by Ade Grant
With a gurgle the screeching suddenly ceased. McConnell wanted to look, but was too scared to witness again those hate-filled eyes and horrible snarl.
But it was the quiet, gentlemanly voice of Gregory McConnell that reached his badly torn ear.
“I think you’ll find, young man, it’s pronounced Zig-ish-wa-rah.”
They never found Deggendorf. The forest gave way to vast unkempt fields which in turn surrendered to a sporadic collection of hamlets. Nothing that could be called a town. Eventually the rickety car broke free from the thinning mist, although their vaporous pursuer never fully vanished beyond the horizon, it clung to the ever changing line, refusing to give up the hunt.
“You’re going to love Sighisoara,” Gregory said, looking out the window as if he were on a pleasant excursion. “It’s a beautiful medieval town, one of the most significant in Transylvania’s history. Ancient stone houses. Majestic church atop of a central hill. Ah! I can picture it now. I grew up there, you see, before my father insisted we move away. Was dangerous for an Englishman to live in Romania in those days. It was a terrible blow to my mother though, she’d lived there her whole life.”
“I didn’t know you’d actually lived in Romania,” McConnell said. Gregory had mentioned, some years ago, that his Grandmother had been Romanian, but had never elaborated further.
“Why would you? We don’t normally share such things with our drivers, but seeing as how you’re going to take me there, I thought you deserved an explanation. What’s your name?”
“Christopher,” McConnell muttered, deeply worried about state of his father’s mind.
“A fine name. You’ll enjoy Sighisoara, many beautiful young women there, we’ll have the time of our lives! You won’t regret it.”
He doesn’t realise how old he is, McConnell marvelled. He’s regressed to an earlier segment of life. No wonder he has no clue who I am!
“It might be difficult to cross the border, with politics being as they are, but we’ll find a way. My father was resourceful, and so am I. Have you ever driven to Romania?”
“No. And certainly not from Germany.”
“What do you mean Germany?” Gregory laughed. “We’re on the outskirts of Prague, look!”
Ahead, the fields suddenly ended and a city began as if the two landscapes had been hastily sewn together. In the distance he could make out a hill straddled by an enormous castle, a beautiful forest of ornate turrets in the foreground.
“It’s gorgeous,” he remarked, stunned by the old-worldliness of the Czech capital. Through the centre ran a river, snaking in an enormous question-mark, but as it left the city, it flowed through fields, ending the defined route and spilling into a quagmire.
“Shouldn’t a river continue? I mean, if it’s as established up there,” he said, gesturing to the bridges ahead, “shouldn’t it be just as defined out here?”
“I don’t know,” Gregory said. “When I was last here there weren’t fields like this for miles.”
“Hang on,” McConnell said as he applied the brakes. “There’s someone up ahead, let’s have a word.”
A gentleman was wandering beside the road, looking baffled and thoroughly lost. As the car approached he began waving his arms, gesturing for them to stop. Pulling up beside him and winding down his window, McConnell’s heart sank as he realised the man was speaking a language he couldn’t.
He spoke slowly, shaking his head. “English? Do you speak Eng-lish?” The man continued his gibberish, but now produced a leaflet to support his nonsense claims. “What’s that?”
“Ho-Tell!” the man managed to say, nodding his head emphatically with each syllable.
“We don’t know Prague, I’m sorry.” He put the car in gear ready to pull away. This man wasn’t going to be any help, he needed a local.
“Ho-Tell! Weyer Ho-Tell?”
“I. Don’t. Know. P-” His words died in his mouth. The leaflet the gentleman waved like a map proudly displayed a hotel called the Chesterford, Oxford Street.
London.
McConnell put his foot on the accelerator and sped off, leaving the man yelling and waving his little advert in the air. Rather than give reassurance, the interaction had left McConnell even more disturbed.
“Isn’t Prague a long way from Germany?”
His father, always more worldly than he, thought for a moment. “A few hours, yes.”
“It’s only been thirty minutes! At the most!”
“My goodness, you do drive fast.”
“I haven’t been driving f-” he stopped his protest. No need to worry the old sod, he was confused enough.
The tarmac road immediately transformed into cobbled streets as they traversed the fields into the densely packed town. Passing into shadow made McConnell slow to a hesitant crawl, worried he might hit a pedestrian, but as they glided through the streets, not a single figure could be seen. Not a soul.
A tap on his should made him jump. He’d still been leaning forward, out of reach by his father since his strange outburst, and the sudden contact made him feel under attack. Swinging round in his seat, it was kind concern rather than hate waiting for him. Momentary panic registered that his father had been able to reach forward; what if he had another spell like before? Then he realised it was precisely because he’d leaned forward calmly that he’d been able to. The belt restricted in response to sudden jolts, nothing else.
“Are you comfortable Christopher? Your ear looks terribly hurt.”
“Oh? Er... yes it’s fine.”
“Are you sure? How on earth did you do that?”
McConnell glanced in the mirror. His ear did look terrible; the the flesh was torn on both the top and bottom of the join, making the whole thing lean out further than the other. It would look absurd, if not for the mass of dried blood caked around it.
“I fell down,” he lied. Or had he? The head wound he’d sustained was not a careful cut, but a deep scrape as if he’d fallen amongst gravel. Was this all a delusion, conjured as he lay in the dirt, waiting for someone to treat his broken skull?
“We need to cross the Charles Bridge. Take a right here.”
They turned towards a large stone arch, the bridge behind clearly seen rising up over the river below, proud and stern. On either side, decorating the crossing, were statues of saints, silently offering prayers. McConnell hoped they would pray for him, though only in that desperate half-hearted way atheists did when stuck in a jam.
“How things change,” Gregory mused as they began rolling over the bridge, looking out over the water to the rest of the city, the Church of Our Lady boldly rising above the rest.
McConnell, who also took the opportunity to gaze at his surroundings, noticed a small crowd gathered on the other end, walking in their direction. “Finally, some locals!”
“I hope you’ve got your papers in order,” his father warned. “They could be communists.”
“All in order,” he said, humouring his father. Unbeknownst to Gregory, the Iron Curtain had fallen long ago.
They rumbled forward, and in return the figures ahead began to jog, closing the gap between. “It’s all right,” he muttered to no one, shaking his head. “I’m on my way to you, just wait there.”
But the locals didn’t wait. Instead the jog turned into a run.
“What’s wrong with them?” Gregory sat up in alarm, and McConnell saw why. The people running towards them looked more like looters than locals. Each was bellowing with rage, screaming at the vehicle. Most stretched out their hands, ready to swipe with fists, but the one in front held a golf club, iron head aloft.
McConnell recognised the looks on their faces.
He reached down and wrenched the still moving car into reverse, the gear box screaming in protest. It resorted to its final defence, stalling and going silent as the vehicle jolted to a halt.
“Oh shit!”
“Christopher,” Gregory warned. “What do they want with us? Christopher!”
McConnell
got the car back to life, just as the golf-club shattered a side window. Gregory ducked down, hiding from the flying glass, whilst his son tried to withdraw them from the onslaught. The car rumbled back, groaning loudly, but by then the rest of the gang were upon them, kicking and screaming at the fragile protective shell. The club came down a second time, failing to break the windscreen, but sending a multitude of small cracks spiralling away from the point of impact.
“Go! Go! Go!” he screamed as the car picked up speed, reversing down the bridge, leaving the saints to the sinners. “Faster you fuck! Faster!” he yelled at the car as the engine gave a miserable wail.
And then they were away, breaking free from the mindless locals who bellowed in rage, maintaining their pursuit until out of sight.
Backtracking out of town, McConnell didn’t risk slowing to turn around. He reversed the whole way.
After the disaster of Prague, the two men lapsed into silent contemplation. McConnell continued to drive east, or at least the best guess of east he could make. They stuck to rural roads, whenever they saw a built up area ahead, they would about-face and find an alternative route. Sometimes they would see figures wandering in the distance, but chose to keep a wide berth.
It was becoming increasingly impossible to deny, to both man and father, that something was inherently amiss.
“Christopher?” his father spoke in a weak voice.
“Yes?”
“Are you a religious man?”
His heart sank. Not this. Not now. Of all the conversations he’d had with his father over the years, this was one he didn’t want to repeat.
“Not really no.”
“I see,” his father nodded, understanding. Perhaps this time, with him thinking that they were strangers rather than blood relations, it would be easier? “I believe in Jesus Christ. I remember, when I was a boy, being as sceptical as you, but as you get on in years you see things you can’t explain.”
“Like this?”
“Yes,” he nodded solemnly. “Like this. Jesus Christ... or is it Jesus H Christ? I don’t quite remember. Christ was born on a cross. No, no, that’s not right. Oh dear me, the scare back there had got me all in a muddle.”
“Dad,” he said, forgetting and allowing the lie to lapse, “Jesus Christ wasn’t born on a cross, he was-”
McConnell realised he didn’t remember either. He was sure it was obvious, but there was just a big dark hole in his mind where the information once lay. Shaking his head, he put the query aside. There was something uncomfortable about confronting lost memories. Something dangerous about trying to retrieve them.
“Well, wherever he was born, what’s he got to do with our current problem? No offence, but Jesus ain’t here to help us find home is he?”
“No he’s not, because we’re being punished. That’s what’s going on.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Look around you, Christopher! The land is broken, bits missing. Prague never looked like that! People don’t act like wild beasts! It’s the End of Days.”
“Sure.” McConnell wanted the old man to stop talking. These were thoughts best avoided.
“The world has been shattered, Christopher, and that’s all there is to it.”
The Shattering. Naming the process they were living through, would prove to be the final act Gregory McConnell knowingly made on earth. After giving his prognosis the elderly man dropped into quiet contemplation, seemingly resolved to their fate. And not long after that, he began to growl.
McConnell, straining to keep his concentration on the road, knew he should look behind, but couldn’t bring himself to muster the will. Instead he leaned forward in his seat, putting at much space as possible between him and his father.
He had no proof, but he could swear he could feel corrosive hate on the back of his neck.
And suddenly the car was once more consumed in screams of fury as his father threw himself forward against the restraints, spitting and clawing at the front seats, tearing the material in his eagerness to harm his son.
McConnell didn’t look.
“You’ll be okay soon Dad,” he whispered, trying to blot out the awful sound. “Just you wait. You’ll be okay”
But time slipped past, and although the snarls rose and fell in volume and energy, they did not cease. Eventually, just as the fuel dial begun to sneak into the red, McConnell saw a sign beside the road.
Sighisoara 7
He pulled over, and as slowly and delicately as he could, turned around.
Gregory McConnell’s face was bloody. How he’d managed to hurt himself so viciously, McConnell couldn’t tell, but his guess was that in his attempts to escape from bondage he’d ended up clawing at his own skin. The buckle, with its big red release button, remained at his side, ignored and forgotten.
A slight tap and he’d have been free, a part of him morbidly imagined, though another part cruelly added, it could still happen.
“Dad,” he began carefully, meeting the creature’s furious glare. “We’re almost there. You wanted to go to Sighisoara and I’ve taken you there. Do you remember? Sighisoara?”
The zombie-like monster that wore the mangled disguise of his father snarled back and threw itself forward. McConnell was drained of tears, instead his eyes just throbbed.
“Last time, Sighisoara brought you back. Can you try that now? Sighisoara? You grew up there. Sighisoara.”
But what had worked before now failed, and the creature continued to thrash about in the back-seat. Trembling, McConnell started the car and began the final stretch to the town his father had once remembered so fondly.
And as he drove he kept whispering over and over like a prayer, “Sighisoara. Try to remember Sighisoara.”
The car ran out of petrol just as the vehicle rolled into town. McConnell looked at it in wonder, a hill surrounded by medieval turrets, a mighty clock-tower, and a beautiful decaying church at the highest peak.
It was just as he’d imagined.
39
EVERY MAN HAS A HOME
SIGHISOARA. TRY TO REMEMBER SIGHISOARA.
McConnell sat beside the body of Grace, a bedding sheet gently laid over her body. It seemed wrong to wrap her in such claustrophobic surroundings, but the ruin that remained was something he simply couldn’t look at. He didn’t know how to proceed; should he notify someone? Was there law in this small town? He doubted it. Leaning over, he caressed the bump in the shroud that was her head, delicate tears wetting his lashes.
Amidst him, the rest of the inn was in uproar. The landlady held Harris and Heidi responsible for the murder, though the gravitas of the situation seemed to be limited to concern for stains. A greater source of fury was the raided cellar, significantly drained by the Mariner before his heinous crime. The captains were busy buying her off whilst simultaneously arguing about Harris’ decision to allow the Mariner to leave.
How had he not seen this coming? The Mariner, Arthur–fucking-Philip (or whatever he called himself now) had appeared like a lunatic since day one, so why had he trusted him?
Because you were mistaken, that’s why. Because of that bullshit you allowed yourself to believe. That bullshit that made you think he was special. That she was special.
But he’d been proven wrong. Grace wasn’t special, she was dead. And the Mariner her rapist.
Perhaps he’d been wrong from the start? If he was wrong about the Mariner, perhaps he was wrong about the whole thing? Perhaps his Dad’s final thought had been nothing but nonsense, the confused babbling of a mind slowly taking wing of its fleshy nest?
What do you know? What do you know for certain?
He knew that somehow Grace and the Mariner had brought the zoo back, and they did so by remembering. Later, the Mariner had pretended he’d played no part, but he’d heard him say ‘I remember’, he’d heard it. And just after, the island drew itself upon the horizon like a stripper from a cake. If they weren’t special, perhaps what they had done was?
“I should not have let you leave Sighisoara,” he said, still stroking her hidden hair. “It was just a zoo, not a home. And we were fools, not fathers.”
After another few minutes, long enough for dawn to properly break and cast its glow directly through the window, McConnell had decided what needed to be done. He knelt, drawing away the cloth to once more look upon the child’s face. In death, he’d hoped she’d look serene, but there was no glimmer of comfort to have in that poor beaten face. Only misery and regret. He leaned down and planted a single solitary kiss upon her forehead.
“Goodbye, Grace O’Hara,” he whispered.
And that was that.
Downstairs, Harris and Heidi were still arguing, having placated the landlady with more supplies as payment for the plundered booze. McConnell approached them, unnoticed whilst they yelled.
“They’re probably not far ahead, we can still catch him!” Heidi was saying.
“And what then?” Harris snapped. “Follow him all the way until we find the Pope? Let’s face it, you would kill him, I would kill him, probably that timid bugger upstairs would even have a go. This way we get both the Pope and Philip. Barnett’s professional, he’ll see to it, I promise you.”
“He needs to be put on trial.”
Both turned, surprised by his entrance. Heidi looked sympathetic, her own eyes ringed with red. Harris, on the other hand, appeared more embarrassed by the terrible situation than anything else.
“This isn’t like the old days, we can’t formally charge him and send him to the Old Bailey. The only trials we have are for Anomenemies.”
“Who’s to say he isn’t one? He has no past, knowledge he can’t account for, a strange ship manned by wild fucking beasts, sounds a lot like an anomaly to me!”
Heidi turned to McConnell, agony in her eyes. “I’m so sorry, it’s all my fault!”
He didn’t move as she embraced him, holding him close whilst she sobbed.
“He spoke her name last night, I thought that meant he just interfered with her, I didn’t think…” she trailed off, tears pouring down her face. “I thought I had time to deal with it.”
