He held back the snort and kept quiet. Every once in a while, he ran into a woman who was what he’d term a ‘military groupie.’ One of the many things he’d liked about Sophia when they’d first met, beyond the world-class ass and beautiful olive skin, was how unimpressed she’d been with him being a Marine. How clueless she’d been about military life. Seemed her brother Scott had even sheltered her from that, though to be fair he’d been out of the military when his mother and Sophia’s father started dating. But Sophia didn’t see Riley as a fierce Marine, though that was how the world saw him. Somehow she was the only one who’d ever seen beyond that, and yet she’d accepted the fact that if she loved him, she had to put up with a choice he’d made long before he’d ever laid eyes on her.
Mack finally found his way over. “Hey, doll. You’re not flirting with the chief, are you?”
“Of course I am,” she said, impressively bending one leg to her inner thigh and balancing there, yogi-style. “Check this out. I’m very bendy.”
“He sees that,” Mack said with a laugh. “Did you know the chief is married?”
“He is? Why didn’t you say something?” She directed this to Riley, as though it were his job to spill his guts and life story in the first three minutes of meeting someone.
“To Sophia,” Mack continued, now spotting Riley as he bench-pressed two hundred pounds.
“I thought Sophia was divorced,” Leanne said, sounding disgusted. She picked up her baby weights. “See you all later.”
“Damn you. The bending wasn’t hurting anyone.”
“Sucker. I’m going to systematically let every woman in town know you’re taken. Leaves more for me.”
But he doubted it would be long before everyone in town realized. He wondered how Sophia would handle that, when it seemed that everyone already saw her as a divorcee. He resented that a little, if he were being honest, not that he had any right to. He’d rushed everything with her. Except that ‘rush’ wasn’t a big enough word. One look at her and he’d stopped thinking. The blood had leaked from his brain and pooled in his groin. Then again, he’d been twenty-one years old.
“So what are you going to do about this?’ Mack asked.
“About what?”
“Your wife, shithead.”
“Nothing. I’m laying low for a while. She’s not exactly fond of me right now.”
“And you’re going to be a pain in my ass until you get her back. So get going.”
“Can’t rush it this time.”
Besides, he realized something probably no one else did. Even if this entire town saw her as divorced, he’d bet that wasn’t the way Sophia saw herself. And he knew why. She’d been deliriously happy with him at one time. Those first weeks of marriage before he deployed had been the best time of his life. And even if she hadn’t told him over and over, he could see it in her eyes. She loved being his wife. Maybe that small part of her, the part that still saw herself as his wife, was the reason she hadn’t filed for divorce.
Interesting that she hadn’t asked him why he’d never filed.
“Hard to believe she never dated anyone while you were gone.”
“Something about online dating,” Riley answered with a grunt.
“The kind where you never meet? Sounds like commitment issues to me.”
Not Sophia. She loved with her whole heart. The online guys had commitment issues. Or weren’t even dudes. God only knew.
“She didn’t divorce you because she still has feelings for you.”
“True. She feels hot lava coursing through her veins every time she looks at me.”
“Ah, man. Maybe you two shouldn’t have been married so young.”
“Yeah, thanks.” Not like he hadn’t heard that one before. A little late now, wasn’t it?
Riley switched places with Mack. “Should I take some weight off for you?”
“Forget it. I can match you.” Mack lifted once, struggling.
Riley took off a weight. Mack had a competitive streak that wouldn’t quit. “Hey, you ever hear about a guy named Richard? Goes by Dick?”
“Lucy’s boyfriend?” Mack asked on the third, and much easier, rep. “Watch your back with that dude. He’s dangerous with the stupid.”
“Yeah, I’ve already seen some of that in action.” One less pound couldn’t hurt. Didn’t want Mack getting too cocky. “He doesn’t scare me.”
“Of course not. But I’m serious, man. Watch yourself.” Mack stopped on the fifth rep and sat up, pleased. “Hey, that’s the easiest it’s ever been for me to press two hundred and fifty pounds. Must be all the time we’ve been spending in the ring.”
Riley grinned. “You think so, huh?”
Mack stared at the weights. He’d only lifted two hundred pounds. “Hey, what the hell! I told you not to take any weight off.”
“Didn’t want you to tax yourself.”
“You’re dead!” Mack tackled Riley and in two seconds they were rolling around on the mats, Riley quickly gaining the upper hand.
“Any way a girl could get in on this action?”
Riley’s gaze fixated on the feet and traveled up the long legs of the woman who’d spoken. So did Mack’s.
“Sandwich?” Leanne asked with a wicked grin.
“Knock yourself out,” Riley said, rolling away from Mack.
He only wanted one woman, but she currently hated him with the heat of a thousand suns. Riley stood and made his way to hit the showers, determined to take a cold one this time.
***
“He just said ‘I’m too busy’ and implied I’d have to be the one to do it.” Sophia stood in the kitchen of Giancarlo’s at the end of another dead Monday. How she hated Mondays. Hardly anyone came to the restaurant except for the occasional drop-in and it felt like a party with no one showing up. So depressing. She really should think about closing down on Mondays, but Angie would hate that. She was convinced that if they closed on Mondays, the top tier food critic she’d been after for a review would choose that day to show up unannounced.
“So basically, he’s okay with the idea,” Lizzie said.
Sophia didn’t want to say that the look on Riley’s face had implied he wasn’t okay with it at all, because that would invite all manner of questions and comments. Besides, she was probably wrong about that anyway. “I guess.”
“Typical man.” Angie slammed the oven shut. “He doesn’t have the time. It’s your job to get the divorce.”
“Your job to do everything,” Lizzie agreed.
“Which means this is never going to happen,” Angie said. “Because face it honey, you haven’t done anything about this in years. Now that he’s back in the flesh—”
“And he’s hot—” Lizzie said.
“Right. So what makes you think you can go through with the divorce now? After all this time?” Angie said.
“Because I know I can’t move on if I don’t!” Sophia said. “Diana is pregnant again, and I was supposed to be next.”
“You kinda need a man for that,” Lizzie said.
Angie shook her head. “All you need is the sperm.”
“Does that not come from the man?” Lizzie deadpanned.
“Semantics!” Angie threw up her hands.
“Let me fix you up,” Lizzie said for the gazillionth time.
“She doesn’t want the divorce,” Angie said. “Can’t you see it?”
“I do want—I mean, I think it’s time,” Sophia said. “It’s too late for Riley and me. I don’t love him anymore and I need a real relationship, not an Internet one. Bruce will understand. I need to move on.”
“Of course you do.” Angie said. “Let Lizzie fix you up.”
This went on for about an hour, Angie offering up second cousins and distant relatives, Lizzie offering to be generous with her exes, Angie suggesting maybe online matchmaking wasn’t all that horrible of an idea, at which time Sophia was tired enough that she went home. Home to Hershee. No man. Just a man next door that was part of her
past and nothing more, nothing less. No matter what, she couldn’t allow herself to consider any kind of future with him again. He’d made his choice and it had been the U.S. Marine Corps and not her.
Sophia wished she could phone heaven and ask for a small consultation. Surely her mother would have something to say about this. Because Sophia had only been ten when Mama died, they’d never had mature discussions about love and marriage. All Sophia could go by was what her older sisters Anna and Elena said, which wasn’t much, and whatever little morsel she could remember on her own about Mama. Daddy-o, of course, would be of no help whatsoever as he hated Riley. And men in general, unless they were the Turlock brothers. They were okay in his book. But any man who would be interested in his daughters? There had to be something sinister going on.
Sophia pulled up to her driveway. Riley’s house was dark inside. He’d likely be spending many hours at work, which would be in line with everything she’d ever known about him, a man who had to prove himself to the world over and over again. The town’s new chief, someone who might not appreciate that there was a strange woman on his porch, banging on his front door.
On closer inspection, the woman was Lucy Jacobs.
Sophia hadn’t seen Lucy in a couple of months. The last time she’d dropped by Lucy had made some lame excuse about the bruise on her wrist but Sophia knew better. Lucy had never had the best taste in men. She’d been at her and Riley’s wedding, with some guy who looked like the spawn of Keith Richards of the Rolling Stones. If he’d married a zombie. Sophia didn’t have much in common with Lucy besides Riley, but she’d had been kind to Sophia, running down to the market to get her a cold Mocha Frappuccino on her wedding day just so she could feel normal. Being the one person who didn’t suggest that she might be a little too young and inexperienced to get married at twenty-one to, of all things, a Marine who would be deployed any day.
Right now Lucy appeared to be sobbing uncontrollably. “Could you please open up?” Lucy said to the front door.
“I don’t think he’s home,” Sophia said through her rolled-down window right before she climbed out of her car.
That made Lucy whip around, like she’d been caught in the act. “I’m not breaking in. My brother lives here.”
“I know,” Sophia smiled a little, expecting Lucy would recognize her any second. It didn’t help that Lucy seemed to be drunk or high. Maybe a combination of the two.
“Sophia!”
She came closer, and Sophia resisted stepping back when the potent smell of whiskey hit her hard. Lucy was dressed in fishnet stockings, thigh-high leather boots and a skirt that barely covered her private parts. Unfortunately she looked like she’d been hooking. Sophia hoped that wasn’t true.
“My cellphone is dead. Do you know when he’ll be back?”
“No. But you can wait in my house if you’d like.”
“Really?” Lucy staggered towards Sophia. “That would be so cool.”
Sophia opened up the front door, and Hershee came to greet her, immediately backing up in suspicion at the sight of Lucy.
“Aw, what a cute doggie. I had a cat but my asshole boyfriend is allergic. His name is Dick. My boyfriend’s, not the cat. Isn’t that a great name?”
“Classic.” Sophia picked up Hershee and turned on lights as she went. “Did you drive here?” Please say no.
“Oh hell no, not with my brother being the police chief. Are you kidding? Speaking of which, if it’s bad to have your brother as the police chief I can’t imagine it’s much better for him to be your damned husband.” She laughed, but it sounded more like a loud hacking sound somewhere between a wheeze and a cough.
Hershee startled, jumped out of Sophia’s arms and ran for one of the back bedrooms.
“But we’re not like a married couple or anything. It’s just on paper.”
“Sure. He can’t order you around anymore or anything.”
“He never did.” This was a lie.
He’d just done it again a couple of days ago. Sit down with me. Don’t lie again, he’d instructed little Chloe. Good advice, but still. Given time, he’d try ordering Sophia around again. If she were being honest, she hadn’t minded all of the orders. Kiss me. Take this dress off. Spread your legs.
Like she’d run out of steam, Lucy plopped down on the couch. “My brother’s not all bad, you know. He’s just a gung-ho Marine. But you can’t blame it all on him. They do something to them over there. Ooh rah and all that. Well, look who I’m talking to! You married him. Am I right?”
Sophia laughed nervously. She didn’t exactly want to relive the Semper Fi period of her life right now, possibly the single most painful time. “Yep, that I did. Hey, you want to use my phone to call him?”
“Thanks!” Using Sophia’s cellphone, she dialed. “Hey, Riley. I’m at your place. I mean, I’m next door. With your wife. Or your ex-wife. Whatever. She’s so sweet. Dick just left me here in town and I walked to your place. Said I mouthed off to him. Can you believe that? Yeah, what a Dick. Can you please give me a ride home? Oh okay. Thanks, buddy.”
“Is he coming home?” She accepted her phone back from Lucy.
“Yeah, right now.” She wiped at her raccoon eyes. “I’m glad he’s back. He’s a pain in my ass but he’s all I have.”
“You’re all he has, too.” Whereas Sophia hadn’t had a mother for nearly twenty years, she’d at least always had Daddy-o.
“Not all,” Lucy said, leaning back and closing her eyes. “Riley has people who care about him. Friends. And he has you.”
Sophia didn’t speak. He didn’t have her. Not anymore, but that had been his choice.
“He still loves you, you know.”
Sophia snorted. She didn’t want to be cruel, but Lucy was obviously drunk. “I don’t think you’re right about that.”
But Lucy was already snoring on Sophia’s couch. She only wished she could fall asleep that quickly and not have her mind race every night. What if I never fall in love again? What if I never have children? What if I’m an old maid? What’s the oldest I can conceive and still have a healthy baby? Does this spot on my hand look like skin cancer? Did I forget to lock the backdoor?
Lucy looked cold since she was already half naked, so Sophia brought out a blanket from her bedroom. Lucy was actually such a pretty girl, and had even modeled a little as a teenager. Like Riley, she had dark brown hair and a full mouth. Devastatingly long dark lashes and chocolate brown eyes. Riley had always looked out for his younger sister, not that it had seemed to help much. While Riley had pushed and shoved his way out of the dysfunctional lifestyle in which they’d both grown up, Lucy seemed content to stay there.
Riley would be here soon, and because Lucy was now asleep that meant it would be just the two of them. They hadn’t really been alone together yet. There was the night in the restaurant, when they’d been surrounded by patrons, and yesterday when they’d been with the girls. Sophia considered waking Lucy up. Being alone with Riley could be dangerous to Sophia’s health and well-being. He always had a way of making her lose her footing, both physically and metaphorically. Something she couldn’t do right now, when she had come to the realization of exactly what she had to do. She would have to take steps to make the separation happen. She’d make it legal.
It would be okay. She’d been a single woman for years in theory.
The unmistakable sound of Riley’s Harley reverberated through her house and the thin walls. Lucy, however, didn’t budge. Hershee came scurrying back out of the bedroom, and in the hallway cocked her head.
“It’s him again. I’m afraid I’m going to have to let him in.”
She looked out her window. What was it about a man in uniform? Riley’s whole badass cop thing certainly wasn’t doing him any harm in the looks department. Then again, he’d always filled out a uniform well. Some things would never change.
Sophia met him at the door. “She fell asleep.”
“Mind if I get rid of this first?” He opened his jacket
to the strapped gun. “I’ll be right back to get her.”
“Please.” She didn’t do guns. But poor guy looked tired, and she supposed he would be. She’d heard him start his Harley this morning before the sunrise.
A few minutes later he was back missing the gun and the uniform. He had on a pair of black jeans, a black t-shirt and still had on his motorcycle boots. Mr. Cool. Not like she had any business noticing whether or not her husband was or was not still pretty scorching hot. He was, of course. Not the issue.
“Thanks for doing this,” he said once he’d stepped inside.
She took a step back from him and folded her arms across her chest. “That’s okay. I didn’t want her waking up the neighborhood. She’s using again.”
“I know.” He sighed, running a hand across the short bristle on his chin. “I’ll get her back in rehab soon.”
“It’s not about you getting her there. It has to be her choice.”
Riley took a step closer. “Are you the expert now?”
She’d read a lot on the subject because whether he believed it or not, she too cared about Lucy. Watched some Dr. Phil episodes. It was pretty much common knowledge. “I read. I hear things.”
His lip curled up in a half smile. “What do you hear?”
“The addict has to want the help. Rehab has to be their idea.”
“She always agreed to go.”
“To please you. Make you happy. Not really for herself.”
“I’m supposed to wait until it’s her idea?” His eyes narrowed.
“Something like that. Wait till she hits rock bottom.”
He waved a hand towards Lucy, sprawled out on the couch in her hooker boots. “And you don’t think this is rock bottom?”
He had a point. Sophia shook her head. “I’m just trying to help, Riley. You always want to control everything and everyone.”
“Funny you should say that because I’m looking at the one person I could never control.” He was staring at her now, uncomfortably so, and she began to feel like maybe he’d burn a hole in her eyeball before long.
“Sometimes you just have to…let things go. Let it be her—”
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