, and so he slid down, and ran across the street to get Ella, and he was so ashamed. But she didn't even ask. She went up to the roof quickly, without once looking
down and then sat there for a long time holding the frightened kitten, petting it and talking to it in that way she had. And the next morning she told everyone in school how brave Drake was, how he had saved that poor kitten, and he was even more ashamed.
He heard a branch snap somewhere outside the fence. They didn't have any trees on the inside for some reason. Another crunch and snap. Something was off. It wasn't windy enough for the branches to snap like that. He walked over to the open window and pointed his ray at the fence. He adjusted the spread of the ray to cover a larger slice of the wall and waited. The light lit up a tall tree just behind the fence, so tall it must have been there for centuries. He always liked looking at this tree, swaying lightly, the leaves making a swishing sound, soft, always soft.
It was all alive with leaves now, earlier than last year, he thought. This winter was gone in a flash, as if in a hurry to leave this sad place. Something gray moved in the trunk of the tree, like a shadow, but there was nothing to make shadows this high up. He couldn't find it now, so he waited, the ray starting to fade some. He'd have to remember to charge the damn thing tomorrow. There it was again, only now he could see the ghost of Riley in it. Didn't so much see as felt it, the thing he was afraid of. Riley not being gone after all.
He knew the guards at the compound would have seen the light, and that they would come to see what he was shining the ray on for so long. Stupid of him to have done that. He had to tell him to run, somehow, without screaming it, without alerting the guards, but there was no way to do that. He flicked the ray off completely, and slid down the ladder of the tower as fast as he could, letting go with still a few meters left and landing hard. Nothing was broken. Lucky, that.
He started towards the compound at a brisk walk, hoping to intercept the guards before they crossed the lawn, trying to make up something about a squirrel running up and down the trunk in his head that he could jot down on his pad quickly enough for them, nothing to worry about, just him being stupid or scared. They'd buy it too. Slaves were supposed to be stupid and scared. They'd laugh at him and go back inside to their drinking, or games or whatever they did when not bringing new slaves in.
He made it almost all the way to the door of the guard house, when he saw from the corner of his eye the three shapes running along the wall too far to the left for him to be able to catch up. They were almost at the tower. He stood there, mortified, hoping Riley saw them and ran or hid up in the tree. Hoping he hadn't try to climb over the wall. He knew he had screwed up, running out here like an idiot, cutting across in a straight line, not thinking clearly enough. Guards wouldn't run across the lawn. He should have known that. The wall was safety. Of course they'd use the damn wall, the cowards. He, of all people, should have known that.
He was nearing the tower when he heard it first, the faint buzzing of the stun gun, or rather three stun guns. He could tell by the sound that they were set to lethal. There was nothing he could do to help him now.
"Hey, you bloody dumb mute, get your lazy ass over here. We found us a wannabe rapist while you were asleep at your post," the one with an ugly mustache was glaring at him. He looked like he'd been drinking. They probably all were, but not enough to give him any kind of an edge. He lowered his head and walked over. The three guards were standing over the boy, spitting on him, and occasionally kicking him in the ribs. His hands were banded in front of him. His head down, knees digging into the lawn. He didn't make a sound when they kicked him, and there was nothing he could do about wiping the spit off, with his hands the way they were.
"I have half a mind to shoot you, mute, for good measure. What do you say to that?" The mustache walked up to him, and stuck the barrel of the gun under his chin, "Here, or should I aim for your dick?" The gun travelled lower, "You still even have a dick or did they cut that off too?" The other two were laughing now, holding on to their crotches, pointing at his. He had to let them, he knew. So he stood there, head still down, not looking the mustache in the eyes, trying to make his face look calm. They wanted their entertainment. They wanted their dumb, mute, maybe dickless slave. At least they stopped kicking at Riley's ribs. That was something.
The jacket of the mustache beeped in short bursts. He took his comm out and pressed it to his ear, "Yes, of course. On our way. Apologies. Yes. But... I understand." He flicked it off, and he noted with not a little satisfaction that he was no longer laughing. None of them were.
"Hassinger wants him, apparently alive," the mustache spat towards the other guards, "and you too, although I've no idea what she could possibly want with a dumbass dickless mute. Let's move it." The gun was now pointing at Drake's back, and the commotion behind him let him know the boy was dragged to his feet and walking. At least he could still walk.
He'd never been in this part of the compound before. He didn't even know it existed. He always thought all the floors here went up, but they just went down, using an old service elevator at the end of a hallway you could only get into with a fingerprint scan. He knew he needed to remember this, if he had any hope of finding his way back here. He didn't think Hassinger would execute him. Male slaves were far too rare for that. And she seemed to genuinely feel sorry for how dumb Zoriners were. It made it easier for her to convince the girls of their inherent gifts, their purpose.
The guard with the ugly mustache pointed at a large metal door with his comm and it slid open, as if running on gears, the grinding metallic noise making his teeth hurt. The room looked like he always imagined old prison cells looked. Bare concrete walls, a tiny bed, a sink, a toilet, and two metal stools in the middle. That's it.
Hassinger was standing with her back to them when they entered. Without turning around, she lifted her hand and beckoned them all in, "You are dismissed, all but Drake and the boy. Leave." Her voice was colder than when she was giving her speeches, but still not unpleasant. There was a huskiness, a softness to it, as if she had spent her whole life never needing to raise it to be heard.
The guards shoved Riley into the middle of the room, pushed him onto one of the stools and left, silently, but for the grinding of the opening and closing of the door. She was still standing with her back to them. "I will need help guarding this boy, and I need it to be someone I can trust not to talk." She turned around then, looking him over, as if he were an especially interesting species of pig.
"Nice to finally make yourself useful, isn't it, Drake?" He nodded, hoping his face didn't betray the dread he felt about the boy, about what she wanted him to not talk about. She seemed satisfied with her inspection, as she took his hand and programmed his print into the door's id pad, and handed him a comm, "You'll need these two to get in an out of here. Do you know how to use them?" He nodded again, and moved to stand by the door, as he thought she'd want a guard to do. She walked over to where Riley was, slowly, as if time was of no concern to her.
"Name. Do you have one, Zoriner?" She sat down opposite him, staring at the top of his head. He watched her reach out and roughly grab Riley under the chin and jerk his head up, "You will look at me, Zoriner. I want your name." He was looking at her now and shaking his head. Why wouldn't he lie? Make up a bloody name. She had no way of knowing what his actual name was. What could it hurt? He wished Riley wasn't sitting with his back to him, wished he could talk to him in some way, even if just by shaking or nodding his head.
Abruptly, Hassinger got up and walked over to the wall behind the bed. She was pressing her fingers into the wall, as if she were typing something into it. The wall slid open and a slick metal tray came out. She picked up what he now saw was a small thin-bladed knife and walked over to Riley, "Stand up." He did. She shoved the chair out of the way, walked around him and with one move, sliced his shirt open.
Drake flinched, and noted with dismay that Riley did not. He was playing a dangerous game, Riley was. He was being defiant. It wasn't smart of him, and if anything, Riley was smart. That couldn't have changed in the few years he hadn't known him. He needed to find a way of helping him somehow or t
his was going to end badly. He couldn't do that to Ella, not this.
Hassinger was back at the tray, calmly going through a variety of white handles. He couldn't tell what those were. She finally seemed to have found what she wanted. It still looked like a handle to him, something that you'd put on the end of a whip maybe, but there was no whip part. "I don't care about your name anymore, Zoriner. So don't tell me. I want to know which of my girls you came here for. That I will make you tell me if it kills you. I don't expect anyone to miss you where you come from and Drake here - he doesn't talk. We are far enough underground, where nobody will hear you scream, kid. Oh, and I forgot to tell you," she leaned in close to Riley's face, "I will enjoy getting that name out of you."
She was standing in front of Riley, her hand on that weird handle thing, fingers tapping on the plastic of it. She must have pressed something on there, for suddenly, a long, thin, razor sharp piece of metal sprung out of it. He heard it vibrate through the air. It made his insides hurt.
She pulled out a small silver screen and pointed it at the ceiling. A metal rope flew out of an invisible opening, with a wide cuff on the end. She pulled the cuff through the slave band on Riley's hands and locked it in place. The rope started to go up, taking Riley's hands with it, until they were all the way up over his head.
He stood unmoving, head still up, but for just a moment he could see his face tense, an almost imperceptible knot appearing and disappearing in his jaw.
"It's been a very long time since I've had to do this. I've missed it."
She waved the razor whip through the air, slowly, making sure Riley saw the thinness of it, the sharpness. She was watching his face, looking at him. Then she smiled, a full on smile, and he knew that she didn't want Riley to talk, that she wanted to do this, to hurt him. She was a bloody sadist.
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