You know the old adage: Who disdains want to buy?
It is just that I feel the despicable voice of this woman, pure envy. After all, Jennifer was able in a few weeks she could not in years: to my boss mad with love.
- And the little woman with Richard? They told me it was drab, do you? The boyfriend of my sister already saw an ordinary club. It is unfortunate that so respectable men moved with women so common.
The other woman says, and I wonder if the little woman she refers is Paige.
- Sex, my dear. These women do dirty things. Although I have done some different things with Neil, there are things that I do not accept.
Like, make a good oral and see his companion go berserk screaming your name? Having sex in a garage or during the day in an almost deserted beach?
Still think so, your dizzy, and really no man shall see grace in you, beyond that pretty face. Not that I'm an expert at sex, I'm not, but all it does Adam happy, makes me too. Not me who I grew up with such strict regulations have the mind so closed as these two.
- Does Richard know who she is? Or the risks you are running?
I no longer hate Paige. Basically, she's a good person. All right, being honest, Paige is an amazing person. What made me take her anger was jealousy that I had, and quickly passed when I heard that became engaged to one of the best my boss friends. Even I am helping her to get the address where Peter is organizing the bachelor party.
Fix up the dress, and I'm willing to say a few home truths for these two. All this poison reminds me of a conversation I heard accidentally between Teresa and Angelina about me. Knowing that there are people talking about you behind your back, should not, but it hurts a lot. Even when they are baseless lies.
Once you touch the door closing, another voice exalted paralyzes me.
- I do not have to explain something to you both. Know that Paige and I are not prostitutes. And even if we had been, we are still better than you two together! Prostitutes sell their bodies to survive, you corrupt and sell their souls.
I literally give little jumping. Bravo, Miss Connor, these two spiteful deserve to hear all this.
I admire the courage of Jenny, I would have had the same courage as I grabbed Teresa Silver talking about me.
- We may not have money or do not come from a respectable family as you two, but we have a heart ...
Jenny follows brave, putting all the record straight. I open a small crack in the door. I like to watch box, but rather than see the startled faces is worth more than an exclusive session.
- Once and for all, Milla, move away from Neil. He loves me and we'll be together, whether you like it or not. Now get out of here before I do something that your mother should have done long ago.
Jenny leans toward them, his fists clenched.
- Give them a good beating!
You know when you feel you fell in love with someone? Because I just realized that I would love to be friends. Real friends. Not to speak of silly unimportant matters, or just think of ballads like Aline. But a friend who you know will be with you, regardless of the circumstances. Will not use against you things that hurt.
- Wild! - Milla comes stomping.
- Fuck! - Jenny yells to close the door and lean on it - Fuck you, you cretin.
Despite the courage she faced the two, I notice that was shaken. Words hurt more than a slap in the face. I had many hurtful words thrown in my face.
- Jenny?
- Penelope? I did not know you were here at the party.
I understand now why not seen on the table with Mr. Durant. Certainly, Milla must have loosened his poison long before.
- I came to follow the last minute Adam.
Notice the surprise on his face and resolve to change the focus. I know that Mr. Durant distrusted, or made sure of the relationship that Adam and I had, even though it has never commented anything. Now, with his amnesia, I do not know exactly what I mean.
I do not know how we are. We had two amazing days, but I'm apprehensive. Whenever we step forward, step back two. I have tried to think of anything beyond today.
- Everything is fine with you? I heard part of the conversation. Do not give importance, Jenny. I know Mr. Durant two years ago. I know the list of women with whom he left. As his secretary, I had to score some meetings ...
I look for words that do not sound as aggressive, revealing, or might hurt her even more. I can not reveal what was entrusted. But somehow reassure her desire. And there is the fact that, until recently, Neil was still married. It should have been easy for them to have to deal with the accident, lack of memory and the snake Sophia prowling the two. Definitely, Miss Parker did not need to throw more shit in this relationship.
- All right, Penelope, do not have to tell me anything you can not.
- What I mean is that I never saw him as it is now. So relaxed and happy. Everyone in the company noticed the difference. Not that before were a bad boss, but seemed unattainable. So do not waste this opportunity. Love of you is so beautiful.
She starts to cry, and I'm apprehensive. I do not usually meddle in other people's lives, and I'm afraid it has gone too far.
- Do not cry - embrace it, uncertain of what to do - I'm sorry, I did not disturb you.
We embraced, until it returns to normal.
- Do not disturb me. It's just ... This whole world, this money and these women. Sometimes I get insecure.
I understand what she meant. Neil is an influential man, rich and sure of himself. He could have any woman at his feet. Also, the environment that he lives is often cruel and prejudiced.
I may have never given emphasis to this, because they always dealt with such people. First when I was engaged to Max, after working with Neil.
But with Adam, my fears had never been such. His family is also one of the most important, but had treated me as an equal, welcoming me with affection.
Now I think about it, never even had a social life. We never went to parties like that, and I've never seen with him in high society. Our relationship has always been the two of us, as if we lived in a glass case. It never bothered me until now.
- In regard to love, there's always insecurities, independent of money, status, race or sexual orientation. Any woman or man in love has its insecurities. The difference is how to build the relationship. You can work every day or let doubt destroy it all. Life is not perfect, Jenny. Do not expect it, love and companionship help us overcome every day. Trust you two.
Not just words to comfort her. I believe faithfully that honesty and trust are the structures of a good relationship. If Adam had told all, none of us would have suffered so much.
- Wow, you're so safe. Your boyfriend must be a very lucky man.
- I will when I find - I think of Adam outside. Back to being lovers? - It's not easy to find true love.
And even harder to lose it.
- Or perhaps you've found and just need a little push.
What does she know? Well, being engaged to Neil, they should not have any secrets.
- Maybe - I reach out to her - Let's go back to the party?
Bad we turned to leave, and Paige comes in the door, exalted.
- I found you! Neil is completely crazy looking for you. what are you doing here?
Jenny and I looked at each other quickly. Surely she also remembered the evil words of Leticia on Paige.
- Anything. We were redoing makeup and talking a bit.
- I'll take and retouch lipstick - Paige runs to the mirror with a mischievous smile - I need to be beautiful for what comes next.
- What you mean?
It's not just that Jenny is curious. The little I know Paige has proven to me that she is very little crazy.
- Can not tell. I promised Richard would not speak.
While they talk, I take to retouch the lipstick. Paige asks Jenny about a man she saw them talking. Konrad was what Jenny said, and Paige warned that Sophia is also present.
We returned to the room. Adam meets me halfway
, taking me to dance. It was hard not to notice his impatience.
If the two were surprised, I do not know. When I'm in his arms, as now, there are no doubts, fears and insecurities. There's only two of us, always.
We are in the middle of the song when it is stopped. Neil comes on stage.
- There in that room a beautiful, wonderful woman ...
It starts one of the most beautiful speeches I've ever heard in my life. And look at that when it is to be romantic, Adam knows to be unbeatable.
While Jenny ponders the marriage proposal, everyone in the room is silent with bated breath. As in one of those movies that we see on the big screen.
I felt a huge chest tightness when Mr. Durant was leaving the stage, devastated that she had not given the yes.
Oh, Jenny do not do it with him. I look at Adam, and he's with a gaze fixed on me. His hands leave my waist and intertwine my fingers. They are cold.
- Yes, I do.
The lounge comes down. Adam and I remain connected. I see a glare in his eyes. That emotion, you know ...
Oh my God. He would make the request?
- Penelope ...
- I have to go to the bathroom.
Loose your hands and pull away a bit, I'm choking and cold sweat.
- You just got back from there - Adam looks at me incredulously and a little disappointed.
- Was Filled. Here is crowded and hot, and there are people everywhere and ...
I realize that does not say anything about anything. The only thing in my head is red light flashing.
- I'll be right back.
I try to turn, but he grabs my arm.
- I'm in the garden waiting for you.
His lips touch my a greedy way, born of necessity. When he walks away, I see in your eyes thousands of promise. It's amazing and scary.
fast way to the toilet. Once you close the door and the buzz out there diminishes, my heart begins to beat more slowly.
I look at the frightened girl in the mirror. She asks me what I'm doing here. There is a lovely man out there waiting for me to ask for my hand.
- He is not the Max not do the same with me, leaving me alone at the altar..
But Adam had gone so often. All of them hurt more than the day I found myself alone and humiliated at the altar.
- Adam is not like Max - I repeat and repeat.
None of the time he left was because he wanted to. In a way, I can understand. I would do everything to protect it is also believed that he was in danger.
- Then I'll go up there and say yes. I love you and I will say yes. Yes, I do.
Laughing at myself, a young man who stares at me as if he thought me crazy, I go out.
Determined path to the garden. I see Adam back to me and Peter in front of him. Both seem tense. Probably they should be rehearsing what he will say to me.
- Yes Yes Yes.
I will whisper while their voices are becoming louder.
Yes.
Chapter 18
Adam
I would make the request at that time. He had already delayed and waited for the ideal moment for too long. The courage of Neil fed mine. Even without an alliance, I would ask you to be my wife Penelope. That together we form a family. It's funny how, two years ago, children were a dirty word in my vocabulary, but Penelope with her, I want and need everything.
Following the garden, thinking of how I ask you to marry me. I saw fear and insecurity trespassing on his face, it was what made me let her flee seeking a time. Of course, before I had to kiss her, trying to pass through my lips as love and that will be all right if we are together.
- So, the couple returned to 20 active.
Peter comes up behind me, interrupting my thoughts.
- Almost that.
- I'm glad you two, and Penelope overrode everything, especially for me, after all, I was the one who installed the security cameras.
Turn, turning his back to him and the hall. I am tense. I'm afraid of her reaction to it.
- Not quite.
He looks at me confused.
- Damn, she has not forgiven me. - Peter scratches his head and looks pretty upset - I should have known it would not be so easy. I understand.
- I did not tell Peter!
- As well, do not tell? - It is in front of me. I stare at the floor.
- Ia count yesterday, then postponed to today, and then after the party.
- Damn it, Adam! You know you have to tell.
Peter looks at me furious, in fact possessed.
- You know what we did with Penelope it was not correct. You have to tell it soon before it gets worse, man. Do not do to others what you do not want done to you. I hate lies, I do not know yet because I agreed with this plan that is at least stupid.
- You think I do not want? What do you think I should say? "Oh, dear the way, Peter installed several cameras in his apartment and I watched every day the apartment I rented near you."
- Adam ...
His voice is cautious. I know you want to calm down, but I'm scared and angry with myself. I feel like a cornered animal with nowhere to go.
- Or, "by the way, I saw you bathing, changing clothes, I masturbated when you masturbated moaning my name. I saw you cry and suffer every time ... "
- Damn, Adam, shut up!
Seeing her protest as an aversion about my private life, I decided to continue. I need to vent it somehow before telling her.
- I must say I cranked the fire alarm when Max was there? And that day was not the only time I entered the night in her apartment? Is that what you want me to say, right?
- No more - he's looking over my shoulder - You've said it all.
At this point, it's like you're in front of your doctor, awaiting the outcome of an examination in which he confirms that my condition is terminal. It's the closest I can explain the feeling that I have to take a step to the side and find her, completely shocked, looking at me with his eyes torn about me.
I had received the death sentence.
- Honey...
I wanted to find a way to explain that I had no intention of hurting her. I never wanted to see this glow in his eyes hurt.
- For!
It was the fervent request that made me flinch. It was the pain in his voice.
- Stop hurting me.
- Penelope, please listen ...
Every step I take toward it, I see it back. His face is a cascade of pain and disappointment.
- No! Are lies upon lies, Adam. I no longer know if I know you.
If she said she did not love me, I would not hurt as much as this bitter statement.
The barrier that stands between us it is so high and impassable, I can not imagine how to achieve it again.
I get static, helpless, hopeless, seeing from away from me.
- What did I do, Peter? - My voice is almost a whisper floating in the night, which is now completely cold. I should have the strength and run after her, but my feet are glued to the floor. I am petrified.
- Shit. It was what you did, a great merda- despite the irony, his face is serious - Is not that what all the passionate fools? Let's fix it all. She'll understand.
I feel the heavy hand on my shoulder; contrary to what he wants, does not have the power to comfort me.
- At least now she knows everything. There is nothing more separating you.
Just one of my lies. Shit man I am? Who loves does not lie, does not hide the truth, it does not hurt like I did.
But even loaded all these defects, even not deserving it even back to face me, I can not let it get out of my life without begging your pardon. A right or wrong way, I love. This has never been false.
- I'm going after it!
Return to the hall with Peter on my heels. We look for the whole party, everywhere I imagine that she may have wanted some peace.
- She must have gone back to the hotel - inform him - The limo is not here. I need to find her, Peter.
- Listen, Adam - he to me, so call a taxi
.
- Be patient with her, okay? And if she wants to beat you, you leave and keep quiet.
Unhappy. If I had not been so paralyzed with fear, I would send him to shut up. But I have no strength even to this.
I do not answer and got into the car. He continues his litany, telling all that I should leave Penelope do, and beat me. Yell at me or curse me, if it were the case. And especially, I did everything for her to understand that he was innocent in that story. Damn it! I grovel at your feet if need be.
We arrived at the hotel and I thank God for the end of his talk.
Virtually flight to the elevators, leaving Peter behind.
Following straight to her room and knock on the door a few times. Back his forehead on the cold wood.
- Penelope? Listen to me, please.
I do not know you...
These words are hammering in my head.
Knock again at the door. Repeatedly. Anything.
Following to the bar. Maybe she just needs a little more time.
I grab the bottle of whiskey, but stop before even a single drop fall into the cup. It's not that way I will solve this problem.
Return the adjunct door separating the suites. Escoro my forehead on the smooth wood and let my feelings speak for me.
I have to try to retrieve it.
- I was an idiot. I'm an idiot. But I'm a fool completely and irrevocably in love with you. You were ... - deep breath - you are my first love. I'm learning to love with you. So it helps me do what is right.
Turning the knob, ready to do anything to convince her how much I'm being true.
- Give me another chance.
I was prepared for his refusal, accusations, charges, even your anger, but I was not prepared to find the room as empty as my chest got to see that she left.
Bathed in despondency, open all the closet doors, just to confirm what ails my heart.
Penelope was gone.
Although my will only kneel down and give me suffering, something bigger and stronger within me commanded me to fight for it.
Fight. Just fight. While this flame still burning in his heart.
I run back to the elevators. I enter the first that comes without checking if it rises or falls. Luck seems to be on my side this time.
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