by E. L. Todd
“Uh…you almost slept with him.” She snapped her fingers in my face like I needed to wake up. “That’s a pretty big deal.”
“That was almost two months ago. Now we’re just friends.”
She rubbed her temple like she had a headache. “How can two people go from practically ripping each other’s clothes off to being just friends?”
It didn’t make sense to me either. But it just worked with Hawke and I. “I can’t explain…”
“Well, try.” She crossed her arms over her chest.
“You wouldn’t understand.” I couldn’t believe I was about to say any of this out loud.
“You’re going to tell me anyway.”
“Hawke and I…I told you we had a connection the moment we met.”
“Yes, I remember.”
“Well, that connection is still there. It’s like…whether he’s a boyfriend or a friend, he needs to be in my life. I can’t explain it better than that. I just…need him. And I’m pretty sure he needs me too. I feel like he’s meant to be a part of me in some capacity.”
Marie looked even more confused.
“I know it sounds crazy but…I feel like our paths were meant to cross.”
“Because…?”
“It’s one of those things that you just know. Trust me on this.”
“You think this guy is your soul mate or something?”
“No, that’s not what I said.”
“Girl, I’m starting to think you’re crazy.”
I knew how crazy I sounded from her perspective. “It’s one of those things that no one understands. But I know I understand it. And that’s all that matters.”
Marie sighed like she was ready to drop the subject. “Just don’t get hurt, okay?”
“I won’t.”
“Because I’ll kick his ass.” She pointed her finger in my face like she meant business.
My lips softened into a smile. “I know.”
***
Hawke was still in the lobby when I clocked out, so I slid into the seat across from him. “Still working?”
He shut the screen of his laptop with a faint smile on his lips. “Work never sleeps.”
“Will you always work this much?”
“Not when I stop being an intern. I’m doing all the grunt work no one else wants to do. But when this is over, I’ll have everything I’ve been working so hard for.”
“So, you want to be an investor?”
“In a nutshell.”
“But that sounds…boring.”
He smiled like he wasn’t offended. “It’s like gambling but with more research. You’re always trying to figure out where the next big thing is going to come from. When should you sell? When should you buy? It’s actually really interesting.”
“Hmm…I’ve never thought about it that way.”
He placed his laptop in his bag. “Baking doesn’t seem very exciting, but I’m sure it is.”
“It’s very exciting. When I see your face light up every time you have one of my muffins, it makes it all worthwhile.”
He closed his bag and left it on the seat next to him. “How was work?”
“It was okay. I only managed to get one bean in my mouth.”
He raised an eyebrow. “Sorry?”
“I was trying to catch the coffee beans in my mouth but I kept missing. You know…” I reenacted the movement for him.
“Oh. Time well spent.”
“When there’re no customers, you have to entertain yourself.”
“Have you thought any more about my offer?”
“Does it still stand?” I asked.
“Of course it does. However, I have one condition.”
I narrowed my eyes. “Which is?”
“You have to show me that beautiful ass—just a peek.”
I rolled my eyes but couldn’t wipe the smile off my face. “Nope.”
“Then you at least have to cook for me all week.”
“That I can do.”
“Without wearing any bottoms…”
I scrunched up a napkin and threw it at him. “Pervert.”
He chuckled. “I never told you I wasn’t.”
I pretended to be offended but it only made me feel warm inside.
“So, when are you being kicked out?”
“Monday.”
“That gives me plenty of time to get rid of all the filth.”
I pulled my hair out of the hair tie and let it fall to my shoulders. Hawke’s eyes immediately went to the strands and his expression changed. I fluffed the hair around my scalp with my fingers. After being pulled back all day, it felt good. “You seem like an organized person.”
“Sorry?” A blank expression was on his face.
“You said your place is covered in filth. But you seem so clean.”
“Oh…” He finally came back to the conversation. “No, I live like a pig just like every other guy.”
“I’m so excited to stay with you…”
He chuckled. “Don’t worry. I’ll give it a thorough cleaning. Just don’t tell your brother you’re staying with me.”
“Why?” That was an odd request. “He knows we hang out.”
“I don’t want to give him the wrong impression. Knowing him, he’ll jump to the worst possible conclusion. He doesn’t act like it when you’re around, but he’s fiercely protective of you. If he thought I even touched your hand, he’d come after me with a chainsaw.”
“That’s a little excessive…”
Hawke shrugged. “He’s your brother. If he’s crazy, you’re crazy.”
“That’s a slippery slope…”
His phone lit up on the table with a message. I knew I shouldn’t read it but I did. Come over tonight. It was from a girl named Brittany. I quickly looked away like I hadn’t read it.
Hawke locked the screen so it turned black. He knew I saw it.
I kept acting like I didn’t. I knew what he did in his spare time. It shouldn’t bother me but sometimes it did. It wouldn’t matter if he seemed happy, but it was clear he was miserable. It seemed like he was making himself suffer on purpose.
But why?
“I should head home,” Hawke said as he slid out of the booth.
Or you should head to Brittany’s. “Me too. I have to start packing. Ugh, I’m not looking forward to that.”
“I would offer to help, but I don’t want to.” He gave me a smile that told me he was joking.
“I’ll see you later.”
“Bye, Muffin.”
I raised an eyebrow. “What did you just call me?”
“What?” He turned back around. “You’re the muffin girl. So, I’ll call you Muffin.”
“That’s the silliest nickname I’ve ever heard.”
“And yet, it fits you perfectly.”
***
“Do not have sex with him.” Marie had her hands on her hips like a mother hen.
I rolled my eyes just to piss her off. “First, you tell me to sleep with him. Now you forbid me?”
“Are you saying you want to sleep with him?”
“Of course not. But you need to chill. I wouldn’t be going over there unless I was comfortable being around him. Besides, he probably won’t be around much anyway. He’s too busy working and fucking whatever he finds in a bar.”
Marie caught the bitterness in my voice. “So, he’s a manwhore?”
“That’s putting it lightly.”
She crossed her arms over her chest. “It sounds like that bothers you.”
“It doesn’t bother me.”
She raised an eyebrow.
“Okay, it does sometimes. I just think he’s better than that.”
“Better?” she asked. “Guys like getting laid. He’s living the dream.”
“But he’s so miserable.” I shook my head. “I know he isn’t happy. It seems like he does it…just as a means to an end.”
She shrugged. “We all have needs. Look at me, I’m going out with Anthony for anot
her week so I have somewhere to sleep.”
“Slut,” I mumbled under my breath.
She swatted my arm. “Coming from the girl about to spend the week with a fuck machine.”
“He’s not a fuck machine,” I said defensively. “He’s a lot more than that.”
“Touchy touchy…”
A knock on the door ended our conversation.
“Looks like your ride is here.” Marie opened the door and saw Hawke on the other side. He wore running shorts, a t-shirt, and his aviators. He looked beautiful…like always. “Hey.” Marie gave him a cold welcome.
“Hi.” He stepped inside and immediately moved to my side. Then he flexed his arms dramatically. “Your strong man is here to move your things.”
I grabbed his bicep and squeezed it playfully. It was solid like concrete. I tried to hide the dreamy look on my face. “Get to it. Everything is in my room.”
“Yes, Muffin Girl.” He squeezed my side playfully before he walked down the hallway. I stared at his toned ass in his shorts. It was so nice I wanted to take a bite out of it. I fantasized about seeing his naked body when I felt a hard stare burning into my skin.
Marie was giving me the stink-eye.
“What?” I asked innocently.
“Friends my ass.” She marched down the hallway into her bedroom then slammed the door.
She could be so dramatic.
Hawke walked past me carrying most of my things. I went into my bedroom then retrieved everything else. I didn’t need his help moving. I just needed transportation. My Volkswagen couldn’t fit everything I needed, but the bed of his truck could.
I made it outside then placed everything in the back.
“I’m surprised you could carry that.” He was looking at the box full of pots, pans, and baking containers.
“It’s not that heavy.”
“You’re lying.”
What did it matter? “I can carry my own shit. I don’t need you to help me. All I asked for was your truck.”
He raised his hands in surrender. “Whoa, Muffin. I was just trying to pay you a compliment.”
“You didn’t do it right, Bird Boy.”
Both of his eyebrows raised above his sunglasses. “What did you just call me?”
“Bird Boy.”
He still looked confused.
“Because your name is Hawke.”
He pressed his lips tightly together like he was trying not to laugh. “Good one.” He got into the driver’s seat and started the engine. When I reached the passenger side, the window was rolled down. “Follow me.”
I didn’t like being told what to do. It just rubbed me the wrong way. He didn’t command me to do anything but it still came off as bossy. “Fine.” I started to walk away.
“Muffin.”
I growled then returned to the window. “What?”
“You packed lots of panties, right? Because I want to see them on that beautiful ass of yours.” He had a cocky grin on his face, like he didn’t give a damn if I knew if he was joking or not.
“Go to hell.” I walked back to my car. I barely heard his final words over the sound of his engine.
“If you come with me.”
***
I fit most of my things in his room, and the extra stuff was moved to the hallway closet. His apartment wasn’t tiny, but it wasn’t made for more than two people.
He had leather sofas, a large TV, and a kitchen table. The place was pretty bare, but that’s what I expected from a guy who lived alone. His bedroom was fairly clean. I just hoped he washed the sheets before I came over. Who knows who was in there the night before.
I stirred the pot on the stove when Hawke came into the kitchen. He only had a towel around his waist because he just got out of the shower. He smelled clean and fresh. Water droplets glistened on his chest before they slid down.
I tried not to stare.
“What smells so good?” he asked as he stood beside me.
You. “Uh…masala sauce.” I kept my gaze focused on the pot.
“Hmm…what does it go on?”
“Chicken. It’s in the oven.”
He peeked through the glass and saw the chicken baking. Then he stood upright again. “You want to live here forever?” He said it with absolute seriousness.
I rolled my eyes. “So I can cook for you all the time?”
“Honestly, I didn’t even know the oven worked.”
“What do you eat around here?”
“Protein shakes, cereal, and sandwiches.”
“Sounds healthy.”
He patted his flat stomach. “You tell me.”
I stirred the pot just so I had something to do. Knowing he was shirtless was incredibly distracting. I wanted to stare at him and really appreciate the sight. But I didn’t want to openly gawk at him either. “Get ready and dinner will be done.”
“I am ready.”
“Get rid of the towel.”
“Okay.” He dropped it on the floor.
I flinched when I realized what he just did. “You know what I meant.”
“Actually, I did exactly what you told me to do.” He gave me that arrogant grin that I hated and loved at the same time.
“Pick it up and cover yourself with it. Then go in your room and get dressed. Do exactly as I say.” I refused to look down at his goods even though I really wanted to.
“Come on, take a peek. He’s excited to see you.”
I turned my focus back to the pot so he wouldn’t see my red cheeks. “If I’d known I was going to be sexually assaulted, I would have stayed elsewhere.”
He sighed then picked up the towel. “Alright, Muffin.” He secured it around his waist before he walked down the hallway.
When I knew he was really gone, I released the air from my lungs. It took all my strength not to look, and now I regretted not taking a peek. Maybe I would run into him on accident sometime and get a glimpse then.
Actually, I shouldn’t be thinking about seeing him naked at all.
Hawke came back into the room a moment later. “I’m back—fully clothed.”
“Thank you.”
“Since you’re going to be living here for a while, I feel like I should tell you about Naked Wednesdays.”
I tried not to laugh. “Oh yeah?”
“Yep. All day is naked time.”
I finished preparing dinner and placed it on a platter. “Well, I’ll make sure I work a double on Wednesday.”
He sat down at the kitchen table. “Man, having a girl roommate is so boring.”
I set the table then sat across from him. “What were you expecting? Girls Gone Wild?”
He shrugged. “It wouldn’t have hurt.” He grabbed his fork and took a bite. His expression changed into one of satisfaction. “Damn, this is good, Muffin.”
“Thank you.”
He kept eating. “It’s so tender. Whenever I make stuff, I just burn it.”
“You don’t say.”
He ate everything on his plate then scarfed down the wine like water. “That’s the best dinner I’ve ever had.”
“Your mom didn’t cook for you?”
The mention of his family made him noticeably stiffen. “Not as well as you.” He rose from the table and gathered the plates and immediately began washing them in the sink.
“What are you doing?”
“The dishes. What does it look like I’m doing?”
I’d never seen a guy voluntarily help around the house. Yaya had to threaten to spank Axel to get him to do anything. “At least your mom taught you to clean up after yourself.”
He stacked everything in the dishwasher then turned it on. “Thank you for dinner.”
“You’re welcome.” He joked around sometimes, but underneath that persona, he was very sweet.
“When are you going to do my laundry?” The smile in his eyes told me he was kidding.
“I’d throw your clothes out the window before I would resort to that.”
“I g
uess I’ll hide my clothes then…”
I left the table and joined him in the kitchen. “So…do you need to work?” He usually went to the coffee shop and worked on his stuff there but he was home today.
“I’ll do it later.”
“You don’t have to baby me. I understand you have things to do.”
“Baby you?” He released a faint chuckle. “You aren’t the kind of girl that needs to be babied.”
I crossed my arms over my chest.
“Want to watch TV? The Yankees are playing.”
I stuck my tongue out at him.
“Hey, they’re a good team.”
“Full of traitors.”
He rolled his eyes. “I’m sick of hearing this…I’m watching it. You can either watch it with me or go bake something.”
“You’d like that, wouldn’t you?”
He shrugged. “It wouldn’t be the worst thing in the world.”
***
After I brushed my teeth, washed my face, and changed into my pajamas, I walked into his bedroom. The bed was made like it was done by a professional, and a clean towel had been placed on the dresser.
“The door locks.” Hawke came up behind me and showed me the door handle. “If that helps you sleep better.”
“Why would that help me sleep better?” It was an odd thing to say.
He held my gaze and his eyes changed noticeably. A million thoughts went through his mind but all I saw was a blur. “Some people are just like that.” He turned away like he didn’t want me to see his face. “Good night.”
“Wait.”
Hawke turned back around. “Yeah?”
“You should get the bed. You’re the one who lives here.”
His eyebrows scrunched up in protest. “No. You’re my guest.”
“I’m not going to put you on the couch for a week. I’m the one crashing here.” That didn’t sound fair to me. “Honestly, I don’t mind.”
“Well, I do.” He challenged me with his look. “Now shut up and go to sleep.”
“Shut up?” I crossed my arms over my chest and gave him a fiery look. “I’m not going to do something just because you tell me to. So, you shut up.”
Instead of being irritated, there was a smile in his eyes. He seemed amused more than anything else. “The only way I’m sleeping in that bed is if you sleep in it with me.”
“Look how that turned out…”
Mischief was written all over his face. “It’s a king so we can both fit easily. I’m not compromising on this. I either take the couch or we both take the bed. The ball is in your court, Muffin.”
