by Ade Grant
Each cupboard proved bare. The Mariner could not remember his last meal and his stomach gurgled at the thought. As if to keep him on message, Grace’s stomach growled even louder as she scampered about his ankles.
“Alright girl,” he said, knowing he didn’t have long to please her. In the dark peripheries her children gathered, each hoping for some morsel of food to tide them over. It was an enormous pack, a dozen pairs of eyes trained upon his every move, a dozen mouths watering at the thought of meat. Although small, their teeth were sharp. If they decided to turn against the Mariner, he would not last long. And neither would his remains.
Only a small piece of dried beef jerky remained. Its plastic packet was pushed into the furthest recess, crumpled and forgotten. He picked it up. On the front it claimed all sorts of energising promises, but the Mariner had never felt different after eating one, only full and bloated. On the back it said ‘Best Before’ and then a string of numbers that made no sense. Gibberish. Just like the faded label on the bottle of wine.
The Mariner winced at the memory. Why had he allowed himself to become so dependent upon such a perilous drug? Yet dependent he’d become and with the wine running out he was sure to reap the demons it’d sown. Their roots would knot in his belly, twisting his insides until he wanted to tear out his own guts, then their branches would rise up to tangle about his spine, shaking him till his very mind came loose.
Grace didn’t give a shit. All that concerned her was the beef jerky, still clasped in the Mariner’s hand, and the question of whose mouth it should enter, his or hers?
“Arf!”
He pulled the packet open and savoured the dry savoury smell. Inside, the jerky look ancient, sweaty and far removed from the concept of ‘meat’. It also looked delicious. The Mariner was desperately hungry, a little food might go a long way in delaying the alcohol pains, but he also knew that if the devils were to survive they’d need Grace’s strength to hunt the few elusive rats. So instead of feeding himself, he dropped it to the floor.
Grace snapped the jerky between her jaws, her long whiskers quivering with delight. Without a grunt of thanks she scurried into the shadows, a brief cacophony of scrabbling claws signalled her broods pursuit. The Mariner was left alone, with only the groans of the ship and distant muffled yaps.
He did not linger, but instead chose to return above deck. There was no more food, and very little wine. He should try to resist the alcohol demons as long as possible before opening the last bottle. Perhaps he could buy himself enough time to find land again, and then plunder it for supplies? But hadn’t Absinth warned him about the lack of land out here? Or had it been the Philosopher Woman? With a mind so full of fog it was impossible to remember.
For not the first time, the thought of suicide popped into his head. He had a gun, a whole case-load in fact. Semi-automatics that could pop the top of his head clean off with enough bullets in the magazine to keep his skull flipping in the air like a cowboy’s hat. The devils wouldn’t miss him. This was their ship, not his.
Suicide was a possibility. He was sure he had the guts to put a gun in his mouth, fuck it, he’d tickle the barrel with his tongue as he pulled the trigger. Dying didn’t scare him. But after that? After the dying, then what? What lay beyond? The uncertainty filled him with terror.
No, no suicide. The ocean would decide his fate. The ocean, the air and the Neptune herself.
Back above, the wind was picking up, though not enough to cause concern. The ship rose and fell steadily, with enough rhythm to welcome sleep, though sleep would not come easy. Consciousness had only lasted ten minutes at the most, yet sleep was all he had to turn to. The Island was not in sight and he did not want to be awake when the pains began.
He looked into the sky, eager to spot a bird that he could follow or some other hint at distant land. There were neither. Not even clouds. Just open sky and infinite water. And he a lone sailor, adrift with ravenous demons both inside and out.
But then – something out at sea! A shape moving though the waves, pale silver just as they were, but causing displaced water to appear black, ripples of darkness giving definition to the beast. It moved gracefully and his heart raced at the thought of it being a dolphin or seal or some other helpful creature. He strained against the barrier, desperate to see the first piece of strange life in months.
It was a woman. Her pale skin shone in the brine beneath long raven hair. He could see her arms pulling the water aside as she swam breast stroke, heels alternately breaking the surface with each gentle kick. She was not exhausted nor desperate, hers were the actions of a lady at leisure; someone going for a brief swim before dinner, rather than one lost in the middle of an endless ocean.
The Mariner craned his neck looking from horizon to horizon, trying to see her ship, but there was none. Just the sea. Just her. And just he.
Closer now, she was a woman of youth, flesh healthy and soft, skin without blemish; a stark contrast to his own aged, scarred and sun burnt exterior. To his delight he saw she was naked, and surely she was aware of his presence, yet there was no modesty, either feigned or real. She swam as if it were an absolute delight. A natural joy.
The Mariner tried to speak, but his mouth had dried up. Shamefully, he stiffened in his jeans, but that could be excused. He hadn’t seen another thinking person in months, let alone a beautiful woman! Surely someone so brazen could forgive lustful thoughts? He paced back and forth, eyes fixed on the approaching figure.
He decided he would cast her a rope, pull her on board, then ravish her right there on the deck. Stars above, flesh below. It would be sweet, perfect, just like his dreams. He gathered a length in his arms, preparing for the opportune moment.
Below, the devils began to howl, though the Mariner was beyond noticing. All that existed to him was she; just her perfect round buttocks as they poked above the surface and her thighs opening and closing with each thrust.
The woman stopped swimming just beyond throwing distance. Her legs fell from behind and sank into the depths as she straightened to tread water. No sign of struggle could be seen; she floated buoyantly, shoulders clear above the surface, breasts firm and full. The Mariner’s lustful eyes did not remain on them for long, they were drawn to the maiden’s face. It was the archetype of heavenly, the embodiment of fantasy. The Philosopher Woman had spoken of Plato’s Form of Beauty and now it swam before him. Her large eyes called to his soul and her lips called to his loins, though she did not look at him.
“Come closer!” he called, clutching the rope in one hand and waving with the other. “I’ll pull you out, just swim a little further!”
She smiled. Not at him, her head was turned to the side as if looking at an imaginary lover, someone sharing the eternal waves, and the Mariner felt briefly like a spectator, a customer across from her in a bordello. That was nonsense of course. He was here and she was there, down in the cold night’s waters.
He felt giddy. Perhaps the water wasn’t as chill as he thought? Perhaps he should dive on in?
In one smooth motion, the woman lifted her arms out of the sea and placed her hands upon the surface. Instead of sinking, her hands found purchase, arms tensed, and she lifted herself up. The Mariner watched in amazement as her whole body climbed clear out. First her breasts, then her stomach, and finally her legs, giving a fleeting glimpse of her sex. Against all logic, she sat upon the surface as if it were a raft, rising and falling with the waves, each one only breaking a little as it clashed upon her thighs.
The Mariner wanted to take in the whole sight, to drink the image of her body, but he found it difficult to look away from her face. That sly smile beneath tragic eyes.
She raised her hands to her breasts, cupping them, pushing them together. Between her fingers he could see her nipples, erect and large, dark against her skin. She opened her mouth, letting out a gasp, her tongue moist and delicious.
The Mariner undressed, eager to join the woman below. But at the back of his mind was a voice, perhaps
a voice in tune with the devils’ howls of protest, that said he should stay on deck. The water meant death. It always had.
The sea temptress leaned back, placing one hand behind her to steady herself. The other she traced a path along her right leg, running up the inner thigh, from knee towards the hips. As she drew near to her destination she parted her legs, knees raised, sex exposed to him fully for the first time.
The Mariner doubted he’d wanted anything more. Not company, food or wine. Not even The Oracle which he sought every day. All he wanted was to put his face between those milk white legs, taste her and lose himself in her scent.
If only she would look at him!
The cold night air whipped about his body as he removed the last of his garments. He was naked now, just as she. Exposed in equal measure. His cock was hard, ridiculously so, desperate for release. Without realising, he took it in hand as he watched. Without thinking, he pumped it as he craved.
Her hand had traced its way up her thigh to her opening. She slid a finger up and down, feeling the length of her lips, teasing forth the moisture within. In a powerful motion she threw her head back, crying out in pleasure. Hair, only a moment before soaking wet, but now dry and perfectly groomed, cascaded around her shoulders.
Faster and faster her fingers worked, at first teasing her clit, then moving down to dance inside. Her hips rose and fell, fucking an invisible lover, a lover that could be him, if only he dared join her.
The Mariner felt warmth rising within and a tingling spreading from his groin. He could no longer resist, he came, his cock spilling his seed over the side in a great arc. The thick white substance hit the water below as a tiny sticky string. Literally a drop in the ocean.
And as it did, the woman, still in the throes of ecstasy, lost all substance. Her dark hair melted into her flesh, her fingers blended together, her arms fell into her chest. Her entire body became water, and fell back into the sea.
He looked on in disbelief, brought back to reality by the post-orgasm bring-down. All that remained as evidence of the encounter was his sperm, floating in the water below.
But then, so fast that he almost missed it, he saw an eel. It zigzagged out of the depths and in one gulp ate his semen whole as if it were snatching a fly. A flash of muddy brown and then back into the gloom. The process ended so fast the Mariner could almost believe that the whole event had never took place, except for the drying evidence upon his fingers.
The Mariner slumped to the ground, exhausted, naked and confused.
Wretched and alone.
2
BEFORE, A DAY BY THE SEASIDE
THE STORE WAS STOCKED WITH all sorts of useless items; plastic spades, inflatable reptiles, books about places that didn’t seem to exist. The Mariner browsed them all, trying to find something salvageable.
Elsewhere, doing some salvaging of her own, sniffed Grace, a plump dog-like creature he’d found tucked away on his ship. She must have snuck aboard at some point during his long journey, and now they were too far from her home to take her back, wherever her home happened to be. He had no idea which island she could have come from. None seemed likely to support these vicious little beasts.
A set of shelves boasting multi-coloured plastic orbs suddenly caught Grace’s attention. She wedged her body into the darkness beneath as best she could whilst snapping her jaws at whatever small rodent had fled there, distinctive white markings on her fur the only sight in the shadows.
The deserted storehouse was located at the end of a pier he’d docked alongside. A stubby wooden walkway jutting out of a stony crumbled scratching of an island. This wasn’t the island, the one he’d been searching for since memory began, but it never hurt to restock. The pier itself was old and dilapidated, its wooden support beams rotten and dragged into the sea by the weight of their own inadequacies. Faded paintwork, once childish and bright, but now cracked, dull and sinister, lined the gangway. There was no cheer here.
The Mariner moved quickly, always aware that he was at his most vulnerable when on land. Each footfall echoed throughout the rickety structure, the waves below doing little to conceal his presence. At night, this abandoned tomb to the past would have been unbearable, and indeed, even on this bright sunny day, the shadows proved intolerable. It stank of death, all rotten hopes and the ghosts of civilisation.
Finally he found something that may be of use; an elixir, promising protection from the harmful rays of the sun. A shield in liquid form. The Mariner never ceased to be amazed at such finds.
Leaving Grace to her hunt, the Mariner strolled, a little faster than necessary, out the gloomy store. The midday heat was harsh upon his brow, light reflecting off the water scorching his eyes. It seemed as good a time as any to test the new-found potion.
He scrutinized the small white bottle. It claimed to be ‘factor 40’. He sighed. Why did all these relics of the past have to fall back on their alchemy to describe what they did? Once squirted out into his hand, he found the contents thick and creamy. He gingerly brought some up to his face, fearful of some trick. There seemed to be none, the light dabs felt cool against his dry skin.
“You shouldn’t put that on in the daylight,” a female voice called from the shore. “If you put it on with the sun shining you’ll trap the rays in and you’ll cook from the inside-out.”
The Mariner swung round, scrutinising every shadow until he saw her; a thin silhouette warily edging along the pier, keeping close to the side of the store. Her face and build were still concealed, but the light bounced off her tangled copper hair, nestled about her shoulders.
“Who was Winston Churchill?” she asked him, maintaining her distance.
The Mariner found the situation absurd. She was wary of him, just as he was of her, and for the same reason, they feared each other were of the Mindless. But the fact that they were not attacking one another immediately proved otherwise. Surely?
“I don’t know,” he answered truthfully. He’d never heard the name before.
This seemed to throw her. She recoiled as if ready to run, her body braced and tense, but stood her ground.
“Name a country within Europe!”
He thought for a moment, eager to please his questioner and put her at ease. “It’s a trick question. There are no countries within Europe. It doesn’t exist,” he guessed.
“Ha! Ain’t that the truth.”
The Mariner looked down at the bottle in his hand, concerned that his flesh were about to cook, but feeling no heat and sensing no smouldering. “How do you know about this ‘trapping of the sun’?” he asked her.
“My father told me,” she replied, still tense and prepared for flight.
“Why don’t you come out from there? I’m no Mindless.”
After a pause she hesitantly emerged from her hiding place and into the light.
He could not guess her age. Hard times would forever mask the natural entropy of her flesh. Yet despite her bruises and scars, her eyes were deep and face noble. She had the toned physique of someone forced to survive on their own merit. The Mariner knew this well. He survived by his own hand too.
“Who is ‘Winston Churchill’?” he asked her as she drew near. “Is he some sort of pirate?”
She laughed at this, amusement tinged with fear. “He was a British Prime Minister. You should know that.”
The Mariner thought hard about it, but could not understand why she would think so. He didn’t recognise any of those words. He knew ‘Prime’ meant ‘first’. But the others?
With a snort and a gurgling howl, Grace came bounding out of the store. Her mouth was partially full of rat so all attempts to terrify her would-be adversary were blocked by a pathetic spluttering. Far from being sent fleeing into the distance, the woman seemed delighted.
“A tazzy-devil!”
The Mariner was taken a-back - she recognised the strange rat-dog! “You’ve seen these creatures before?”
“Certainly,” she gave him another puzzled glance tinged with
fear. “She’s a Tasmanian devil.” And then, as if explaining to a complete idiot, “From Tasmania.”
Just like the strange pirate she’d mentioned earlier, the Mariner did not recognise the name. But ‘devil’ did seem an accurate description for the mean spirited beast.
“She’s due soon.”
The Mariner was broken from his musings. “I’m sorry?”
“The devil, she’s due soon. Pregnant.”
“Is she?” The Mariner was genuinely surprised. “I just thought she was fat. No wonder she’s in such a foul mood.”
“Oh no, they’re all like that. It’s just their nature.”
Grace, having realised that the woman was no threat and that the half eaten rat was infinitely more interesting than the two monkeys, stopped her assault and laid down, gnawing at the rodent’s remains.
“Where are you from?”
“The boat,” he replied, pointing to the obvious ship anchored behind.
“No, I mean before.”
“Before what?”
She sighed, becoming impatient. “You don’t know much do you?”
“No. I guess not.” Clutching at straws, and sensing it was the right thing to do, he asked her the same question.
“London. Originally. My names Isabel.” She held out a small but firm hand. He shook it.
“I don’t have a name.”
She smiled at him. “Why am I not surprised? I shall call you John.”
He smiled back, glad for the company. “John it is.”
Isabel lived in a crumbling house not far from the pier. The island, if it could be called that, seemed to simply consist of an oblong stretch of land, with a pier straddled across a stony beach on one side and a sudden drop back into the ocean on the other. The land itself was littered with great slabs of broken concrete and twisted metal. A wasteland, in all respects. No life. No vegetation.
