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The Hell within him, for within him Hell
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He brings, and round about him, nor from Hell
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One step, no more than from himself, can fly
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By change of place. Now conscience wakes despair
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That slumbered, wakes the bitter memory
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Of what he what must be
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Worse: of 2751 worse deeds, worse sufferings must ensue. 2752
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Sometimes towards Eden, which now in his view
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Lay pleasant, his grieved look he fixes sad,
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Sometimes towards Heav’n and the full-blazing sun,
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Which now sat high in his2753 meridian2754 tower.
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Then much2755 revolving, 2756 thus in sighs began:
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“O thou,2757 that with surpassing glory crowned,
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Look’st from thy sole dominion like the god
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Of this new world, at whose sight all the stars
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Hide their diminished heads, to thee I call,
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But with no friendly voice, and add thy name,
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O Sun! to tell thee how I hate thy beams,
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That bring to my remembrance from what state
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I fell, how glorious once above thy sphere, 2758
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Till pride and worse ambition threw me down,
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Warring in Heav’n against Heav’n’s matchless King.
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Ah, wherefore! He deserved no such return
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From me, whom He created what I was
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In that bright eminence, 2759 and with His good
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Upbraided 2760 none. Nor was His service hard.
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What could be less than to afford 2761 Him praise,
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The easiest recompence, 2762 and pay Him thanks—
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How due! 2763 Yet all His good proved ill in me,
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And wrought 2764 but malice. Lifted up so high
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I ’sdained 2765 subjection,2766 and thought one step higher
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Would set me highest, and in a moment quit2767
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The debt immense of endless gratitude,
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So burdensome still 2768 paying, still to owe,
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Forgetful what from Him I still received,
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And understood not that a grateful mind
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By owing owes not, but still pays, at once
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Indebted and discharged. What burden then?
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O, had His powerful destiny ordained
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Me some inferior Angel, I had stood 2769
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Then happy: no unbounded 2770 hope had raised
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Ambition! Yet why not? Some other Power 2771
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As great might have aspired, and me, though mean,2772
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Drawn2773 to his part.2774 But other Powers as great
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Fell not, but stand unshaken from within
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Or from without, to all temptations armed.2775
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Hadst thou the same free will and power to stand?2776
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Thou hadst: whom hast thou then or what t’ accuse,
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But Heav’n’s free2777 love dealt equally to all?
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Be then His love accursed, since love or hate,
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To me alike, it deals2778 eternal woe.
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Nay, cursed be thou,2779 since against His thy will
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Chose freely what it now so justly2780 rues!2781
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“Me miserable! 2782 Which way shall I fly2783
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Infinite wrath, and infinite despair?
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Which2784 way I fly is Hell. Myself am Hell,
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And in the lowest deep a lower deep
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Still threat’ning to devour me opens wide,
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To which the Hell I suffer seems a Heav’n.
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O then, at last relent! 2785 Is there no place
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Left for repentance, none for pardon left?
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None left but by submission, and that word
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Disdain forbids me, and my dread of shame
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Among the Spirits beneath, whom I seduced
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With other promises and other vaunts2786
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Than to submit, boasting I could subdue
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The Omnipotent. Ay me! they little know
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How dearly2787 I abide 2788 that boast so vain,
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Under what torments inwardly I groan,
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While they adore me on the throne of Hell!
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With diadem and scepter high advanced2789
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The lower still I fall, only supreme
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In misery. Such joy ambition finds!2790
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But say I could repent, and could obtain,
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By act of grace, my former state, how soon
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Would height recall high thoughts, how soon unsay
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What feigned 2791 submission swore? Ease would recant2792
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Vows made in pain, as violent2793 and void.
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For never can true reconcilement grow
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Where wounds of deadly hate have pierced so deep,
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Which would but lead me to a worse relapse
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And heavier fall. So should I purchase dear2794
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Short intermission, bought with double smart.2795
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This knows my punisher, therefore as far
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From granting He, as I from begging, peace.
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All hope excluded thus, behold, instead
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Of us 2796 out-cast, exiled, his new delight,
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Mankind created, and for him 2797 this world.
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So farewell hope and, with hope, farewell fear,
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Farewell remorse! All good to me is lost.
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Evil, be thou my good: by thee at least
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Divided empire with Heav’n’s King I hold—
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By thee, and more than half 2798 perhaps will reign,
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As man ere long, and this new world, shall know.
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Thus while he spoke, each passion dimmed his face
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Thrice changed with pale, 2799 ire, 2800 envy, and despair,
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Which marred2801 his borrowed visage, and betrayed
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Him counterfeit, if any eye beheld.
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For Heav’nly minds from such distempers2802 foul
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Are ever clear. 2803 Whereof he soon aware,
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Each perturbation2804 smoothed with outward calm,
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Artificer2805 of fraud, and2806 was the first
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That practised falsehood under saintly show,
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D
eep malice to conceal, couched2807 with revenge.
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Yet not enough had practised 2808 to deceive
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Uriel, once warned, whose eye pursued him down
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The way he went, and on the Assyrian mount
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Saw him disfigured, more than could befall 2809
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Spirit of happy sort. His gestures fierce
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He marked, and mad demeanor, 2810 then alone,
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As he supposed, all unobserved, unseen.
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So on he fares,2811 and to the border comes
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Of Eden, where delicious Paradise,
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Now nearer, crowns with her enclosure green,
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As with a rural mound, the champaign2812 head 2813
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Of a steep wilderness, whose hairy sides
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With thicket overgrown, grotesque and wild,
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Access denied.2814 And overhead up grew
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Insuperable2815 height of loftiest shade,
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Cedar, and pine, and fir, and branching palm,
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A sylvan2816 scene, and as the ranks 2817 ascend,
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Shade above shade, a woody theater 2818
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Of stateliest 2819 view. Yet higher than their tops
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The verdurous wall of Paradise upsprung,
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Which to our general2820 sire gave prospect large 2821
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Into his 2822 nether 2823 empire neighboring round.
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And higher than that wall a circling row
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Of goodliest2824 trees, loaden with fairest fruit,
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Blossoms and fruits at once2825 of golden hue
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Appeared, with gay enamelled 2826 colors mixed,
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On which the sun more glad impressed 2827 his beams
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Than in fair evening cloud, or humid bow, 2828
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When God hath show’red the earth. So lovely seemed
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That landscape. And of pure now purer 2829 air
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Meets his approach, and to the heart inspires
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Vernal2830 delight and joy, able to drive2831
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All sadness but despair. Now gentle gales,2832
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Fanning their odoriferous2833 wings, dispense2834
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Native2835 perfumes, and whisper whence they stole
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Those balmy spoils.2836 As when to them who sail
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Beyond the Cape of Hope, 2837 and now are past
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Mozambique, 2838 off at sea north-east winds blow
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Sabean2839 odors from the spicy shore
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Of Araby the blest,2840 with such delay
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Well pleased they slack2841 their course, 2842 and many a league2843
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Cheered with the grateful 2844 smell old ocean smiles.
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So entertained 2845 those odorous sweets the fiend,
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Who came their bane, 2846 though with them better pleased
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Than Asmodeus2847 with the fishy fume2848
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That drove him, though enamored, from the spouse
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Of Tobit’s son, and with a vengeance sent 2849
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From Media post2850 to Egypt, there fast bound.2851
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Now to the ascent of that steep savage2852 hill
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Satan had journeyed on, pensive and slow,
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But further way found none, so thick entwined,
175
As one continued brake, 2853 the undergrowth
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Of shrubs and tangling bushes had perplexed 2854
177
All path of man or beast that passed that way.
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One gate there only was, and that looked east
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On th’ other side. Which when the arch-felon saw,
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Due entrance he disdained and, in contempt,
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At one slight2855 bound high over-leaped all bound
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Of hill or highest wall, and sheer2856 within
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Lights on his feet. As when a prowling wolf,
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Whom hunger drives to seek new haunt for prey,
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Watching where shepherds pen their flocks at eve
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In hurdled 2857 cotes2858 amid the field secure,
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Leaps o’er the fence with ease into the fold—
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Or as a thief, bent to unhoard 2859 the cash
189
Of some rich burgher, whose substantial doors,
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Cross-barred and bolted fast, fear no assault,
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In at the window climbs, or o’er the tiles,2860
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So clomb2861 this first grand thief into God’s fold.
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So since into His church lewd hirelings climb.
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Thence up he flew, and on the Tree of Life,
195
The middle tree and highest there that grew,
196
Sat like a cormorant, yet not true life
197
Thereby regained, but sat devising death
198
To them who lived, nor on the virtue thought
199
Of that life-giving plant, but only used
200
For prospect,2862 what well-used had been2863 the pledge2864
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Of immortality. So little knows
202
Any, but God alone, to value right
203
The good before him, but perverts best things
204
To worst abuse, or to their meanest 2865 use.
205
Beneath him with new wonder now he views,
206
To all delight of human sense exposed
207
In narrow room,2866 Nature’s whole wealth, yea more,
208
A Heav’n on earth. For blissful Paradise
209
Of God the garden was, by Him in th’ east
210
Of Eden planted. Eden stretched her line2867
211
From Auran2868 eastward to the royal tow’rs
212
Of great Seleucia,2869 built by Grecian kings,
213
Or where the sons of Eden long before
214
Dwelt in Telassar. 2870 In this pleasant soil
215
His far more pleasant garden God ordained.
216
Out of the fertile ground He caused to grow
217
All trees of noblest kind for sight, smell, taste,
218
And all amid them stood the Tree of Life,
219
High eminent, blooming ambrosial fruit
220
Of vegetable2871 gold. And next to life
221
Our death, the Tree of Knowledge, grew fast by,
222
Knowledge of good bought dear by knowing ill.
223
Southward through Eden went a river large,
224
Nor changed his course, but through the shaggy2872 hill
225
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Passed underneath engulfed,2873 for God had thrown2874
226
That mountain as His garden-mold 2875 high raised
227
Upon the rapid current, which through veins
228
Of porous earth with kindly 2876 thirst up-drawn,
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